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Author has written 2 stories for Historical, and Thriller.

Love (n.) - an intense feeling of deep affection.

Devotion (n.) - the act of giving oneself, completely.

Attachment (n.) - a feeling that binds one to a person, thing, cause, ideal.

I am in love with the written world. I am devoted to novels, plays, poetry... everything. I am attached to words.

I am not a "good" author, not by any means, but I pour myself into my work and I simply cannot stop.

Read what you will but do not expect greatness.

Some Personal Information:

Born: November 30, 2001

Favorite song(s) (Rather, the current song(s) I am obsessing over): "Smoke On The Water" by Deep Purple and "La Boheme" by Charles Aznavour

Current Favorite Novel: Ethan Frome by Edith Wharton

Current Favorite Play: The Glass Menagerie by Tennessee Williams

Name: I don't want to give out my name (too personal). You can either think of me as Sydney Carton (although he is far too noble to be compared to me) or simply R.J.N (not my real initials).

Thank you.

I really, really, really need a Beta... I really do. Finding a beta has never been successful so please, anyone will do!

(P.S: Friendship is welcomed and encouraged.)

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His Captor, His Savior by Maddam Redder reviews
[Slash, M/M, Yaoi] Skylar hates his life. He's used, abused, and taken advantage of all the time, but he deals with it the best he can with alcohol and drugs. Now, to make matters worse, he gets kidnapped. But little does his kidnapper know, Skylar's life with this man may be better than it was before… Or is it? Warnings: See Author's Note For Details.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 78 - Words: 589,236 - Reviews: 804 - Favs: 266 - Follows: 314 - Updated: 12/15/2023 - Published: 8/12/2013
A Stagnation of Love (rewrite) by shinigamiinochi reviews
Frey Johnson has been stuck his entire life. With an abusive father, a mother who doesn't even realize he exists, severely bullied at school, and hiding his sexuality, he has given up all hope for a better life. When he falls in love with his bully's boyfriend, he needs to make a choice about his future. Will he continue to let himself be abused, or will he fight back?
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 81 - Words: 2,143,801 - Reviews: 142 - Favs: 43 - Follows: 63 - Updated: 4/23/2021 - Published: 6/8/2014
Good Boy Sammy by Dragons-without-fire reviews
Three years after his disappearance, the now fifteen year old Sam Phillips mysteriously turns up on his parents doorstep. But where has he been all these years? What happened the day he disappeared? Why isn't he talking? Even after he's granted his freedom, why is Sam protecting the one person he shouldn't?
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Drama - Chapters: 34 - Words: 134,852 - Reviews: 118 - Favs: 39 - Follows: 40 - Updated: 3/27/2020 - Published: 11/20/2016
I'm With the Band by ThisIsAwkward reviews
lan is so withdrawn at school he gets mistaken for a new student by a group of guys trying to start a successful band. From there, his life slowly changes and he's forced to come out of the highly protected shell he's made for himself. Rated for content. Slash. Warnings: Sexual and physical abuse.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 30 - Words: 58,407 - Reviews: 170 - Favs: 121 - Follows: 171 - Updated: 4/2/2019 - Published: 5/4/2012
How I Became A Teenage Prostitute by Shady Shinigami reviews
MxM This is the story of how I became a teenage prostitute. It's not a pretty story. It's not a very funny story either. You don't even know if it has a happy ending. Maybe I'm relaying all this to you from a puddle of my own blood. Or maybe I'm sitting in a mansion, sipping whisky by the pool, getting my feet massaged. Maybe I'm somewhere in the middle.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 10 - Words: 27,748 - Reviews: 45 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 35 - Updated: 9/11/2018 - Published: 8/30/2013
Mafia Runner by Beautifully Shattered reviews
COMPLETE: SLASH: Afton is at the point in his life where he faces constant barriers in his path of finding his own identity. Not only does he have to push past his parents' expectations, but he has to deal with the unwavering attention of a Mafia underboss.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 32 - Words: 200,827 - Reviews: 1744 - Favs: 1,564 - Follows: 1,444 - Updated: 7/2/2018 - Published: 6/20/2009 - Complete
Failing at Life by Shady Shinigami reviews
MxM Aiden's poor, gay, and getting bullied. Life couldn't get much worse, especially when his father loses his job. But there is somebody who makes everything seem kind of worth while. Too bad that somebody is a teacher.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 28 - Words: 83,892 - Reviews: 223 - Favs: 67 - Follows: 77 - Updated: 5/13/2018 - Published: 5/23/2013
Think Of The Ducks by StaySassy83 reviews
Owen always depended on his wife to be by his side. When she goes out shopping one night, his life takes a sudden turn he wasn't expecting. Three years later, he still struggles. His sons wear him out, and he struggles to handle everything thrown on his plate. He finally meets someone new, but more obstacles continue to appear and challenges the strength of his family.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 26 - Words: 53,585 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 12/8/2017 - Published: 4/15/2014
