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Joined 08-02-03, id: 367832
Author has written 80 stories for General, Life, Friendship, Religion, Love, and Family.

Name: Vicky

DOB: 17/06/88

Daddy

You do not do, you do not do
Any more, black shoe
In which I have lived like a foot
For thirty years, poor and white,
Barely daring to breathe or Achoo.

Daddy, I have had to kill you.
You died before I had time --
Marble-heavy, a bag full of God,
Ghastly statue with one gray toe
Big as a Frisco seal

And a head in the freakish Atlantic
Where it pours bean green over blue
In the waters off the beautiful Nauset.
I used to pray to recover you.
Ach, du.

In the German tongue, in the Polish town
Scraped flat by the roller
Of wars, wars, wars.
But the name of the town is common.
My Polack friend

Says there are a dozen or two.
So I never could tell where you
Put your foot, your root,
I never could talk to you.
The tongue stuck in my jaw.

It stuck in a barb wire snare.
Ich, ich, ich, ich,
I could hardly speak.
I thought every German was you.
And the language obscene

An engine, an engine,
Chuffing me off like a Jew.
A Jew to Dachau, Auschwitz, Belsen.
I began to talk like a Jew.
I think I may well be a Jew.

The snows of the Tyrol, the clear beer of Vienna
Are not very pure or true.
With my gypsy ancestress and my weird luck
And my Taroc pack and my Taroc pack
I may be a bit of a Jew.

I have always been scared of you,
With your Luftwaffe, your gobbledygoo.
And your neat mustache
And your Aryan eye, bright blue.
Panzer-man, panzer-man, O You --

Not God but a swastika
So black no sky could squeak through.
Every woman adores a Fascist,
The boot in the face, the brute
Brute heart of a brute like you.

You stand at the blackboard, daddy,
In the picture I have of you,
A cleft in your chin instead of your foot
But no less a devil for that, no not
Any less the black man who

Bit my pretty red heart in two.
I was ten when they buried you.
At twenty I tried to die
And get back, back, back to you.
I thought even the bones would do.

But they pulled me out of the sack,
And they stuck me together with glue.
And then I knew what to do.
I made a model of you,
A man in black with a Meinkampf look

And a love of the rack and the screw.
And I said I do, I do.
So daddy, I'm finally through.
The black telephone's off at the root,
The voices just can't worm through.

If I've killed one man, I've killed two --
The vampire who said he was you
And drank my blood for a year,
Seven years, if you want to know.
Daddy, you can lie back now.

There's a stake in your fat black heart
And the villagers never liked you.
They are dancing and stamping on you.
They always knew it was you.
Daddy, daddy, you bastard, I'm through.

