Realization

When will I be awake from this dream.
That is plaguing me so horriblely at night.
From what I was told, it's not a dream at all.
But the hold of reality that I live in right now.

If this is reality, then why can't I make it go away?
All the envious people glare at me when I walk.
Why can't they just let me live my own world.
Must they treat me like I am second class.

Tossing and turning on my bed wont make it go.
Eventually it would worsen my current situation.
Is it because I have a complete different state of being?
I will never ever discover why this is happening.

Ring goes the alarm clock and I rise from my slumber.
What just occured was cause by my subconscience?
Or a vision to what would come in the coming days
Now my mind realizes it wasn't a dream at all.

As I go on with my life, the thought haunts me
Can't things go back to the way it used to be?
Perhaps not now but maybe later on in life
When everything is way too late in time to occur

Now that I realize my dream is my reality, I cry
Knowing things will never get better but only worse
Not knowing what to do now, I attempt the horrible
Now that it's the end, I know things won't be the same