Chaotic Charisma
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Author has written 177 stories for Friendship, General, Life, Young Adult, Love, Humor, Essay, Family, Nature, Humor, Politics, Religion, Fantasy, Work, and School.

Good writing is about sharing your story and making it the reader’s story too. It’s about telling your truth. It is full of not just symbolism and grammar but also emotion, thought, fear, lust- reality, life. Full of what makes us; full of the reasons we love so strongly and fight so hard. It’s about making them see or feel something they never considered before. It’s only real literature if it makes you pause and reflect. It’s only real poetry if it leaves you in a different place than the one it found you in.

I am a writer; I guess that means I want to feel things for a living. It's my hobby, my pastime, my release, my outlet, my way of life. I want to be able to share my story, share my truth, and change the world one heart at a time. I want to be able to make people understand in a way they couldn’t unless they experienced it firsthand.

I enjoy the company of other future starving artists of various media- paint, music, theater- and because of that I've got some very odd friends, but I wouldn't trade them for the world. I got into my top college and then got the bill; now I go to state school, and I am getting more real-world experience than I could have hoped for anywhere else. I tend to notice little things and miss the big picture entirely; things like bright colors and stuffed animals make me absurdly happy. I am a Gemini and I think that explains a lot of my personality. I am very much a gay rights activist, although- or maybe partially because- I believe that sexuality is a fluid thing and no one is quite ‘gay’ or ‘straight’ in the same way that no one is really one hundred percent anything- that’s called labeling and stereotyping, friends. I run a magazine on campus, and I hope to start one 'in the real world' after graduation. I get it all the time- English isn’t a real major- but I do believe that words, that art, has the power to make a statement, to preserve a moment, to capture a feeling, to change the world.

Since college started, my world has expanded. My writing, always the way I kept in touch with myself, has somehow fallen to the back burner. Until college, I was never at a loss for words; but until college, I was never really aware of how much of a difference the actions of just one person could have. In a way I have both found and lost my voice; this summer, I am spending the majority of my time struggling to combine the two- and, of course, trying to save a decent amount of money for the next school year.

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Your Local Super Hero by Coping Mechanism reviews
If you could have one super power in order to be one person's personal hero what would that power be? And whose Super Hero would you be? Rated PG 13 for two lines of sexual inuendo.
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 1 - Words: 398 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/27/2005
Monochrome by citrus scented reviews
I just tried to get out some of the bad thoughts in my head, and this was the result. This is a very personal poem, but make of it what you will.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 151 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/22/2005
Kerosene by Coping Mechanism reviews
It's good, just trust me, read and review please. I put lots of thought into it, very philosophical, partially based on a dream I had.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 362 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 2 - Published: 3/7/2005
Fashionbly by Cecil Wazowski reviews
This is something I saw once. It was curious.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 68 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/20/2005
Page the First by AboveTheSalt reviews
"...Pouring delicate honesty into China teacups...". First writing in a 7+ series about my love.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 232 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 3 - Published: 2/19/2005
Naked by citrus scented reviews
you were wrong. (to the 2nd boy who burnt me)
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/17/2005
The Fray by vintage fade reviews
'The fray, it's the time when you change, when nothing happens, Nothing goes right, Everything's a mess, You want to get away, BUt you can't, Because you're stuck inside, The fray.'
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 348 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/1/2004
Trigger by Coping Mechanism reviews
The tiniest little problems can sometimes set off memories of childhood traumas and self loathing and trigger severe depression. It happened to me today.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 395 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/6/2004
Sudden by vintage fade reviews
I was singing this phrase I had in my head, and so I decided to make it into a poem. I guess you could say it's about a girl breaking up with her boyfriend,for no apparent reason. Hope you enjoy. r and r
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 124 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 2 - Published: 8/27/2004
Vengeance by silentcontours
this goes out to you! you know who you are and what you deserve! R&R thanks
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 121 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/22/2004
Fury by vintage fade reviews
Hard to describe. About a mad girl? I don't know. I like it. r and r.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/17/2004
The Boy Around the Corner by Artificial Refuge reviews
Basically a gay teenager has been kicked out on the streets by his parents. Rating is probably just me being over protective. Please review-I'd love to know what you think!
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 189 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/8/2004
Fresh Air by Coping Mechanism reviews
Original release on 8-5-04 RE-RELEASED FOR LACK OF REVIEWS A depressing song I wrote about someone I miss, I wrote this while next to my window, breathing in the fresh country air at 5am, crying.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 272 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 2 - Published: 8/7/2004
Tarnished by emizulu reviews
Short. Yes. Good? You tell me
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 44 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 8/4/2004
I Want to Love You by Russell Fourth reviews
The subject of the song isn't aprroved of by the speaker's peers or family
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 238 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/4/2004
Bring Me Down by hiding behind amber eyes reviews
i was gettin yelled at and all that...yea u all know what it's like. feedback would be great
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/4/2004
The Confession I will NEVER make by TheOneAndOnlySammy reviews
I have NO Idea where this came from, i was in a crappy mood! please review
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 239 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/4/2004
Undecided by Blood Is My Food reviews
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Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/4/2004
Ugly by zamthezombieman reviews
A mark for each mistake...Bruises on your face...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 110 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/4/2004
Brain Damage by zamthezombieman reviews
Self-Induced Brain damage, a more extreme form of masochism
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/4/2004
I Don't Need Your Hands by Russell Fourth reviews
It's about the sensations by other than things sexual that foster love
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 195 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Published: 8/3/2004
Simply Kelly by Simplycliche reviews
Kelly Lauren doesn't know what to think when one of her best friends is discovered to be a lesbian she's okay with it but hardly anyone else is. This story conveys the complicated feelings of a young girl soulsearching to find out who she really is.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Drama/Humor - Chapters: 4 - Words: 14,403 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 7/23/2004 - Published: 6/23/2004
No Regrets by Artificial Refuge reviews
A sixteen-year-old girl has endured enough of her abusive family. She decides to kill herself. Please review!
