You Are

You used to be a friend,
A person I could talk to;
The one I fell in love with,
Someone that I knew.
Nowadays things are different;
Ever since we've been apart,
The vision's gotten dimmer
And the taste has become tart.

You were the one
To erase all my fears--
What you are
Is the salt in my tears,
The ones I cry
So late at night,
Lying helpless,
Unable to fight
The feeling that
None of this is right.

You are the glimmer
In my eyes,
That hint of sadness
I can't always hide
From the view of others,
Who can't help but wonder
Why I act like my world
Has been torn asunder.

You are the dreams
That I have in my sleep,
Praying the Lord
Your soul to keep,
Hoping that He,
In all His grace,
Will have mercy on me
By keeping you safe;
Thinking never
Of myself,
Exhausting my mind,
Hurting my health.

You are what I wish for
Every day,
Part of my life
In every way--
My imaginary lover,
My imaginary friend;
I can't help but wonder
What we really would've been.

You used to be a friend,
A person I could talk to;
The one I fell in love with,
Even if you never knew.

Author's Notes: This is the first poem in a long time that's been almost completely self-explanatory--it's what he was to me then and what he is to me now, and I don't think there's much else to say. Title (and probably inspiration) from a song by Carolyn Dawn Johnson...that's about it. ^_^;;;;;;; Don't forget to send me your thoughts! ~MJ