Heather Goldbug
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Joined 05-11-00, id: 10068, Profile Updated: 07-26-12
Author has written 159 stories for General, General, Song, Life, Family, Friendship, School, and Love.

In July 2012, I am a significantly less prolific writer than I was in years past. I like to think the quality of my poetry has improved over time, but who am I to judge?

I am now an upper-twenty-something woman who has been married for a little over a year. I have struggled with many things during my life. Probably most notably, at least for the purposes of this site, an eating disorder - for 6 years. However, I have been recovered from that for 6 years (it truly is possible). The eating disorder was called ED-NOS. You can google it if you like.

Over the years I have accumulated a huge mass of poetry. I wrote most of it in my teen years, and I feel those poems are mostly full of angst and the good lines are few and far between - but they are there. I'm still a pretty introspective person, but I don't just write everything that I ever think and call it a poem. I'm also a lot busier, because I have responsibilities. But still, usually when something is bothering me, or I can't stop thinking about it, I feel that old urge and am drawn again to the art of poetry. And, sometimes over several minutes, sometimes over hours, the words eventually find their way out until I am satisfied that I have expressed what needed to be expressed, and I move on until it happens again.

At this time (July 2012) I am uploading several poems that I have written over a few years. That's all you get, because that's pretty much all there is. :D

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Blood and Wine by Eibhinn Eonach reviews
Okay, take this warning seriously. This is really very disturbing, so if you're under the age of like.. 13, or just really immature, don't read it. No one takes PG13 seriously, so it's R, for violence and sexual stuff (nothing descriptive)
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Horror/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 610 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/19/2002
Across the Mirror by Well-Worn-Chaos reviews
just something i wrote. dark, confusing, selfmutalation. the norm.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,817 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 5 - Published: 5/19/2002
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To the Addict, Love, Addiction reviews
It's my poem version interpretation of the dance "Addiction" Performed by Kayle and Kupono on So You Think You Can Dance. That is, it's a poem from the point of view of "the addiction," to the addict.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/26/2012 - Complete
Wife of an Addict reviews
What it feels like to be the wife of an addict.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 112 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/26/2012 - Complete
The Warm and Wet reviews
It's essentially about why I like warm baths. Honestly.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 139 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/26/2012 - Complete
A Night of Love
A highly suggestive poem about relations between husband and wife
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 99 - Published: 7/26/2012 - Complete
Newlywed
Some of my thoughts on being a newlywed written three months into my marriage .
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 247 - Published: 7/26/2012 - Complete
Anorexia Revisited but not by me
Examining a series of events that could happen to an anorexic
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 260 - Published: 7/26/2012 - Complete
The Pianist
On loving a pianist.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/26/2012 - Complete
Snippets reviews
Snippets of poetry not really long enough or complete enough to be called poems
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 3 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 10/17/2005 - Published: 10/5/2005
Amortentia vs Veritaserum reviews
Love and truth do not mix so very well
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 61 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10/14/2005
The Hopeful Hopeless reviews
SERIOUSLY, warning. Graphic and disturbing. Read at your own risk. Seriously.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10/5/2005
This is my Boggart reviews
My greatest fear
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10/5/2005
Incoherence From a Closed Mouth reviews
'Nother ana poem
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/5/2005
Reality Dictionary
Defining and separating the real from the ideal
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 69 - Published: 10/5/2005
a different valentine's poem reviews
basically yes, autobiographical... poem regarding love, hurt...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/5/2005
Breathing and Nothing More
Lack of strength, source of strength
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Published: 10/5/2005
Talking in a Cemetary Without Much Reverence
When people die, it's the people they left behind that hurt the most. (non-autobiographical, though stems from my life)
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 87 - Published: 10/5/2005
Jacqueline's Rose reviews
A love story between two people I made up
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 265 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/5/2005
The Legendary
My poems aren't the same as the famous ones
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 93 - Published: 10/5/2005
John Sweet Series reviews
These are probably my best poems, but you may have to email/IM me for explanations if you don't read John Sweet.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 5 - Words: 309 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 10/4/2005 - Published: 3/30/2004
A Small Love
sometimes i find myself wondering if it will ever completely go away
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 31 - Published: 10/4/2005
blurred edges allow for imagination reviews
probably my first good ana poem.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10/4/2005
The Things We Create
Jessica Farber is an artist. She can paint well, but there is some element of feeling missing in her paintings. This story is of her struggle to remember how to put feeling into her paintings.
