Change me...I'm broken, I'm falling...I want to be better for you.

Finally, the site is letting me upload this! Just noting the many anti-gaming essays out there and needed to express my opinion that no one ever wants to hear anyway. UPDATE: Now in the humor section, because some people don't get it was meant to be funny

If you're going to read any of my pieces, read this one. It's truly one of my best.

There are two songs, two melodies...they've combined and left me in the heardest place I've ever been in my life.

...I don't even know what to feel anymore.

The title explains it all, really...at least I hope so. And yeah, I have returned. I bet you're all thrilled. :P

Just random things that really bug the crap out of me. Will be updated, probably quite regularly, as lots of things annoy me. :P It's in the essay section because...this chapter deals with the essay section!

Just something I wrote a long time ago, and then updated about two years ago, since it was bad. NEED A BOY? NO PROBLEM! Let Namir help you find that perfect man!

Someone screamed inside me last night. I wish I could remember what made her so upset...

A girl is transformed forever, posessed by a darkness she can never escape...except by death. The prologue is posted. I would REALLY love feedback on this!

Just my collection of haikus that are so weird or about topics so ridiculous, they need their own category. To date I have 28 haikus. (1.11.04)

Wow...it has been forever since I have updated these...my nature haikus. To date (1.11.03) there are 20 haikus.

This is based on the original story I am writing...the horror of killing a loved one can sometimes be too much to bear. Much different from my usual style, so I would appreciate critique/comments. Thanks!

If they didn't say what their masters wanted to hear, they could be killed...but imagine how they must have really thought...

These are really terrible...but I felt the need to experiment with something new. My limerick collection! To date (1.7.2004), there are 7 limericks.

Just an experiment I was doing...I wanted to see if I could have the poem be entirely an alliteration...and it actually came out pretty good...kinda. Review if you like! =)

I was tricked into giving up my most precious treasure...one of my only pieces really done completely in metaphor. Review, if you wish...

I feel so lonely sometimes, even though I know you love me.

...my love for him is varied, like the elements themselves...

I am sick and tired of people slamming what I believe. This is my side of the issue. And this is nothing more than a rant, really...so don't go in here expecting an essay. ...because it's not an organized one.

Just my own personal take on slavery...to be so hateful of another race of people because of color...is it because we were afraid?

I'm not sure if it's finished or not, but judging from the comments I have had so far, I guess people like it the way it is, mostly. About birds turning into stone. Not sure why...some sort of metaphorical value to be had here, maybe...yeah...*shrug*

*WARNING* Another essay rant from Namir. The question was "Do artists have a responsiblity to what they are putting out to the public as art" This was my response. A very informal work...it was supposed to be. Review, if you like.

Wow...I'm actually updating...o_O; Anyway, money is quite the influential factor. And yay for my 200th upload! ^^

An essay I wrote about why I believe homosexuals should be allowed to get married. DO NOT FLAME ME FOR MY OPINIONS. If you disagree, feel free to do so in a civil manner.

Ignore the screwed up formatting. An essay I wrote about how much I hate censorship and why it should be eradicated from this green earth. My teacher really liked it, so I thought I would share it with you. ^^

This is a personal essay I wrote last year, but I really like it. It's about my first day of school, and how I view it as some angry God out to get me. :P Yeah, I am weird.

Uh...I wrote this back in 8th grade, so...excuse it's terrible quality. I wrote this as a monolouge for my auditions in the play. A humorous anecdote about the life of Billybob. :P

A sonnet. Written in some form of pentameter (I wouldn't say iambic...::cough:: I hate form.) This is an assignment for English class. I'd love some feedback on it...because it came out kinda nice. About lovers leaving in night time.

It's insanely cliché. And I hate myself for that. But it's how I feel. Love is the magic of the soul.

Wow, I actually updated. I dislike censorship - immensely. It's so hypocritical to me. Review, if you like.

I really can't describe to you how much it hurts to have something like this happen. Please review.

There is nothing like a nice stab in the back to start the new year off right. -_-

It hurts so much when you just want to be with the people you care about, but everyone else has something to say against it.

