My Sweet Comments

By Carter Tachikawa

(Forgive me, I was in a bad mood when I wrote this. I needed to vent my feelings somewhere.)

I take back all my sweet comments
Especially that dreadful "I love you".
I can see that it went through one ear
and came out of the other.

Your eyes, blank as a cleaned chalkboard, look past me
You scream but no one wants to listen
You use me as the wall you can talk to
Wait, you don't talk.
You love to shout and hurt my ears
Hurt them and hurt my soul
You love that, don't you?

For a long time, I believed in you
Promised to never disappoint you
I kept my promise
You were not satisfied
Instead you treat me like a stain on your shirt
No matter how hard you wash me
You can't get rid of me

I have tears in my eyes though I did not cry
Cause someway, somehow
I want to care about you
Every time I try to let you know
You slam the door and I get scared
I slip back into the invisible crack in the floor
I know you won't notice

I still have tears in my eyes
You're horrible...plain horrible...
You make me wish the worst for you
You made me see that icy heart inside your body
You never wanted me
You never will want me

So I take back all my sweet comments
Especially that dreadful "I love you".
I can see that it went through one ear
and came out of the other.

(Sigh. I know I'm not one to write cynical poetry. Some people pissed me off today...not saying who though. I'll make up with them, I know I will. So don't worry, I'm not going to be angry for long^^ And I promise the rest of my fiction and poetry shall be happier.)