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Joined 01-25-02, id: 160355
Author has written 31 stories for General, Romance, Historical, Life, General, Love, and Friendship.

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Uploaded essay / mood piece Hyacinthus.

Added to existing story Sketchbook Soliloquies with essay Reading my Face01/07/07

Now that it's summer I can actually start writing again.

New short story started titled Personae.

Uploaded two new poems Meniscus and ahhcatharsis. 28/06/07

Warnings. The page you are currently visiting contains liberal and shameless amounts of slash. The author of the following works of fiction has, also, an unhealthy love for atypical love relationships, including, but not limited to: swinging, polyamory, destructive and abusive situations, onesided love and (tw)incest. The author is also unhealthily fond of surrealism, mental disorders, setting fics in random places, confusing her readers, moving characters around from one story to another, writing long and winding fics and experimenting with writing styles.
Upcoming works, i.e. still stewing

Personae
Summary: I've never been somebody who paid much attention to boundaries. Barriers. Rules. You make yourself who you are by thinking it; write your own destiny. Elle doesn't think so. She's too preoccupied with remembering the memories of my dead sister to realize that she's trapping herself with her own masks.

Notes: Suicide, twincest. Set in the US.

Ongoing fics, the statuses of

MUSE
Status: The next chapter is already outlined and half-written, just haven't gotten around to doing it yet. I really want to rewrite the first few chaps, don't know when that's going to happen, though.

Charaters: Asahel, Nadir, Artemis, Adair, Rietje, Vivien, Rain(Sanosuke), Vincent, Zenith, Hamal Dorn.

There's No Modern Romance
Status: Ch3 is almost done. The plot, at best, is extremely sketchy and needs to be worked out. My fault for writing something on a whim...

Notes: SLASH, unrequited love, dysfunctional family lives, coming out of the closet, set in England.

Characters: Dylan Watkins, Mark Snow, Onix, Axel, Nikki&Chelsea.

Fanfiction here.

Plugs. pneumothorax and Saint Anger are wonderful.

