More questioning, self doubt and fear...not changed much, eh?

Quesioning my state of mind.

New love, happy poem. Dedicated to my new love.

A nightmare, constantly haunting...memories, forgotten except in sleep. Horrid and dark, as ever. R&R.

Another grim little bugger from me...as ever...since when do I do change huh?

A short poem...in a new place in my life...

With a new guy, but old habits won't die.

Not nice...but hey

Kinda sensitive subject...a little scary.

Another slightly grim one from a while back...finally updating again after a spell of confusion...

ditto...

another one on my usual theme...

I actually like this poem...

ditto...

again...it's my usual...

Hmmm...sensing a theme...

It's odd..

A little poem about how I try to say no.

Another angsty set of poems...all written in one late night sitting...

Written for someone who is trying to track my every move...I dare you...try me...but it won't help...R&R?

A series of poems written after someone I thought cared screwed me over...

Written outside a lecture theatre...strange poem...

Not much to say bout this one...thank you to Colin who read this and was constructive...Ur a star!

Dizzy poem...? I dunno...decide for yourself!

Scared poem after a horrible experience...

erm...written when I cudn't think straight...

Ley is spelt that way for a reason...and thank you...Ley, Rich, Wyv, Anne...you've done good...

Very strange, sharp poem

Pain...Escape...Creepy...R&R?

A sad poem written on learning some horrible news about a good friends father. Hard times. Matt, I love you hun!

Erm...title says it all really...

Erm...strange poem...R&R?

Another grim poem...R&R?

About going from extremes to try and act normal...R&R?

Something for a great friend...it's sappy, but she means a lot to me

argh...another freaky post writers block mess

ergh...icky poem

erm...thanks to this person...

erm...go figure?

A post writers block splurge! R&R

Sick poem, as per normal!

A random collection of thoughts, a mess, much like now.

This is a really random poem, written the morning after my 18th birthday...I did the usual for a british 18 yr old - went to pub, got sloshed...oops...and feel fine now!

A poem that I wrote in confusion, after seeing a family photo. Painful. R&R?

You know who u r...written about someone who I hope isn't just taking me for another ride.

Sad little poem...again

Sad little questions...

Broekn hearted...R&R?

A friend quoted a Chinese Proverb about chess pieces to me today, and this fell out of my head...R&R?

Strange poem about starting over

The person I am addressing can be taken in many ways - myself, my love, people who have made an impact on me who I wish to keep close to me...it's a strange poem...R&R?

Strange little poem - again...redefinition...solitude...oh..just read it eh? - R&R?

I found this in my box...it's from when I was a lot younger. Seems rather appropriate now. R&R?

For someone who has made an impact on my life...Thank You...R&R?

Strange little poem! I think its ok actually, bit grim...but does that suprise anyone *looks around* no...R&R?

Sad poem, but so much less fearful...R&R?

Not a very happy...a lot of self loathing underlying this one...to the one who this is about, I am so sorry. R&R?

Sad little poem...fearful

I wrote this for anyone who is being bullied or tormented. It's about what is really underneath a bullies skin. How they are nothing more, no, less than any of the rest of us. Stand tall. R&R.

Yes, I was THAT bored in my exam...it's kinda funny..and to anyone who knows room 40...hee hee. and italics didn't work...so in the brackets!

A childhood never lived causes memories unbidden, unwanted...it's time to win back the years and learn to be young. R&R?

Bitter, angry, scared, desperate...R&R? Needing answers.

Sometimes I let myself dream...worrying huh?

A bit grim to be honest. Not sure if this works. Any suggestions welcome. R&R?

Bit strange really, many questions, do you care to answer, doubt it...R&R tho!

Not particularly nice subject matter...it's about...well, you decide...R&R?

Erm..title says it all, short and positive (who is this pod person in my body)...R&R?

Kinda sad poem, not easy to descibe, just go read it yeah? R&R?

A huge sorry to the people, and person, I hurt this week. I am truly very sorry. R&R?

About hospital really.

What can I say, apart from the title says it all. Please review.

I wrote this yesterday on the way home. It's pretty bitter, but there is a nicer one to follow...honest.

Sorry. I am back home now. I did a stupid thing. I only hope that you can forgive me. And know that it was no one's fault but the past. Sometimes, I get tired of running.