June by CourtneyHall reviews
Arthur liked to think that he was dealing with it. He went to school, ate dinner downstairs with his mom and dad, he even smiled sometimes. He liked to think he was fine, and he liked to think that his parents thought the same. (He wasn't, and they didn't.)
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,984 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 3/10/2017 - Complete
Nothingness by Foxglove xxx reviews
Jace has always taken great pleasure in living and feeling, and despite some trouble at school, he's happy. But when his older sister brings her new boyfriend home, everything changes... Warnings: Swearing. Rape. Violence.
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 20 - Words: 109,627 - Reviews: 144 - Favs: 128 - Follows: 110 - Updated: 2/2/2017 - Published: 9/3/2010
Turning Corners by Dragons-without-fire reviews
Meeting up with random men for the night because his abusive stepfather says so for some quick cash has become normal for sixteen year old Seth and nobody seems to notice or care. Nobody except the new, quirky art teacher at school. MxM, non-con, abuse
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 31 - Words: 131,897 - Reviews: 82 - Favs: 55 - Follows: 56 - Updated: 1/10/2017 - Published: 5/1/2016 - Complete
High Conversations on Cosmic Inflation by Happy Hippie reviews
Two years after a leaked sex tape ruins his life, number theory enthusiast and former jazz prodigy Braden is living at home, getting stoned every night to PBS specials, and perceptually hurtling towards death at an increasingly alarming rate, but even the most eccentric introvert is bound to meet his soulmate eventually, even if he doesn't want to admit it. M/M.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 51 - Words: 385,275 - Reviews: 355 - Favs: 139 - Follows: 153 - Updated: 12/4/2016 - Published: 12/18/2014
Breaking The Mirror by AMV reviews
M/M. "Go to hell." "Yes, sir." Jayden has a lot of problems, and his new mysterious, bitter neighbor, Seaton Andrews, isn't helping matters. Completed.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 31 - Words: 95,369 - Reviews: 2139 - Favs: 1,962 - Follows: 1,009 - Updated: 6/10/2016 - Published: 4/20/2007 - Complete
Being Wrong by vitamind3 reviews
When Charlie's taken away from his drug dealing father and sent to live with his grandparents, things aren't suddenly okay. Charlie's broken. He's not sure he ever wasn't broken. Music is the only thing that gives him solace, and his new neighbour Travis happens to be handy with a guitar. [boyxboy, slash, m/m, yaoi]
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 20 - Words: 57,207 - Reviews: 112 - Favs: 83 - Follows: 123 - Updated: 1/23/2016 - Published: 2/7/2014
Unlikely Pair by Dragons-without-fire reviews
In a ploy to save his career, detective Michael Bates tricks a homeless teen into helping him bring down a major drug ring. But when the two begin to learn more about each other, secrets that were buried long ago begin to resurface. WARNING: slash, alcohol abuse, drug abuse, mentions physical and sexual abuse
Fiction: Horror - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 5 - Words: 11,387 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 8 - Updated: 1/12/2016 - Published: 11/14/2015
The Sudden Visibility of Sound by seventhswan reviews
A year after an accident that left him blind, Caid finally has a plan for Getting On With His Life. Unfortunately for him, he didn't leave room for falling in love with his sister's fiancé, who happens to be his new roommate. M/M slash. *Discontinued (but now with epilogue)*
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 12 - Words: 43,205 - Reviews: 433 - Favs: 366 - Follows: 440 - Updated: 3/1/2015 - Published: 3/26/2012
Second Hand by Laurence Spencer reviews
Nico is reclaimed by his biological father, a Russian mob boss. Nico develops a crush on his father's second hand man, Miroslav. Spoken parts in italics are in Russian in the story.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Drama - Chapters: 23 - Words: 48,745 - Reviews: 97 - Favs: 98 - Follows: 98 - Updated: 2/6/2015 - Published: 1/10/2014 - Complete
Training by Maddam Redder reviews
ON HIATUS- [Slash, M/M, Yaoi] Lord Thane's new pleasure slave, Kegan, is everything he wanted and more, but also very disobedient. His new pet might be harder to train than he thought, especially when he begins to have deeper feelings for the boy. But will Kegan return his love? Or always despise the man who ruined his life? Warnings: Non-con, etc. See Author's Note.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 9 - Words: 28,433 - Reviews: 84 - Favs: 88 - Follows: 118 - Updated: 7/3/2014 - Published: 6/20/2013
The Loss of Innocence by Maddam Redder reviews
ON HIATUS- [M/M, Lemon] With a father who hates him and an uncle who loves him too much, Alex is trudging through life the best he can. The world seems to have turned its back on him, until a kind counselor comes to his rescue. But his suffering is far from over as he struggles to overcome the trauma he's endured and learn that he deserves to be truly loved. See Author's Note.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 9 - Words: 32,146 - Reviews: 54 - Favs: 46 - Follows: 72 - Updated: 5/26/2014 - Published: 6/21/2013
The Foster Parents by Maddam Redder reviews
