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Joined 04-09-02, id: 197216
Author has written 67 stories for General, Life, General, Politics, Fantasy, Young Adult, Nature, Essay, Love, and Friendship.

So, yeah. I'm back. Since summer is here, and all.
But I'm working forty to fifty hours a week.
And facing the realization that I write crappy, angsty, emo poetry. (And that alone makes me ill.)


I haven't updated in quite a while, I know. College sucks like that.
But really, it doesn't suck.
In fact...
I love it hardcore.


The speaker is not always the writer.


Because I am becoming so emo...I've gotten a myspace account:
ugh

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I'll call you freak, you'll call me delusional by Hidingnowkthxbai reviews
He was the guy no one could really label. She was just another prep. And they weren't even obsessed with each other. Yet.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 18 - Words: 78,526 - Reviews: 300 - Favs: 295 - Follows: 186 - Updated: 7/24/2009 - Published: 5/24/2005
He Punks Me Not by Slideshow reviews
I'll chase and stalk him until he is mine. I'm pretty determined. Unfortunately his best friend thinks my existence is pointless and I'm unworthy. And, well, he's pretty damn determined too. / Left up just for comparison with my writing then and now.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 25 - Words: 165,111 - Reviews: 4184 - Favs: 2,454 - Follows: 202 - Updated: 6/1/2006 - Published: 10/9/2003 - Complete
Addicted to You by anonymous reality reviews
Sienna is the new girl. The new girl hopelessly in love with the hottest boy imaginable. The problem: he's a scene kid and he and his friends are only interested in her because she's the starring player in their ultimate getback scheme.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 33 - Words: 132,408 - Reviews: 2682 - Favs: 1,450 - Follows: 161 - Updated: 2/23/2006 - Published: 4/9/2005 - Complete
It's So Erotic When I Can't Feel Anything by Calder reviews
The art of expressing affection
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 143 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/1/2005
eden by and flowers reviews
it has to do with pain. a so called self-expression. trying to be what you thought everyone wanted. and losing your sense of dignity, losing yourself, in the process.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 27 - Words: 2,940 - Reviews: 128 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 6/21/2005 - Published: 1/29/2005
A Beautiful Disgrace by Drusilla Deadly reviews
A prep fresh out of home school who knows nothing of the modern world. A goth looking for fresh meat to rekindle his bad boy reputation. When the two come together, will it end in peace? Or social outcast?COMPLETE
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 14 - Words: 40,006 - Reviews: 219 - Favs: 86 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 3/2/2005 - Published: 12/7/2003
Broken Romantic by whoregasm reviews
this is just the first 9 chapters more to come i promise/ r/r
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 10 - Words: 3,322 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 3 - Updated: 2/20/2005 - Published: 2/2/2005
The Opposite of Denial by solitaire-for-two reviews
For the boy I loved and the girl I wished hadn't had a heart and face so beautiful.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 4 - Published: 8/30/2004
Candy Pink Dreamland by Drusilla Deadly reviews
We all have an escape we've created in our minds. But what happens if you get stuck there?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 287 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/25/2004
ode to the generic abstraction of suffering by as-tantalus reviews
you'll see
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 184 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 7/31/2004
The House Of Tears by brittania reviews
This house of tears has been haunted for years by the unsaid fears that bind...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 111 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/28/2004
Theory by halloran reviews
The sequel to Not Irish, by demand. Care to join Jeff's twin sister Riana in exploring the mind of one delicious, crazed muscian? Yes, folks, this time it's all about Tim.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 9 - Words: 22,716 - Reviews: 82 - Favs: 69 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 7/19/2004 - Published: 6/17/2004 - Complete
To Thee by buryxmexstanding reviews
A prayer of promise to my Lord... prolly my favorite of all my pieces. !Revised: 02-03-05! //Jesus, Saviour, Life to me; I consecrate my all to Thee.//
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/16/2004
Bang by Mnemosyne Nine reviews
"Bang," he said. "You're dead."
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 389 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 7/14/2004
clothesline by ampersand reviews
holding onto things that we can't see.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/8/2004
Bits of Broadway and Chunks of Van Gogh by Devon Jase Colm reviews
Charleigh is Cody's best friend, but she's never been a part of his passion, art. The night he invites her to his studio changes everything. She finds herself wanting to be more than friends. Will she risk loosing him forever or silence her feelings?
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 12 - Words: 9,220 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 7/3/2004 - Published: 6/16/2004
Not Irish by halloran reviews
A punk rock romance for the slightly mature. A tale of a tough girl living on the edge, and of the music and people that live there with her. COMPLETE!
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 12 - Words: 23,958 - Reviews: 107 - Favs: 180 - Follows: 12 - Updated: 6/11/2004 - Published: 6/2/2004 - Complete
unplugged by ampersand reviews
last message received at: 3:17am
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/18/2004
for the girl who bought me a poison apple by ampersand reviews
take every feeling you ever have, put it in a box and bury it.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 162 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 6 - Published: 4/18/2004
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Hope and Why You Shouldn't Have It
just a little whatever.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Published: 9/29/2006
RunIns at the Comic Book Shop
Something I wrote, when I thought of someone.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Published: 7/2/2006
The Peculiarity of Change
The way some things change just doen't seem to make sense of the situation
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Published: 5/20/2006