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,620 - Published: 5/5/2004
When Elmer's Doesn't Work
Mark wants his parents to divorce. His girlfriend, Ally, and he are having some issues with their relationship. Sometimes big changes don't change as much of our lives as we thought. That comes from the little changes inside us.
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,444 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/5/2004
Reflection reviews
First she sees what she should, then she sees what she shouldn't, then she sees nothing at all.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 26 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/30/2004
Hospital reviews
A very distraught hospital patient
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 78 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3/30/2004
His Name Forgotten reviews
Leah is six. This is the tragedy of her life with an abusive father, who also abuses her mom.
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 3,322 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 5 - Updated: 3/15/2004 - Published: 8/21/2003
Senior Summer reviews
I'm fairly ashamed of htis sing-songy poem, but oh well. It's not even what really happened, but I was just thinking how the summer after your senior year of high school can be pretty sucky...
Poetry: School - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 240 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/13/2003
Trampeled reviews
It's somehting like a rap. It's about my sister, who'd run away many times, breaking my heart over and over. And so this is me wishing she'd just stay away, and not come home...
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/13/2003
My Friends reviews
I know people who have suffered a great deal. This world is cruel... I could name every person that this story briefly describes, but I'm not going to for the sake of their privacy... isn't it sad that these terrible things happen to mere children?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/13/2003
Quiero Vivir reviews
Hablo solo un poquito español! Asistí solo dos semestrés de español. Lo siento... In English... I can't speak Spanish, the grammar here is terrible, But I wrote this about my best friend, to whom I was looking quite forward to meeting in the summer. I
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - Spanish - Chapters: 1 - Words: 56 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9/13/2003
Every Day reviews
Definitely not my best. But not bad, either. Some parts are good. It's just about... I don't know, how we view the world, I guess.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 197 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/8/2003
Color Wheel reviews
A short poem describing the indscribable, painting the tiny differences and yet similarities between two best friends. (Me and mine)
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 39 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 7/6/2003
Missed Goodbye reviews
This is a poem that highlights my adopted sister's life from when I met her when she was a kid... to when I wrote it. It has some interesting phrases that catch the eye and invade the mind.
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 196 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/6/2003
Dulling Memory reviews
It's kind of the opposite of "Metamorphosis" (my poem). I felt like my happy self just... vanished... and where did it go?
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 193 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/6/2003
A Silent Fear reviews
Insecurities about my poems... what if the power of my words starts fading as soon as my fingers pelt the worn keys on my keyboard?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/15/2003
It's Not A Vice reviews
I didn't know whether to go back to something that's a bit addictive or to stay away from it... bet you'll relate...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 128 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/14/2003
It's Only Success on the First Try reviews
This is about how etched "it's only success on the first try" is into my life -- I feel like it's been there forever, and .. this is a WEIRD poem.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 141 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/23/2003
Subtle Death reviews
It's short... I'm still contemplating the exact meaning of this but I know it has somehting to do with being annoyed that people ignore me constantly... when they aren't 1-on-1 with me.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 68 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/13/2003
Beautiful Night reviews
Though it may give you false perceptions of reading a light poem, this is about death. They felt like children to me. And they weren't, really, but I hurt. My baby birds.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/8/2003
Absence of FastForward
Don't you wish you could fast-forward through the painful times?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 60 - Published: 3/5/2003
Stained Hope reviews
A poem loaded with imagery, about daily pressures.... ugh, I can't write poetry summaries. This was created with magnet poetry. VERY short.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 22 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/3/2003
Valentinic Ice reviews
Know what it's like to be single on Valentine's day when all your friends are.. just... not?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 29 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/16/2003
Imagined Abandonment reviews
Nature.... is my best friend.... but did it leave me too?
