Qualin
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Joined 12-03-02, id: 304158
Author has written 22 stories for General, General, Life, Family, Love, Religion, and Sci-Fi.
Recent Note(s): 04 / 25 / 04 Yeah, uh, hi. I just deleted quiet a few poems and stories from this. I didn't like them. Anyways, last day of vacation. It hurts. I don't want the constant boredom to end (pathetically enough). I wrote another story: Ruin. Lately, I've been making several attempts to write futuristic other-worldly stories where the technology is both advanced, yet barbarically simple at the same time. (ie. Hovercraft, yet no guns. They use bows and arrows.) When the main one gets done, I'll put it up. (But it will take a loooonnnnnggggg time.) ~Listening to~ "Big Eyed Fish" by DMB Anyways, go read some of Alethesea's stuff, it's good. No one can write like her. ^^ Loneliness

Anyone ever get this feeling of utter depression when there is nothing left to look forward to in the near-future? And the presence, the feeling above and behind your heart that used to always envelop you when you were sad has abandoned you, and even the voices in your head that some people don't understand, most people actually, are quiet, only peeping up to point out irrelevant and minute things that make you want to go beat your head into a wall?

Do you ever feel like the world isn't meant for you and you not for it? You could take the world on, yes, you could beat the system, sure, but you’re not supposed to. You could do almost anything, but the one thing that you should is what you can't.

Do you ever feel like the warmth that used to make you feel at home is just gone? Like the comfort of something just disappears? Like loosing any happiness that may have kept you going during the harder times?

Do you ever feel like only a rainy day could make you better? Like the rain might wash away everything and leave you cold and shivering until you're numb. And that's what you want. To feel numb. Because when you do feel you become lonely. Because that feeling above and behind your heart is gone. The feeling that you can't describe because you've forgotten how it feels. It was so long ago since you last felt that way. And you can't get it back.

Yeah, welcome to my world . . .

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Hurt by recalcitrant reviews
the hardest poem i wrote because its far more personal (even tho the other ones are too) please r+r it ll mean a lot to me
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 802 - Reviews: 123 - Favs: 15 - Published: 6/27/2003
A Small Apartment by dewinged reviews
There was a boy. And this is his story. And it is mine too. You see. I knew him. Very well.
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 3 - Words: 4,465 - Reviews: 44 - Favs: 52 - Follows: 8 - Updated: 6/2/2003 - Published: 5/14/2003
These Are The Things I Want by sangriastrange reviews
"I want to dance barefoot in the rain in white gauze and not care that the fabric is sheer, and wet, and hangs on my breasts and thighs."
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,168 - Reviews: 34 - Favs: 40 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/10/2003
Silver Tears by Little Miss Shadow reviews
A little poem I wrote for my cousin while thinking back to what I saw her go through... spilling those silver tears...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 260 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/27/2002
Blues by Alethesea reviews
The title is explanatory, and this was a tribute to my best friend, who moved away in first grade. Please, reviews are very important to me!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 106 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/3/2002
Come with Me by Alethesea reviews
I'm in the zone for writing poetry. Please, read and review. it is much appreciated!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/3/2002
Breathing by Corrosive Behavior reviews
About a girl considering suicide. Please r&r thanks.
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 402 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/28/2002
The Sight by Little Miss Shadow reviews
Something about how I am and what I can do. A bit of language but I think it get's the point across.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Supernatural - Chapters: 1 - Words: 152 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 10/26/2002
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Accelerate reviews
Wierd story. One-shot. Just one session of an experiment on a human girl that turned out oddly. Somewhat Sci/Fi
Fiction: Sci-Fi - Rated: T - English - Drama/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,449 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/19/2004
Truth reviews
About hiding your true self. I don't like the subject matter paticularly, but I really enjoy the wording and flow of it.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 143 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/25/2004
Ruin reviews
Sci-Fi/Fantasy/Drama About a girl in a rebel organization who fight the alien government.
Fiction: Sci-Fi - Rated: K+ - English - Sci-Fi/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,236 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/25/2004
Random Words reviews
I wrote this because of how my English teach overanalysises everything. Most symbols aren't intended, but we interpret them somehow.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 132 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/13/2004
Learning How To Fly reviews
It's about learning to fly honestly, just in a figurative manner. The idea was taken from the colored image of "Broken Miho" by Fred Gallagher and Merekat.
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 2 - Words: 1,338 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/5/2004
Tarot Cards On the Alter reviews
This is about how religious freaks oppress those who aren't. I don't appreciate being told that I'm stupid for not believing. And this was just a channel for all the hatred I have for the fanatically religious.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 522 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 11/24/2003
Warmth reviews
It's all symbolism, so don't expect to understand it entirely. It's basically about a girl who looses her parents, and then the bad times that ensue. It was an experiment with symbols.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,986 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10/29/2003
Voices reviews
About insanity, and how it can be good. Most people that are lonely and have these dellusions need the voices. They're happier with them.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 384 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/9/2003
Firefly reviews
A little poem. I'm not the type to write love poetry, but this was an idea I've had for ages that I just had to put into poetry of some sort. It doesn't rhyme.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/9/2003
Alice's Wonderland reviews
Pg-13 for Vulgar language. Whenever my mother acts silly I want to slap her or something, just make her become better. What kind of daughter am I? This is my poem. Indirect, but self-relieving.
Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 372 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/16/2003
Hidden reviews
PG13 for language. *shrugs* I thought the cussing made it seem angrier, though it really is self-hate. Fake scenerio, the guy I have a crush on is not getting married to someone while I sit debating whether I can feel love or not. R/R someone!
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 242 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/2/2003
Broken Mirror reviews
A relatively short story. It's not like anything else I've ever written. It's through the eyes of a psychotic. There are many and I mean many hidden meanings in this. It's like Alice's wonderland. [No pun on my pen name intended] Someone please R/R
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,454 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 2 - Published: 6/26/2003
Time Flies reviews
In response to my best friend's poem "Until We Meet Again" I wrote a response from the alternive person's perspective. *shrug* It was because she was always the person left behind and I was always the person who left others behind. Goodbye can hurt.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 571 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/26/2003
Uncle Matt reviews
My uncle died in New York last night. I'm not going to share the details with complete strangers, but I just felt the need to write this and have it be read by someone. Anyone.
Poetry: Family - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 207 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5/16/2003
Words reviews
About how words can mean everything, yet nothing.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/9/2003
Tormentor
Something I wrote in response to all the children at schools who get teased their whole lives. Written from the perspective of the tormentor.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 268 - Published: 4/4/2003
Without the Dark Side
This is a poem about how the darkness doesn't necessarily mean evil. It can be a good thing too, becaue without the darkness, how could there be light?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 100 - Published: 4/4/2003
What I want reviews
I love this poem. It's about being tired of life and just not wanting to do anything.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 264 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/4/2003
The Past Never Dies reviews
A poem about how when you're young everything is bliss and happy, but when you get older, you see how dismal life really is.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 167 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/4/2003
Poetic Lies reviews
This is something I wrote, I've had it pent up for quite sometime. It's about how people write about things like suicide when very few of us know what it's like. I know that I don't!
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 184 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/6/2003
Another Accident reviews
I wrote this a while ago for school. We had to do this thoughtshot/snapshot thing. I like it. You might too. It's about a girl with dead parents and an abusive brother.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 971 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/15/2002
Individual reviews
I am an Individual. This is my poem.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 85 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 12/9/2002