ON HIATUS- A bad run-in with foster care leaves August and June living on the streets. After two years, June gets sick & August has to make the decision to turn back to the system. But are the foster parents they're placed with really as nice as they seem? Or will August wish he had never met them at all? A story of brotherly love and the trials a teen must endure to keep it.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 5 - Words: 16,686 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 25 - Updated: 4/19/2014 - Published: 3/26/2014
Directions by StaySassy83 reviews
Growing up is hard enough without having to deal with the effects of severe abuse. That's what Vinny is trying to do. A story about what happens after the kid is out of the abusive home, and the struggles to gain trust and love again. R&R
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Family - Chapters: 30 - Words: 45,909 - Reviews: 42 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 20 - Updated: 4/6/2014 - Published: 3/2/2013
Unavoidable Boundaries by Kris Quin reviews
Noel's been running all his life. He finds solace from his heinous past in the hesitant hands of Vance Barker, and their developing relationship is anything but conventional. But with all the risk involved, some boundaries just aren't meant to be tested. Teacher/student. Boy on boy.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 18 - Words: 72,394 - Reviews: 89 - Favs: 76 - Follows: 69 - Updated: 2/6/2013 - Published: 4/7/2011 - Complete
Aren't We The Young Ones by Marnie-May reviews
Karl is a young disabled man confined to Mooresville, a residential home for disabled adults. He desperately wants to enjoy his last few years with the love of the right man, but will he find it in time...? Slash
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 33 - Words: 42,511 - Reviews: 57 - Favs: 24 - Follows: 20 - Updated: 7/2/2012 - Published: 3/10/2012
There's Something Going On by Skyelair Kakei reviews
An alcoholic father who abuses him daily, a life at school where fighting is the only way he feels he can get attention, scars all over him, and the boy who sits next to him in History class that gets him through every day. Yaoi, rated M for later scenes.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 22 - Words: 43,919 - Reviews: 32 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 32 - Updated: 6/27/2012 - Published: 4/14/2010
Unrequited by laurenashley02 reviews
I know his wife, his children. I know that he likes apples in his pancakes and peanut butter on his toast. I don't know where he was born or where he grew up. I don't know him. All the same, what I feel for him goes far beyond adolescent admiration.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 16 - Words: 64,918 - Reviews: 138 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 41 - Updated: 5/17/2012 - Published: 2/17/2009
The Mafia King by EyeLuvEminem reviews
Just a one shot about a young mafia boss and his lover after a long day of work. Might continue it as a story if I get enough interest, we'll see. MxM. Please review!
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Crime - Chapters: 4 - Words: 4,959 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 17 - Updated: 3/4/2012 - Published: 11/9/2011
Fragments by Death's Release reviews
When Keisuke was ten years old, his older brother, the only one to ever really care about him, left him in the hands of his abusive parents. Eight years later he's back, and he's brought with him his very attractive, very moody, roommate. Slash, Yaoi, M/M
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 4 - Words: 13,674 - Reviews: 73 - Favs: 82 - Follows: 108 - Updated: 1/14/2012 - Published: 1/11/2011
A Hiding Place by Piper Ross reviews
SLASH. Foster is left practically alone after a horrible accident, with little hope for moving forward. He finds hope, as it turns out, with an unlikely family and an idea that never occurred to him.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 27 - Words: 39,873 - Reviews: 103 - Favs: 140 - Follows: 63 - Updated: 12/6/2011 - Published: 7/30/2011 - Complete
Rebel with a Reason by StaySassy83 reviews
Jared's a rebellious teenager whose father has given up on him a long time ago. After being tossed around from relative to relative, his fathers best friend, who's also Jared's girlfriends father, agrees to take Jared in and try to turn his behavior around
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 73 - Words: 140,726 - Reviews: 189 - Favs: 51 - Follows: 19 - Updated: 8/13/2011 - Published: 6/21/2010 - Complete
Bring On The Rain by StaySassy83 reviews
Greg is 16 and depressed. His family doesn't know about all the things he's been doing to try to get rid of the pain, but what happens when they find out? And what happens when he meets a girl that changes his life? Story better than summary
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 61 - Words: 87,893 - Reviews: 208 - Favs: 94 - Follows: 49 - Updated: 3/1/2011 - Published: 5/5/2010 - Complete
Black Rainbows by 0ri reviews
“So,” his therapist's voice was thick, yet unruly, like a chocolate that had once been smooth and delicious but had now gone stale and tasteless. “How was your day today, Daniel?” /contains slash MxM FxF and other naughty things, beware.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Angst/Humor - Chapters: 24 - Words: 175,123 - Reviews: 120 - Favs: 104 - Follows: 100 - Updated: 1/8/2011 - Published: 6/3/2009