Wrote this on a challenge...is kinda sappy, but also very open. R&R?

another sappy song for my one and only...still no music for this either! R&R

Sad poem, about how I have to make a decision, and I need someone to make it with, but can't work out how to let people see the vulnerable side of me. R&R

Woooo - I'm paranoid! Well, explains nicknames...anyhow, summary, written at a hard time, and wondering how to sort things out...

I am strange...I write bizarre poems...this one is about how scared I am to be me.

Woo - I finally liked one of my songs, tho I'm still working on a tune...help? Hope you like it, R&R?...ooo, and its POSITIVE!

Strange little poem about vivid dreams that someones arms are around me tho I know they aren't...and yes the title is Placebo inspired, well, it makes sense...I swear it does...is already one of those days...

Written for someone special, just to say, you're what keeps me going...R&R?

I wrote this in reply to a poem I read today...Just needed to let the author know that I am here no matter what...R&R?

Title says it all...but as you can see I am still here, because summaries do not write theirselves...unfortunately...R&R?

Lots of pain here. Written about my emotions right now, overwhelmed by the loss of a friend..

Suicide theme...but its kinda positive...ish...R&R?

This is pretty sad, about the masks I wear. But has some glimmer of hope. Sometimes one person has the power to switch it off for a while. Please R&R...

For someone I love...simple as that

Weird poem about how when I get scared or nervous or generally over emotional I stutter.

Sad little poem about us leaving...NWSG we will miss you...relates back to 'Goodbye (the eagles have flown' written by me for the class of 2002...we are the class of 2003 and we bid you a fond farewell...or not...R&R?

Erm, self explanitory really...give it a read...R&R?

Strange little poem about yesterday...I passed out in quite a stupid place. R&R?

Very confused at the moment. So happy and yet still so scared. What happens when I write without thinking...this...R&R?

This is actually an attempt at rewriting a poem I wrote, but then accidentally deleted. It's not as good as the original, but it still carried the same message and many of the same lines. R&R?

Ummmm, yeah, a poem written for my girl.

Wooooooooo! I'm dancing like a fruit loop cos I win!!!!!!!!!! Oh yes, thank you, thank you, thank you, N I love you to bits. R&R?

Erm, yeah, this is odd, I'm not sure if I uploaded it under a different title, cos it was off a MSN conversation...erm, yeah, I am strange...R&R?

Sometimes I want to cry,Sometimes I'd love to die,Sometimes you make me smile,...well, thats how it starts...R&R?

Erm..yeah...suicidal craziness here, again...please R&R. The question, its for YOU! You know who you are.

I wrote this on a whim after regressing and reading an old favourite. I'll start slowly, and depending on reviews, will post more...R&R?

One death mention...this is weird and strange and demented...and I can't do summaries, I know...anyhow - R&R?

I can't do summaries...this is a little strange in structure and is kinda odd, but very true. R&R

This is a sad little poem I wrote after I sat and drifted down memory lane...R&R?

Grim as ever...Betrayal is never pretty...R&R?

I'm sitting here not sure what to believe. I'm sure I'm delusional. Or having a nightmare...R&R?

Suicide poem, kinda cheery actually, strange I know. R&R?

Mentions some grim stuff, hence rating. R&R if you feel up to it.

Kinda weird as ever, and very honest, about how its so easy to deny that anything is going wrong. Please R&R.

This is kinda strange, about how I have to pretend I am ok for the sake of others, maybe I've forgotten how to be human, or maybe I'd rather pretend i wasn't...you decide. R&R please.

Kinda dark, but honest, about how someone I know suddenly got very perceptive abot how I feel, and how scary it is when someone tries to see past the walls you have constructed. Please R&R.

This is odd, I know

A promise made by someone I once loved and trusted, acted on, constantly present, and they wonder why I'm scared? R&R.

Talking to self, narrative kicks in later on, its kinda weird, but describes the conversation with myself I've too often had. R&R?

Death, freedom, same difference. R&R?

Only R for bad language at end - I wrote this following completely screwing up my french oral exam about half an hour ago.

Sad, self destructive...R&R?

And failing miserably need I say? R&R?

Dark and dismal, hopeless as ever. It's what's going on in my head right now, and yes, I do know I'm screwed up...please R&R?

This is kinda horrible, but its so true. I'm in a foul mood. What can I say? Sometimes getting let down time and time again had repercussions...R&R?

