for some reason people like to read this; i'm not sure why. anyway, i thought i would update because it's been almost a year. i'm not sure what to say. in october i had a "relapse" but i'm not sure if that really fits. i just slipped back into sadness and i had to stop going to school because i could barely get out of bed. i am better now, i think (or everyone else thinks), and i started at a new school, and yeah. things aren't great and a lot of the times i still feel pretty badly and i have panic attacks a lot, but i am alive.

the previous chapter has a livejournal url. it is now inaccurate. my username is shy_robot as of recently. ok. that's pretty much all i have to say.