Shadafakup
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Joined 01-24-03, id: 331928
Author has written 38 stories for General, General, Life, Religion, Song, and Haiku.
Today my name is Colourful Letdown.
Yesterday my name was Dead Souls.
Tomorrow my name will be Lively Spirits.
My friends think my name is Fire.
The police think my name is Burden.
And teachers think my name is Problem.
My parents think my name is Unfinished Symphony.
Secretly, I know my name is Anything.
I_Want it_To be.
Paint Me_As_I am.


20.05.2005: After awhile, you find you run out of things to say. And you're too tired to write them down either.

I am a female teenager from Singapore. There are a random assortment of instruments I can play: the piano, flute, trumpet, harmonica, etc; but I have mastered none. However, if you still think I'm interesting enough, I can be contacted via livejournal, or through both my emails.

Criticism, that's all I ask for; and I will return the favour.

I do write Harry Potter slash fanfiction of the AngstRomance genre which can be found in The Pit of Voles or my sorry excuse for a website, together with fanart drawn to a couple of the fics.


Thank yous:

Special appreciation goes to Lux's Confusion, Dark Ink, Moonwinges, candifiedxnonsense, Imoen, Shelila, Krikoris, Myra Kilgore, Angerona, VampiricSacrifice, Asmodeus Sanity, endless040, Canada, Sugar On The Asphalt, KayWest, Shattered Snow, Ravyne Black, hypersensitive, the cereal killer, whyt forest, insanewhisper, Razor Sharp Kisses, yOuCaNtToUcHmE, Grendel, Masha Baitman, unjaundiced, Jennu, Imaan-Z-gr8, fall3n ang3l, firehoney, rd-kittykat, sheza, Magisknight, Lil Lalita, H. M. Banson, Bite the Wax Tadpole, Nancy Rotten, Andaren, ladymaverick, S.N. Mather and Martinet Of the Order. Thank you for putting me on your favourite authors list.

To the rest of the reviewers and those who have put my stories onto their favourite lists, thank you for the wonderful and encouraging reviews you have penned.

