the lily
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Author has written 19 stories for Fantasy, General, Love, General, Life, and Essay.

Perhaps I was born kneeling,
born coughing on the long winter,
born expecting the kiss of mercy,
born with a passion for quickness
and yet, as things progressed,
I learned early about the stockade
or taken out, the fume of the enema.
By two or three I learned not to kneel,
not to expect, to plant my fires underground
where none but the dolls, perfect and awful,
could be whispered to or laid down to die.

Now that I have written many words,
and let out so many loves, for so many,
and been altogether what I always was—
a woman of excess, of zeal and greed,
I find the effort useless.

Do I not look in the mirror,
these days,
and see a drunken rat avert her eyes?
Do I not feel the hunger so acutely
that I would rather die than look
into its face?
I kneel once more,
in case mercy should come
in the nick of time.

-Anne Sexton, Cigarettes and Whiskey and Wild, Wild, Women

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d.o.b./03.11.88
location/Springfield, New Jersey

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-- 09.02.05 -- 11:46 PM -- the end is always inspiring --

I just posted a new poem, eleven weeks. Kind of a spur-of-the-moment thing.

As always, reviews are greatly appreciated.

-- 08.28.05 -- 1:33 AM -- back in the swing of things (i hope) --

Alright, posted another piece, needed to feel. Not based on anyone or anything real, I'm afraid. That always seems to make things a bit more interesting. But that's what the imagination is for.

Also did a bit of polishing up. Trashed some older, naive (a.k.a. absolutely terrible!) pieces, and polished the few older pieces that I liked.

Thank you for your reviews. They're always appreciated!

-- 08.26.05 -- 12:43 AM -- renewal --

Well, it's been a while, hasn't it? Went through a little bit of writer's block. ...okay, a lotta bit. I finally discarded the idea that any bit of writing (even if it wasn't written yet...simply just an idea in my head) that wasn't phenomenal was absolute trash. I think I've finally realized that writing - whether simple or florid - can be excellent nontheless. So from now on...no thinking, just writing.

So I've decided to make my comeback to fictionpress with a slight change of pace.

The piece I postedis something that I've had buried in my hard drive for a while. Someone told me a while ago -- "Write what you know." So I did. It was one huge file that I just kept adding on to. I decided to disect it and extract the few bits of good writing that I could find, and named it diana. Some of you may understand, some of you may not.

I've also posted a short monologe, thinkfeelbreathe, which I was forced to write to submit to my school's literary magazine. Surprisingly, it turned out to be better than I thought.

Hope you enjoy. Feedback is greatly appreciated.

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How To Write A Poem by forsakensmile reviews
Take your heart... And yes, I know there're a thousand other poems with this title.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 57 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/4/2006
Brother Sun, Sister Moon by Werecat99 reviews
A dark tale of war and magic. By hand and blood of Aurion Whitebone, Head of the Necromancers' Guild. Deals with dark themes such as incest and necromancy. COMPLETE
Fiction: Fantasy - Rated: M - English - Horror/Tragedy - Chapters: 79 - Words: 132,330 - Reviews: 763 - Favs: 121 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 2/15/2004 - Published: 4/17/2003
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eleven weeks reviews
"...it's like i'm missing out on something good..."
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 179 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9/2/2005
needed to feel reviews
Unlike my other Diana pieces, this is not based on anything or anyone real. Simply a guilty pleasure...I'm afraid it's a bit cheesy, but extremely satisfying for the typical angsty romantic.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,879 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/27/2005
thinkfeelbreathe reviews
"I'm finally beginning to understand regret." A contemplative monologue. My apologies for the formatting...I couldn't seem to fix it.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Drama/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 786 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/25/2005
diana reviews
Someone once told me to write what I knew. So I did.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Drama/Spiritual - Chapters: 12 - Words: 3,875 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/25/2005
midnight violet reviews
"...guilty fallen pleas made of eyelashes and broken fingernails and sharp crushed red velvet thoughts..."
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 151 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/2/2004
backseat reviews
"...a red balloon/(my childhood on a string)/bursting bright apple blossoms against the sky as i - feeling small on the stairs - let it go..."
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Published: 12/2/2004
restless reviews
"...and the bruised clouds have tumbled across the blackness to smother my hollowed-out eyes in shadow..."
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 425 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/13/2004
j reviews
"...he knows that she loves to toy with him..."
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 531 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/5/2004
blackbird reviews
04.14.03
Fiction: Essay - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,883 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4/5/2004
cliche reviews
"...a ribbon unfurls at the glance of my fingertips..."
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 69 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/27/2004
numb reviews
"...sweaty sweet earthy human life buried in the creases of necks..."
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 68 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/27/2004
murdering seasons reviews
"...he spreads his naked hands against the rain..."
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12/3/2003
solitary unraveling reviews
"...i want to be your scarred addiction..."
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 221 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/25/2003
silence reviews
A reflective monologue.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,327 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9/30/2003
to him once again reviews
"...when i make myself believe that i can feel you gently kiss my eyelashes..."
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 176 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/10/2003
lily reviews
"...she stares and scowls at the lonely, rusty swingset as she dries her hands and mutters something to herself..."
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 294 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9/5/2003
killing autumn reviews
"...the scars of a thousand hopeless dreams dapple her flesh..."
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 161 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/25/2003
untitled reviews
"...you were killing me more than i was..."
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 451 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 6/25/2003
our father, who art in heaven reviews
The result of an Anne Rice obsession.
Fiction: Fantasy - Rated: T - English - Horror/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,211 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8/6/2002