Jared's chair flew to the ground as he also jumped up from his chair. Jared's fists are balled and I am about to bail right now in fear of getting in the crossfire. Jared lunges at Christian before he even saw what was coming. Jared is punching him repeatedly and all I and everyone else could do was watch. I really don't think the Teacher wants to get involved, she ran out of the classroom probably to get the principal and some men from the gym department to hold them back....

"Jared No!"


Jared's POV...

My fists are burning in pain as I am hitting Christian in the jaw, but for some reason I don't care. I stop because I hear Lea screaming for me to stop. I get up and kick Christian in the side before I walk away.

"Jared, why did you do that?" Lea whispered partly hissing.

"You wouldn't understand," I said walking away.

I am walking down the halls to the bathroom to get the blood off of my busted knuckles. I knew I was going to get in a shit-load of trouble, but I didn't care, I was tired of Christian and his gay ass. I know the school is going to suspend me and maybe expel me. I'll have to go home, and be away from Lea.


Back to Lea...

Dammit, why do people like Christian survive being born. I slam my locker and I put things away so I can go to my room. I am so glad that that was my last class. I couldn't stand going to another class after being molested by that pervert. I know, I know, doesn't this sound like a little teen movie where the little unpopular girl starts getting noticed by guys, well it isn't, because Christian Rex will have sex with any girl, no matter what status they are. Taken, not taken, popular, not popular; hey its all Greek to him, oh wait no its something else, but I'm sure you could guess what I'm getting at. Jared, I am guessing wouldn't be suspended, because this sort of thing happens all the time, guys fighting over girls, hey it's the natural way of the high school food chain. But then again, Christian's dad is a wealthy investor in the school and so is Jared's so now, this will be a fight between the two rich daddies. This shall be interesting. Whose rich dad will win, hey maybe I could get my dad to help.


"Well Lea I got probation."

"So what are you prohibited from?"

"Basically, I have 2 hour earlier curfew and I can't go see you."


"Well they didn't say that but my dad knows about you so he added that on, by saying I can't go anywhere near the girls building."

"But can I walk there...?"

"Yeah, but I can't be over there to see you its a bit retarded though, because that one time happened in my room."

"When did your roommate come back?"

"Oh, 3 days ago."

"Why so long?"

"Well he got pneumonia, and it was really bad, so he was in the hospital for a week."


"Yeah. Lea you know what...?"


"You're the first girl I have ever said 'I love you' to."

"You've got to be kidding."

"No seriously, most people think guys are afraid of commitment but I think it has to do with maturity and it also depends on the girl."

"Hmm..." I murmured in agreement...

"I just don't know what might happen, you know after high school."

"Well Jared chances are we might not be together, its reality, you may love me but you may not be with me."

"Yes I will."

"Jared some day you're going to regret those words."


"Because we are in high school we couldn't possibly be together and last through college and then marry, no, that's just fairy tale."

"Lea, don't start talking like that."

I soon realized what I had said, I was telling him that we would break up soon and I'm sure that made him uneasy.

"Jared, sorry, but I am just being real...I didn't mean to sound cold about it, okay."

"Okay," Jared said his voice still low.

"Hey you still have a few hours you want me to come over."

"Yeah that'll be nice," Jared said perking up.

"Okay bye I'm leaving now."

"Okay, see you when you get here."


I am now halfway down the campus, they made the boys building so far away on purpose I supposed. Though I still love the walk even though it is a bit freezing because of winter invading on fall. I got a new jacket, because it was getting cold and my thin suede one wasn't cutting it. I breathed in the cold afternoon air; it sent shivers through my body, a bit identical to when Jared held me in his arms after he would walk to my building.

"Hey if it isn't the girl with the great thighs," I heard Christian's voice from behind and I jumped.

"I guess so," I said sarcastically but annoyed at the same time, as I started to walk faster.

Maybe I lost him, I don't hear his idiotic mouth anymore maybe he's gone.

"Eeekk." I squeaked as I felt someone put their arm around my waist a pull me into their very male hips.

"You didn't think you could get away from me that easily." I heard Christian whisper in my ear, feeling his hot breath on my neck.

I was more panicked this time. I didn't know what he was going to do, this is how most rapes happen; believe me we have had our fair share of rapes on this campus. Yes I guess I am bit over paranoid.

"Christian please, let go," I said my voice small and full of fear.