Sylvia Plath

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Writer's Wall by me10 reviews
Writer's block- and yes i still am infected with writer's block so this poem is...well...hmmm...R+R to find out? CHAPTER 2 NOW OUT
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 2 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 2 - Updated: 11/2/2003 - Published: 10/2/2003
You're Still Gone by ALostPoet reviews
About losing someone to suicide
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 225 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Published: 10/22/2003
Dry Lives by me10 reviews
(WARNING: still plagued with wriers block-but trying to write thru it) about the day i had today. R+R yar?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 124 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/10/2003
Again by Princess Azhure Of The Icarii reviews
I wrote this because I felt like this person kept treating me poorly and he kept repeating the same pattern.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 117 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/7/2003
The Bastard Trilogy by Rosa-ish reviews
I loved him. He broke my heart. Read about the bastardness in my life. Three days in three parts. Three visions, all ending at the same point. Love sucks.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 691 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/7/2003
Raven Raven by Drakstern reviews
A somewhat dark poem.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 123 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Published: 10/7/2003
No more to understand by The intellect reviews
so ull be able too tel from the poem how i feel these days about almost everything in my life... plz r+r cuz im thinkin of giving this up
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 115 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 3 - Published: 10/6/2003
Frustration by Rockade reviews
This is pretty much the wa I feel on life sometimes
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/6/2003
Everyday by the cute lil dead girl reviews
It's about a girl... a girl who doesn't fit in.. and yeah.. read it.. please r/r
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 223 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/6/2003
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Little Pieces reviews
Whats left after love is lost?
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 189 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/8/2006
There You Were reviews
Unconcerning abandonment
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 105 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/14/2005
Mystery reviews
Maybe it would be easier to keep stuff to myself but I end up saying too much
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 290 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/11/2005
Had a Hard Day? reviews
It never changes
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 80 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10/5/2005
Teach Me How To Drown reviews
friends rnt always ther wen u want them 2 b, n sumtimes there false wen they r
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 100 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/3/2005
Fall For Everyone I Meet reviews
R+R
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 72 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/23/2005
Don't You Wish reviews
Don't you wish you didnt spend your life wishing?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 85 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/1/2005
Still Life reviews
Sorry, I can't be better...I want to be still life
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2/11/2005
Still Breathing reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 93 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/30/2004
Comfort reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 62 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/28/2004
Just A Word reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 58 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/13/2004
The Simple Touch reviews
not guna rate it, but its about intimacy. ooooh yay imagery woo hoo :p
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 26 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8/12/2004
The Lord Aint My Shepard reviews
stay clear if ur religious, if u r and u flame then ur jus plain pathetic. taken from the hymn the lord is my shepard.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 123 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 7/17/2004
I Wanna Hold Your Hand reviews
(title sed in beatle esk kinda way)
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 47 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/13/2004
Dashed reviews
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/4/2004
Will Your Dust Settle Where His Did? reviews
will me being there help or just hurt
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 86 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6/24/2004
Unspoken Word reviews
read, dont, who reli cares.
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 84 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 5/23/2004
Beautiful Dreamer reviews
cough squeezable. had to put a funi word in dere, all d sappyness, cudnt go wivout.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 5/20/2004
Maybe It's Me reviews
kinda self centered, and i don no if any1 would understand the actually intent, but hey R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 5/20/2004
Disappearing reviews
he'll never disappear no matter how much they pretend he didn't exist
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/19/2004
Not of Nature reviews
difference isn't wrong, ur wrong.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 75 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4/3/2004
Sleeping Beauty reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 64 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/1/2004
Untouchable reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 73 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4/1/2004
Absence of Mind reviews
i hate puttin stuff in general, but didnt know where to catagorise it neway r+r
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 71 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/24/2004
Forget It reviews
you think you have something, but the next second its gone and forgotten
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 72 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/19/2004
Ashes reviews
R+R. i agen feel crappy, if u wanted to know what the inspiration was or anytin.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 71 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1/29/2004
Way Out reviews
I had a hard time catagorising this one, doesnt reli fit in any, so general seemed the only option, neway, R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 77 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1/24/2004
I Wont Get Up reviews
blah blah blah blah. i reli suck at summeries, jus read.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 116 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12/28/2003
Blindfolds reviews
Ignorance must be bliss. R+R, it's a bit short.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 77 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12/12/2003
Day Dreaming reviews
i can't reli explain, im bad at summeries, but plz R+R
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/5/2003
Whisper reviews
It's cheesy, but i like it. lol. R+R
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 71 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12/1/2003
Loves Lust reviews
About how love can hurt you, because you give urself up completely. R+R
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 70 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 12/1/2003
Hospital Nightmare reviews
