Lily von Rider
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Joined 09-14-02, id: 267179, Profile Updated: 09-18-13
Author has written 43 stories for Life, Friendship, Politics, Religion, School, and Song.

My pain, my pride, these scars are mine
My pain, my pride, these scars are mine
My pain, my pride, these scars are mine
I will tell you a story
That’s never been told
I wll tell you a secret
Five lifetimes old
My life has been a prison
A labyrinth built beneath the mountain of tragedy
I’m a stain on the cloth
I’m just an after-thought
But I
Would die
For this

But through the veins of decay
I’ll remain to betray
To live like Caesar
To die like Jesus
To build my own religion
No gods, no laws
To celebrate pain
Forsaken and ashamed
To watch them all
Crawl beneath us
On this bed of nails and regret
Dying of fevers, betrayal, and sweat
I cry

My organs are rotting
My enemies are plotting
I am made of pages
Paragraphs and inspirations
Paper girl, burn the world
I pass the flame to you
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, fuck her, slay them

My pain, my pride, these scars are mine
My pain, my pride, these scars are mine
My pain
My misery has been formulated into an equation of nein
My sanity wrote a suicide note but
One of us is illiterate
And the other is blind
My first act of treason was picking up a pen
My
First act of love was
Finding myself again
The hardest thing to do
Was standing up to you
Now I’m off my knees
Now you’re begging me please
I’m the wound and the weapon
The fracture and the
Fist

My organs are rotting
My enemies are plotting
I am made of pages
Paragraphs and inspirations
Paper girl, burn the world
I pass the flame to you
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, fuck her, slay them

That stabbing in your heart
That black hole in your soul
Slowly ripping you apart
That’s me
That’s me
So let it be written
So let it be done
The brighter they shine
The darker
We
Become
Vae victus, abomination
Vae victus, abomination
Vae victus, abomination