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 845 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 2 - Published: 7/12/2004
The Middle by Demetrius reviews
An attempt at a new writing style. Read and review, and I'll come back and finish it someday.
Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,598 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/2/2004
Worship by L.M.Crow reviews
Who worshiped who?
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 206 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/22/2004
Green Eyes by Erys reviews
A poem on Wanderlust...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 166 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/11/2004
Deliverance by Erys reviews
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 154 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Published: 1/25/2004
Tears by Erys reviews
Title is self-explanatory
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/20/2003
Remembrance by Erys reviews
Poem dedicated to a friend
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/23/2003
Halfway Written, Not Done Yet by Giesbrecht reviews
Stupid, short... but if you write like I do, you'll know exactly what I'm talking about
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 4 - Published: 12/29/2000
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Woman reviews
Speaker gets drunk, her friend doesn't, they have sex. She feels guilty, but it's her job to just pretend it never happened, because she's the woman; so she'll starve or hurt herself to be unnattractive, and forgive him. Love this one. Bitter, raw, real.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 396 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Published: 8/27/2010
Four AM reviews
I freaking love this one. I try to express every anxiety and memory and hope and fear in a college student's head at four AM as I should be sleeping, but can't. Expressed using really unusually-combined words/images. Experience captured.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 434 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/27/2010
Someone reviews
I remember when you were someone worth knowing. Then you started trying to prove your masculinity. Now you're someone who will hit a lady, turn your back on your friends. I remember when you were someone to me. Now you're a real man instead.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 210 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/16/2010
Back To Bitter reviews
This is what it feels like to be in a relationship with someone with auto-immune disorders. It's a cycle of fear and hope, anxiety and celebration, even guilt. She's healthy and everything's great, then she gets sick, and you're back to bitter again.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 204 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/10/2009
Heat Lightning
Heat lightning in the sky, and also the heat between lovers. A simple metaphor that uses lots of s-based alliteration, toys with style and format, and attempts to capture the heat and passion between two women and compare it to the energy of a storm.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 187 - Published: 7/8/2009
SelfFulfilling Prophecy reviews
Stop telling me you're too stupid to do this, stop telling me it's too hard, stop telling me I'm going to give up and leave you. It's a self-fulfilling prophecy. You keep telling me it'll happen, and, it will.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 195 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 12/26/2008 - Complete
Ball Game reviews
We're playing a game, and we've been playing for so long that the stands are empty, there's not even a referee. Soon I'm going to leave too, and then you'll be making baskets against yourself. It's not worth the prize anymore.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Reviews: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 12/26/2008 - Complete
Food Bank reviews
Just a depressing little ditty about how I am officially poor; I used to be too proud to borrow five dollars, and hey, now I'm wearing tattered clothes, working two jobs, and begging for food. Poem is addressed to the receptionist at the foodbank.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 254 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/19/2008 - Complete
Savior reviews
My best friend. Cross-dresser, sweetheart, bad things happen to him, I take care of him. I guess... this whole time, he didn't want me to. I could save him from homophobia, then, but he's so desperate and broken now, and I can't save him from himself.
Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 355 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/30/2008 - Complete
Martyr of America
This guy plays the hero because his snack food is so expensive, his life, so hard. I listen to people whine about dumb things all day and barely afford to make ends meet and live in a crummy apartment and am hungry some nights. Who's the real martyr here.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 456 - Published: 8/10/2008
Babygirl reviews
This one's my diamond in the rough. Lots of people I'm close to have been sad or hurting lately and I want to cuddle them and take the pain at me. This one's directed at my girlfriend but the feeling's pretty universal I think. It's charming I like it.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 263 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/22/2008
In Twenty Years reviews
College, late night. I'm sitting here pondering my life, not sleeping, ignoring my partner. Knowing that in twenty years, the same questions will haunt me in a different bed.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/5/2008 - Complete
Moonlit Words reviews
Not your classic moonlit words love poem a cutesy almost juvenile idea it's not that you look prettier in the moonlight, it's that the moonlight looks prettier with you in it, and should thank you. Only that's too darn dorky to say out loud.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 104 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/30/2007
Statistically reviews
This is actually kinda old, and about how gays can't get married. Statistics say marriage ends in divorce anyway, stereotypes say divorce is the cause for my sexuality in the first place... we fight and yearn so hard... IDK, just read this.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12/30/2007 - Complete
Platonically Correct reviews
I call my friend cuz something's bugging me and I can tell her anything we talk it out turns out it's HER bugging me I've been missing her lately, a bit more than is platonically correct. Aww.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 212 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/15/2007
Fallen reviews
The real title is the name of the girl who jumpedfell off the parking garage at my school. We don't yet know if she's going to live. I had to write something. I hope she lives... or at least finds peace.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 234 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/15/2007
Conundrum reviews
I don't need you, I do care about you, but I know it'd be better for you if I leave, but I'm afraid that would hurt you so I'm just gonna hang around until you leave of your own accord. The poem is much better worded, and not so trite. I'm working on it!