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Thoughts Without Words by Saint Anger reviews
[MM SLASH] When Nate, a mischievous, troublesome mental patient, meets Robbie, the introverted new admit, it throws life in the ward entirely off balance. Not that there was much mental balance to begin with. [MM SLASH]
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 17 - Words: 64,199 - Reviews: 596 - Favs: 433 - Follows: 352 - Updated: 10/7/2008 - Published: 1/29/2004
WMSmoker seeks Seclusion by PirateGrrl reviews
Slash Clyde doesn't discriminate; he hates everyone equally.
Fiction: Humor - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 20 - Words: 86,582 - Reviews: 792 - Favs: 1,246 - Follows: 121 - Updated: 1/12/2006 - Published: 3/28/2005 - Complete
polaroid sin and heaven by lackluster reviews
[slashnot graphic, based on angelus.noir's 'picture frame lies] what's heaven for them is a sin for the gossiper.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 196 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/1/2005 - Complete
Summer in a Second by thank you thoughtful reviews
"Tonight wasn’t like the other nights."
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 563 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 3 - Published: 6/24/2005
Ambitons on a Friday by pneumothorax reviews
[SLASH] Ambitions on a goddamn friday were always useless. A thought on the tube on the way home in the middle of the crowded suits will never lead far. Never. m/m [Complete]
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,357 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 6 - Published: 6/11/2005
color spectrum by smile persephone reviews
there should be no shame. [since no one seems to get it, it's about homosexuality]
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 4 - Published: 6/9/2005
Confessions of the Stagehand by youzi reviews
Inspired by my stint as a stage-hand (so called, although I generally did nothing)
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 308 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 3 - Published: 6/8/2005
The Male Woman by youzi reviews
There are times when feminity and masculinity aren't mutually exclusive...and maybe being a bit of both is the ideal
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 198 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 3 - Published: 6/7/2005
lemon by breakdown in the waiting room reviews
oh, so just go on and devastate me.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 132 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 3 - Published: 5/24/2005
Coincidences by tipping ivy reviews
I wasn't gay... until Reid decided I was.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 7 - Words: 33,822 - Reviews: 328 - Favs: 435 - Follows: 69 - Updated: 4/2/2005 - Published: 1/24/2005
Fuck Away the Pain by Sasha L. Miller reviews
[Oneshot] Since Jake, he'd fucked to forget. But Chad was beautiful, Chad was nice, Chad was a spectacular fuck, and he had the feeling that Chad was the type he could fall for in a heartbeat. [Slash, mXm]
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,964 - Reviews: 45 - Favs: 87 - Follows: 10 - Published: 3/14/2005 - Complete
Morning Fix by Theoriginalflame1 reviews
A sixteen your old skater falls in love with a smart, rich, older French man, the flaw in that fairytale? He doesn’t even know the guys name, he just watches him every morning. This is SLASH (I suck at summaries, It's official)
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 8 - Words: 11,812 - Reviews: 146 - Favs: 107 - Follows: 69 - Updated: 8/16/2004 - Published: 10/9/2003
I'm Here by Shades of Twilight reviews
[Slash] Just a story of boy/boy goodness. Oh, and there may be hippies, a psychotic granny, and a gender bending beauty queen. COMPLETE
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 14 - Words: 42,977 - Reviews: 272 - Favs: 173 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 7/13/2004 - Published: 7/1/2003
My Reflection, My Dream by Sabrina Empress of Insanity reviews
Tory isn't pretty or popular, but she can act. And her most challenging role is pretending she isn't in love...expecially not with the girl with the red-blonde curls. (Semi-autobiographical)
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 7 - Words: 21,294 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 5 - Updated: 7/12/2004 - Published: 4/8/2003
Changes Can Be Good by NotEnough reviews
Meet Duncan, along with his 'semi-stalker' that he falls for and the unrealistic story lines...it's all in good fun though. Male/Male.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 8 - Words: 12,309 - Reviews: 68 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 5/30/2004 - Published: 9/3/2003
Hurt by pneumothorax reviews
The two meet by chance when he tries to mug her. He lives on the streets while she lives, abused by step-mother and getting increasingly annoyed of it. The crossing leads to events that are likely to change their lives forever. [Incomplete]
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Tragedy - Chapters: 10 - Words: 17,017 - Reviews: 155 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 5/14/2004 - Published: 1/4/2003
Return to Innocence: Devotion by Ochodre reviews
Sometimes, when we're shattered, it's the ones we least expect who pick up the pieces. (m/m, furry)
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 8,339 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/23/2003
Who Knows? by Indelible Ink reviews
Nic spends time out of his routine life learning new things that he never allowed himself to do...but at what expense? Slash. Complete.
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 4 - Words: 15,924 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 6/12/2003 - Published: 6/3/2003
Life's Just Not Complete Without An Adventure by Akira Ichijouji reviews
Jasper’s an assassin. Aleksy always seems to attract more trouble than he’s worth. When the two meet, it could very well be love at first sight, but will they even survive the consequences of Aleksy’s latest bout of bad luck? YAOI/SLASH.
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 9 - Words: 17,736 - Reviews: 56 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 3/10/2002 - Published: 1/13/2002
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Sketchbook Soliloquy reviews
Seperate little stories or prose pieces that I wrote to express myself. Suicide to love to worthlessness to the psychiatric ward.
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 6 - Words: 3,778 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 1 - Updated: 7/1/2007 - Published: 3/16/2002
Meniscus reviews
I dance am Dancing to swaying splendid time: it Moves me. Coaxes me, coyly. Tenderly, it Extends outwards, from my heart...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 107 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/27/2007 - Complete
ahhcatharsis reviews
