"What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet."
-Juliet, *Romeo and Juliet*

This is not my pen name. This pen name (and the email address) were created specifically for "Parable of the Apostor." I think the meaning of it will be clear if you read my angsty spiritual drabble.
It must sound paranoid. But I live with a rigid father who sees things in black and white. When he is right, he *is* right. And he'll jump in to defend what he thinks is right.There is no gray in his world. I have four years of high school to get through, so it would not behoove me not to piss him off now.
Plus, being a good little Catholic girl (Please note the impossible amount of sarcasm that is laddled on that statement), I've been going to Catholic schools most of my life. (Which, and this is glaringly obvious, includes the Catholic high school I'll be going into.) And I would really not like to rock the boat now.
However, I can't bring myself to believe in Catholic doctrine, no matter how hard I try. You might think I'm a coward, not standing up for myself, not standing up for my right to believe or not believe whatever I wish. And so do I, when it comes down to it.
But it would serve no point, other than bringing the brimstone and hellfire of my father, school, parish, and even a few of my friends down on me.
My "parable" is extremely dark, yes. But that's the closest thing I can come to putting down in words the anger, the hurt, the bitterness, and the resentfulenss I feel towards Catholicism.

I also have another angsy drabble that I could never put up on my regular account without major reprecussions, Food or Love? It is *completely* autobiographical, with only a few name changes differentiating from real life. And yes, Food or Love? is just as dark as Parable of the Apostor. But I'm just jaded and bitter and cynical, after all.

UPDATE: I have been informed that the correct word for one who commits apostasy (For those of you unfamiliar with the term and unwilling to press the "d" key for the FictionPress dictionary, the aforementioned dictionary defines apostasy as:
apostasy
n 1: the state of having rejected your religious beliefs or your
political party or a cause (often in favor of opposing
beliefs or causes) [syn: renunciation, defection]
2: the act of abandoning a party or cause [syn: tergiversation])is "apostate."
I would like to take the opportunity to say that I am well aware of this. However, I made the choice of using the word "apostor" quite intentionally. In my mind, as you may or may not have gathered from the above bio, I feel like a black sheep, an *impostor*. If you drop the im- prefix and add a- it becomes apostor, which feels much more appropriate.

As always, feel free to bring the hellfire and brimstone of righteousness down on me in email form.