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 209 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/11/2007
OpenNote Quiz reviews
Ive been away, I forgot I had uploaded all these. This is OLD and its a plea from a party animal for an easier opennote quiz because obviously school is about partying, not studying. I really overheard these statements, too, which is why I hate college.
Poetry: School - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 140 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/11/2007
Image reviews
Sort of a throwback to my angstridden days. You try to LOOK like a real friend but you never act the part. You're just upholding your image. I, on the other hand, refuse to cut up who I am just so other people, even you, accept me. I love my angry pieces.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 163 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/28/2007 - Complete
Physical reviews
Emotions are felt physically too. I've come to love the first few moments of the morning because I don't think of you right away and that's when my heart is lightest. Just a short reflection on a moment today.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/13/2007
Open Eyes reviews
I've swallowed my pride and gave up part of my very identity so we could stay together. And he didn't notice a thing. He should talk to my ex I didn't have the willpower to do that when I was with HIM. Or maybe I used to have more selfrespect.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 196 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/13/2007
You reviews
Sweet, soft. About knowing someone. Really knowing them down to the core. About letting that person be totally vulnerable and holding that person up while they show you how their peices all fit together. About seeing yourself through their eyes.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/30/2007 - Complete
Common Knowledge reviews
One of my sad relationship moods. We both know we're not going to last. We both know why. We both know how to fix it... and we both know why we aren't going to. Cute and sad.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 110 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/30/2007 - Complete
Just To Be reviews
She's just a little off, something's missing, no one can really put their finger on it but something is undeniably wrong. I'm trying to be a grownup and earn her return... I want her to come back and just be our mom again. Short sweet and poignant.
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 203 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/19/2007
Lullaby reviews
There was this moment a couple months ago in the car. She was singing to me, but she thought I was alseep. I kept faking it cuz I wanted to hear her sing. I tried to make a poem out of it. Here.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 199 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 5/26/2007
Forgive Me
Wrote this on my way back from visiting a school five hundred miles away. One of those I love you too much to leave you things, but mostly a guilt trip hypocritical thing, cuz if she were the one leaving me for education I don't know if I'd forgive her.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 239 - Published: 4/2/2007
Spring Bird reviews
I was sitting in math class totally ignoring my poor professor because I heard the first spring bird of the season! Then I wrote a cutesy poem about it cuz I'm cool like that.
Poetry: Humor - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/9/2007 - Complete
Three Hundred Miles reviews
Cute little poem about how this new school I like is three hundred miles from all that I can't wait to leave... but also three hundred miles from all I can't lose. Maybe I could be somebody there. Maybe I'd be someone worth waiting for.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/24/2007 - Complete
Glimpse reviews
She never cries in front of me. It's like she can't. When she does I feel like it really means something. I wanted to tell her that she doesn't have to be tough for me. I love everything about her, especially the part of her that cries. Structure intended
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/22/2007
Winter Break reviews
First day back to school after winter break. You know everyone around you is just as tired and aggravated. You know everyone is thinking the same thing. These are the morons I have to put up with until May.
Poetry: School - Rated: K+ - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 197 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Published: 2/17/2007 - Complete
Why I Don't Write Anymore reviews
Someone asked me why I don't write like I used to. It was my dream. This is a sad but true reflection of that question. Truth is, I might not be good enough. Truth is, writing won't get my bills paid, and I refuse to be a housewife with broken dreams.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 287 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/9/2007 - Complete
No Model reviews
She got all dolled up for him he just wants her to wear sexy lingerie. He's all kinds of dissappointed that they can't find any and she feels awful cuz she tried to look pretty, but all he wants is the models on TV.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 282 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/1/2007 - Complete
Painting reviews
To anyone else and even to him their relationship is a perfect picture. But she's screaming inside.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 280 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1/17/2007 - Complete
Burn reviews
How to explain? Another lesbian sex poem but this time theres something different first person explanation of the things that are said when there's a fear of being left behind and actual attraction beyond the lust when at least one is dependent.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/18/2006
Band reviews
A momentary fear of commitment. She takes the ring off and is playing with it. Sometimes it looks like a wedding band and she's happy about the relationship. Sometimes it's like the ring they break horses in and she's afraid the same will happen to her.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 159 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/21/2006 - Complete
One reviews
Narrator wants to feel close to her partner who really just wants to get laid. Your hint: Being inside means two different things to the two girls and therefore in the two separate stanzas.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/21/2006 - Complete
A Pretty Poem Or Two reviews
My writing came back the other day so I spit out poetry during class like it was my job. Which it should be. Anyway this one is about the fact that I had nothing to fight for, no point to make, no emotion to get rid of... I simply wrote a pretty poem.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 73 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/2/2006 - Complete
Partner of a Squirrel reviews
Everybody's in a rush. Not even the squirrels have time to stop to say hello or view a beautiful sunset. But some of us, like me, or like the squirrel's partner, still appreciate the little things...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/2/2006 - Complete
The Powder Forum
Bathrooms in college have such interesting grafitti these days. The voice of America sounds off in the powder room American girls apparently communicate through black sharpie markers.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 57 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/2/2006 - Complete
Sparkles reviews
A tribute: to writers, to my nickname, to my sexuality, to hidden messages. A questioning: of stereotypes, of conformity. An abstract examination of everything I'm thinking about. I dont know what this piece is, but I really love it.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 3 - Published: 10/17/2006 - Complete
Sea Girl
At the beach there was this toolittle girl all alone, singing to the ocean. She was watching the other kids playing with their parents. I wrote a pretty, short dedication to her. It's really a commentary on the family.