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 149 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2/16/2003
Fade to Transparent reviews
Just read over something that brought to memory something I thought was lost forever, and I guess I'd have like to keep it that way...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 84 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/27/2003
50,000 Words reviews
A poem to comemmorate my 50,000+ words on FFN, most of which is poetry.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/19/2003
With A Purpose reviews
You can't give up when you have a purpose. Takes place in my dance studio.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/19/2003
A Tribute To Crayons: an insanely long acronym reviews
Thea requested a poem with insane requirements -- it had to rhyme, be about crayons, and say "Thea is the brightest crayon in the box"... I met the challenge!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 276 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 12/20/2002
Picking Up the Broken Pieces reviews
After months of blank nothing, I finally wrote a poem. The tankas and coriander things were for school, they don't count. About the possibility of rekindling an old friendship.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 107 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/18/2002
Three Tankas reviews
1-Thanksgiving. 2-Nature. 3-Humor, writing. That's basically what these three tankas are about. A tanka is a haiku with two extra lines oof seven syllables, so very short. :)
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 70 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/18/2002
Cake Vs Soup reviews
A Short Couplet about blessings and trials, in relation to Coriander -- which I consider to be a spice of many uses. Sweet and lemony at the same time.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 78 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9/13/2002
Coriander Gift reviews
Heroic couplet -- doubt many of you know what that is -- a spice, Heaven, love.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/12/2002
Physical Depletion reviews
I am sick. I am so weak. True story -- well, true poem.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 9/12/2002
Nobody There reviews
Kind of like if you pick up a ringing phone and you get a dialtone. Or you go to use the phone and it's dead. Phone's not in here, but just for additional imagery to those who read summaries :)
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 90 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9/9/2002
Shattered Hope reviews
You start to be convinced that the world is good and there is hope. Then it turns around and breaks you.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 56 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8/19/2002
Chasing the Sunset reviews
I got this idea while on a plane -- what if you flew at the same speed as the sun at it stayed the same time for as long as you did it?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 7/26/2002
Desperate For Escape reviews
I'm hurting us bothl how do I stop myself? I can't! I'm desperate for escape...PG cause I don't think kids would understand or like it or whatever
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 206 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/26/2002
Spoken Without Words reviews
How do you express love with mere words?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 7/26/2002
Ponderings of a Daughter reviews
Wondering what happened between me and my father..
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 183 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/26/2002
Downtrodden Dandelions reviews
Who's to say what's a weed and what's not? Lately I've been so into symbolic poetry -- just cause the title's innocent doesn't make it less meaningful than any other poem, you just have to find it
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 6/1/2002
Gratitude To An Innocent reviews
This poem probably has more applications than what it's actually about... all the same, we live in an unappreciative society and we should be grateful for many things that we take for granted...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5/29/2002
Unjust Punishment reviews
Please, first realize *what* inanimate object this is... then you can decide otherwise. *grin*
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 127 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 5/28/2002
Ashley reviews
Italics work! This is a story about Ashley's camp experience so far. Anorexia, more problems... an expression of feelings common among eating disordered girls is present throughout, so people can relate.
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 2 - Words: 3,740 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 1 - Updated: 5/28/2002 - Published: 4/10/2002
Slow Death reviews
This dramatic poem about anorexia has had some DRASTIC changes made to it! And a chapter added :)
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 8 - Updated: 5/26/2002 - Published: 5/3/2002
Metamorphosis reviews
It's like the change from a caterpillar to a butterfly, or something. I feel as though I've grown wings.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 38 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/25/2002
Little Nibbles reviews
A disease of mind and body takes over my mind. Mostly, I am always all right physically, but anorexia messes with my head... the more complete story of my nearly two-year struggle.
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,656 - Reviews: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/20/2002
This Isn't Me reviews
Who am I? A soul-searching poem, I guess. I am so sad today. This is my third poem [today]. I'm lonely -- I miss someone.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5/19/2002
Silence reviews
It's six lines long, how hard can it be to read?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 33 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5/19/2002
Never reviews
You never forget the things that you try to turn away from.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/19/2002
Wild reviews
I don't know how to summarize this! I guess I just kind of wish I were wild, when I'm so mannerly and polite... mostly, anyway..
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/9/2002
Blind reviews
The whole world is blind... I know only one other person that sees... you may not get it but I don't care. I'm just writing. You're reading.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 162 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5/2/2002
Distracted reviews
"The more engrossed with the pencil I seem,/the less I hear from the physical world/that surrounds me"
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 171 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 4/30/2002
Neglected reviews
This one's about a best friend's "neglect". Explains a term called water-faucet friendship... interested? R/R! (Imma geek)
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 223 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4/30/2002
Emphasized reviews
::announces that she is displeased:: I said UNDERLINE, you stupid FFN! UNDERLINE! Comprende?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 117 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/30/2002
Fat reviews
I can't believe I'm so fat. I can't live knowing it. Why does everyone say I'm skinny? They're all lying.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 157 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 4/19/2002
April Vacation reviews
Too hot for April. What to do, what to do...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4/17/2002
Vulnerable reviews
Finally, something from my own life. I feel so terribly vulnerable!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/14/2002
Abuse reviews
2 chapters, from 2 POVs, on relationship abuse. From the abuser and the abusee. PG for the subject.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 2 - Published: 4/14/2002
Angry reviews
A poem from the life of someone who's anger is out of control
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/10/2002
Pain reviews
The poem is based on the definition of the word...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 166 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/10/2002
Broken Forever reviews
Some relationships can't be rescued.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/10/2002
Everything's Changed reviews
Memories. Looking back at them, things have really changed.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 121 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/8/2002
Misery reviews
I wish someone could teach me how to capture the angst and horror or whatever feelings and put them into a summary without spoiling the poem.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/2/2002
I Hate Myself reviews
I don't like me... in fact I hate me... help?