I Dress myself up in your Suppositions My eyes say NOTICE ME
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 111 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/27/2007 - Complete
Space Creatures reviews
i understand, that you / come from a place much taller than this
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/23/2006
Oxymoron reviews
Love is an oxymoron; a meeting / Of pale strong feeling
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 76 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/23/2006
Double Negative reviews
Our love’s a whitewash Nothing – / A snapshot oblivion.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Supernatural - Chapters: 1 - Words: 100 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/13/2006
Amphetamine reviews
Your beauty is not physical, / It's the comfort of mere existence
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 130 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/13/2006
Untitled2 reviews
White noise is sensual when silent; unbearable when plagued with dislike
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 67 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/16/2006
Falling up reviews
Fired up senses drawn still to you like compass needle...
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 69 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/16/2006
Muse reviews
YAOI/SLASH - Asahel is an enigma with something to hide. Nadir is the lover he needlessly betrayed. Now that he's being hunted by an underground organization intent on his destruction, who'll save him? Are old bonds too old to rely on? (Hiatus)
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Suspense - Chapters: 13 - Words: 32,592 - Reviews: 41 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 6/11/2006 - Published: 7/19/2003
Poetry in Motion
A circus performer. A fighter plane pilot. When you think about it, our goals are the same. Bringing daredevil beauty to the depraved human race. [oneshot]
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,238 - Published: 6/11/2006
There's no Modern Romance reviews
YAOI/SLASH - I think Fate has a grudge against me. Why else would I have a mom who dates more than I do, a pair of annoying girls to bring up, and a lockermate who is Sex Personified?
Fiction: Romance - Rated: K+ - English - Humor - Chapters: 2 - Words: 5,585 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 3 - Updated: 8/17/2005 - Published: 1/26/2004
Celebrity reviews
We all chase fame, but when we catch it where does that leave us? Up on a shelf for the rest of the world to stare at, adore and criticise. Stuck with something we didn't expect or, really, want.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 104 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 7/4/2005
Against the grain reviews
Think I'm a reject? Truth is, all of you aren't worthy of me. I don't need to be one of the crowd, one of the beautiful people. Never will.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 152 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/4/2005
Back page reviews
I can see the end of 'us' before it's beginning. Before our love's even been assured. We're not meant to be, but, oh, do I want to be...
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 141 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/28/2005
Untitled reviews
I hide my feelings from you (I love you but don't say so). I love you more when you're gone.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 87 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6/28/2005
Pictures reviews
Beauty is fake and hidden in the world's pockets. But you - you catch beauty in your viewfinder and make it real.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 141 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 6/16/2005
Undress reviews
One look can say it all. He's undressing you with his eyes. You want him to.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 104 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 6/8/2005
Suspension reviews
A brick house. A disillusioned son. A bottle of gin. A window ledge...
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 562 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/10/2005
Life tiles reviews
Life is a tile. Humans are beetles walking in circles on it. What becomes of beetles? Squished.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 202 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/10/2005
Stellar reviews
Love is a many pointed, many splendoured thing. It is easily lost, not so easily forgotten.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 123 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/10/2005
Ferns & lichens reviews
About being ungrown, talentless, compared to other people, even though you try hard not to be
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9/22/2004
Not entirely reviews
About fear of approaching your loved one while everyone else around you is getting off.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 93 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/22/2004
Evolution reviews
About a lover fading out of the picture.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 90 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/11/2004
Sin reviews
About falling in love with the wrong person.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Updated: 7/2/2004 - Published: 6/3/2004
Thinking Space reviews
About the pathos of life, and love reduced to sex.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 133 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6/3/2004
Strong Ties reviews
About friendships and people wearing away with time.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 84 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/3/2004
Nightmare reviews
About a schizophrenic wishing the voices would shut up.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst/Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 188 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6/3/2004
Lens reviews
About experiences turning into distant memories.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 64 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/3/2004
Continuation reviews
ONE SHOT - A lone man among thousands of heartless soldiers. A student wishing for death. When it comes right down to it, is all the blood worth it?
Fiction: Historical - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,410 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/26/2004
Calm before the storm reviews
Character sketch - She and the psychopath were constantly in fear of the other's death. But it was this, or go back to their own personal chaos. [for as yet nonexistant AssassinFic 'Doppelganger]
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Suspense/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,283 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/8/2003