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Published: 10/17/2006 - Complete
Does This Hurt Tentative Title
Cheating on your girlfriend is bad for you! And this is a creative way to learn it! She always told the stupid boy not to hurt himself, and he did it by cheating kind of thing. Jerkface.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Published: 9/5/2006
Erin's Allegory
It's about work. And everything else. Go ahead and tell me what the connection is.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 116 - Published: 9/5/2006
Closure? reviews
Sure, it's lesbians making love, but it's about the emotional connection, the way she encourages her to be herself, the way she makes her safe and helps her overcome the past and fear. And so on. READ!
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/7/2006
Alarm Clock reviews
Actually, this one's also about how people get too caught up in petty things to realize what's important, if you think about it. Which I'd like you to do This one's a new style for me
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 228 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/7/2006
Stupid reviews
Another one about stupidity of humanity, on the whole and as individuals. We're so caught up in petty nonsense that we're letting the good things go to waste. Another moral wrapped up in a true story which therefore is sad.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 130 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/7/2006
Super EARTH DAY! Market reviews
bout society and hypocritical bureaucracy, how we're screwing the Earth over, how only children understand, how people only do good to make themselves look good. True story, so it's not preachy at all, just sad.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 127 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/7/2006
Handkercheif reviews
Bit erotic, but I tried not to overdo it, the ending is supposed to make you feel abandoned and dropped on your head just like he did. Oh, and ITS NOT ABOUT THE SEX!
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/7/2006
Hate Crime reviews
Cameron blames herself for the fact Taylor is in the hospital and stays by the bedside, night and day, waiting for those half hours when Taylor gains consciousness. Keep the title in mind and see if you 'get it' at the end. Oh, and tell me what you think,
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,064 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/12/2006
I Could Fall In Love With reviews
My cute and corny country song inspired by my girlfriend, utterly exaggerated but based entirely on truth. Something everyone can relate to: sometimes she's just a pain, but the way she makes up for it is something I could fall in love with. Aw.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 378 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/9/2006
Road Rage reviews
Angsty rhyme I honestly wrote while driving behind someone incapable of working a car. It's fast-paced, angry, pointless, and very easy and affirming to scream out your window as you drive.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/9/2006
A Special Kind of Cancer reviews
Nonfiction really, sort of a blog. Page-long essay comparing leaving for college to dying because of all the loose ends you gotta tie up, etc. I did some crazy diction work so let me know if you come out with the impression of death I intended.
Fiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 764 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/6/2006
Diversity Scholarship Essay reviews
If I nail this I get ten thousand dollars, renewable, towards my tuition. Need I say more? I included the prompt, please read and butcher this and help me make it worth ten thousand bucks. There you go, that's your challenge, have at it. Please?
Fiction: Essay - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 659 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/11/2006
Infatuated reviews
About being infatuated and letting someone in for the first time in a long time. She can see the colors I see in the dark. Maybe letting her in will help me learn to trust other people too.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 214 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/24/2006
Cashiers Are People Too reviews
Cashiers are people too. You should be nicer to them because a happy cashier is a helpful cashier. This is all based on real life experience.
Fiction: Humor - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,516 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/24/2006
Three Little Words reviews
Basically about not being able to say it because I'm too afraid to slash not ready to, but it's definitely coming.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 196 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2/24/2006
Dumbass of the Day reviews
This is a cute little fun piece I wrote about being an hour early to work and being unable to clock in cuz the manager was there.
Poetry: Work - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 126 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/24/2006
One In A Million reviews
I wrote this about a flower at a funeral. My friend's cousin died and even though I never met the kid, he affected me by dying. It's cute, it's not my best which is why you should read it and help me improve.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 228 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/24/2006
Flowers and Sunshine reviews
people, regardless of age and position, all want the same things; flowers and sunshine. We have the same dreams about our children, marriages, futures, mistakes, pasts, and deaths. Read it once for pattern, once for meaning.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 264 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/5/2005
Emerald and Kuranda reviews
I'M NOT UPDATING UNTIL SOMEONE REVIEWS THIS! Kuranda and Emerald, and their pets Tamu the giant spider and Samaki the psychic pessimistic fish, find themselves transported to our world after the sky explodes.
Fiction: Fantasy - Rated: K+ - English - Adventure - Chapters: 2 - Words: 1,846 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10/11/2005
Chosen reviews
I killed myself cuz I hated being gay and some disembodied voice told me that all the pain and hatred and broken friendships, well, it was a mistake and I could go back only straight. Would I do it?
Poetry: Religion - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 352 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 2 - Published: 10/3/2005
Suggestions reviews
I'm not what I think I am, I'm not what YOU think I am, but I'm open to suggestions about what I SHOULD be...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 59 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10/3/2005
Queer Mind Game reviews
Flirting with this gay chick at work. Pay special attention to the style/voice, it changes with the stanzas, I did it on purpose. True story, too! :-D
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 230 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/3/2005
Good Morning reviews
This sort of sucks but I was trying out a different style. It's following a little adventurer person around and observing how nature is pretty PLEASE tell me how to improve.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 743 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9/6/2005
Terrorists reviews
Got political, everyone loves when I do that... this also kicks ass... not as angsty, says stuff like come back from your vacation, and stop picking fights on the playground. You're not in Texas anymore- in theory anyway. Then I call him a terrorist.
Poetry: Politics - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 468 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 8/12/2005
Corporate America reviews
I so kick America's ass... Welcome to Corporate America/ The only country in history/ To be owned by the news company/ And still consider itself free.