Angels always are watching over us, be it in a religous way or not.

Wow, it's not angst. Tis an amazing thing. Anyway, I hope the formatting works. And don't you hate it when you want to know what's wrong, but no one will tell you? I do...

Christmas has become very commercialized over time. I use relgious examples to make my point, even though I'm not religious. But there are more important things than presents. Review, if you want.

Nothing gets in, nothing comes out. The walls some people have are so thick around themselves...

Well, this almost happened to me. Not quite, but almost. ...And that's about as good as I can summarize it. Review, if you so please.

...Well, I didn't have any idea. o_O; When someone tells you about a crush they have on you, it's weird. Review if you like.

Have you ever felt that life was a complete waste of time and there was no real substance to anything? I know I have. Review, if you so desire.

I'm not sure what to classify this as...stupid? WHY IS THERE NOT A STUPID GENRE! I wrote in five seconds...I'm so mad at my ex-boyfriend, AGAIN. I hate him, but I don't...which is kinda what this is about.

God, I can't believe I found this. This actually was the first poem I really ever wrote. I wrote it in fourth grade (eight years ago!), but I still think it's pretty good. A lot better than some more of my old school ones...O_o;

Just a collection of romance haikus that I am sure I will be constantly adding to. Right now I have 7 haikus. (updated 10.15.2002)

Of course, what proper Namir thing would be complete without angst? Updates regularly. Right now I have 10 haikus. (Updated 10.15.2002)

As children morph into adults, something is always lost. I guess I wrote this since I will be eighteen in less than a month...

For haikus that I just don't have another spot for. ^^ (Updated 10.8.2002)

The rating is for the repeating of one not so bad word. (The one censored in my title...take a guess.) God, my ex-boyfriend still really irks me with his emotional immaturity.

Love holds the special time in my heart frozen, a soft but sweet memory.

I'm not sure if this qualifies as a poem, but I really don't know what else to call it. I hate not being able to get over someone you really loved. My alternate viewpoints expressed. The rating is for gratutious use of the "f-word". Please review.

I hate being afraid of the dark. It's so...lame. Not to mention a huge inconvienence.

If you're going to love me, you're going to love me right and not treat me like crap.

Dunno what to classify this as...but I really love cats. They're just so cute. And this poem is too, I guess. Well, as cute as a Namir/KG poem can get, I guess. =^.^=

I really couldn't tell you if this is truly angst or not...but it's the closest thing I have. I wish more people vented by writing like I do instead of gettong so mad and being violent...stupid violence...

Well, I don't know what to classify it...but at least it's not angst! ^^; The power of a snake's glance is quite amazing, when one thinks about it. Snakes are not so bad...

I really, really hate relationships. I hate being lead on. I hate being so naive. And worse of all, I hate being used. For you, Roy, my most recent ex-boyfriend.

For the one year anniversary of September 11. I wonder how many other people are doing this. Still, we should remember the people who died, even though it seems now that the media has made them a moot point.

I'm sure we can all relate with the horribly biased and unkind views of ours peers sometimes. I write such happy things...^^;

Wow...I wasn't tired when I wrote this...:P Exhaustion is something I suffer from chronically, though.

Insomnia creates weird things in your mind--the torment of someone who can't sleep is a horrible torment indeed.

Just my take on that little event we all have to go through sometime...life is the ultimate disease...no one can survive it. :P

The rating is not for violence or anything...just because I'm disturbing. Just like all my poetry. An eye-opener for child abuse, I think. Please review.

Hee, what a coincidence...my favorite color is blue, my boyfriend's favorite color is yellow...and when we took the color test on Emode, he was blue and I was yellow! ...I'm a dork. :P

What I feel on the inside is so much different than how I seem on the outside...

I just love my wintergreen mints! :D They're my favorite candy in the entire world!

Yes...I have the weirdest AIM conversation in the entire world...seriously...and this is one of the more SANE ones! :D

I absolutely love this poem. One of my very best. Just how I would love to be loved...

