I'm considered very mature for my age. When I was young I was surrounded by adults most of the time, I was exposed more often to their world than a child's, I think that's why. But I'm also as stupid as a normal teenager; I'm not an adult. I don't want to be yet. I've had a number of people call me unique. It's just the way I am. I don't try to be "special" or "different." I don't have an idol; you should not craft yourself to anyone's image but your own. I am curious. I am strong. People come to me for help or advice, or just to vent. I'm a good listener. I don't judge. I relate. I feel. I'm a peaceful person most of the time - if you hurt me I'm not. I enjoy life, even though it sucks at times, and there's no getting around that. I love nature. It's calming to me. I'm a lover before a fighter, I'll only defend myself. I try to be a good person as best I can, I try to help people. I can be a bitch. I can be cruel. It's part of human nature; it's emotion. I've been way down and I've been up high. I've experienced many things, good and bad. I've felt more than I think most people have at my age. I love my family. I love my home. My town is boring but it's where I've been all my life; it's all I know. I don't try to be anything. I just go with how I feel. I'm labeled just like anyone else. I hate fast food. I live with my parents. I'm in high school. I enjoy writing--stories and songs. Computers are my love. I'm going to be a writer when I grow up. I've hated the world and I've wanted to die, and I've wanted nothing more than to just sit down for hours with one person who's the whole world to me. I've been to Europe. I've seen part of the world. My parents are immigrants from Italy. I've had people stab me in the back, I've had my heart broken. I've had people who have stood by my side through everything and let me bitch till my throat was raw. I've seen the grass on both sides. I try to give people hope, even though I don't feel it a lot of the time. I want others to be happy, even if I'm not. I feel better if I've helped someone else more than if I've helped myself. I've been writing since I could string words together. I write about feeling, about the world, about people, about life. I use what I've been through to write, and what others have been through; what I have seen, what I have felt. It's all there in my notebooks, and on my computer. And I'm going to give you that perpetuated, age-old saying: I don't care what others think of me. Because I don't. And I'm not going to go prancing through town shouting it from the car window, trying to be an individual and instead just being an idiot. I don't fit any molding, though many try to put me in one. I don't narrow my focus to goth metal, or rap, or rock, or punk, or clothes with chains and bondage, or jerseys and jeans, or drugs. I don't try to make people believe that I am anything in particular, except honest and real. I don't say that I am my own person with spiked, dyed hair and chains, because they all fall into their own group in the end. Yes, I've shopped at Hot Topic. Yes, I have my walls covered with posters of bands. No, I don't wear only "goth" or "punk" clothes. No, I don't listen to only rock. I am one of the most open-minded people you will ever meet. I find beauty in everything; all people, all things, all life. I don't like republicans, racists, bias, criminals, or homophobics. I hate war. If you are honest, real, and try to see the better side of things at least once in a while, I appreciate you. I use my writing to get out my fears, my anger, my sadness. Because everyone has it somewhere inside them. No one is perfect. No one is continually happy without fault. I find it hard to write about things that make me happy, because happiness doesn't have as much passion to it. It's not as complicated. It's not as real. I believe that there is one supreme being, and I refer to him as "God", but I do not believe in the Christian religion. I believe that there is somewhere peaceful we go when we die, where everything is as we always wished it would be when we were alive; our own paradise. I don't think I believe in heaven or hell. I believe in aliens. I believe in ghosts. I believe in the paranormal. I do not believe that there are witches and wizards who will turn me into a toad. I don't believe in Capital Punishment. I have no pets. I'm perfectly happy with sitting at home and writing, or watching a movie. I don't have to be out at the latest club or at some party getting drunk or stoned off my ass, and I don't have to be "cool." I've had people tell me I'm boring because I don't go to parties at midnight on school nights, I don't drink, I don't smoke. Well, too bad. This is me. I'm a kid. Just a kid.
My name is Alex.
I'm fourteen years old.
One story I just have to put in here, it's so great, it is called "Love On the High Seas" and it is by Pirates Sparrow and Turner, on fanfiction.net. It's a beautiful story so far, with many good storylines going on and different pairings of characters, which I love. It's a crossover between PoTC, Charmed, Angel, Xena, XMen, andmany other things I forgot. Normally I don't like crossovers but they have done an excellent job of fitting all the characters into the story perfectly. When you get the chance, please read it and review so that they will keep updating! They also havea sequal and a third story in their series, which are just as good.
In case you would like to know any usless trivia about me:
When life gives you lemons, make lemonade, and throw those lemons back in the face of the person who gave them to you until you get the oranges you originally asked for
Try to make the best out of life. You never know when it could end.