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Author has written 41 stories for Love, Life, General, Song, Essay, Politics, Nature, Biography, General, War, and Family.

I am an artist of sorts. A song and poetry writer more than anything. Words are my life. They are all I have. It is my therapy. It is my outlet. It says all that I never can. Some also consider me a philosopher. I would suppose I am, but I consider myself to just be a thinker. I think, I question, I ponder, and I change. We are creatures of free will and capable of critical thought. I've been in bad loops most of my life and I feel like my life ponderings are only my attempts to break out of these loops. Often, I just find myself in another. But I think that would make sense. All the universe is a series of cycles. Things change but nothing is ever really destroyed, nothing ever really ends, it is just recycled. I think people are like this too.

My particular life is as pointless as whether to write in black pen or a mechanical pencil. My writings will always reflect that but they serve much more purpose. I place my heart into this work and hope it will be more than just words to someone. They are always more than just words to me.

Thanks for all of the reviews during my painfully long break. I have a mountain of poetry to come. My autobio has been removed due to sensitive material but I expect I will be doing more personal nonfiction work in the future. I have essays in the works as well. I don't know about fiction but I expect a short in the not-so-far future. For the good of myself and the interest of the readers I assure you I will be uploading. Please review, PM, or email me if you feel so inclined. (email can be found on the page linked below)

