CaffeineTed
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Joined 09-26-03, id: 375949
Author has written 28 stories for Life, Mythology, Friendship, Song, Young Adult, and General.
hey hey kids caffeineted here, bored, once again, so i'm gonna write some stuff probably nobodys gonna wanna read about myself...

im a hs frosh with psychological issues (who doesnt have em, honestly.) i do cross country in the fall, track in the spring (if my knees get better) and i also like to perform in plays, play soccer on my rec team, write (no sh* sherlock!) poetry, songs, fics (some @ fanfiction.net under the same username) and i love calvin and hobbes, eating, hanging out with my friends (not all, but some) and talking about/listening to/analyzing/worshipping/criticizing/living by MUSIC!!! im not even gonna start with the bands i love, you'll be SOOOO bored. anyway, i have random bouts of insanity where i write depressing/morbid stuff that i wind up hating. thats what i put up here, so other people, like you, can tell me its morid and depressing and sucks overall. so, read my stuff. now.

This is killing us
Fighting the truth a losing battle
We believe in nothing
Just hatred for each other
Tragic sinister serenade
Twisted melody shatters reality
Dying hopes for a better day
Fragile dreams that break away
No more, no more
This pain must end
We have chosen to suffer
Believe in nothing but...
Hatred is a vicious circle
Betrayal is at hand
Paralysed souls bleeding
Begging for salvation
Deeper and deeper the wounds we cut
The truth burning our flesh
Silent war to set us free
Stigmata of a tragedy
No more, no more
This pain must end
We have chosen to suffer
Feeling nothing but hate
It's eating us up from the inside
Taking our feelings away
--arch enemy

I woke up today
Didn't feel like I had slept at all
Just another restless night
Such a reckless life
I wish that I could take it slow
Live it simple day by day
But there's always something new
Something in the way
Id like to change the hands of time
Start over, someone hit rewind
Break ground and build a new design
Start over, leave this all behind
Thumbing through the paper
It's the same old black and white
One man gets to live
And a dozen have to die
The reality that we create
We cross the lines we love to hate
Something we see everyday
But we always choose to look away
I'd like to change the hands of time
Start over, someone hit rewind
Break ground and build a new design
Start over, leave this all behind
The times have changed
But were still the same
The cycle just repeats itself
It goes on and on
The times have changed
But were still the same
The cycle just repeats itself
It goes on and on and on
On and on and on
Creeping down the boulevard
Among the walking dead
They're numb to nearly everything
Accepting what they're fed
I'd like to change the hands of time
Start over, someone hit rewind
Break ground and build a new design
Start over, leave this all behind
The times have changed
But were still the same
The cycle just repeats itself
It goes on and on
The times have changed
But were still the same
The cycle just repeats itself
It goes on and on and on
--motograter

The fiends have gagged a generation of pacified fools
Bound by our greed a nation enslaved as corporate tools.
Arise and race the legacy of their lies
To realize that this in itself is an ascension
Towards the day we revolt.
As the seeds you've cast away take hold
War will be born.
Rejoice, the age of the fall has begun
We'll dance as the palaces burn.
A shot gun blast into the face of deceit
You'll gain your just reward.
We'll not rest until the purge is complete
You will reap what you've sown.
My redemption lies in your demise.
In such a world as this does one dare to think for himself?
The paradox of power and peace will destroy itself
To know the truth and live in fear of no man.
To realize that this in itself is an ascension
Toward the day we revolt.
As the seeds you've cast away take hold
War will be born.
Rejoice, the age of the fall has begun
We'll dance as the palaces burn.
My redemption lies in your demise.
Rejoice, the age of the fall has begun.
We'll dance as the palaces burn.
--lamb of god