I suck at reviews. This is basically about someone I care deeply about and how although I feel like they're gone forever, they still keep me hanging on. Dammit. R&R?

May should be called I am not, but hey. This is written about trying to fill my mothers shoes, and trying to be there for my sisters, and never being enough for them.

YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT, I'M SICK OF BEING HURT AND I'M SICK OF ALWAYS FEELING THAT THERE'S NO WAY OUT. Ok, rant over, this is a dark, painful poem and I don't like it cos I used stanzas, but have fun reading it...R&R?

Suicide poem. Imagery relates back to 'Curtain Call'. I feel like this life isn't worth it sometimes. Right now - thats one of those times.

I wrote this in floods of tears about two people I think I've lost forever. Someone who made me so happy and now can't be near me for reasons I understand, and one who is part of me. I'm scared and angry that things have to hurt so much. R&R

This is kinda sad. It describes me perfectly right now.

This is a little violent, but not excessively so - this is for you mate, you think you can break me so easily, I think not. R&R.

I found this in my school bag this morning, screwed up, forgotten. I wrote it not so long ago, but someone proved me that I was wrong, and I could get thru this. Its kinda nasty, but please R&R?

Kinda sad, but also positive. It's a strange poem, but it describes how I feel pretty accurately - its about how even when all seems lost, sometimes one person can make you think that there is still a reason to go on.

This isn't a nice poem, its honest and its strange, but in a way its positive...well, if you squint and turn your head upside down...oh, I'm strange...R&R please.

This is weird, but it basically outlines how a friendship built on nothing can't last, especially when you've hidden who you are for so long. It's kinda sad, but its a final stand for me. R&R?

Completely sappy poem, kinda sad really, but this is new and explains how I don't care if I don't understand cos I'm someone...R&R please.

I wrote this in a post nightmare paranoia. Its pretty self explanitory really. R&R please!

I wrote this a few weeks ago, thinking about an ex who tore me up and about how someone new in my life is here, but I'm still scared. R&R?

Sappy, but sweet I guess. You know who you are...R&R?

This is pretty odd. Its about how you can feel so much for someone and be so damn scared that they won't feel the same, even when they say they do. Its how I feel about living up to someones expectations, and wanting them to want me as much as I want th

Refernce to suicide lifts rating, but this is in truth a happy poem. You know who you are. R&R

Suicide, lost love, self hatred - what more do you expect from me? R&R?

This is for someone special...F-solo...

This is a poem for someone out there who has made me feel...well, words can't describe! I love you babe, more than words can say!

I don't think this is a good poem, but it needs work, so help please? R&R? Its very blunt, and open, I don't know if one could call it graphic, but rating just to be safe...

Again with weirdness and violent undertones, but this is dedicated to someone who made my life hell and now chooses to leave this school at the same time as me - why not earlier - why interfere - I guess I'll never know...R&R?

Ok, obsession and kinda nasty undertones. R&R?

I don't know how I wrote this - I don't really remember writing this - but I did, and now its up. So please R&R.

This is pretty sad - I wrote this last night after everything got so bad I couldn't cope - I wrote this when hysterical, so may not make much sense. R&R?

I don't know bout the rating, but this is dedicated to someone special who knows me damn well now, and who I've grown to care about even though we haven't know each other very long, or met in person. Thank you so much...R&R?

This is for someone I care about...R&R?

Again with the dark and twisted sense of me. This is kinda sad but it descibes emotion and how sometimes things just get too much

This is dedicated to someone, un-namable, but they know who they are, wherever they are, and I will always love them and hate them for everything.

This is a semi-angry poem, that deals with betrayal and hurt. Repetitive aren't I?R&R?

Another delightful poem from me - ok, sarcasm. Its dark and depressing, but also happy in a twisted way...R&R?

This is also pretty strange. It's a poem about how trusting people comes so hard to some people and how its hard to know when its the right time to open up. R&R?

This is a kinda angry poem. It's about how easy it is to hide how you feel, but how it always backfires in the end.

How when you're completely besotted even the most serious and bizarre things can still make you think about someone...R&R?

I don't know about the rating really, its kinda a strange poem, nothing explicit but it explains exactly how I feel about someone. It's like I'm afraid to ask, but afraid that I'll lose out if I don't. Dilema!

