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Joined 07-24-03, id: 366666, Profile Updated: 11-10-08
Author has written 67 stories for Fantasy, Song, Love, and Life.

My name is Brian, I'm 24 years old, I've recently graduated from University, and am presently trying to decide if I'm really cut out for this 'work' thing.

In place of what I usually have for a bio I will leave you with some interesting thoughts that really don't fit into any other work:

Never stop dreaming. Hope, wishes, dreams: these things are nto fantasy, merely unrealized reality.

If life is spent searching for the answers and these answers can only be found after death, then whats the point of life? Is it not better to try and live the answers, then search for the questions.

Love and freedom. They're two very similar things. We spend our lives searching for both only to have one stop us from reaching the other.

Every life, no matter how mundane is interesting. Every life is filled with a whirlwind of activities. It is filled with desires, passions, and struggles. It is filled with hopes, and dreams for the future. It is a flurry of emotion. Every life has meaning...discount no one.

If I do not know the answer, do not call me stupid; I am merely uneducated. I am ignorant. Those truly stupid are the lazy. Those who see truth and knowledge and turn away from it, those that believe ignorance is bliss, they are the stupid.

Hate breeds hate. Love nourishes love. To foster hate in your heart, to give hate life, is to take life away from others. To love is to give life, to give joy, to others. Why hate when one can love?

Hope: it is the quintessential emotion of all human activity. It can propel us to our greatest heights, our greatest achievements, but like all things it is merely a tool, and it can thrust us to the deepest depths and cause our greatest evils. Hope: it is what binds us together and what can break us apart.