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With Sunlight by meguin reviews
My favorite of my poems. It isn't happy, no matter how much you want to think it is, it isn't.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 125 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/26/2001
Cage by meguin reviews
I'm pretty sure this is more teen angst
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 152 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/28/2001
And Then There's Lonliness by meguin reviews
Holy crap the ANGST
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 110 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/15/2001
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A Smile Lost reviews
For Lynx.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 348 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/26/2004
Fear of Laughter reviews
as an infant and a child, i had a fear of one thing: laughter. and i just figured out why. read and review
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 149 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 1/20/2004
Mutually Assured Destruction reviews
a poem i wrote after having a fight with my friend about her attempted suicide. read and review if you must.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 157 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/14/2004
Praising Benedict A reviews
a short poem i wrote about a friendship that was destroyed during my depression... and she doesnt even know it, so she goes on.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 1/6/2004
permanent reviews
song i wrote today randomly when i looked over at people and got annoyed. kinda more about my parents and my rel tho. o well i hate the whole human race who cares
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 305 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/6/2004
Ripoff reviews
rated for language. an angsty song about how people dont see the real you no matter how hard they look...
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 208 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/5/2004
Diseased reviews
i forget if this has cussing or not... a song i wrote randomly. review
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 192 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/5/2004
Concrete reviews
A short fic about knowing you are going to die. Review and let me know if you want me to continue and make this a long fic w/ a plot and stuff. peace, lies and rock n roll, CAFFEINE TED
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,816 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/2/2004
Her Name Was Lonliness reviews
About desperation, solitude and a need for a connection. Read and review.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 298 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/23/2003
The River and the Rock reviews
Some might say this can go under nature, but it's just a fricken metaphor, man. Keep flowing...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/23/2003
Recurring Feeling reviews
An angsty song I wrote a while ago about how abusing life is to an aware individual. Rating for language. Eff word in there some places.
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 153 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/13/2003
The Alternative Life reviews
Another one of my crap depressing songs about life
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 149 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/13/2003
Alone to Die reviews
A song I wrote about lonliness
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 266 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12/13/2003
The Ideal Friend reviews
We all need that ideal friend to save us from ourselves...
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 261 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/12/2003
Friendly Accidents reviews
A poem I wrote when I was thinking about my very long friendship with my friend after a fight w/ him. read.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12/12/2003
something to harm hope with reviews
i wrote this song today with the song frances farmer will have her revenge on seattle by nirvana stuck in my head. its gonna have that sorta grungey-angsty feel. if i ever do anything withit that is. its kinda weird. reviews welcome
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 199 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/2/2003
she was serious reviews
they all thought she was joking. this is put under life, or should i say the lack thereof.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/2/2003
Break Me reviews
Stuff I wrote about myself and how much I hate life.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 140 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12/1/2003
And reviews
A song of mine that I wrote about people I know versus me.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 227 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/1/2003
The Worst Torture reviews
A song of mine i wrote about one of my best friends when we got into a fight... i just left out the chorus to make this a poem. read and review.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/1/2003
Thoughts reviews
just some stuff i was randomly writing in my notebook. if youre here to critique (meanly) then you should probably realize this is me NOT trying at all. i am posting this up because i really have nothing better to do. go nuts.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 169 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12/1/2003
The Consternation reviews
For millenias, the world has become a place unto its own: emotionless, heartless, sleepless, but still filled with pain, corruption, terror and hate... so when the "Consternation" begins, and apocalypse is within five minutes, how is one person, a warrior
Fiction: Mythology - Rated: T - English - Supernatural/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,713 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 11/21/2003
Merry Go Round reviews
Life is a merry go round... who wants to get off, who wants to stay?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/10/2003
In My Bedroom reviews
a poem i wrote about looking around my bedroom after i tried to commit suicide there...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 165 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 11/10/2003
Mirror Girl reviews
we're all in denial when we see ourselves for what we are...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 116 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 11/2/2003
Seas Will Cry reviews
a poem i wrote after my parents found out about me doing stupid stuff and sent me to therapy... sounds depressing and it kinda is but please read and review
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/2/2003
Tribute to You reviews
They hear me but they never listen...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 141 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10/27/2003
A Father's Grave reviews
About visiting my godfather's grave in Bainbridge Island, near Seattle, with his wife and two little kids
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 419 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9/26/2003