- "Nein", Otep

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Rock: The Diary by Emylie Giovanna Graivs reviews
CJ is tired of having to deal with her a-hole lead singer in their band. Her and her friends do what they can to get rid of him.
Fiction: Humor - Rated: M - English - Humor/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,790 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/23/2008
I'm Tired Just Because by Kyla D. Sader reviews
Poem I won an award for so it must be at least a little good . It's about telling people to get over stereotypes and to stop judging teenagers just because they ARE teenagers.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 389 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Published: 5/13/2008 - Complete
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Hell's Belows
Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer. Especially if they reside in hell.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Supernatural - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Published: 9/18/2013 - Complete
Sex with the Devil
Grotesques in imagery. A girl is abused by her lover.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Published: 9/18/2013 - Complete
Heaven's Obscenity
Fine be that way, I am not one to detest. My worst side though I do not advise you test. I am not blessed, For it is in black that I dress. "Satan's spawn!" they protest. Is it my fault that I am possessed?
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 370 - Published: 9/19/2011
Lies
I'm not really sure. I wrote this at the beginning of the year. Stored it somewhere out of sight and totally forgot about it. Only found it this week when my friend and I were exchanging poetry. Enjoy?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 159 - Published: 8/28/2011 - Complete
Bittersweet Death
Time for a suicidal rampage... in all honesty I liked my homicidal rampage much more.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 151 - Published: 8/24/2011
Prey reviews
How many words rhymes with prey? I'm mentally distorted and not okay.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/22/2011
Cocaine
Was waiting for a friend at a restaurant. Got bored so wrote something for cocaine apparently .
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Published: 8/21/2011
A Sense of Humanity reviews
What an emo night. I couldn't sleep. So I decided to find as many words as I can that rhyme with insane. Here is what I got.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 217 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/16/2011
I'm Through reviews
I'm so angry. Random doodling turned into this. I was getting ready for bed now I'm all hyped up :/
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 283 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/14/2011 - Complete
Disappear reviews
I have a lot of anger. This is not even half of it. Lingering thoughts. Suicidal tendencies. I have no summary for this one. It's personal. Read it, or don't. I don't care.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 423 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/12/2011
Wasted reviews
A song about loving someone and losing them in death. Make it your own. It's personal.
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 262 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/1/2011
Hello Hello reviews
I dunno. Figure it out. "Save me... hello hello." Best description I can give. Enjoy.
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 194 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/1/2011
Tied Back Roses
Unruly behaviour in a relationship. Make it your own.
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 200 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/1/2011
Anxiety reviews
The name says it all. But if you must know: had an anxiety attack and had to distract myself. This is the product.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/1/2011 - Complete
Nightmare
Had a very bad dream that left me feeling disorientated during the day. This is the product of that feeling. Enjoy.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 207 - Published: 8/1/2011 - Complete
Deceiving Rose
Kind of the same as "Silent Betrayal". It's about betrayal. Friends do not necessarily last forever.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Angst/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 185 - Published: 12/9/2008 - Complete
Silent Betrayal
Back when a best friend kind of stabbed me in the back and twist, twist, TWIST! You get the idea....
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Angst/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 309 - Published: 12/9/2008 - Complete
Oh dear Lord reviews
I wrote this about a week after we found out my dad has cancer. A weak moment, really.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/6/2008
An Alternative Universe reviews
Thin is out, fat is in. What world is this? Somehow the world does not seem so superficial in this reality - or does it?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/4/2008 - Complete
Unreal reviews
A fairly old poem I have stumbled across, and still I have no decent name for it. Well the name says it all "Unreal" feelings basically. R&R
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/2/2008 - Complete
I wish I could
This poem is aimed at the negativity that shines throughout the world and how some people would do anything to escape this "horrible world". Author's Note inside. Please R&R.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 151 - Published: 8/7/2008 - Complete
In My Mirror
This poem is not about physical appearance at all, rather about mental distortion. Describes what is being felt rather than what is being seen. Author's note inside. Please R&R.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 120 - Published: 8/7/2008 - Complete
Insanity reviews
a glimpse into the mind of the insane. Fixed/edited. Whatever. It is complete now.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 87 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/20/2008 - Complete
Dear Diary
Another school assignment based on the book Maru by Bessie Head. This is a diary entry made by Dikiledi fantasizing over her love for Moleka.
Poetry: School - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 558 - Published: 6/17/2008 - Complete
I Am reviews
A school assignment was handed to us. A poem that describes yourself, more details inside. This was my result. I'm not very happy with it, but oh well. Thought I'd post it anyway.
Poetry: School - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 140 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/17/2008 - Complete
Go and find the Light reviews
People tend to be negative and this is just a poem to show that there is more to life than the dark side of it. This was a school assignment. IMPORTANT: READ AUTHOR'S NOTE INSIDE.
Poetry: School - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 201 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 6/10/2008 - Complete
My Math Teacher's Red Wall reviews
As anger and hatred grows inside of someone... this is the result.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 272 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/9/2008 - Complete
Demonic Virgins
Virgins always claim to be so innocent and sweet, can't ever do anything wrong. And so death awaits us, and in our guilt we're unsure of what's on 'the other side' waiting for us. Will our sins be held against us?
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 274 - Published: 6/8/2008 - Complete
Apocalypse reviews
Humans tend to blame God for what's going wrong. But when the apocalypse comes, who is left to blame?
Poetry: Religion - Rated: M - English - Mystery/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 184 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/7/2008 - Complete
Anecdote of my Phantasmagoria
How I wish it was. Time's running out and everyone's only obsessed with themselves. Cutting and chopping everyone and everything in their path, just so they can survive.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Published: 6/5/2008 - Complete
Society reviews
Basically how society forces humanity into labels and how they do not accept anyone who does not conform to their standards.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 176 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/4/2008 - Complete
Messed Up reviews
The government is destroying us and we all can't do a thing about it. End off with a religious part.
Poetry: Politics - Rated: M - English - Angst/Crime - Chapters: 1 - Words: 203 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/28/2006 - Complete
Blood stained four leaf clover reviews
A four leaf clover is considered good luck. But when that four leaf clover is different from all the others, why should it be accepted?
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 293 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 5/11/2006 - Complete
Hello Self reviews
I remember when I was still in the psychiatric ward people loved this poem - especially those with Bipolar disorder. This is a conversation between oneself and the mind. A contrast about you and all your personalities.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 201 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/11/2006 - Complete
Fuck us up reviews
Just a poem I wrote out of boredom and utter despise for the government. And it's really just too pathetic for words.
Poetry: Politics - Rated: T - English - Angst/Crime - Chapters: 1 - Words: 380 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/11/2006 - Complete
Nothingness reviews
Fixed. The title says it all: when nobody is listening, where or what do you turn to?
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 200 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5/11/2006 - Complete
SAD reviews
Edited/fixed. SAD - social anxiety disorder.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 319 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/28/2006 - Complete
Demon From Within reviews
Fixed! This was back when I still experienced bad anxiety attacks. Just a vague image of what it feels like.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3/28/2006 - Complete
Battlefield reviews
Fixed/edited. This can go two ways: a battle on the field between two warriors. Or the battle between you and your mind. You decide.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 116 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/26/2006 - Complete
Hold on reviews
A friend of mine wanted to commit suicide.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 181 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/8/2006 - Complete
Freak by Nature reviews
Regarded as a freak, what else is there to do than lie and pretend just to fit in. But what if you can't fit in where do you turn to?
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 391 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1/5/2006 - Complete
Pain reviews
Edited and fixed. Holding pain inside is not a good thing. Just a poem/song, begging for the pain to go away, but it doesn't want to, so let us discover different motives to make it go away.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 318 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/5/2006 - Complete
Suicidal Thoughts reviews
Edited/fixed. Suicidal thoughts. The name basically says it all. A girl feels she doesn't belong so she's considering suicide, and these are her thoughts.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 348 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1/5/2006 - Complete