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Cauterize by mercury.love reviews
A day, our life, washed away at sea.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 68 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/25/2005
Gilded Dreams by Willow Elandria reviews
collected poetry - angst, tragedy, generally depressing stuff... not your usual though, I promise
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 10 - Words: 2,057 - Reviews: 42 - Favs: 3 - Updated: 2/22/2005 - Published: 3/31/2004
Heaven by Lacrea Moonlight reviews
A song about the sad life of one sad girl...
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 267 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Published: 1/3/2004
My Country Is a Callgirl by FahrigF1 reviews
"We give, hoping for a reward / But in the end, we're just screwed"
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 740 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/11/2003
Chosen Life by Faythe reviews
This one's quite old. It's just me rambling on about life really. It does have some of the best imagery I've wrote in it though.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 299 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 7/3/2003
Broken Wings by wicked-chaotic reviews
You never were an angel ...
Poetry: Fantasy - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 135 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 5 - Published: 5/12/2003
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Unbidden Thoughts reviews
Dark thoughts at times spring to the mind unbidden, and only as we hurry them back to the deepest corners of our mind, do we realize the truths in them.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 125 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/6/2008 - Complete
Change reviews
Simply titled because I can't think of anything better, this probably is not finished and will be revised, nonetheless it appears here now
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 11/4/2004
Her Love reviews
Something I wrote while thinking about her during a lecture
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 154 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 11/3/2004
Ashes to ashes reviews
A comparsion of a girl with the black plague through the used of the childrens nursery rhyme which is morbidly about the plague
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 368 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/4/2004
Impossible Girl reviews
Pretty much self-explanatory, I never knew such a person could exist, or that they could take you so unaware
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 228 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8/4/2004
There's Days reviews
Sometimes things get tough and you never know whats going to happen, but what gets me through is that I know there'll be good days again like those I can remember
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 385 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 6/10/2004
Waiting reviews
I wrote half of this a month ago and the other half just recently so I think the meaning came out slightly skewed from what I intended originally...umm...its about "waiting for something to break" in your life
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 254 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/8/2004
The Road Most Travelled By reviews
Obviously wirtten while thinking how Frost's poem applies to myself, how there are always paths to choose, you chose one, and I another, but why can't we creat our own better path?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 208 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/8/2004
Last Song reviews
Yesterday I found those pictures, and I realized there was no longer a point for me to hold onto them, so this is the last song I will ever write about her because she's no longer an impact on my life...
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 484 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 2 - Published: 5/26/2004
A Hypocritical Poem reviews
A poem srung from the fact that I'm tired of expressing all my emotions only in poetry and that it has done me no good, other than to make me more confused...so this poem is somewhat hypocritical...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 166 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/24/2004
There is no tragedy here reviews
So I got this weird feeling in my gut, played a few simple chords and this is what came out of me...I'm not really sure what it is...it may kinda be interpretted as a suicidal thing, but its not at all...umm...I think its just kinda feeling down about lif
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 5/20/2004
Someone's Onlyone reviews
Here's song I wrote a while back, and am posting just now, after I put some chords to it, my brother threw in some drum beats, and I worked out a baseline...umm yeah, its about the frustratrion of women who just kinda string you along
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 354 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/16/2004
Like Icarus? reviews
A song that doesn't really apply to myself right now, but the chorus came to me in the shower and I had to finish off the thought...a good song if you're in a relationship that you think is gonna fail, or maybe if you think its going to fast...yeah someth
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 327 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/12/2004
The Norm reviews
Sadly situations like these have become the norm, situaions where I try to make things right, but still fail...tell me what you think (it could use a better title...)
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 85 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 5/9/2004
A Spring Storm reviews
A storm rises once again in my life...I really like this one, and I'm actually somewhat proud of it...gasp...it'd be nice if you'd take a look...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/9/2004
Wasted Days reviews
Like most songs it is somewhat exaggerated, not the best, but I did like some of the lines enough to post it"wasted hours and days / Endless ink upon an endless page"
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 231 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/7/2004
These Stars reviews
They are the guiding lights in your life (not my best stuff, simple rhyming quatraines)
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 161 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 5/7/2004
Subvocal Feelings reviews
This feeling that exists in me below the surface, its something I can't place, and something I can't seem to get rid of
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 149 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/7/2004
Can Anybody Hear? reviews
A song about events and incidents in my life...and the feeling you get when you wonder if there's anyone who can hear your pain...also...if said Dreamer Girl in the song would not read too much into it that would be greatly appreciated...I just...yeah...
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 347 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4/12/2004
Questions Without Answers reviews
I have so many questions about myself...but it seems unlikely that I will ever find the answers...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/12/2004
The Snake Within reviews
Merely a revelation as to how so many of the archtypal characteristics of the snake apply to myself
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/12/2004
My star: A fragment reviews
Just a short fragment I found today scribbled down in a margin, thought I'd post it
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 33 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/4/2004
Empty reviews
Here's a song thats really very depressing, written in a mood when I wasn't feeling to good about myself, or the world in general, I'm feeling better now, and some of this is simply poetric exageration anyways, but please do read
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 365 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/4/2004
Unsaid reviews
All the things I'd like to say to her, but in poetry format. Not something I think is overly great, yet I have to post it simply because I feel it so much...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 231 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/3/2004
The Night reviews
Merely a poetic representation of an event, if you know the event it question please don't read too much into it, but still know that it inspired me
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 248 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/1/2004
The Heart's Shadow reviews
This is the heart's shadow, it's dark side, what it fights to hold onto as it knows it should let go
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3/26/2004
Like the Sun reviews
Like the Sun this never seems to end, I wish for an eternal dawn, or at least an eternal dusk.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 78 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/26/2004
Searching reviews
I suppose this could be a song, but I just kinda wrote it as a poem with a chorus, and it has no music to it. It's about the confusion, and the difficulty trying to find yourself in life
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 194 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/22/2004
Drowning: A fragment reviews
Something really short that I came up with, not really a whole poem, just sort of the feeling that I occasionally get when life gets hard
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 59 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/22/2004
Don't Speak
I'm tired of hearing what you have to say, I'm done with it, just let this all be already