Yes, I am an optimist. And proud to be one...even though I write a lot of angst. ^^;

This isn't about me. This is written from the POV of my friend Squeezystan, for her own relationship. Sure, Squeeze. Leave the sappy stuff for me. :P

I hate being called gullible. This hopefully sheds some light on the issue for anyone who is also labeled so wrongly as I am.

Just what the title says. An absence of physical love.

The past always returns in dreams...

I hate being inbtween a child and an adult. Not one of my better ones, but it gets the point across. o_O

Erm...yeah. I won't say if it's based on anything that happened...cuz that would be weird. But it's just...yeah. Weird.

This is one of my better romance poems...::gags:: God, I am SUCH a sap...:P

This was written a while ago...I think right after my last relationship died...o_O

One day we'll be together...^_^

Yes...it's a poem about pie. I wrote it originally in French, which is why the English translation is all crappy. If you can't read French, read this one.

C'est un poeme avec la tarte que j'adore beaucoup. ^_^

I guess reminescent of Sept. 11 and why I hate this stupid, stupid war we roped ourselves into because of it...

Finally! I have more poetry. This one sucks though...and it supposedly has some hidden meaning crap...I dunno.

One day we'll all be able to not fear anything...I hope...

Meh...about someone who turns away God. I dunno why I write this. I'm not even religious...o_O

Bizarre. I wrote this after reading something by T.S. Eliot...o_O Some of it makes no sense at all. I like it, though.

It's the end of a time that seemed like it would last forever...a love type poem, I guess.

...Just the general angst KG stuff, really. o_O Nothing special. (Can't you tell I can't remeber what it's about? ^^;)

Meh. Really short, but to the point. What I think about war in general.

We all know how it hurts to say those words that end a relationship...o_O

A nice poem! Saints be praised. ^_^ About lovers who find each other in the night.

Hehe...HAHAHAHAHA...Sporks are funny...

Grrr...why can't I ever fit in with people? I feel like Token. (from SP, for those who don't know...)

About the wind, and how it relates to us, yah? That's about all I can say. =)

One of my better recent poems...but still dark. o.O I'll never get off the dark/angst kick...anyway, this is about what I think it would be like to be raped. R/R

Blue is my favorite color...^^

About loosing he most important thing to you as a child. Angsty, but that's nothing unusual. ^^;

Cette poeme n'est pas content. Ermmm...mon francais n'est pas bonne...je ne veux pas penser qu'est ce a dire...reponde, s'il vous plait!

Guilt eats at you, maaan...

Based on a South Park RP. But, since no one would understand that meaning, it goes under original. About a fankid who wishes the person in question would notice her and forget about this new person.

About a girl who gets murdered. That's about it.

Four poems, each about a different fankid. I was bored, yah?

This makes NO sense. I know I've said that before, but I mean it this time. o_O

I'm so sorry, Matty. v_v

Dunno about the genre, so I just said angst. ::shrugs:: I wish people could be in my shoes sometime...

Long distance relationships suck. So does leaving the one you love behind...

I get weird ideas at 1:30 in the morning...and my pants are gone...^^;;

Another peem about the tradegy in America, this time from the POV of someone inside when it happened.

Just my thoughts (since I wrote about everyone else's) about what happened on that day. I can't get it out of my head...those people...v_v

In rememberance of the thousands who were killed in the World Trade Center and Pentagon attacks on September 11, 2001

Well, at least this one isn't dark...out right. ^^; Comparing life to a stage...something that has been done before, yes, but this is my perspective.

FINALLY! A POEM THAT IS NOT DEPRESSING! ::rejoices:: Anyway, this short, sweet, but kinda nice. I like the title. ^_^

O_o Another weird one...this I wrote in History class today. I'm such a happy person...

More happiness. None of these are based on personal experience unless I say so, so so you all don't think I really want to kill myself...

WHY CAN'T I WRITE HAPPY POETRY?! ::ahems:: Anyway, just some more depressing imagery, this time with fire. Fire is cool...

Wrote this for English class, and got my usual A+ poetry grade. O_o That's the only thing I ever get an A in English for...anyway...this is based on the speech by Edwards, a famous Puritan preacher.