~Shadafakup


I won't be forgotten. No one remembered me anyway.
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and learned by after-sex cigarette reviews
she & he, they & them, no one understands like pain does. like the way a touch of lips can leave her afraid and leave him happy.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 6 - Words: 1,122 - Reviews: 66 - Favs: 25 - Follows: 8 - Updated: 1/5/2006 - Published: 12/11/2005
Alphabet Soup by the cereal killer reviews
How would you measure love?
Poetry: School - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 292 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 6 - Published: 7/16/2004
Glitter Boy by breakdown in the waiting room reviews
The rhyming, (she thinks unrequited) love of a girl for her gay best friend. Self-centered, certainly; but that is the nature of grief and, sometimes, love.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 278 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 14 - Published: 6/18/2004
YOU KNOW you taste like medicine by the cereal killer reviews
drugged curtains & the worst bad things
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 280 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 3 - Published: 3/24/2004
Sin by Razor Sharp Kisses reviews
Sin is a collection of poems all titled Sin. They are works of mine that I like the best. Update - 2-6: Added Sin IV
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 5 - Words: 1,333 - Reviews: 31 - Favs: 7 - Updated: 2/6/2004 - Published: 11/17/2003
flowers by i was a postcard reviews
"why do you insist on perfection...lick and taste and crave it more"
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 813 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 2 - Published: 1/16/2004
Rhapsody in Minor by Impressionist reviews
Kind of a quest for knowledge...like why I come up with these things. I rather like it, so read.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 176 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 2 - Published: 11/2/2003
Behind the Smile by Krikoris reviews
There are just times when you want to end it all...but you promised you wouldnt. So you let yourself go to the edge, letting the pain consume you, but not enough to slip away. So you dont break your promise.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 308 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/16/2003
Silhouette by dewinged reviews
and i dip my poetry, these mortal words, into the shadows that pool in the curve of your collarbone..
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 215 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 4 - Published: 8/10/2003
Checkmate by Mishael reviews
Cynicism, irony, and lots of internal rhymes. Look up on a clear day and you can see a gigantic hand moving you across a chess board. We're all just pawns really. I'm quite proud of this one, please read.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 201 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 3 - Published: 7/3/2003
Falling Way Beyond by Faythe reviews
Another song about society and the way they world's going in my opinion.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 332 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/2/2003
Final Stand by Grendel reviews
Sometimes in relationships you reach a state where there is no comming back...
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 105 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/2/2003
And She Dies by Black Tangled Heart reviews
crossing the delicate line that lies between the living and the dead
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 277 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 3 - Published: 6/5/2003
Friendship's band by Psycho-kyugurl reviews
Give me your hand... [To everyone here in the Haiku section]
Poetry: Haiku - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 364 - Reviews: 31 - Favs: 3 - Published: 6/5/2003
Ruby Dreams by phish2phish reviews
name speaks for itself
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 231 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/5/2003
Of Death by Krikoris reviews
This is a poem about someone dying in an accident. Really it could be used in any fatal accident. Basically this is the brief thought process of one of the dying. Please read and review!
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 232 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/2/2003
Dark Cloud by midnight dreams reviews
Everybody is misunderstood...even if they have so much to offer.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 196 - Reviews: 34 - Favs: 3 - Published: 1/4/2003
Knife in the Nursery by triskaidekaphobia reviews
A little girl, dressed in pink, finds a new game to play with her toys. Please please please review and I'll love you forever ***follow up poem added - worth reading maybe?***
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Horror - Chapters: 2 - Words: 284 - Reviews: 38 - Favs: 11 - Updated: 12/18/2002 - Published: 10/31/2002
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Opacity reviews
Show me your horizon; that never was and maybe I can taste the transparency. Otherwise opaque, please read between the lines.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 188 - Reviews: 13 - Published: 7/15/2004
The Show Must Go On reviews
Edited: The show never waits for you, raping your sanity even if you were trying to write your catharsis with one last breath.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 362 - Reviews: 34 - Favs: 6 - Updated: 7/15/2004 - Published: 9/18/2003
Remembering Art reviews
POEM. If you have something against poems, go away. And I'll do you a favour and not come back to fictionpress either.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 185 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/8/2004
To Breathe Those Words reviews
(I) thought you (M)ight l(I)ke to (S)ee this little (S)omething that I wrote while (Y)ou were (O)ff in Cambodia while (U)nlucky me was here. Oh just read it.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 352 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 2 - Published: 1/29/2004
Happy Birthday reviews
(Happy) Birthday. Consider it a belated birthday present if you review this piece for me. My sardonic views on birthdays, if you never enjoyed celebrating them, have fun. You'll like it.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 19 - Published: 12/19/2003
Angst Feast reviews
Its a FEAST! Eat your heart out if you want to be poisoned by anguish and fill your mind with such thoughts. Courses included: Bleeding For Me, My Identity, Running. I do not like this.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 3 - Words: 661 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 1 - Updated: 12/15/2003 - Published: 12/9/2003
Sky's Tears reviews
Ah, the irony of rain. Don't you wish the sky will just cheer up for once? This is not your typical 'I am lonely the sky is crying for me' poem, so sue me.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 163 - Reviews: 15 - Updated: 11/29/2003 - Published: 11/28/2003
Passion's Edge reviews
Love? No, this is not about love. Its not about passion. Its about lust, and how love is all bullshit nowadays. We've reached the edge anyhow.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/26/2003
Breaking Free reviews