After it all reviews
The title is just from the ifrst line, because I couldn't think of anything. Short - five lines,
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 21 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9/30/2005
Nightly Regrets
It's only three couplets, so obviously it is short. Just something I thought up. There isn't any bad language. I just rated it K+ because of something that is implied.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 44 - Published: 9/29/2005
The Ideal Instant reviews
Short. Only six lines. Just something that popped into my mind last night.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 37 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9/28/2005
Cold Dark Comfort reviews
short, and not so sweet.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 70 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/13/2005
Dollar Store Doormat
About the speaker and two people. It's the typical angsty love poetry, because when isn't it these days?
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 278 - Published: 9/9/2005
Eat It reviews
looking at a disease from a different perspective.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 116 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/7/2005
This Isn't A Game of Dressup It's Me reviews
This is about constantly being told that who I am isn't really who I am. It's about being called a "wanna-be" even though I don't want to be anything but me. Rated for language.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 125 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/11/2005
Jumbled Hellos that Didn't Inspire You to Remember reviews
This is just a very short little...thing. About that person you remember, who never remembered you.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 40 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/10/2005
Laga reviews
Rated because the language is occasionally a bit strong. It's about a sort of lifestyle that I greatly enjoyed, but didn't get to experience a great deal of.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 210 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/20/2005
Waiting for the 47L reviews
The 47L was the transfer I needed...It was my way home, but it just took its time.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 193 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/22/2005
It's That Life Again reviews
just something I jotted down.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 111 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/8/2004
Such Simple Music Inside My Head reviews
"There's so many voices now calling to me"
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8/12/2004
Such A Disappointing Disappointment reviews
Everything is falling apart...
Poetry: General - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 38 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8/11/2004
Bloodied Rug reviews
Seems like life is death...to me
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 69 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8/11/2004
A Flower Named Ashley Wilted At Seventeen reviews
My freind Ashley's grandpa died, this is for her.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/10/2004
Inecurity Mends reviews
Kind of personifying imsecurity, anger, and depression.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/10/2004
Blood Makes Warm
Sad, depressing, as always. There's some German in here, but I can't guarantee correct grammar...I've only had three years...and I slept through about two and a half.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 121 - Published: 8/9/2004
Inside the Head of the Not Quite sane reviews
Dark...about the way insecurities can control your mind.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/1/2004
Pain is to Release reviews
about cutting. It kinda rhymes
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 45 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/1/2004
Over You
an old poem I used ot have up, but removed. I've decided to repost it.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 36 - Published: 7/31/2004
Life of Lies reviews
Sometimes you don't even realize you're living in a fantasy.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/30/2004
Mutilation reviews
My views on love
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 33 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/30/2004
Not Special reviews
If you've read any of my work, then please read this. I need everyone to understand...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/29/2004
Lament the Loss of Rarity reviews
Everyone in my little town acts the same, but I know them. I know they aren't. So why do they act that way?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 183 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/29/2004
Better Place reviews
Summer nights...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 116 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/29/2004
Confusion reviews
I can't remember the last time I was happy...the last time I was me. What is me?
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 81 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 7/28/2004
Another Day reviews
I love those dreams. I wish they would last forever. I don't ever want to wake up.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 25 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/28/2004
All For Thee reviews
This is about God's way, I believe, of using nature to show us his pain.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 40 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/27/2004
Take Me Away reviews
I posted this long long ago, but removed it, and worked on it. Here's an imporved version. It's about what darkness can do.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 22 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/27/2004
I Never Knew the Meaning of the Word Addiction reviews
This is a poem about the addiction that is cutting
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 56 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 7/27/2004
Obsess This reviews
This is something I wrote for a creative writing class, it's about the need people seem to have with categorizing people
Fiction: Essay - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 572 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/27/2004
Geoff Abandoned Kaethe reviews
He was handed a bad lot in life for years, but now everything seems to be working out...The names Geoff and Kaethe mean peace and pure respectively
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/27/2004
Crippled reviews