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 220 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/24/2002
Nature Escape reviews
Sophie Weber is a wonderful nine-year old. Her father is a monster. Please R/R...I need con crit to improve my story writing (I think I'm good at poetry by now :-P) if I ever want to publish. And I do.
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,641 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 3/21/2002
Perfect reviews
About Ashley, a character I'm writing a story about...she's anorexic and yadda. I create characters to make them suffer. I guess it's a way to vent.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3/19/2002
Hot Dog With Mustard reviews
Now that I've got your attention... :-P The poem is REALLY about me/the wind... but doesn't that make for a boring title? It's SO short, so it won't kill you to R/R. At least you can go "You're the title queen" or "You have issues"...right?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/14/2002
Black reviews
Everything I see is black.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 99 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3/10/2002
Secret Scars reviews
I really didn't know what to title it. It's basically... big time angst.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 195 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/9/2002
You Care reviews
About Emily, but if you read it maybe you'll be reminded of *your* best friend, eh?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 206 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/3/2002
Unidentified Flying Feelings reviews
Pardon my joke of a title. It isn't really supposed to be humor.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 138 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/3/2002
Moon, Rain, Wind, Sun reviews
"The moon, so secluded, so far from the Earth/I feel just as distant. I feel just as lonely."
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 195 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/3/2002
Loathing reviews
About my jerk (for lack of a more severe word) of a father. Gosh, he makes me want to swear. But I won't. I never have, and he isn't worth enough to make me mess that up.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 220 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/28/2002
Jealous of Myself reviews
Ever been jealous of yourself? Read this either to find out how it feels, or just for sympathy, or just to read, or for any reason. Common, you can't say this isn't originaly among all these love shmuck poems and a few suicide/cutting/ana (oh yes, I've wr
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 200 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/16/2002
Ana - Danger Line reviews
Anorexia is taking over my lil corner of FFN. Oh boy. What is this, like my 10th poem involving anorexia?
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 111 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 2/11/2002
Ana - Hunger reviews
Poem about the feeling known as "hunger". Knowing all my ana poems, you gotta know what this is about.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/10/2002
Blame It All On Ana reviews
It sounds good. It's about ana messing up my life. Read it, it isn't that long.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1/26/2002
A Prayer I Never Uttered reviews
It's kind of a song, really, but it doesn't have much of a tune, but anyway...uh, it has pretty awesome wording. I like it :) Just check it out, and please review it if you read it...even just "I like it" is better than nothing!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 263 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1/21/2002
Psycho? reviews
About my first counseling appointmet (which was today). Whaddaya think?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 352 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/17/2002
Delusion reviews
"How much pain they have cost us, the evils which have never happened." -- Thomas Jefferson
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 112 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/12/2002
In reviews
We all want to fit in, but is there an in?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1/12/2002
A Christmas Story reviews
A bit like a diary entry. It's about Christmas 2001 for me. It's not that long, so go ahead and r/r.
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,251 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/25/2001
Destruction (I Can't Feel Anything) reviews
I started typing and never stopped till the last bit. I was just typing any word that came to mind. It's pretty good considering that!! Oh, it's good anyway, who am I kidding? :-P
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 135 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/22/2001
Nameless, Faceless People (of my dreams) reviews
It's an interesting thought, and it's just that. A thought. It's me, thinking about something.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/21/2001
Wishlist (for Christmas) reviews
All I want for Christmas...not really the material things that you'd think any teenager would want...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 169 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 12/21/2001
Anorexia: Just a Phase reviews
I think I like this poem. It feels expressive and less story-ish than my other ana poems. As for the rating...no bad words, as usual, but the subject is just not really a G subject...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/8/2001
Anorexia: Plea for Help reviews
Just another one o' them ana poems I write...I think I wrote this yesterday, I don't know...but it was this week!