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Teenage Terror by Estatic Madness reviews
A teenage girl named Anne is cheating on her boyfriend, Adrien, with her drug dealer, Jones. When Jones gets Anne pregnant, she is forced to tell Adrien the truth. Adrien dumps her, and rumors begin to spread, she decides to hire a hitman to kill Adrien..
Fiction: Thriller - Rated: M - English - Angst/Crime - Chapters: 4 - Words: 9,836 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 6/14/2010 - Published: 6/2/2010
It's Not A Sin To Love by Goth Senshi Pheonyx reviews
This is an essay I wrote for my college English class about Gay Rights and such. Rated because I said the "f" word and more people understand the concept at about this age.
Fiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,145 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/18/2006
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Block and Line reviews
It's not stubbornness. It is conviction. It's not rebellion. It is acceptance. No one knows me like me and no one can look out for me as well as I can. That is truth. You'd do well to accept that too.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Family/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 212 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/22/2016 - Complete
Philanthropy Paradox reviews
Complexity and conditions of care... true love... who even knows what that is? True love I don't know, righteous love I do. And I don't think many peoples ideas of true love fit into righteous love. Just my relationships. All of them, in general and incomplete.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 475 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/23/2016 - Complete
Division reviews
Maybe a little political. More about the bullshit state of affairs in the world.
Poetry: Politics - Rated: T - English - Drama/Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 153 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/9/2016
For Love Above All reviews
And for her. For she makes it all a little better.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 187 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/3/2016 - Complete
On the Cusp reviews
Between Life and Death (No swearing. Not graphic. Would still recommenced an immature audience to look elsewhere.)
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual/Mystery - Chapters: 2 - Words: 319 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Updated: 5/5/2016 - Published: 11/13/2015
It's Not Fair reviews
Simply said... imperfection, imbalance, accepted because no better is known (M for swearing)
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Drama/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 446 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/29/2016 - Complete
It's About A Girl reviews
Some girls are nothing but trouble. Some girls cause trouble, some see nothing but trouble, some are troubled and some just live in trouble. She was that kind of girl. And I was trouble. (A short Auto-bio series I plan on doing at random order. The 3rd installment is up as a poem. Rated M because the content is very heavy and I like to swear. Proceed at your own risk.)
Fiction: Biography - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 4,630 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 4/7/2016 - Published: 6/10/2015
Dogs of Darkness reviews
It is about a life long struggle. True depression isn't something you ever really escape. You're just better at dealing with it at times. It is always there. And there is always the chance that it will come out of nowhere and drag you down.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Suspense/Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 300 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/29/2016 - Complete
Hole of Words reviews
Reflection of a purpose, as a writer, as a mortal, as a human being.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/19/2016 - Complete
Just Pull The Trigger reviews
(Suicide ref warning, mature audience only. I feel the title sums it up well enough.)
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 189 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/11/2016 - Complete
Power reviews
Mortality and that which lies beyond it... that which is eternal, everlasting, and limitless. That which cannot ever truly be reached on this plain...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Supernatural/Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 331 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2/11/2016 - Complete
Implacable Love reviews
(I couldn't decide where to put this) In a whirlwind of thoughts that cut into each other while simply trying to grasp the complex nature of what is every day relationships with ordinary people.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Suspense/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/4/2016 - Complete
Resolve reviews
Sometimes resolve requires you to change your resolutions.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Mystery/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 154 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/28/2016
The Essence of Wisdom reviews
As opposed what is now commonly sought and praised knowledge. Ever hear about people who are very smart but also very dumb? Ever hear about a wise person who is not very smart? Intelligence... how would you even measure such a thing? (Bit of modern world bashing in here as I do often. But there is purpose behind that my friends.)
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 115 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/7/2016
The Heart of Dedication reviews
Medevelish metaphorical piece. It's more about life and finding something to live for than it is about 'war'. It is about a warrior though. Mild rating. No swearing. Complete.
Poetry: War - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Spiritual - Chapters: 3 - Words: 650 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 2 - Updated: 12/28/2015 - Published: 10/19/2015 - Complete
Denial: A Home to Inhibitions reviews
I don't feel like writing a summary, but I'll try to anyway. My usual free verse quatrain form and no swearing. Deals with reality and the consequences of not seeing it... Highly accusatory and probably hypocritical
Poetry: Family - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 280 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 3 - Published: 12/28/2015 - Complete
The Black Widow and Her Flies reviews
Injustice and cruelty is little more than a set up. It's best to let it go when it lets you go. (short rhymed couplet - no swearing, no vulgarity, only a pleasant little metaphor.)
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/23/2015
Fire Extinguished reviews
It's a little easy-flow poem about fire. And not. Not at all.
Poetry: Nature - Rated: K+ - English - Mystery/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/23/2015 - Complete
Just another little rant reviews
Building up off of my other rant on the issues I take of modern psychiatry I figure I'd address another more narrow and serious problem in our modern medical ways of dealing with the most common psychiatric problem there is: Depression. Moral of the story - Drugs Should Be A Last Resort
Fiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,159 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/18/2015
Do You Know What It's Like reviews
To be incurable, unendurable, deplorable, and miserable? Or to know that you will deal with the emotional and physical consequences for the rest of your life? (Warnings: Abuse ref, swearing, and possible trigger content.)
Poetry: Family - Rated: M - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 469 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/11/2015 - Complete
Creators of Destruction reviews
Mankind.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 193 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/29/2015 - Complete
Faith No More reviews
The gods and greeds I worship. Forgive me for I have been unworthy. I am unworthy.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Friendship/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 216 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/27/2015 - Complete
In the Deep (let's drown in it) reviews
I've been told that I have a pure soul. My conscience is anything but. And my love is anything but free. I am an old soul. And a very bitter person. All I have wanted was a soul that could meet the level of my own. I am beyond words at the beauty of it and the difficulty of it now that I have found it. Written on a whim - to help explain the unexplainable.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 138 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/19/2015 - Complete
Dark Corners reviews
You should be grateful I said. That you have this monetary resource. Money doesn't mean much to me I responded. There is nothing that comes for free but there is a fine line between work and respectable work. (A heated conversation with myself regarding what I am becoming in corporate America. Set in poetic verse. M for swearing, per usual.)
Poetry: General - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 250 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/14/2015 - Complete
A Reflection of the Machine: At the Doctor's Office reviews
Crazy. They told her she was crazy. And she simply nodded. Just what the doctor ordered. More BS. (Swearing as always, and hopefully a bit thought provocation in here.)
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 958 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/7/2015 - Complete
Grid & Grain reviews
Hypocritical hierarchy, implied anarchy, and the defilement of nature. It was written with the intentions of personal and outward conflict in mind. Dark, as most of my pieces are, but no swearing this time.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/27/2015
Dear Heart, reviews
A short poetic letter to my stupid heart. Rated for swearing, as usual. (have no idea how this ended up in the Sci-Fi category)
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 236 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/17/2015 - Complete
The Most Advanced Civilization reviews
Our modern society... where has it come from and where is it going? A look at the world of today and of tomorrow from an American that in every way wants to be an optimist. Primary topics: Human rights, morality, currency, government and war. It was written because I believe in the human spirit. But I have little hope for our future. (Please take the time to R&R!)
Fiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Drama/Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,683 - Reviews: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/1/2015 - Complete
What Doesn't Kill You reviews
They say it makes you stronger. But they say a lot of things, don't they? (A somber piece about pain. Swearing and reference to cutting.)
Poetry: General - Rated: M - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/8/2015 - Complete
Tease and take reviews
This relationship is supposed to be everything but...
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 123 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6/7/2015 - Complete
Patterns You Should See reviews
A poem I wrote about how I see the world. I urge others to "wake up" and see the world beyond their mundane every day life. To see both its beauty and its problems.
Poetry: Nature - Rated: K+ - English - Mystery/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/5/2015 - Complete
You Think Too Much reviews
I think you think too little. A short poem about my feelings of our modern society.
Poetry: Politics - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 57 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/29/2015 - Complete
Just a little rant
About mordern psychiatry. I encourage any of the skeptics to do a little research. The states have over a 60% misdiagnosis rate. I don't get into much detail. It's just a rant. T rating because I like to swear a bit when I rant.
Fiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 733 - Published: 5/29/2015
Living Dreams, Still Only Dreams reviews
Very short 5 stanza poem about missing a lover. Not terriably original but anyone that has felt this kind of pain will relate.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/30/2011 - Complete
Down Part III reviews
Third in a four part series. Giving up on life and throwing it all away. Fourth and final part has been lost.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 87 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/19/2006 - Complete
Down Part II reviews
Second in a four part series. A story of sad events and love.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 110 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/19/2006
Down Part I reviews
The first of a four part series... After sorrows that seem to come in one after another, one just wants to give up. The tortured mind can no longer endure.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/16/2006
Hurt reviews
Long and very sad. Referances to abuse and cutting. The foundation leaves and the world collapses.
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 467 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/18/2006
Dose of Death reviews
Unintentional suicide. Abandonment.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/18/2006
Memories reviews
My life is fading before my eyes. She passed me by.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 106 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/17/2006
Nevermind reviews
I didn't know what to consider this one so I put it under love, but really, it's about a one night stand and the thoughts it caused.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 469 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/17/2006