Poetry: Politics - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 376 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8/12/2005
Grow Up reviews
This is just me being angst-ridden at a friend who won't grow up and realize that I AM going to college I DO have my own life and we're not dating anymore and I never WAS property. I mention restraining orders. Sort of a throwback, isn't it?
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 266 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/5/2005
Beautiful Stranger reviews
A queer visiting a carvial. Pay attention to what I REALLY say.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 348 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/5/2005
Write On reviews
Writers and artists and anyone who really creates with a passion will understand this one.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 395 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 7/19/2005
BlueNotBlonde reviews
My odd hair color reflects my odd thinking; freaks people out but I think most people actually want a friend like me. After all, "I really think the world coulde use/ A few more sweetly smiling freaks/ Whose hair is blue, not blonde."
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 224 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 7/19/2005
Reminiscing reviews
Funniest thing I've ever written. I don't want to spoil it, just read it, I promise it's quick, it's to cheer you up after reading my last few posts. And its a SONG!
Poetry: Humor - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 256 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6/29/2005
Beautiful reviews
MA ONLY! Evil graphic rape poem, because some things you never get over. Dark and depressing and painful.
Poetry: General - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 220 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/29/2005
Swallow reviews
Graphic. Different. Plz tell me what you think, cuz it was hard to say. Feeling like a whore and hating it. I know I can come, but, can I come clean to you? I know you can swallow, but can you swallow your pride?
Poetry: General - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 434 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 6/29/2005
Give It To You Straight reviews
Just a cute little gay-oriented rhyme that breaks up the depressingness of my last and next posts. It's cute, read.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 127 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/29/2005
Fake reviews
Don't love the fuck-up; I fake it. I make it obvious so you'd know I fake it, but you never notice. Could be about love or sex or both, I guess, depending on interpretation.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 264 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/29/2005
Love Song reviews
Really pretty... infatuated with a girl with a boyfriend...
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 181 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 6/23/2005
MotherDaughter Bond reviews
Hm, okay, so this one is kinda sorta really bad. It's a lot of angsty ranting about how I wish I had a mother... ever... but parts of it are salvagable. I'll come back and fix it up sometime AFTER FINALS, okay? Just let me know which parts not to scrap in
Poetry: Family - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 546 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/15/2005
Pharaoh reviews
Jacob has been in a car crash and think he's 11 years old. Michael is really a girl. It's depressing now, a look at finding oneself and so on, but eventually the two become friends; you can't judge what a person is just by what s/he looks like. UPDATED!
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 3 - Words: 5,617 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Updated: 6/9/2005 - Published: 3/20/2005
The Last Time reviews
It's a sequel. This'll be the last time I really let myself care/ Because even I'm tired of hearing myself whine... I'm not kidding, that's how it starts. Idk if this'll make sense to anyone but the kid it's directed at, but hey, good luck.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 269 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/26/2005
Last Time reviews
You screwed me over and pissed me off for the last time deal, though I never actually say THAT. I know, I've "beaten this subject to death" apparently, but, I was ticked. I meant it then, I probably don't now, but whatever.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 302 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/25/2005
Good Riddance reviews
High school seniors, college freshmen, what is WITH this whole screw-my-friends-I'm-moving-on-to-a-better-life-and-I-don't-need-you-no-more thing!
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/24/2005
Kinks reviews
Uh. Really have to let this one speak for itself. It's sexual... but not graphic.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 242 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 5/24/2005
Prom Queen reviews
Well, a bunch of petty sluts were bitching about how prom wasn't good enough for them, so I spent Civics class fantasizing about tossing them all into tar pits.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 454 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/23/2005
Love and Approval reviews
Oh, just me rambling about how nobody loves me for me... it was my homework. It's actually about how people don't LOVE me unless they APPROVE of me. What I do and how I act. Well, all that can just bite me and here's a poem saying so.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 247 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 5/16/2005
My God reviews
Uh, your god is a bastard and we should diagnose him with something to make up for it. My god's better than yours. Here you go, get pissed off. Have a nice day!
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 207 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/16/2005
Civil Union reviews
Civil Unions: Yippee. We're finally almost close enough to be considered equal to the straight people. This is more obviously from a gay standpoint... I hope this makes up for the confusion from my last piece... -shakes head at the assumptions people make
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 5/12/2005
American Values reviews
Queers are against Traditional American Values. Or so they say. Of course, I'm the (GAAAAY) child of a divorcee, so what would I know about family values anyway?
Poetry: Politics - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 128 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 5/11/2005
No Child Left Behind reviews
I've been feeling highly unpatriotic. This one is a little about the act and mostly, why are we teaching kids if they're just going to serve in a war and die?
Poetry: Politics - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 86 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 2 - Published: 5/11/2005
What Am I? reviews
It's like one of those What Am I riddles. Rhyme about the characteristics of the object. I can't marry or defend the country that's been so good to me- land of the free. What am I?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/11/2005
How Far Back reviews
Not to ruin the punchline, but the idea was, now that you're coming back, how far back are you planning on coming, and how far back am I going to have to keep you before I can trust you, and how far back down the timeline do we have to look? And so on.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 159 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/10/2005
Catharsis reviews
Ode to my dead fish. Or so it would seem. Maybe he helped me realize something. The piece is still in denial, figure it out.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 176 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 5/10/2005
Green reviews
Friendship: It's a green light and you're driving: Hit the gas or hit the brake. Ooh, why didn't I use that line in the actual poem?