Just another happy KG poem...but at least this one rhymes! ^_^;

All my poems are depressing...I should really start being more optimistic...

Love the title, hate the story. If you want to see how far I've come in writing in 3 years (I wrote this when I just turned 14, now I'm almost 17) then please, read and review. Also...this was when I was REALLY into SP. Note all the names of the character

A poem I wrote during the final days before the closing of my favorite message board - Fictional South Park. I really can't explain it...just read and review.

This one is a bit different from my normal style...it seems to jump around a lot. But then, so do dreams. ^_^

It's so hard to tell someone you like them for the first time...

Another poem...kinda dark, like most of my others. Read! Review! Enjoy! ^^

This is a poem I wrote based on some RP with Cartman's Girl (yes, it was a South Park thing, but I am not posting it as an SP poem since no one would understand the meaning SP wise) and it's just about...well...I'm not sure. You have to read it...reviews

Somethings are only seen on the inside...like true beauty...please review!

When a vampire loves you...it's too late for you...

Another sappy love poem. >< If my poems aren't dark and depressing, they are sappy and lovey dovey...gaaaah...ah well though...this one isn't very good IMO...please review!

Another depressing poem...I was thinking of that new BNL song when I wrote this, which is why it's titled after it...and it also fit the poem pretty well, I think. ^_^ Please review!

Just another poem in my usual style. You all should know it by now. ^_^ Please review!

This is some crappy song I wrote around two years ago...it's the first song I have ever written and it even has music (but you can't hear it since I can't upload sounds) and I am wondering if I should try to write more songs...please review!

One of my better poems...I wrote it when I broke up with my ex because he got me royally angry. >_

You know how sometimes you whine about what is and isn't fair? This is like that...I think, I don't realy remember what the poem is about, LOL. :P Please review!

Gaaaaaaaaah, it sucks to like/love someone on the internet...maybe you don't know, but it is hard stuff. This is a poem about that.

Just another one of my stupid imagery poems...it realy doesn't have a point. Please review though!

Well, with a title like that, what do you think this poem is about? :P

Gaaaaah, another sappy love poem...>_<

I love this poem...I think it's my favorite out of al the ones I have written...please review!

This is one of the best things I have written, IMHO...it's a unfinished story about a family that goes through h3ll...and the girl that saves the narrator from certain despair...please review and tell me if I should finish it or not! ^^

This one is pretty good...I just wrote it the other day, so I didn't really have time to think about it much. ^^ Anyway, enjoy!

An angry poem...what else can I say? ^^

Really short, but kind of cute...I thought you might like it ^^

A poem about the hate in the world...god, *this* is an original topic! :P

A poem about my dad...not very nice either...and it's a long story so I am not going to get into it...

A poem about a ladybug! One of my worse ones, I think...

Life doesn't really suck...I was just bored...

Ehhh...we all know how it feels to be misjudged sometimes...

Eehh...something I wrote along with my story Lillian Star...it's pretty cool, methinks

The other one I wrote for my Lillian Star story.

I hate my town...it's so boring...and this is a poem about it...

God! A poem about poems! Isn't that clever? :P

Gee...I wonder...with a title like this, what could it be about? ^^;

This is a pretty good poem....I think. But that's cuz I like space ^^

I love this poem...it kind of is modeled off e. e. cummings style of writing...it's cool ^^

Ehhhh…this poem makes no sense…

Various Couplets

My home state...

...this makes no sense. But since when does anything I write make sense? ;P

This poem is written in memory for the Columbine kids that were killed and for all the others that were touched by his terrible act of human indecency

About the dangers of online dating...::cough:: not like I can even talk...

This is a poem about...A LEAF! DUH!!!!! Hehe. It's actually one of my better ones.

I love this poem, even thought it weas one that was written in reference to my ex...:)

All right, you knew this one was coming. Often times I ask people what I should write poems about, and almost always the answer I get is life. Everyuone has written a &%*@! poem about life, for god's sake! It;s not a very original topic, but it was one th

This is a poem that I wrote to go with my Nsync story "Unchained Melody" it is not completed heir go the reason it is not up here yet. In that stort there are characters named Lily and Stan but Lily has been long dead. This is the poem about her. Enjoy!