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 63 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 11/8/2001
Death Season reviews
It's real short and real cute/cool so READ IT!! And review. Thanks. Love ya!!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 35 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9/29/2001
Definition reviews
A poem about poems...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 9/28/2001
Anorexia: It Took a Year reviews
My other two things about anorexia were written last year...more than a year ago, actually. This is the *new* *updated* *improved* (lol) story. Actually it's a poem. Whatever. Just review it and smile...:)
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 189 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 2 - Published: 9/17/2001
A Girl's Guide to Life reviews
I wrote this guide to life for girls as a message on a message board, but I found it too precious to delete, so I saved it and here it is...make use of it! :)
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,051 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 4 - Published: 9/8/2001
Negative View reviews
Uh...just me in a really depressed mood, being very negative, and writing my feelings.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 143 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/26/2001
Insufficient reviews
Feeling like I'm not enough...we've all felt it...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 38 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8/26/2001
Questioning Life reviews
I was so confused. I didn't know what I believed in. I was just questioning everything. I don't know how much sense it will make to you...of COURSE it makes sense to me. Read and tell me how bad or good it is.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 133 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 8/26/2001
Tears of Sympathy reviews
About tears...read it...review it...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 6/18/2001
Teenager reviews
It seems weird to me. I don't know where half of it came from. I guess it's secretly how I feel in that place that even I don't know how to unlock...except by writing poetry.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 323 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/9/2001
Nature reviews
The poem has shape to it, it looks very cool. Worth the read just to see the uniqueness of it. 'Twas hard to make. And don't forget to review.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 56 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 5/29/2001
Shower reviews
Sounds dumb. Probably isn't as dumb as it sounds. Don't know, weird mood. Too many feelings to interpret. Please read. Then please review.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 221 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 5/26/2001
I Prayed For a Friend reviews
A very nice poem about friendship. Specifically about one of mine, but works for many wonderful friends. Might wanna print it out for your best friend :)
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 124 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 5/22/2001
When I... reviews
Another poem about friendship, it goes along with the other poem I wrote yesterday (published today), I Prayed For a Friend
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5/22/2001
Father and Daughter reviews
Okay, like, when did I write this, and why did I not post it until now? Hmm...weird. It's like song-ish. My father doesn't know my birthday. For anyone who wants to know what it's like to have a dad in la-la land, read. Or if you just wanna be nice. Or sy
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 257 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 4/28/2001
Nothing Works Out Perfectly reviews
About me and a guy friend. Please read, you'll see.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4/28/2001
Letting Go - A true story about best friends reviews
This is a songfic, but there's no category for Phantom of the Opera, plus it's a lot of original stuff, and I didnt know where to put it. It's sad, I think. At the end, don't know, I kinda feel that way right now. This is basically 5 1/2 years of thought
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,342 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 4/27/2001
What Is Me? reviews
Trying to define "me".
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 120 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3/25/2001
I Never Knew reviews
I think it should be PG just because of the subject.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1/30/2001
Dramatic Thoughts reviews
I don't know how I wrote this, I just opened an e-mail and started writing, and I kept writing. It sounds like a poem. It looks like a story. Doctor Pants thinks it's good. He also thinks I'm a depressed woman. All right, go ahead and read the story.
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 533 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 1/5/2001
Ashes reviews
It's very interesting. Read it a few times, it will make more sense that way.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 90 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 12/16/2000
Hidden Pains reviews
Most of my friends don't know about these things. I don't bring them up a lot.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 12/14/2000
Break Dancing reviews
I dunno!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 131 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 12/10/2000
It Makes Me Mad reviews
I dunno, it's obvious from the title, I think
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 12/6/2000
I'm Alone reviews
A few thoughts, it was going to be a song, but I changed it to poetry.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 115 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 12/6/2000
I Thought That I Was Special reviews
I wrote this when I was feeling down because of how many people out there can write. Please, please, review if you read anything I write?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 105 - Reviews: 14 - Published: 12/1/2000
I Want To Be reviews
It's really short, but I love it!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 11/6/2000
Happy Child, Free and Wild reviews
I don't know what to say. This obviously is notabout *me* right now. I wrote it at my descision to shaddup and stop blabbing my whole life to everyone. When I decided to stop trusting people. That wasn't lng ago and who knows if I will keep that thinking
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 10/30/2000
Think Before You Speak reviews
Dedicated to a friend, who's going through a lot. If only his friends would think before they spoke.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 10/8/2000
Lullaby reviews
Um...just a lullaby I wrote...