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 5/10/2005
Welcome Home reviews
Kinda a sequel to Senioritis -scroll waaay down. I miss this guy, and I want him to come back to be a friend, not to continue acting out whatever role it is he thinks he needs to fill. That's a horrible summnary, just read.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 425 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/30/2005
Trust reviews
Hey, I made a metaphor outta that trust game. You know, you fall backwards and hope your friends catch you? Say, that already is a metaphor. This is what happens when you spend so much catching everyone else and then they leave early. Anyway, here you go,
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 232 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/30/2005
Diamonds to Dimebags reviews
This, on the other hand, I really like. When you are a little girl, it is ponies with flower tattoos and plastic diamonds. Then you're a teenager and it's boys with skull tattoos and plastic dimebags. It's really pretty.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 2 - Published: 4/26/2005
New Life reviews
Not my best, slightly cliche, but I like the ending. I cleaned out my room and threw out my old life. Thing is I threw out all the reminders of an old friendship along with all the childhood things I'll never use again. Kinda wistful. Growing up and clean
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 218 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4/26/2005
Radical reviews
Radical? OH yeah, I'm worse'n a freakin' Democrat. Uh. Inspired by my Civics class yesterday. Being an outcast and supporting other outcasts just amuses me. And this one's political and I really like it.
Poetry: Politics - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 4/26/2005
Place reviews
Tough to describe. Someone thought I should have a pocket mirror cuz I'm female. It made me think about how I'm supposed to be vs what I am and how people will always want you to change and accept their version of reality and responsibility.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 160 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4/26/2005
Dress Code reviews
Hey, how often do you read a poem about being ticked off because somebody tells you how to dress? Literally, I got in a fight with someone over whether or not I could wear a shirt in public cuz it wasn't "me."
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4/26/2005
Mindless reviews
This is kind of amusing and makes a point all at once, go me. Once again, how I was feeling last night. Thinking about how my mind had wandered off and comparing it with a friend who wandered off.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 183 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 4/8/2005
Turtle reviews
Like I said, I was home alone and lonely and bored and angry and weird last night, and this is my exact string of thought. It's actually quite amusing although slightly sad because I sound like I hate life.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 153 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4/8/2005
Door reviews
Idk what to call this. About the divorce, about being in the middle, about not knowing the people you live with, about growing up, about locking everybody else out. Uh, about living in my house! BTW, somebody get me a better title.
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 294 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/8/2005
Bathroom Grafitti reviews
Home alone last night, couldn't sleep, angry, tired, lonely, and I just wrote about the first thing that came to mind. True story. I like it because you can read into it as much as you want. Go ahead, tell me what you see!
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4/8/2005
Papercut reviews
The anxiety attack that leads up to cutting because you don't know what else to do.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/8/2005
Desperate Suicidal reviews
You know how kids act all stupid because they're "crying out for help? Skip this one if you know me so you don't get mad at me. Um. Kinda graphic cutting reference. Sort of angry. Like the title.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 302 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/8/2005
The Girls' Room reviews
I was gonna change names and orientations of my friends, and, couldn't be bothered. A lesbian trying to explain the world of the heterosexual female! It's really funny! Still being worked on, but you get to have fun with it now.
Fiction: Humor - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,647 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 8 - Published: 4/1/2005
Vicious Circle reviews
If you're gonna assume it's about you, don't read it. In other news: Do you think it's possible to love somebody too much too soon and scare them away? Funny when being appreciated makes you want to leave.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 417 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/1/2005
Newsflash reviews
This is amusing. It's kinda funny and it makes a couple of rather valid points. It's about the news channel and snow. I used real quotes but changed the names so no news channels can sue me now.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 468 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4/1/2005
Magic reviews
I really like this one, but you tell me what you think. Cute and sad, about losing innocence and losing the ability to believe in something without proof of it. Your faith, really. And the fact that growing up like that can ruin high school friendships.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 190 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4/1/2005
Gay Pride reviews
The people online told you about this great world, but you tried to be proud like them, and now it only hurts worse. Go figure. Umm. The stanzas are supposed to match but be opposite, let me know how well I did on that. You'll see what I mean.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 2 - Published: 4/1/2005
Different reviews
Just another cutesy little thing about the airport. Being part of the scenery, and being different.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 56 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/1/2005
Airport reviews
My town is all white and heterosexual. Walking into the airport for the first time was culture shock. I LOVED IT. Basically just observations, about realizing diversity exists out there, and literally, a poem to a black man.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 268 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3/20/2005
New Friend reviews
About having trust issues with new friends who try to get to know you too fast, think they know what they don't. You're not going to scare them away by letting them know all of you. You like them, they just think they're more enlightened than they are.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 602 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/20/2005
EightyFive and Sunny reviews
Puerto Rico was really different, and I really liked it, and this is me reflecting and ranting while waiting for the car to take us to the airport again.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 686 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/20/2005
Sanitarium reviews
The true story of how well Metallica lyrics fit my life the other night. Lol. I'm in trouble for having friends yet again. Not just with my mother, but with my siblings, and with my other friends. Life is dumb. :-D
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 606 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/20/2005
Hole Friendship reviews
You're not allowed to ask questions on this one either, if you have them don't just leave them in the reply. The poem itself is about emotions changing a friendship and how it could be good or bad. Idk if I should be posting it. We'll see.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 395 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/20/2005
Label reviews
Something nice and depressing and slightly self-loathing for you to contemplate the week I am gone.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 131 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3/4/2005
Vacation reviews
'If you don't hear from me again, I didn't come back from Puerto Rico, I got a sex change, cut my hair, and am now living in the basement of a couple of nice old ladies and using the name Frederico. Just so you know."