"Naw, I think I'll have a little bit more fun with you, you know most girls would love to be in your position right now, but instead you go for guys with I don't know lets say smaller 'standards' then someone like myself who would keep you dreaming about me in your sleep if you know what I mean."

"Please just let go of me," I said my voice shaky.

Being in Christian's presence didn't use to make me cower but after that sexual harassment thing I couldn't keep my nerves. His damn arms are too strong if I tried to leave he'd probably enjoy holding me tighter to him.

"What did I just say Lea, I'll let go when I'm good and-"

"What the hell do you think you're doing," I heard a comforting male voice.

"Just warming up your girlfriend for you she looked a little cold," Christian said with a smug grin as he let go of me and pushed me away towards Jared.

"Well Christian she has a jacket on and I don't think you could make anyone feel warm, as you say, especially not Lea." Jared said his voice low in almost a growl, and his eyes turning a cold that made me shudder.

"Jared come on let's go," I said grabbing his arm

Jared yanked his arm out of my reach and the force made me fall on my back.

"As I was saying, don't ever touch her or even think about it."

I was hurt the way Jared had responded towards me, my lips trembled from a held back sob as I got up. All I could do was look at him, I felt this horrible feeling within like everything had fallen and broken and would never be fixed, I never knew I was this vulnerable. I started to walk away I didn't want to be around Jared anymore for that day. Before I could get far enough I heard Christian's voice.

"Hey maybe you should concentrate on your girlfriend, and stop trying to pick fights with me, In case you didn't notice you pushed her to get to me."

I didn't care about what they were saying I needed to get away and cry by myself. Why, why do I have to be so hurt by this, maybe it is because he is the only one who ever protected me or even cared; the only one I ever trusted. My fast walking became a run without me consciously knowing it.

"Lea, come back." I heard Jared yelling from behind me but I ran faster, I didn't want to feel him hold me in his arms and tell me how he loves. He had just broken something inside me that I didn't know existed. My airways got tight from the cold air and I slowed down. Jared was catching up, by now I didn't care my heart was pounding, tears stinging my eyes, I hadn't noticed how hard I was sobbing until I stopped running. I stood there catching my breath, shoulders shaking from angry tears.

"Lea...?" Jared's voice was shaky and guilt filled, like an emotional torture cookie.

I didn't answer.

"Lea, please I didn't mean to push you, I was just angry, Lea please talk to me, why are you so hurt."

I stopped crying right then and there I don't know what happened but he had made something inside me snap.

"Obviously, Jared you are totally blind to my emotional problems, you know you're the only person who even cared where the hell I was or what I did and didn't do." I turned slowly to face him.

"I didn't know that...you..."

"That I was crazy, IS that what you were going to say, sure my dad and my mother are rich and I get the best of everything, but everyone seems to think materials a replacement for real love; I guess when you pushed me away I didn't trust you anymore, it seemed like you saw me only as something that was yours and not something to be loved. And that is how I feel when I go home, the only real loving parent I have is my nanny Becky who only stays because I can't let go of her," I shouted at him.

I looked at Jared after I finished speaking and he was in awe, he truly didn't know me very well. I guess he didn't think I had that much of an attachment to him.

"Lea what I was going to say was that I didn't you were so hurt by what I did, I mean any normal-"

"Jared didn't just spend a minute telling you I am not normal, did you just hear what you wanted to hear...?"

"No all I think is your over-reacting, maybe you should go see a therapist because obviously I can't give you the family you need."

I nodded slowly, you know that kind of nod that you do before you say 'Oh I see what's going on here.'

"Jared I don't think we should umm...be together anymore, hey Milo was right I'm not ready a boyfriend." I mumbled so he couldn't hear. "I'm not secure enough yet."


I guess I'm not normal at all, I am just as crazy as anyone in an insane asylum. No, no I'm crazy I have no self-esteem, I am so empty of self- esteem I replace it with blind pride, what the hell happened to me. I opened the door to my room. And for the first time Silvia wasn't there; though I was glad she wasn't I didn't want her to see the tears and the look of craze on my face. I stepped over to the mirror and looked in it, I guess I would never be totally happy. I guess, I won't ever be totally secure, so I will have to live with that for a while...

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Okay this is the end of the first story the second one might not come really fast...but I'll try if anyone actually reads this review me again please I am starting to feel like no one like me.