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Published: 3/22/2004
Hidden reviews
Come out from hiding, and show us all who you really are. There's no reason to be afraid any longer
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 43 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/22/2004
Flood me, drown me reviews
Let istall go, release your pain in me, and I'll be there for you when its time for you to heal
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 99 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/22/2004
Confusions reviews
A poem about my life, and how its confusing, and convoluted, and how I really don't know what to do with it
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3/17/2004
Rocket Girl reviews
Here's a song about a girl...obviously...that seems to be in almost another world, sometimes I think she's destined for the stars, but I'm afraid she need to come back down to earth before she crashes and burns
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 256 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/17/2004
Stay Away reviews
Another drunken mistake, another poem for an outlet to this pain
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/14/2004
Numb reviews
About a friend of mine, and a disturbing pill problem we just found out she has, not the best of stuff, but I'm gonna toss er up here just cause I know it'd mean something to a few people
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 75 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/13/2004
In the Forest of my Life reviews
Quick little poem I wrote Stats class today instead of listening to the lecture, it not the best but I thought I'd throw it up, umm...its just about life and how its confusing and how the futures so unknown but I'm going to keep on trying to find my way
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 138 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/9/2004
Today I'm Alive reviews
Here's one thats not depressing. Its about how you wake up one day, or you have a really great conversation with someone andyou realize that everything is gonna be okay, even if you haven't got it all figured out
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 241 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/8/2004
The Overwhelming Heart reviews
This ones how you struggle with what you logically know is right and what your heart tells you to do. Its how your heart always seems to take control, even when you don't want it to
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3/1/2004
No thoughts reviews
Quick little song I whipped up in the shower today as I was wondering why I can't seem to shake her from my mind
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 237 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/29/2004
Drunken Confessionals reviews
Alright, these aren't really full songs, they're, like the title says, merely a series of things that I've written while drunk. They're fragments, that I may continue, tell me if you like one idea in particular
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 7 - Words: 438 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/28/2004
Memories and Tragedies reviews
When you feel as though you've messed everything up in your life and you're left with merely the memories of the past and the tragedies of the present
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 324 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/5/2004
Should I hope reviews
I made a mess of things, and now I'm wondering if it can ever go back to the way it was, should I even hope?
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 372 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/28/2004
The AntiIrish Drinking Song reviews
Its not anti-Irish, but anti-drinking. It was written to the kind of tune an Irish drinking song has after a very bad night that would have been a very good night without the influence of alcohol.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 332 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/25/2004
Blindman reviews
Some old I dug up and decided to post to see if its even halfway decent. Its how I long ago ruined a friendship cause I just couldn't see the big picture. Please tell me what you think
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 228 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 1/18/2004
Waterwings reviews
Ever get the feeling that your drowning in your problems, and there's one person who can make them all seem to go away. It's her, she's my water-wings, she keeps me afloat.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 373 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1/17/2004
A Road reviews
You'll come to a point in your life when you have to leave the past behind, keep your feet on the road and follow it to brighter skies
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 372 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/16/2004
Sacrificial reviews
I've reached a point in my life where I have to stop doing things for others and live my life for me.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 201 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/14/2004
It's alright to Dream reviews
about how when things are really bad in your life its okay sometimes to let go and dream about the good things
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 319 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1/4/2004
Her reviews
I need a better title (advice-anyways, it's about how this girl was going through a really tough time and I just wanted to be there to help her and tell her everything would be okay
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 289 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1/4/2004
She's a different kind of poem reviews
okay, the title messed up, but this is something I wrote after reading Shakespeare's Sonnet 130 and realizing how most poets compare women the inanimate objects and how she's nothing like any of that
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1/4/2004
Letting Go reviews
About a breaking up and then wanting to move on, but at the same time wanting to hold on to what you used to have.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 284 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/2/2003
Broken Glass reviews
Another poor attempt at poetry. If its really horrible tell me so and I'll make it a point not to attempt this again. Oh...its about that point in a relationship were things are so fraglile they could break at any moment.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 118 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 10/10/2003
Tastes reviews
My first real poem. Please tell me what you think, esp. if its poor. Oh...its about the pain of love
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10/9/2003
Here with me reviews
I want to be with her, but at the same time I think she's using me, she's pushing me down. She's my joy and my pain.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 324 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10/6/2003
Missed my Chance reviews
A song about my stupidity and a really amazing girl
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 356 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 8/25/2003
Ghosts reviews
Updated, Chp. 8. This ones a very long pulse pounding chapter of background revealing dialog again with a little Ghost for some spice, but I swear the heavy actions coming soon
Fiction: Fantasy - Rated: K+ - English - Fantasy - Chapters: 8 - Words: 21,660 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 2 - Updated: 8/25/2003 - Published: 7/31/2003
No time left reviews
I don't know. A girl, no time left to describe my feelings, so lets just hold on what we've got now, yeah kinda like that
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 292 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8/17/2003
Breaking the Silence reviews
Have you ever just wanted to scream, to do something because you feel so helpless. To have something tangible to rage against instead of just silence.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 310 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8/17/2003
TOGIMWNASDS reviews
Title: The only girl I've met whose NOT a stupid drunken slut - wrote this a while back,you get the point, I think its kinda poor so feed the flames
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 239 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/11/2003
I'm sorry reviews
I'm sorry, I never meant to say anything that might hurt you, but you asked me to be honest and I was. I really am sorry that this can't be worked out.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 321 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 8/10/2003
Last Chance reviews
A song written to a friend who is making poor decisions and throwing his life away
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8/9/2003
No Hope reviews
A song about a girl (how come they always seem to be) and realizing my feelings are meaningless
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 274 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8/9/2003
Happy Holidays reviews
A song about a not so happy Christmas at home
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 294 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8/9/2003
Punk Rock Anthem reviews
I wrote this? I pity anyone who has to read this...
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 8/4/2003
Broken By a Bottle reviews
A song about life at home you'll get the point
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 253 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8/4/2003
Empty bottles reviews
A song I wrote when a family member passed away. Title explains
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 161 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 8/3/2003