Hey, this is another poem that is based on the stuff in the Ganglies story that I mentioned before. It's also one of those 'Ooh, what the heck does she mean by THAT?' poems. In all honesty, I have no idea what I meant. I just wrote it down! :)

I know, this seems like it's ANOTHER poem about life, but it isn't, I swear. It's about a guy who threw his life away, making the title, 'Lost Life' seem appropriate for me. Also, this one one of my better poems, and hey, it RHYMES! :)

Heh, I think this poem is mildly amusing...

In contradiction of the other poem...

This is a pretty good one of mine...I think so at least. It kind of represents how people only like people for who they are on the outside (or, some of them at least). Ehh, I dunno. Read it if you like ^_^

Err...another poem about my ex boyfriend...this must have been from when I was hopelessly in love with him. :)

This has to be one of my favorite poems that I can find that I have written so far. It just seemed so...true right then that it spoke from deep inside of me...(and know you know that I am full of it. I just wrote the silly thing! :P)

This is one of my "bestest" poems I have ever wrote, LoL, and it was one that I wrote for English for God's sake! :)

This is poem that ol' Stany gave me the topic of doing, since she is OBSESSED with music, so this is another poem for her, kind of...I dunno. ;)

This is another poem that I wrote in reference to my Ganglies story. I have about three poems about the story, it is something that has inspired me.

This is one of two poems I have at the moment about how much I hate school. There is nothing (except maybe Kyle) that I hate more then school. Oh well, here it is!

This is a pretty good imagery poem...maybe. It's about a cat, and, as my sister says, it's full of metaphors. =P

I like this poem. Even if it's old as dirt. ^^;

This is a poem that I wrote not to long ago. I was thinking about Romeo and Juliet for some odd reason and it made me come up with this idea for this poem. I dunno, just read it!

Answer the many questions of this poem and you shall win...A HERRING! *dramatic chord* LOL! ^_^

Hey, you all should now what this poem is about. And the thing is is that I wasn't even angry that day...

This is the title poem for my story "Rhyming Love" which is now 56 pages long and should be finished within the next month or so, I hope! Wel anyway, I think it's okay so enjoy it!

This is probably a poem that was written on one of those days when school was NOT on my high priority list, LoL.

Oh boy, this was a poem I wrote BEFORE I was going out with ex, and that was a long time ago! About ten months or soemthing, LoL. I remember clearig writing this poem, remembering how angry I was that the secret that I liked him got out...

I have no idea what possessed me to write this poem. I think it was just pure stupidity along with bordem

This is poem I wrote when I was contemplating the meaing of life...err..LoL, I was thinking about how corrupted our scoiety is.

This is yet another poem that I wrote about my ganglies story from the point of view of a ganglie this time. I dunno, but it's okay.

I have no idea where this poem came from, but here it is. :)

Heh...I thought this poem was cute. I get really sick of school sometimes. :)

I love this poem, even thought it deals about something that is a terrible thing. No one should ever commit suicide and if any of you who read this are thinking about it please...get help.

This is a little poem that kind of really has no point...just about how much better summer is then winter

I have no idea what I was thinking when I wrote this poem. Oh well, that's okay then, I guess. :)

I wrote this poem last night, it seemed like it was worthy enough of slapping on my part of our page

These are some of the things that make me happy...or just sounded cool, I don't remeber which anymore.

Boy, I was feeling mighty angry at this one kid named Kyle when I worte this...oh, how I hate him...

This poem was one inspired by a song that our elite choir (that I am not in, hmph! LoL) is singing called 'April is in my Mistress Face' and it's about a lady who is really sweet on the outside but a major beotch on the inside, like this poem says. I dunn

I know, this poem sounds weird, and it is, but it was one that I wrote yesterday during English class while we were watching a gay movie...

