Watching

Let me close myself
Into the dark, cold room of my confusion
Let me watch the questions pulsing like light
I want to see the beauty of my humanity

The heart is like a fire untended
The eyes are like these windows
I peer into the night, wondering
Wondering

I'm tender and unaware
I'm soft and scared in waiting
I'm angry in confusion
And I'm loving in nothingness

I say I want it quiet
Then I cry to be heard
I say I want to fly
But then I'm too afraid

But am I the beauty
I am supposed to be?
Am I all that you wished
When you made humanity?
You are watching me
You are watching me

I dance in your presence
So I dance every day
By day I thank you and by night I'm afraid

In morning we are willing to learn
In mourning we are not
By evening we are tired
And we already forgot

Are we the beauty
That we are supposed to be?
Are we all you wished
When you made humanity?
Are you watching us?
Are you watching us?

Do you watch
As I sing to the moonbeams?
Do you watch
The creation of all my dreams?
Do you usher me into sleep
Sinking slowly into the deep

Are you still watching?
Are you still watching?

As the structure begins to form
I begin to understand
That I'm not supposed to understand at all
The light from you is warm
The caress of your hand
I know you're there, if I stand or if I fall

Are you still watching?
I'm still waiting
Are you still watching?
I'm still waiting
Are you still watching?
Are you still…?