WORTHLESS



I'm sorry I have to feel this way,

But deep sown,

You feel it too.

I'm sorry I am so naive.

I let myself be pushed around

And used.

I'm sorry I didn't have more faith

In you,

In me.

I'm sorry that I don't know how

To let things go,

To let things be.

I'm sorry that I let you in

And let you

Lie to me.

I'm sorry I couldn't understand,

Couldn't breathe,

Couldn't see.

I'm sorry that I pushed so hard,

And forced you.

You forced me.

Once again I'm sorry

For not being

Everything you need.

I'm sorry I didn't stop things sooner,

Let you feel what you felt:

The need for this to end.

I'm sorry I couldn't change to suit you.

I'm sorry

I couldn't bend.

But you always told me

To stop telling you

I apologize.

If I did it just for you,

Would you still

Have hollow eyes?

Maybe it's time for

You and I to

Switch places.

Maybe it's time that

I tried

Some of your faces.

The eyes that say, "I love you,

Don't worry,

I care,"

Are the same eyes that say, "Get lost,

I don't need you,

I don't care."

The lips that kiss me softly

And whisper sweetly

In my ear,

Are the same lips that push so roughly,

Tell me ugly,

And force my ears to hear.

Maybe it's time we switched places

And you tell me

Why you're sorry.

Would knowing how I feel

Make you happier,

Or make you worry?

I'm sorry I am so naive.

I let myself be pushed around

And used.

Are you sorry that you make me feel

Worthless

Just like you?