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Joined 07-14-04, id: 425059, Profile Updated: 06-05-11
Author has written 63 stories for Life, Love, Horror, Essay, Politics, Spiritual, Fantasy, Fantasy, and General.

It's been a while. I work for writing reviews and editorials. http:///author/brent-hedger That's a direct link to everything of mine published on the site. I don't have much else to say, I've become much more introverted since the last time I was here at least 5 years ago. I'm shocked, but kind of happy they kept my account alive. I might start really writing again, I might not. [Edit] Looks like I have started writing again. It's been awkward, but the old cliche is kind of true: It's like riding a bike - you never really forget how to do it. Sometimes it feels like I have to drag the words out of me, but it works.

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The End
My marriage has ended and this is just me venting.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 60 - Published: 10/10/2011
Not Again
Just another of me bitching about the fact that it feels like someone else is dealing all the cards and they're using a marked deck, stacked against me. A lot of my work is me trying to deal with my feelings of disenfranchisement.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 162 - Published: 7/21/2011
Return
This one isn't really supposed to be too meaningful. I write to cope sometimes. This is another one of those times. I've been in therapy and it's been painful and difficult. All I'm doing is trying to get back to where I was years ago.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Published: 6/11/2011 - Complete
Industrial Entertainment
Everyday we see the general decline of our entertainment. A network makes a hot new show and then 3 other networks make the same thing. Monotany and banality are the gruel which the entertainment industry feeds us.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Parody/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Published: 6/11/2011 - Complete
Chicken Little World
Deforestation, resource depletion, natural disasters, global catastrophies, the end of nations, the end of the world. We're force-fed messages of impending doom our whole lives.
Poetry: Politics - Rated: K+ - English - Parody/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Published: 6/11/2011 - Complete
The Political Stage reviews
This is what it's like to view all of the news networks in rapid sequence, hearing all the doom-saying, spinning, lying, and outright garbage these people use to rape our minds.
Poetry: Politics - Rated: T - English - Parody/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 106 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/2/2011 - Complete
System Failure reviews
Another new one, newer style with more format.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Parody/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 87 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/1/2011 - Complete
Outrage reviews
I finally decided to knock the cobwebs out of my brain and start trying to write again. This is what came out. It's out of sorts with the stuff from years ago.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Parody/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/1/2011 - Complete
The Isle
This is a very Lovecraftian piece.
Fiction: Spiritual - Rated: T - English - Supernatural/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 694 - Published: 1/25/2008 - Complete
Trapped In Hell
The title is once again rather self-explanatory
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Published: 10/24/2005
The Grass Doesn't Grow Here Anymore reviews
It's al symbolism
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/24/2005
Disjointed
I think the title speaks for itself
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Published: 10/15/2005
Nameless forever in the face of hatred
DEATH, DEATH, DEATH, DEATH! That's all this one is. It had structure at some point. Welcome to the sickest part of my mind.
Poetry: Fantasy - Rated: M - English - Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 174 - Published: 9/10/2005
Walk a Mile in my Mind
Too depressed to care...I'm sick of talking. No one listens. If they could only see inside my head.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 213 - Published: 3/16/2005
One Cold Night in Dead December reviews
More dark stuff. This is a stretch for me, though. I decided to play with things like rhyme and structure. Tell me what you think.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 143 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/15/2005
Damned in Flames
I write sometimes to simply get my own thoughts straight. This is another one to help me understand what's going on in my mind. The master of self-inflicted angst and misery is BACK! Sadly.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 130 - Published: 3/14/2005
Urban Wolf reviews
Ok, the wait is finally over. I'M BACK! More death obsessed and darker. I'm finally back to my old style. Granted my little tangent gave me some new ways to twist things, but the old subject matter is back!
Poetry: Fantasy - Rated: M - English - Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/10/2005
For my muse reviews
Good God this out of character stuff keeps coming...when will it end! This is another for her. I'll get over it soon. Enjoy.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/3/2005
The Realm of Dream reviews
Another odd one...wholly out of character...again. I don't know what keeps coming over me. Maybe it was something I ate. This one is for no one in particular. Try to find all the homages to H.P. Lovecraft. Read and Review.
Poetry: Fantasy - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 300 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/1/2005
The Priest
What would happen if a young priest were to take a confessional from a murderer. Now what would happen if that murderer killed someone near and dear to him? Read and Review.
Fiction: Horror - Rated: M - English - Horror/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 609 - Published: 2/24/2005
The Grave Waltz reviews
I don't know why I wrote this. It's quite a step outside of my usual work but I still like it. Read and review, please.
Fiction: Fantasy - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 382 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/18/2005
A deeper view of life
Ok this is uncharacteristically deep and pretty much just prose. It isn't a poem and it has no structure. Read it anyway. You might like it.
Fiction: Spiritual - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 206 - Published: 1/26/2005
Siren Song
This is for the same woman from Just a Picture. Too bad she'll never read this one either.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Published: 1/24/2005
The day my gaze fell upon the floor reviews
I surrender.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/19/2005
Just a Picture reviews
She doesn't know it's for her. She'll never know it's for her. Hell, she'll never even know who wrote it. I don't care. I had to get this off my chest.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 120 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/19/2005
What the hell have I?
