My eyes a threat,
My face a wall,
My every being screams:
"Just leave me!"
Leave me alone
To shed hot tears, for
No-one must see my weakness!
Nothing's the way it seems to be:
My strength a rusty armour,
The happy smile a broken sword.
But don't mistake my warning for a jest,
There's still one weapon left to use:
My words, so simple yet so strong,
Can cut so deep and
Leave your heart bleeding.
Your kind words make it only worse,
For it's not comfort that I'm seeking.
When I have these feelings
I'm in my private little hell.
The only place where I can be myself.
I won't let you ruin this perfect day.
So if you get hurt it's your own fault
For I gave you fair warning.
If you still don't leave me
I'll make it even worse:
Use my power for my advantage.
For hurting others is such a cruel art
Which over the years I learned to master.
I'll laugh in your face:
I don't want your pity!
I'll make fun of your fears
And reopen your scars.
But the worst thing:
I'll make you fell like myself.
With only hatred and rage inside:
Two fires to burn you, leave nothing behind.
The first that die are emotions.
Solitude is all that I seek,
No-one will block the well-known path.
And if you still want to help me,
I will take you and drag you
Down with me to my favourite place:
A black, cold, empty heart of stone.