Rapture by The Sham reviews
SLASH/Short story. And still, I will go out and pick up guys, let them use me, make me dirty all over again because the only thing that makes me feel anything even remotely close to real in this world is the guilt. Strong M rating. COMPLETE
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 6 - Words: 16,723 - Reviews: 37 - Favs: 58 - Follows: 22 - Updated: 10/2/2010 - Published: 4/21/2010 - Complete
Prequel To Presscon by Phaze reviews
Alex thinks his life and his summer are ruin when he is shipped off to the family beach house to be hidden away alone, but when Steven and his family rent the house next door, a chance at new beginnings and friendship opens up and the story of Presscon be
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Drama - Chapters: 13 - Words: 76,391 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 7/27/2010 - Published: 6/8/2010 - Complete
Hiding the Enigma by S McCall reviews
Caleb knows that feelings lead to pain; so when Oren decides to break down Caleb's walls they're in for a bigger struggle than even Oren realizes. What is Caleb so afraid of? And can Oren fix it, or will he destroy them both? SLASH m/m
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 10 - Words: 33,646 - Reviews: 39 - Favs: 37 - Follows: 51 - Updated: 12/4/2009 - Published: 10/15/2008
Catalyst by Mark McLaughlin reviews
L.J. McCarthy spends most of his time alone. With his father, it's hard to make friends...until he meets Rick Charles by a chance encounter. Warning: graphic violence, child abuse
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 2 - Words: 30,524 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 4 - Published: 10/10/2008 - Complete
Paint by sakiikumi reviews
A mute 16-year-old painter, after surviving the fire that killed both his parents and his abusive brother, moves to H William boarding school and meets his roomate Robin Maguire. But will the scars that ever leave his body ever heal?
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,721 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 9 - Published: 2/16/2008
Just A Night by Mark McLaughlin reviews
Tony McCarthy has some business to get done for his grandfather and has to be home by ten. He promised his son, after all. Warning: VERY violent
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,121 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/31/2008 - Complete
Five Moderately Easy Steps to Having a Life by write-this-down reviews
[Slash] Liam mostly keeps to himself and spends his time painting, until one day a neighbor shows up with his mail. After that, it's only a matter of time until Liam finally gets the hang of actually having a life. OneShot.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 10,173 - Reviews: 155 - Favs: 653 - Follows: 49 - Published: 2/27/2007 - Complete
Through the Cracks by master-shadowhawk reviews
[shortstory] This was written for a Holocaust themed contest. It's told from the perspective of a German police officer guarding the Ghetto of Warsaw. And he doesn't want to be there. An interesting take of a German suffering perhaps a worst fate.
Fiction: Historical - Rated: T - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,513 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 2 - Published: 2/2/2007 - Complete
Shed Feathers, Sprouted Wings by TRpoison-rose reviews
James, a high school junior, deals with problems in his romantic relationship with an older man, as well as his own disapproving mother.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,189 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 2 - Published: 5/23/2006
Untitled by Antigone1 reviews
The sequal to Airless. Chapter One and Two replaced, chapter three added! I'd call this PG 15.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 9,045 - Reviews: 46 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 19 - Updated: 2/12/2005 - Published: 7/8/2003
L'Oliva Ramo by aniel reviews
I wrote the first couple of arts of this story a couple years ago. It is about a war-weary man who goes home.
Fiction: Historical - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 1,546 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Published: 9/18/2003
Airless by Antigone1 reviews
Mike Cullen is dealing with drugs, brothers, anorexia, custody and abuse, but not his real enemy: himself.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 29 - Words: 83,750 - Reviews: 133 - Favs: 92 - Follows: 19 - Updated: 5/30/2003 - Published: 4/10/2003
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Hello reviews
A short story about a damaged man who damages others.
Fiction: Thriller - Rated: T - English - Suspense/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 687 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 5/9/2018 - Complete
I Want reviews
"A story of bruises, kisses, and promises, where the Devil yearns and an angel submits. A story where blood and tears do not suffice and where hunger never recedes. A story hidden from history, when the creeping hand of the scroll was pushed away and only whispers will recant the tale told from the Whore of the USSR." Rated M for violence, sexual content, and strong language.
Fiction: Historical - Rated: M - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 2 - Words: 1,071 - Reviews: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 3/29/2018