Depends how you look at it as to the rating. Another drunken, somewhat depressing love poem.

Again with drunkeness, and my inability to do anything right.

Ag, I wrote this while immensely drunk last nite having fallen for this guy who plays Bass, and anyone who was at the party will know who I'm talking about - so a little help here people! R&R?

Its all very self explanitory once you've read it. R&R, be brutal, it won't be a change from the norm.

Again with the flawed logic, and the twisted sense of me, but it tells a story. R&R

Again with the back stabber, never leaves me alone, now its like everywhere I go she's there, and trying to act like it's all ok, and its not. R&R?

? I don't like doing summaries, because most of my stuff is weird and is all about different perceptions. R&R please?

This isn't as innocent as the title suggests

About how pain lets you know you are real.

This is once again a bit strange, and its just something I wrote a couple of years ago, and found again recently.

A poem about waiting for someone that you know ought to be there, but its a cross between anticipation and fear.

This is another weird poem about the past and how some things will always haunt you, no matter how hard you try to convince yourself that they're not really there.

This is about how far someone can push you - to the point where you've been hurt so bad that you're numb.

This is kinda weird, as ever. I wrote this from the perspective of someone else, after they told me how they percieved me.

This isn't easy to review. Its not easy to explain, but you'll get it, I hope. R&R

This is strange. Sometimes letting people know how you really feel is the worst thing you can do.

I guess this is a poem about someone who I care about, who I don't really understand at the moment, maily because I don't understand how someone who had been thru so much could be so sane. Well, you'll see. R&R?

I wrote this in class today - I had just seen someone that basically stabbed me in the back, and I got mad, and I thought about how I could express it, though she'll never read it, its good to get out how I'm feeling, however bizarre it looks on paper. R

Bit of a dumb title - the whole point is that 'fine' is the automatic answer you give no matter how much things hurt. Damn this life.

This is somethin I wrote today, in a kind of angry and hurt mood. Its not a very helpful title, it just makes sense to me.

Again with the weird, again with the stress, again with the please R&R. This doesn't go in logical progression - then again, when do I ever?

This is again a strange and not up to normal standard poem. I want some suggestions of getting it better - R&R?

This is again something written about emotions that its so easy to feel, but so difficult to get rid of.

This is kinda odd. I'm in a really not good state of mind right now, so I've got a bit darker than normal. It's gonna be a while before I get sane again. R&R and don't think I'm a complete freak!

This is something I wrote a few minutes ago in the aftermath of a fit of anger. Its weird, but anyone who knows me will understand this.

This is not a spelling mistake as most think, its just odd, and makes sense when you understand where I'm heading with this one.

I dunno what to say about this, again written a whil ago, but still brings back memories that make me want to cry.

Er, again with the not uch to say, I wrote this when I was really hurting.

I don't think summaries do anything for my poetry, either you like it or you dson't, kind of depressing, but there is some vague kinda light in there, if you look really hard!

Er, no summary, just a request to R&R some more of my not particularly happy poems.

Another random poem from my 5th collection - hope youl like it

Moments of realization. Please R/R.

A journey lost. Please R/R.

ARGH! R&R

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Any Newsteadian will get the reference. SOB!!!! R&R

Please R&R my randomness

This poem is in English, despite the French title. R&R

R&R, it's random again

Randome title. R&R

Please R&R, just another random thing.

Please R&R it's a little odd, but I like it.

The perils of being a secretive person!

Slightly odd, but its about a funeral, if you didn't guess from the poem.

Slightly bizarre, but very open about how things can affect you.

The past is a source of poetic inspiration.

Self explanitary, slightly bizarre, but me!

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Again, this is a weird but honest poem, please R&R!

R&R!

Stressed when I wrote this, but it's so true! R&R!

This is one of my current favourites, so please R&R, it needs improvement as well though!

Nothing to say expect please R&R

R&R, please!

What can I say, typical teenage image things!

PLease R&R, kinda sappy, and weird

Again, self explanitary, please R&R

The past can be very present sometimes, writing helps

Red is red is red - ok, extra explainantion - this poem was in my school's words and music publication...needless to say, it caused quite a stir, and I am well proud of it!

Slightly bizarre poem, but I don't actually like butterflies

Another random poem from me

A poem about some of the strange ways one tries to feel human

A random poem by me!