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 139 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 2/28/2005
Fucking Queer reviews
All us fucking queers destroying the world. Uh. DO NOT read this if you aren't really really comfortable with homosexuality and the like. I was making a point. I was also depressed. But better now.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 318 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 2 - Published: 2/28/2005
College Freshman reviews
I know you're tired about my rants on lost and damaged friendships, but I KNOW you can relate, so I am still posting the rants I write instead of talking to the people. I will eventually. Maybe.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 305 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/28/2005
Red reviews
Well, it was write this, or do that. -shrug-
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 69 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 2/28/2005
Stop reviews
Well, I wasn't going to call it "Rape," now was I? This isn't as good as the original, but that was lost when my laptop died, sniffle sniffle...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 361 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/28/2005
Bastard reviews
For all the people who loved you and left you. Randomly. Usually without a goodbye. Friggin' bastards. Yes, this one has swears... it's my new favorite though.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 497 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 2 - Published: 2/24/2005
Honey, Turn the Radio Up reviews
Is this about having a big fight or sleeping together? big eyes What's the difference, anyways? Both can be covered up with a loud radio.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 200 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 2/24/2005
Conflict reviews
I think it's about trying to run away from yourself. I do it often enough lately. I was experimenting with sound, so let me know what you think.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 75 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 2/24/2005
Relapse reviews
I spit this one out in history today. Make of it what you will, because I'm tired of explaining myself and I'm tired of apologizing.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 180 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/11/2005
Concrete and Honey reviews
A bunch of words, arranged in a way to rhyme and have rhythm... uh... It's just about the world and living in a box and such. I almost called it "Blind Date," so now you know the inspiration.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 118 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/10/2005
Too Late reviews
Holding back when you really, really shouldn't. Not saying goodbye or I love you when you should. Now it's too late. I really wish I didn't let him go without saying what I should have.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/10/2005
Tracy and Misty reviews
This is Tracy edited, more stuff, new chapters, and journal entries from Misty. Less flowery than the last one.I'm leaving the old one up for a bit so you can see the difference or pick up where you left off, or whatever.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 6 - Words: 11,878 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/31/2005
Missy's Rant reviews
I only post this kind of junk when I'm very angry or very depressed, so if it pisses you off... I guess it's supposed to. Love and friendship and how we all destroy it.
Fiction: Essay - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 2,767 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 1/31/2005 - Published: 12/17/2004
Foggy Day reviews
I know this one is bad, but it's supposed to be. Think about the title and the imagry. It's FOGGY. Like the FRIENDSHIP. Amoral grey. Everywhere. Covering everything. See?
Poetry: Nature - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 230 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/23/2005
Crazy Man reviews
Random guy moved in next door and then moved in here. Wants to be part of the family. And every time he drinks, he comes over, and tells me what's what. I really don't like being alone with him.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 256 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1/21/2005
Regression reviews
I won't apologize when I don't know what I did, and you're being a drama queen, the same way I used to be, and I love you, but you won't believe me, so I hope you have fun figuring yourself out cuz I'm sure not sticking around.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 236 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/11/2005
Trigger reviews
Repressed memories; hiding the past even from myself. Did something that triggered the memories and made me realize why I'm so afraid. It's a metaphor, and also what actually happened, how I realized it, or whatever. Fiction? Confession? I wonder.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 471 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1/11/2005
National Giving Up Day reviews
It's been a hard week and the three people I love most certainly made it difficult when they wanted to. I'm better now, but here's the poem about how everyone gave up on everything on the same day.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 457 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1/7/2005
January Riverside reviews
Let's see. I live near the river and I was really depressed and pissed off, so I went down to the dock and kicked snow into the water and ranted and raved about everything.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 359 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1/7/2005
Captive reviews
About a girl being caught in her life, but not written that way. Hard to explain. Different perspective on being used, I guess.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/17/2004
Now That You Know reviews
You just haad to figure out what I was all about. You wanted to know what the big secret was, since everybody has one. Well, do you feel better now that you know?
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12/17/2004
Consolation reviews
I know... another gay theme... but only because of the lack of sympathy. I had a fight with someone else about it, and this is the consolation I get.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 120 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12/17/2004
Christian Catholic reviews
Hey, PLEASE don't anybody be offended. One girl's views on her religion and my views on my sexuality had major clashing issues and this is what happened. I don't care what religion you are. Just her version.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 161 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 12/17/2004
Untitled II reviews
I want to love you, it's everything else that's complicated! Unrelilable narrator only gives part of the situaion, I guess. Read deep to get it all, I know you can. October.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 458 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/5/2004
The Apricot Song reviews
...I've never had an apricot. But this is in answer to Kevin and his crazy peach song by those crazy people. -Millions of peaches, peaches for free- yeah... welll... we're insane.
Poetry: Humor - Rated: K - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 176 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/26/2004
Tracy reviews
She's a femme, she's in denial... what more do you need to know? And she's BI. Much longer than the others. I'll update by chapters. Lookit, I added a new transition... and she has -friends- now!