I wrote this after my brother found a baby robin in our pool...its wings weren't fully developed yet. It suffered for hours before it died...
Poetry: Nature - Rated: K - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 7/26/2004
Dear Your Name Here reviews
It's a letter I wrote after a confusing night...
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 559 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/26/2004
Dancing in Autumn's Court reviews
Lively and passionate and forever in Autumn's court...
Poetry: Fantasy - Rated: K - English - Fantasy/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 115 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Published: 7/26/2004
Suburban Zombie reviews
R for language. I wrote this poem while I was laying in bed trying to sleep in the middle of the afternoon. It's angsty.
Poetry: General - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 341 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/25/2004
Broken Down Boat reviews
This is about drifting friendships
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/24/2004
Bush Is Bad, mmkay reviews
This is kinda pro-Bush, but please anyone who isn't don't flame me. Everyone is entitled to their opinion, this is just mine. And please keep the reviews down to the basics: how well the poem was written, not what it was about. Thanks!
Poetry: Politics - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 237 - Reviews: 25 - Favs: 4 - Published: 7/21/2004
Lugubrious reviews
Trying to make someone who finds out understand the reasons...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 133 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/19/2004
As the Sky Isn't Blue reviews
Very short. "This is the story of a girl who was alone in life but refused to believe it."
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 357 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/18/2004
It's Midnight, But It's Summer, So Why Am I Cold? reviews
One of my few poems that I am gasp proud of. The entire title wouldn't fit, but it's included at the top of the poem. I wrote it on the trolly ride home one night, about a very inportant friendship I don't have anymore...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 195 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/18/2004
Falling reviews
It's about having no one to be there when you're falling to your lowest point.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 166 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/18/2004
Shaped Like My Dreams reviews
About the dreams one can't help but have, and the dreams that person must create
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 131 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/16/2004
Drown reviews
Sometimes a person becomes so lonely that it invades his or her dreams, but that isn't always a bad thing...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/16/2004
Angry Fate reviews
This is a poem about seeing a person you care about slip away into a life you never wanted for them, and not being able to do anything to stop it or help them
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 118 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/16/2004
Not Quite Betrayal reviews
This is only rated R because of the language. Okay so this is about two people hooking up who I never wanted to see together...
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 126 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/14/2004
I Just Don't reviews
Things are always just too confusing...
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 159 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/12/2004
Promises reviews
I never want him to forget me...he kept me...well, me. He promised he would come back, now all I can do is wait.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 78 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/15/2002
Never Forget reviews
I never want him to forget how much I care. He may not care back, but he knows that I will always do everything I can to help him
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 78 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/15/2002
Losing Track reviews
I'm losing track...of everything
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 110 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/15/2002
Twisting reviews
I always seem to put aside my feelings when it comes to friends' happiness...
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 183 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/3/2002
Questions reviews
for a friend
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 64 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/3/2002
Kill the Pain reviews
how I want someone to see me as the lost person reaching out for help that I am
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 64 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 6/3/2002
Another Dream reviews
about a reoccurring dream I have about a friend I fell for
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/3/2002
Rose reviews
about people I know...they're beautiful, but very cruel
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 29 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/11/2002
Here Goes the Martyr reviews
My father was right in the end.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 44 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/11/2002
Empty reviews
About emptiness in my life.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 99 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/11/2002
Anger reviews
Analogies to anger...that makes it sound even more stupid than it is...oh well.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 26 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/11/2002
Wipe Away Those Feelings reviews
about feeling someone doesnt feel for me
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4/9/2002
Realize reviews
sad, like all I write
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 55 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4/9/2002
Hello Darkness III reviews
the third and last of the Darkness poems
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 58 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/9/2002
Hello Darkness II
here is the second of the three Darkness poems...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Published: 4/9/2002
Hello Darkness I reviews
One of three poems that I wrote to go together...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 62 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/9/2002
Hurt reviews
well, this is about how I feel about someone...I'm not the greatest writer, but my friends said to put some of the stuff up, so...here goes!
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/9/2002