I think the title is rather self explanatory? I work and fight and what the hell have I?
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 73 - Published: 1/19/2005
Another Nail in the Coffin reviews
Another nail in the coffin, another reason I'm going to fucking kill you all.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 206 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/24/2004
I blame God
5:30am
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 202 - Published: 10/15/2004
All for Naught
5:30am, very pissed off, nothing to comfort me but pencil and paper. This is what came out of it.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 124 - Published: 10/15/2004
It Paused, As if to Shrug
Why do I bother writting summaries? Does anyone use these things? Does anyone care? Obviously not. Read this and see why I think the way I do.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 228 - Published: 9/19/2004
Where Mortals Fear to Tread reviews
I found this one in an old notebook...Enjoy!
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/16/2004
The Aftermath of a Revelation
Consider this new style just another part of the new me.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 153 - Published: 8/12/2004
The Orgamsic Rapture of a Sadistic Murder reviews
Rated R for explicit literary depitctions of violence, gore, and sadistic sexuality...enjoy!
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Horror/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 564 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 7/29/2004
Insomnia
I just wrote this one so it's fresh off the gridle that used to be my brain. I can't sleep and Idon't know why.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 267 - Published: 7/24/2004
My thoughts on Controversial Video games
I made this post on a video game message board. I made a lot of fans doing it and reportedly a of them have sent this to various Pro-Censorship organizations. Now it's here for you to read
Fiction: Essay - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,636 - Published: 7/21/2004
Rejection reviews
If you can't relate to this poem then you're a LIAR. Everyone has been down this road before. Read and enjoy.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 106 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/21/2004
Ripped from Inside
Have you ever felt something deep inside that seems to tear at you and govern your emotions?
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 141 - Published: 7/21/2004
America reviews
Don't worry, this isn't a truly political piece. It isn't patriotic either. Just read and find out.
Poetry: Politics - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 43 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/21/2004
Narrow Minds reviews
Another piece from high school. I fucking hated those narrow minded fucks. I wrote this one after one of the narrow minded cocksuckers forced me to get violent with them and I abhore violence.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/21/2004
Everyday reviews
More high school angst from the freak's end of things. Everyday I wanted to die more and more than the last.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 86 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/21/2004
My Editorial
WARNING: What you are about to read was me venting after I got a ticket for violating the noise ordinance at 3pm. My stereo was too loud. I unloaded on that cop, I unloaded on this document.
Fiction: Essay - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,146 - Published: 7/21/2004
My old Manifesto reviews
When I was a senior in high school some self righteous asshole wanted prayer in school. Not on my watch!
Fiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 681 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/21/2004
Welcome to a Tortured Soul reviews
This was something I found that I had scribbled on what was supposed to be my history notes. The school shrink at the time found it, hence the name. That was her first real look at how fucked up I was.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/20/2004
The Loser reviews
This one was written back when I was still on drugs. I got really fucked up and was laying on my basement floor when a spider ran across my field of vision. When I soberd up most of this poem was stuck in my head.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 116 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/20/2004
Refuge of The Loser reviews
This one was written while I was a 5th wheel. Not a third, but a 5th.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/20/2004
It Makes Them Go Away reviews
Self inflicted pain. Bleed away your troubles.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 188 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/20/2004
Lying, Bleeding
This was one I wrote a while back. It was going to be a song for my old band, Headtrip but we broke up and that was the end of that.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 127 - Published: 7/20/2004
Duality
Another part in the ex girlfriend series.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 294 - Published: 7/20/2004
Bad Taste in my Mouth reviews
Another one of the
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 54 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/20/2004
Razor In My Spine
My first love, first time, first anything used to write me these sappy poems all the time. The relationship ended VERY badly and one day shortly there after I found a box with all these poems. I decided to re-write them and inject my thoughts.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 28 - Published: 7/20/2004
The Creatures In The Hills
Written in first person. I went to investigate supernatural phenomena in rural Tennessee and what I found was far beyond even my most hideous nightmares.
Fiction: Horror - Rated: M - English - Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,422 - Published: 7/16/2004
What If? reviews
Have you ever carried something in your heart for so long that it tears you apart?
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 388 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/15/2004
Within These Walls
Isolation, desperation
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Published: 7/14/2004
Nightmares
Sleep, Those little slices of death...How I loathe them Edgar Allen Poe
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 65 - Published: 7/14/2004
Lost reviews
Some of us die without ever fulfilling our destinies
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/14/2004
Life
What is Life?
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 187 - Published: 7/14/2004
King Of Sorrow
How life can make us feel
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Published: 7/14/2004
For the One With Raven Hair reviews
Even with this eloquence I still didn't get any
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/14/2004
Face Down in the Gutter reviews
The degenerates in the gutter have company
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/14/2004
Drive reviews
A metaphor for life
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 100 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/14/2004
DeConstructed reviews
This is for someone I knew
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 185 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/14/2004
Closure reviews
What better way to say good-bye?
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/14/2004
Death of a Wandering Soul reviews
Depression
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/14/2004