Despair Embodied
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Joined 02-26-04, id: 399825
Author has written 19 stories for Life, General, Love, Family, Song, and Biography.
I'm a dreamer, no politer way to put it. The real world, for me, is a harsh one. One that I have trouble dealing with. This is reflected in most of my work. Most of my work has subliminals, hidden meanings that you will find if you read between the lines. As for me, I can be a bit morbid, but I'm generally a good guy. I am what you see when you look into my eyes. Nothing more.

So, more about me. Well, I go for the goth/grunge image but refuse to label myself in any way. I'm just me. I relate to most people through music (bit of a music nut), faves including: Evanescence, Finger Eleven, Lacuna Coil, Chilis, Static-X, MuDvAyNe and the list goes on. Real name is Stuart but I'm better known as Rayne, I eat food, drink liquid, strain when I crap and laugh when nothing is funny. So there. In a nutshell, that's me. As to "Why am I so goddamn morbid and obsessed with darkness", this is best summed up in five words: Dark For Fear Of Failure. And that's all the info ur gettin'! So begone and lose yourself in my weird world of weird-worldlyness.

P.s. Big up to the best five-piece female alternative punk band in Essex, Trash Monroe. They're unsigned so any record labels reading this, TAKE NOTE! Visit the website at

P.p.s. Just a quick note to thanks everyone for the reviews and support. Keep 'em comin'! -Despair Embodied 2004.

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Breathless reviews
Okay, another right old random one. WARNING! extremely abstract. Basic idea for this one was the question "what if you forgot how to breathe". Tell me what you think.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 539 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/25/2004
Deified reviews
Don't ask what this was about. I had random words in my head and this is what came out when i put them on paper...or screen, whatever. So hey, sue me. I'm having a bad day.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 498 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5/18/2004
Voices reviews
Thousands of them inside your head, all speaking at once. A poem of delusion and schizophrenia.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 606 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 3 - Published: 5/11/2004
The Screams Of Your Mind reviews
A song I wrote, primarily about voices in your head telling you that nothing is real but you fight to believe something different. Credit to Lisa for the title for this one!
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 566 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/11/2004
Entombed reviews
A poem about two things; being trapped and dying alone. A tribute, read the author's note at the end.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Suspense - Chapters: 1 - Words: 702 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5/11/2004
Despair Embodied 2004 reviews
Dedicated to Laura. Inside, I'm still myself. Times change and I have to change with them. Hopefully this will make you understand.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 681 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/11/2004
The Unknown reviews
No stimulus for this one, just a random piece. Oh and there's a secret prize for the one who can guess what the poem talks about. It's kinda weird/morbid but bear with it. Thanks - Despair
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 343 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 4/26/2004
Annie reviews
Fiction about a girl who's been ritually abused. Read the Author's Note for more of an explanation. Rating is for upcoming strong theme.
Fiction: Biography - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 3 - Words: 2,367 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 4/26/2004 - Published: 4/22/2004
Guiding Light reviews
Another song I wrote. The stimulus for this was primarily lonliness and feeling lost, like you can't live on and you need someone to guide you. Please R&R.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 649 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/20/2004
Why Couldn't You Stay? reviews
A poem about the death of my father and how I feel about it. It quite abstract and may sound a weird way of putting it but it's just how I express it. R&R.
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 225 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 4/8/2004
Divine Retribution reviews
A poem I wrote, primarily about failure. Based around my own sense of inner-failure toward a certain task and person. Please R&R.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 430 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/8/2004
Why Is This In My Head? reviews
A poem primarily about dying. Kinda morbid (but isn't all my work) but I consider it to be one of my best. Beware the abrupt ending! Please R&R, let me know what you think - Despair.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 118 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3/28/2004
Believe reviews
A poem to bring hope, to ease depression. Idea came from people telling me how depressed life makes them. This goes out to all of you. Believe in the lie. . .
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 133 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/25/2004
Used reviews
A general poem about being used. Quite abstract, not aimed at anyone in particular, just a general rant. R&R.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 231 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/22/2004
Jaded reviews
Forty minutes in the making at a mate's house. The pen was there, paper was there, I was there and what can I say, it just happened. One thing led to another and...I didn't mean for it to go this was just a kiss...erm...wrong subject...R&R.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/17/2004
I Am reviews
Well I was bored. I was sitting at a computer, my fingers were idle, they needed to type and this was the result. Please R&R.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/12/2004
Past and Present reviews
A poem a wrote about and for an ex-girlfriend. Meant alot at the time, means nothing now. I only have it up here because it seems to attract reviews like flies to a meat sandwich. Sue me.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 198 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/10/2004
Ascention Of The Spirit reviews
It's a poem. Just a poem. But it's a poem, in a way, that's dedicated and about my friend Tindie who will be leaving us soon. Please R&R, it's only a short one. Tindie, if you read this, don't interperet it in a nasty way; that's not how it's meant!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 38 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/6/2004
Still Dreaming reviews
A song I wrote, primarily about the pain felt when realisation hits that dreams, however vivid, cannot be real. Partially based on personal experience: the loss of my father. Please review constructively.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 630 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 3/2/2004