This is a story of mine that I wrote a while ago that I based some of my SP fics from...hence why the main character's names are Lily and Stan...and I'm also very unoriginal with names :P

This is the sequel to the Ganglies story. It was originally going to be a three part series, but I don't really need the third part, so I got rid of it. Anyway, here it is.

This is a poem that my mother asked me to write for her and is now hanging up in her office. She works with people like this, so it seemed appropiate.

All right, everyone, this is a poem I wrote in corrilation with a story that I wrote (that means, the poem is from the story, called Rhyming Love) about a girl named Artemis who completely woos the heart of Andy, the narrator of this poem, to possess him

This poem honestly makes no sense at first. You have to think about it.

This is one of my poems that is much older...err...from the beginning of 1999, I think. You can tell because my writing style is different, and most of these poems are based around myself and my feelings at the time. I know that sounds concieted, but I do

This is a poem that I wrote in French.

This poem was one I wrote during the ten minute journal writes in English class; it doesn't really have any special meaning to me. I reminded me of some kind of poem I read...but...I forget. That must be old age (15) catching up with me. :)

Okay, I like to explain a little bit about each poem that I wrote, and why I wrote it, so here is it. The reason for this poem is simple: my friend Abbey wanted me to write it, so I did. Read on! :)

This is a poem I just wrote yesterday while I was staring at my three cats Digger, Java, and Simon. They are great inspiration for my works.

I know this sounds stupid, but I asked my friend Jake for a topic to write a poem about and he said chairs, so this is what came of it. :)

This poem, I know, seems like is on a stupid topic, and it is. I just happen to think that chickens are a really cool animal, and I love to talk about them. No, I'm not high. :) I hope you enjoy it!

All right, if you want to read a poem of mine that is REALLY old, then this is one for you. This is a poem I wrote in fifth grade because I was...well...bored I guess, and had nothing to do. Even then I still knew how to waste my time. :)

This poem I wrote because I was thinking of my ol' buddy Squeezy there (hey, Squeeze!) and she was playing those Nsync songs and they were driving me nuts! Ahhh! She drove me to writing another poem, for God's sake! LoL. well, here it is!

No, this poem isn't about the little visitor, LoL

This poem was one I was insipred to write by a certain evil kid that I know...who SHALL remain nameless (KYLE, and not the one from South Park!) but he said some pretty mean things about my mother, and that riles me up. So...yeah. I hate him.

Heh, this is my first poem about the madness of death, and it was said to be very superficil, but what do I know, I'm fifteen. :)

This poem I wrote in the shape of what it is talking about: a diamond. I thought it was pretty cool.

I was inspired to write this poem last night by looking over on the ground and seeing my cat Digger laying there like a sack of potatoes. She was lying on her back, almost sleeping, and she looked so cute that I had to write a poem about her.

This is one of my few rhyming poems (I've been writing more rhyming ones lately, I seem to go through spurts of rhyming ingenious, LoL) that I wrote most essentially because I was bored and I didn't feel like doing homework. :)

This poem is one I wrote about...evil. LoL I guess that is what's it about, but I really couldn;t think of a good title for it. Oh well.

All right, all right, I'll admit it, this poem isn't one of my better ones. In fact, I think this might be the worst one I have written. If any of you out there ever become "fans" of my work (and, of course, this is some made up dream of mine, LoL) then y

This was a another one of my older poems, written way back in ol' 1999, the grand old 20th century, the blast from the past, and golden oldie. LoL, I have no idea what I am talking about.

Hmm...I've been pondering my thoughts, and I think this is one of the best poems I have written. It seems to sum up what I think about slave on the ships and about ships themselves, LoL. I like the imagery that I used (and if this is a cheap ego trip then

There was only one reason for me to write this poem, and it was dear best buddy Stanley. I don't know what the heck possessed me to write a poem about THAT (LoL) but I did, and it's about what I think about her and I and our six-almost-seven-year friendsh

This is a poem about a frog...duh! That is really all I have to say about that.

This is a poem that goes with one of the stories that I made up, called Ganglies, which, as you can tell, is also the title of the poem. Ganglies are theses little dragon things that I made up, and maybe someday I could scan in the picture I drew of what