I'm SilverRaiine...I'd rather live in the country, but I live in a city. It's disgusting here. Somewhere with lots of trees...That'd be nice. I'm ready to move out from my home with my family, but I haven't a place to go yet and I still have university to deal with, so my tree-country-dream thing won't be coming true anytime soon. I like rain, thunder, and lightning for weather. Winter is my favorite season. My favorite colorsare green and black. I'm NOT a goth or much of a rebel, but I keep my life to myself. I learned the hard way..

I haveplenty of friends, but I wouldn't tell them anything. I lost one of the best friends I've ever had, known on this site as Nocturnal Whisper. If you read her poem called Don't Say That, that's the last poem she wrote. It's about me. It still pisses me off, as she got the meaning of my words wrong. She...She was basically trivializing how I felt...And people do it so often that I had to..I had to react. I'm often happy, often sad. So much shit's happeed to me that my head spins. I think Nocturnal Whisper knows, but she sure as hell doesn't care. That's her main problem. She...She doesn't pay attention, really. She's so damn caught up in her own feelings that she doesn't realize that even though she thinks she's being nice, she's not (See 'Don't Say That' for referense to niceness). But if she's reading this right now, as we have made up, this is just critism, nothing to get up at...

If you don't think I'm right about any of it, don't worry. I'm probably wrong. I hate myself for it too...I don't deserve to live, but I do anyways...I don't know. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I just don't. Nothing goes right. I should die...I should die...It'd be so simple...but so complicated. All I'd need is a knife and a quick movement...Cold metal against warm skin, flowing deep red dark blood...

I'm often happy, often sad. So much shit's happeed to me that my head spins. I think Nocturnal Whisper knows, but she sure as hell doesn't care.

And she might even care. Who knows? I think she does, at times. I don't know why she's so sad, all the time. I wish I knew...

Just so you know, the email isn't mine. It's my friend's. She doesn't read any emails that are sent to me (trust me, I'd know.) So if you send any emails, could you please put in the subject box, something to the effect of. 'This is for SilverRaiine'? Even if you put 'SilverRaiine' in there, that'd be great. Other than that...it doens't matter. She knows everything about me, so it doesn't make a difference if she sees.*