This Prayer

By Tara Nicole Walker

Dedicated to Preston Hunt

8.7.2002

Screw up once

Shame on you

Screw up twice

Shame on me

Any more

And you know it's my fault

And that there's really nothing

Left to see

How is it

That I always seem

To hurt everything

And everyone that I love?

It's like tradition

Or even fate

To take something good

And make it course and rough

I can't win

It seems to be my nature

To lose

And abuse

I don't want to break hearts

Or hurt anyone at all

I want to give up on love

What's the use?

I didn't want to hurt him

But I thought I was doing

Maybe something

Right for once

But then I met him

And things changed

He treats me right and gives me what I need

And when I close my eyes his face my mind haunts

I like him a lot

But yet I do not love

I care for him deeply

I honestly do

Yet I still love him

But right now I must forget

And not compare

And to him stay true

I've messed up yet again

Please turn this to something good

Let something go right

And keep me from hurting them any more

Just listen to this prayer

And let me do something right

Just this one thing

Even if nothing more