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 6,845 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 2 - Updated: 10/22/2004 - Published: 9/12/2004
Control Addiction reviews
Title doesn't exactly fit, but you need to see the laaayerrrrs. lol. I was upset and all I could get from the one person around who I thought could help was, "So change, it's your own fault anyway." Ah. I ranted. It's better now.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 183 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10/1/2004
Homo reviews
Yes, you read right. This is how being everybody's gay girl got started. Some kids want to take my pride to the level of obsession; I don't like being a celebrity all that much.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 369 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 2 - Published: 9/19/2004
Excuses reviews
First three stanzas part one followed by part two; it doesn't flow right otherwise. Pretty much the straight people blaming the past they don't know I have. Kind of gets tiring after a bit.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 495 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/19/2004
Just Everybody's Gay Girl reviews
How a label dictates who you are, how people need to have a reason for the way you are. I used to be your friend, but now I'm everybody's gay girl.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 240 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/19/2004
Devil's Voice reviews
No, not literally... ten points if you can figure out the metaphor... it's not too hard if you know me! Ha ha. Can't decide if I like it or not yet. You?
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9/12/2004
Damn The SecretKeeper reviews
This is fun, and says things, too! Loosely RL. About all kinds of things that have come up this month.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 174 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/8/2004
Me, Too reviews
A girl has a secret... as do I... can she keep it? I can too. But will I keep it from her? You know, that kind of fun stuff.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 251 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9/8/2004
Innocence
Depressing. Spelling errors. But that's not the depressing part. The girl is fictional... maybe based on parts of people.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 153 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/8/2004
Confusion reviews
Just Missy-style babbling. Really. From some random bout of depressing uncertainty.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/22/2004
College Sendoff or Final Sleepover reviews
Staying strong for college-bound friends so they've less to worry about... wasting the time you should be treasuring. Lol, sorry to single you out, my friend. Your words tend to be the match to someone else's fuse.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 234 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/18/2004
Long Goodbye reviews
Saying goodbye to a close friend in preparation for college... it's hard to leave, hard to be left, and REALLY hard to find the words to make sense out of all the feelings.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 311 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/18/2004
Untitled reviews
How to summarize? It's good, just read. It's all I can say at moment. My choice you can't control/ my turn, so you can't roll...
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 360 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/8/2004
Transition reviews
you said you'd always talk to me/ don't you dare fall away/ I don't know what it is you see/ I don't mind if you don't say/ ... I'd rather not know that risk losing a friend.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 252 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/8/2004
Closure reviews
Metaphorical... about something that happened to me years ago that I just buried? Just an old pain I never got over I'm finally learning how to face. Idk about the quality but let me know!
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 317 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8/3/2004
Blunt Retaliation reviews
A close friend once told me to wait until my emotions built up enough for me to snap, and then it would be my turn to have fun in this hetero- eat- homo world. He was right. Enjoy.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 364 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/26/2004
Savage Instinct reviews
Coming out is a battle of many voices in one's head, among them fear, anger, pride, shame. Raw angst and emotion at being perceieved as different, reference to friends, girlfriends, boyfriends, religion, family, school, and anything else you can think of.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 789 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/26/2004
Abomination reviews
Random accusatory/retaliating angst directed at a souring friendship. You'll like this one.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 190 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/26/2004
Jordan reviews
Continuing my story "Amber" through her friend Jordan's eyes. I'll warn you; this piece is much darker than my last, also needs some editing, and... well. Hopefully it pulls you right in without shocking you too badly. :)
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,721 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/26/2004
Now reviews
I didn't know what to title this one, it's a little about how things have changed so fast and not the way I thought they would?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 192 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/20/2004
Untitled as of yet reviews
Utter confusion is all I have to say. There's been a lot of things happening lately. Some emotions you just don't know what to do with.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/20/2004
Something reviews
This makes no sense and was purely an emotional outlet... but I thought it might do a few people good to read it. It's about keeping secrets you shouldn't, I suppose, goes along with Obstructive Criticism and probably every new post for the next month.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 451 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/20/2004
Obstructive Criticism reviews
There's no way to summarize this one. lol. When by hiding the truth you spin lies deep enough to possibly lose the person closest to you. Idk, I'll come back and fix this up.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 572 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/8/2004
Amber reviews
Confused, closeted, possibly still in denial, Amber decides to come out to her friends. Little bit of personal experience, you'll all see it. this before I came out myself as sort of a way to prepare for it. Suggestions appreciated.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,349 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 3 - Published: 7/2/2004
I don't know what to call this reviews
In fact it's hard to believe this came from me. I don't know.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 239 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 7/2/2004
Final Answer
An apology and goodbye, of sorts... reference to The Calling lyrics, I know.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 199 - Published: 6/30/2004
Individual?
Not sure on the title. Getting mad at possessive boyfriends. Needs some work, but most of these do.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 226 - Published: 6/30/2004
BreakUp reviews
Stupid breaking up with people without really breaking up.. another oldish one.. lol, love ya hon :D
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 462 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/30/2004
Free Spirit? reviews
What happens when Missy gets upset with her control-freak friends.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 291 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/30/2004
Untitled So Far reviews
When the fact you're graduating messes up all your friendships, it's like you don't feel anything, right?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 389 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/30/2004
Closted, Plague, Metaphor reviews
Who's up for a triple shot of gay pride!
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 348 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/30/2004
Senioritis reviews
Stupid Graduation. Does funny things to people. Causes random fights. Luckily, those don't last :D
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 226 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/30/2004
Make It Up reviews
People and their empty promises, lol. I love making up ppl and messing up their lives.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 524 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/30/2004
FYI reviews
Hmm. Yeah, I was mad... and no, I didn't explain anything in here so if you don't know, you won't know.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 171 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/30/2004
Carcinogen reviews
When friendships go awry.. prolly not about who you think, this one needs some work yet.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 354 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/30/2004