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Still alive. Crazy, I know. I won't lie to you guys, the past year and three months have been pretty brutal. Between COVID-19, getting laid off, everything going on in the States - even though I'm in Canada, I know... aaaand then things on a personal level with my second year of school/animation going down in flames along with my mental health and having to be booked in for surgery because my body's a bastard and it hates me... Yeah, it's been rough. I'm still fighting with my mental health, still having episodes where I break down crying over essentially nothing. Not feeling suicidal anymore, thankfully, but my mood is still low enough that it's basically a miracle when I can force myself out of bed to do something productive for the day. (And when I say productive, I generally mean get dressed and take care of my dog and go to work. It ain't much I'm getting up to. A good writing day is beyond a miracle. It might as well be the biggest sign that hell is freezing over.)
The treatment that I usually fall back on when things get this bad hasn't been working, so I don't know what's next in that regard, and that's putting me under a fair bit of stress, and worsening my anxiety. Long story short, it's making writing hard. Extremely hard. I seem to be able to edit okay, but anything more than that is... asking a lot.
It could be worse, I know this. It could be much, much worse. I haven't lost anyone to COVID that I know of. I haven't had to deal with a delusional government that tries to strip away basic civil rights and incite acts of insurrection and deny that a very obviously lethal virus has been decimating my country. I haven't experienced any climate disasters that have led to people starving or freezing in their homes. I'm grateful for the fact that I've been spared that, and my heart goes out to people who haven't a million times over.
Still, everyone's pain is their own. It still hurts, and that unfortunately doesn't diminish the fact that I am hurting. I tried to kill myself via carbon monoxide poisoning in January shortly before I simply couldn't attend my virtual classes anymore due to some kind of weird PTSD-adjacent kind of feeling - just sitting at my computer would unfailingly result in a severe panic/anxiety attack and uncontrollable sobbing along with suicidal ideation - and had to submit a form for compassionate withdrawal from my program. I don't know when I'll be in any mental or emotional state to go back to continue my education.
None of this leaves much energy to write or create much of anything, but as always, I'm trying, guys. I am really, really trying.
I hope you guys are safe and healthy; I hope you're hanging in there. I hope you're more resilient than I am. And for those who are in the relatively same boat as me, don't let go. Don't give up. Keep your loved ones as close as you can. Talk to your friends and find solace in whatever healthy way that you can. Don't ever, ever turn that light out.
Take care of yourselves as well as each other out there. I hope I'll see you on the other side of this global and personal dumpster fire.
All of my love,