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 63 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9/28/2000
I lack... reviews
Stuff I lack. Stuff I wish I had. I also lack musical talents, but I didn't put that on there.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 85 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 9/28/2000
Heaples of Love reviews
Kind of a prayer...hard to explain, just read, and review please!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 247 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 9/25/2000
Us Mormons reviews
How it is being a Mormon in Massachusetts...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Reviews: 58 - Favs: 7 - Published: 9/4/2000
I ain't gonna smell no more reviews
I know it sucks! It's my first song. Not an original tune but hey...
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 230 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9/2/2000
Ambition reviews
Imagine if I had this much ambition...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 67 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 8/25/2000
Starvation reviews
When I wrote it about 2 hours ago I thought it was too short to post but I think it's good enough to make up for it's length. I had no idea what to call it. Is it drama? I don't know...I don't know anything...by the way, I did eventually eat...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 26 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 8/7/2000
Make Me reviews
Not what you think...asking a friend to make everything better. Dedicated to Carolyn.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 115 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 8/6/2000
Anorexia: My story reviews
Is this PG? I don't know. I don't know how to describe this, except that the title explains it.
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,110 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 8/4/2000
A Fairy, a Unicorn, and a Dragon reviews
Made this while angry...to calm myself down, at the instruction of my friend. Whether it is bad or good, I do not know (you'll have to tell me in your review) but I do know that it worked. I am quite a bit calmer.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 180 - Reviews: 24 - Published: 7/24/2000
King and Star reviews
A limerick first, then a poem...a kind of story poem. The limerick is about a horse named King, the poem is how King meets a mare named Star. I think they suck but some people don't it really depends on the person. Tell me your honest opinion I don't care
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 201 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 7/24/2000
Self-Depreciation reviews
I wrote this while crying, being depressed, and thinking I sucked. Which was 10 minutes ago so I feel very similarly now. My friend Jaclyn thought of the title. PG for...well, it's not very cheery.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 213 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/23/2000
A walk with Medille, part I reviews
Is this a short story? I do not know. Hehehe...I don't think it's a novel though, and I doubt it will be. Um...hope you like it, and, Medille is a deer.
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,089 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 7/22/2000
Lovedust reviews
Um...it's kinda cute, I guess. I made it up at night, sorry! Please review it, please, please...PLEASE! I'm begging you...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 7/18/2000
Changing the World reviews
Life is cruel...people are cruel...go give someone a hug, now!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 187 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 4 - Published: 7/10/2000
Footprints of Life reviews
Move on...leave that footprint to wash away...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 126 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 7/10/2000
Remember Me reviews
Just a bunch of questions...rambling from the mind of...ME! It's about being remembered...duh.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 133 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 7/9/2000
Work reviews
I thought this up at work, and wrote it when I got home. It's not the best, but it's pretty good. Please R/R!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 165 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 7/6/2000
All Alone reviews
Basically how I used to feel, I don't feel this way so much anymore. As you can see probably by reading it, it is about the beginning of the year/end of last year that it takes place. Please R/R, it makes me so happy!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 151 - Reviews: 20 - Published: 7/5/2000
Online Addict reviews
It's all about me. I'm such an addict! Is anyone else this bad? Anyway, I'd love your reviews!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 225 - Reviews: 18 - Published: 7/4/2000
Anorexia reviews
My thoughts about anorexia...starting at about a week ago, and ending a few days ago. Just please read/reveiw!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 239 - Reviews: 38 - Published: 7/4/2000
Beautiful reviews
A web site encouraged me to write a poem about my definition of beaty, so I did, and here it is. Enjoy and please review, reviews make my day!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 51 - Reviews: 17 - Published: 7/1/2000
To my ex best friend reviews
Parts of our (our meaning me and my ex best friend) story, I don't know if it's good or if it even makes sense. It makes sense to me, but then again, it really happened to me...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 207 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 2 - Published: 6/25/2000
A Dying Wish reviews
PG for death...this is depressing. I don't think it's that good but my friends do, please reveiw! I want to know what you think!
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,005 - Reviews: 33 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/21/2000
If I die today reviews
If I die today, this would be my message to the world...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 149 - Reviews: 25 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/24/2000