I want to be your worst nightmare.
I want to scare you into questioning everything and denying nothing.
I want the boy who will always say no.
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For the sheer amusement of the remaining representations of humanity on this Internet thing - I decided to post some of my stuff. Don`t expect anything special. Don`t expect anything personal. A few odd thoughts dropped between the hearts and the lines.

It`s dependable, a place to shove my mind when the world pushes it out. A blank canvas of possibilites - of ideas. Of death wishes. Yet I`m expendable. Another abortion your mother still prays for every night before you pray you won`t wake up. I draw. I sing. I write. I wash away my misery in the bottom of a bottle of turpse. Paint me normal, scribble out the eyes and mask my memories with another faded shade of blue.

I`m happy. I`m sad. And everything in between. I`m a success at being a failure but at least that`s one step up from you. The Band is my life, music is my lover. An anti-suicide device. I believe in Freedom. Poetic Justic. The right to a guilt free life. The choice is yours, the lie is mine. Don`t cross sides, we`ll be just fine.

I want to save the world. I want to kill the universe. I want to be the only one left standing when the stars say that`s enough. I want to be beautiful. I want to be remembered. I want to play guitar as well as I play you. I want to be a God but I fear I`m already a Prince.

I want to be your biggest secret. I want to be your worst tragedy. The one you never wanted and the one you`ll never forget. I want to dive through crowds and be right up front as I sing. I stopped writing songs about you years ago but every word is still screamed for you.

I want to be your biggest regret. And I want to do it with style. Chasing kisses and near misses as I watch you from my window. I want to travel the world with you and show you the sights that will never mean the same. I want to show you what love is. When the back of an old, broken down van becomes the most romantic place in the world.

And I want you to hate me for everything. Keep me writing songs and splitting us apart. Watching you play like an old movie, all black and white and grey. My head is spinning and my heart is still. I want to be your obsession. And I want to break every single one of your hearts.
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