a recurring dream that i have, not great poetry, but i thought i wud write it down
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 11/26/2003
Too Late reviews
It's too late to save her. R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 106 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 11/18/2003
My Voice reviews
What if i don't want to summerise? ever think bout that?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 133 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/13/2003
Watch In Silence reviews
eeer, not reli an explainable story behind it. R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/9/2003
Finest Hour reviews
I did have a muse for this, but I'm not tellin anyone who it was. Wrote this quite awhile ago. R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 11/8/2003
No Family Name reviews
I feel reli bad for writin this, but I'm not tryin to prove anytin, i hate the way i feel, but istill feel it. It's mostly about the distance I've created between me and my mum, she is the most amazing person in the world, but mostly just to other people
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 127 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 11/4/2003
Mask of Hate reviews
It's simple reli, Kill me.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 69 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 11/4/2003
Blinded reviews
Running doesn't help. R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 59 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 11/4/2003
Soulless reviews
Can't really explain, i hurt. Meh. R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 11/3/2003
Gone with the wind reviews
I feel crappy. yay for me. R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/28/2003
Falling Out Of Place reviews
damn, i suck at summaries. Thoughts, feelings etc. R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 115 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 10/25/2003
Let It Ring reviews
Pick up the phone and ring somewhere where i know i wont recieve a reply . R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 10/25/2003
Shift The Blame reviews
can't reli summerise a feeling, basically guilt. R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 117 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 10/18/2003
Born Gemini reviews
Gemini means two faces. I'm a gemini. R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 10/18/2003
Dry Burning Eyes reviews
Get an insight into me...R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 68 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10/16/2003
Never tell reviews
I don't work well with issolation. R+R. Strong language.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 61 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 2 - Published: 10/13/2003
In need of repair reviews
Damn I'm confused, but hey don it make gd poetry? or not. R+R
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 87 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10/10/2003
Passions reviews
wrote this quite a long time ago, jus found it under my bed, R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 67 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10/7/2003
Never Ending Cycle reviews
R+R. plz!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 10/6/2003
Disaffiliate reviews
he hurt me, i got back up agen. R+R plz! (contains some strong language)
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 62 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10/5/2003
Pathetic reviews
I felt pathetic, thats reli the only description i can give. R+R plz!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 132 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10/5/2003
Insomniac reviews
Doesn't rhyme, but i hope it still works. subject is obvious from the title. plz review.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 130 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10/2/2003
Wasted Worship reviews
I'm an athiest, and i have a strong non-belief in God. I don fink this is any gd, but its my first bit of writin on the subject. R+R
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 54 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/30/2003
Writers Block reviews
Not reli about havin writers block, i neva had reli had it, but its more about confusion. R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 57 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9/30/2003
Dread My Failure reviews
Kinda about school stress, with gcse's coming up, and me not doing so well with the whole idea
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 51 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 9/29/2003
No Trace reviews
Kinda short. just about a girl. Please R+R.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 58 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 9/25/2003
Bored to death reviews
Kinda explains itself. im bored, of pretty much everything.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 69 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 9/15/2003
Unwanted reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 111 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9/15/2003
For the world to see reviews
R+R
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 194 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 9/13/2003
Reach out reviews
A sort of continuation from 'I'm Sorry'
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 84 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9/13/2003
I'm sorry reviews
I'm in the way and I'm sorry everyday
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 9/12/2003
What makes When will reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 9/11/2003
Orphan reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 2 - Words: 193 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 9/11/2003 - Published: 9/5/2003
My story MAKE IT STOP reviews
Most personal you could get
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 265 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 9/7/2003
Lamp reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 28 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 9/3/2003
Nightmares of day reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 77 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9/3/2003
A day in the life reviews
1998, a day in my life.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 39 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9/3/2003
Lonely one reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9/3/2003
Hear me reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 70 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9/3/2003
Falling reviews
R+R
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 80 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 8/15/2003
Better off alone reviews
R+R
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 55 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8/15/2003
Who will be there, why won't it be you? reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 53 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8/12/2003
Moment Past reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 47 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8/9/2003
Pretty monday reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/8/2003
Anyone Not me reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 111 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8/8/2003
Pulse reviews
Can you hear the beat? R+R
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 143 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 2 - Published: 8/8/2003
Never equally your parity reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 84 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/3/2003
Questions left unanswered reviews
R+R
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 75 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8/2/2003