In shunning the taboo that is self-harm, you try to break free. I hope I managed to express myself well. Its painfully personal.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 167 - Reviews: 35 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/31/2003
Misunderstood reviews
Silence. Tension. And silence all over again.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Reviews: 19 - Published: 8/30/2003
Crumbling Foundations reviews
Cheers to you if you get the undertones, sexual or non-sexual. On the surface, its just a poem, with lots of images, about a building falling into ruins.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 216 - Reviews: 18 - Updated: 8/26/2003 - Published: 8/24/2003
Grasp reviews
Once again, if you don't like sad or unresolved endings, Stay Away. Holding on, or letting go to certain memories. Sensory details need improvement, any ideas?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 245 - Reviews: 37 - Favs: 6 - Published: 8/7/2003
Hold My Hand reviews
This is -not- a love poem asking for my boyfriend to hold my hand.There's a little drop of irony. If you don't like sad or unresolved endings, then Go Away.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 17 - Published: 8/6/2003
Paper Plane reviews
Aww.. Isn't it so sad? This paper plane is too full of creases and too broken to fly again. Pity my heart.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 262 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 3 - Published: 8/5/2003
Nothing reviews
Personally I liked this piece although it was one I had to grapple with for a bit. Nothingness, if you please - the empty hollow feeling that eats us all sometimes.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 244 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 2 - Published: 7/6/2003
Voice Of a Rebel reviews
This, as the title says, is the voice of a rebel (In general). A new format I experimented with. Its rather interesting, but you decide if its good.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Parody/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 479 - Reviews: 14 - Published: 7/4/2003
I Can't Always reviews
This poem/song is pretty hard to summarise. Compromising was never my forte, and hence, this limit.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 366 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 2 - Published: 7/3/2003
I Can't Write reviews
A three line rhyming haiku about my current writing situation. Fellow writers can probably relate.
Poetry: Haiku - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 2 - Words: 76 - Reviews: 23 - Updated: 6/30/2003 - Published: 6/1/2003
Open Your Eyes, Bitch reviews
With just a tinge of self-mockery, this poem yells at those who wallow in self centeredness and can't see outside their own boundaries.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 344 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 4 - Published: 5/29/2003
Sick reviews
So, what actually happens when you're sick of the tension, sick of the hunger and you start playing with fire? A subconcious Linkin Park fan movement I should think.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 233 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 2 - Published: 5/24/2003
Guess You Have Forgotten reviews
A song about how time passes us by as the people we once knew forgets us and leaves. Well, too bad.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 434 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 5/20/2003
Smoke reviews
On smoke, quite obviously. It can be perceived as any sort of smoke. If what I chose as the ending bothers you, ignore it.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/12/2003
5Six7Six5 3Two1 reviews
More of a cross between a countdown and farewell, this poem has nothing to do with numbers.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 157 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 2 - Published: 4/30/2003
Destroy Me reviews
Destroyed, for being the person I am, for being who I believe I am. None of us deserve this.. Do we?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 3 - Published: 4/29/2003
Last Breath reviews
Short and sweet - like a dying breath. Despite its own simplicity, I quite liked it.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 42 - Reviews: 21 - Published: 4/22/2003
Your Words reviews
Sticks and Stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me? Perhaps you might reconsider.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 131 - Reviews: 26 - Published: 4/6/2003
An Island reviews
No man is an island, but alone, here we are. Solitude can be comforting, but not always.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 198 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 2 - Published: 3/29/2003
I Once Had Dreams reviews
We once had dreams, till some of us lost the will to continue believing in things that were meant for faeries. The don't exist by the way.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 502 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 3 - Published: 3/27/2003
Was It God's Plan? reviews
Its not anti-Christ but neither is it pro-Satan. It is a sort of questionably cynical view of the world. Odd? I'd say.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 466 - Reviews: 27 - Published: 3/19/2003
Blood Stained Knife reviews
Old piece. Not recommended reading.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 3 - Published: 2/9/2003
One Day reviews
Its positive, its futuristic, and its me still dreaming. One day - which might come, and which might not.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 166 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/28/2003
Needing You reviews
I am not normally emotionally attached, it was rushed out and modified from someone else's piece for school.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 278 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 1/28/2003
Alcohol reviews
Dizzy whitness that never fades, except to manifest in a sort of headache-induced stupor. Two parts to the piece, alcoholism being the main theme.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 240 - Reviews: 16 - Published: 1/28/2003
I Don't Care reviews
No, I reallly don't.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 218 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 1/27/2003
Addicted reviews
Life is full of temptations that cause addictions. Unfortunately I seem to have gotten addicted to the wrong thing; like playing with a certain silver blade. (The self mockery should be evident.)
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 204 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/27/2003
Hate You reviews
Perhaps blatant self-mockery, can sometimes be good for purging the bad words, that clog up better works.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 303 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/27/2003
Geylang reviews
Descriptive piece for an assignment. Some suggestive meanings. Placed here for fun. Actually just for Najiah to be reminded.
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 947 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1/27/2003
Dictated Tiredness reviews
Essentially an almost total rhyming poem. Tiredness, as the title says, reiterated in a 'monotonous' form.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 1/27/2003