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Joined 10-12-04, id: 439676, Profile Updated: 03-01-09
Author has written 49 stories for Song, Life, School, Friendship, Humor, Religion, General, General, and Love.

3/1/09- I finally got around to adding those poems I meant to add on 3/30/08 as well as some more recent ones. :)

3/30/08- So times flies, what's new? I've been writing a lot of poems and posting them on facebook, but this is the first time I've actually gotten around to coming back here and updating. Yes, for the most part my poems are still wonderfully depressing and a few from January will have to be marked M because they get pretty graphic. Again I must reiterate, do NOT read my poems if you are a cutter and/or suicidal. Believe me, even writing them (which is supposed to help me get my feelings out and feel better) and especially reading them later led me to do things I really wish I hadn't done. If my own poetry can be a trigger for me, I'm sure it could be a trigger for you, and I don't want anyone to hurt themselves because of something I've written. For anyone else, feel free to read, as long as you're not too squimish. And on one last note- I've left in the ending part of my old profile for a while now, and I see no reason to remove it, but I no longer stand by those poem favorites. If you want to see what kind of writer I am now, read one of my more recent works (there ARE some that won't be rated M and there's even one that's actually happy/not emo!!). Of course, for my early works, the poems I list below are not bad, but honestly, my style has changed greatly over the last two years and I believe my new style has far more potential.

11/21/07- Yep, the day before Thanksgiving and I finally got around to updating my profile and even uploading a new poem. If anyone's been reading up on my page (which I doubt), you know how I said before that I'm not depressed? Well, apparently I lied. The penname still doesn't quite fit me though, cuz to be honest rage is the emotion I have the most trouble expressing. It sounds better than a really emo, sad screen name though, so for the time being I'll leave it be. Anyway, since I last updated in 2005 basically my whole world has changed. Not just that, but I now understand better where the feelings that motivated many of my poems came from. Basically, my poems are sad and depressing; I'll admit that now. While most of the earlier ones have positive or at least redeeming endings, I can't say that about all of my poems, especially the newer ones. I'm going through some stuff right now...have been for a while actually. My poems will reflect that and are not intended for anyone under the age of 12 or 13 or whatever this site has decided a "teenager" is. I'm an adult now (yay, lol...18, but still), so I don't really care anymore. But anyway, I would also caution anyone who is dealing with serious depression, addiction, cutting, suicidal thoughts, or other similar problems against reading my poems, at least while you are in a vulnerable state, as they might provoke/intensify your problem. But enough of that; here is what's left of my old and familiar profile (the part I consider still mostly factual) for any who are interested (it starts abruptly because my old greeting does not fall under that "currently factual" category):

I love hearing from any and all reviewers. I enjoy reading the reviews that compliment me and I can use the others as construstive critism, so no matter what you think of my work, feel free to respond. I will try to review one of your works if you review one of mine, but unfortunatly, I can't make that a promise.

If you feel like reading a poem or two of mine and don't know which to read, I can give you a suggestion. My personal favorite is Faith, followed by Guilt and then Analysis. Oh yes, and if for some reason you would like to leave a review but can't because the site is having problems, feel free to e-mail me to tell me what you think of my poem(s). I look forward to hearing from anyone who would be so kind as to review my poems (and stories if I ever write any).

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Three by Serendipitous Passage reviews
When I was born, my parents wanted me to be a doctor. They chose compassion, duty, and peace as my Three. They hoped these emotions would allow me to connect with others, while pushing me to do what was best for the Coalition and accept others choices.
Fiction: Sci-Fi - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,179 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 4 - Published: 6/8/2009 - Complete
Never Ever Will I Ever by a duel of pens 111 reviews
never trust a faerie...
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Fantasy/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/25/2008 - Complete
Here's to Friendship by DreamWriterZ09 reviews
What happens when friendship is abused...
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 242 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 2 - Published: 4/1/2006
Fallen Hero by a duel of pens 111 reviews
The injustice unfought, the battle half won
Poetry: Fantasy - Rated: K - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 366 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/19/2004
Finding Balance by Zen Phoenix reviews
A trip into my world.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 196 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/31/2004
the Wall by Serendipitous Passage reviews
I built it to keep the world world out; now 've trapped myself inside.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 139 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 3 - Published: 10/31/2004
Lucky Watch by vanessarrr reviews
It was homework for my Creative Writing class. It's not an original concept but... a man finds a watch that seemed to have made him succesful. He considered it his 'lucky charm' but others suspect that a curse may be involved. Very short, one page story.
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: K - English - Supernatural/Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 452 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 10/29/2004
Standing Alone by lronMaiden reviews
When you're cynical you tend to shut yourself away from everything & everyone "If only I were not as cold as marble, a statue in some twisted garden."
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 189 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 3 - Published: 9/10/2004
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My Home reviews
I wrote this for the prompt "Home." It is about my concept of home and how my partner fits into it. Written 7/7/19.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 558 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/7/2019 - Complete
Then, Now, Tomorrow reviews
I wrote this poem for the prompt "Then, Now, and Tomorrow," about my past, present, and future in relation to my demisexuality, demiromanticism, and relationships. Written 6/29/19. CW: Mentions of non-consensual acts
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,067 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/7/2019 - Complete
How I Love You reviews
I wrote this about my feelings for my partner. We're in an alterous (not entirely romantic or platonic) relationship. Written 6/27/19.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 154 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/7/2019 - Complete
Words I Couldn't Say reviews
TW: Mentions of suicide and self harm. Written for my partner, who identifies as gray-aromantic, this poem expresses my initial reaction to her explaining her feelings for me. Written 6/20/19.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 375 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/28/2019 - Complete
Alterous Affection
I wrote this poem about my alterous relationship with my new partner (though it's almost been 2 months, so "new" may not be categorically correct anymore). Alterous Attraction is often defined within the asexual and aromantic communities as being not distinctly platonic or romantic but maybe adjacent to or a mix of both, possibly with other aspects too. Written 6/20/19.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 89 - Published: 6/20/2019 - Complete
You
I wrote this about my girlfriend at the time, who I had started talking to first through facebook, IM, and texting the day before me met in person. I already felt a connection to her, even though we had never officially met.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 260 - Published: 3/1/2009 - Complete
Waiting
I wrote this in April of 2008. I had recently been diagnoses as Bipolar and I was frusterated with all the meds and the fact they leave me without highs or lows, but simply coasting on a little below normal.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 47 - Published: 3/1/2009 - Complete
The Two Sides of Me
This is a poem I wrote in January of 2008 right after I came out to my family and friends. I treat myself as two seperate people in this poem, the one my family and friends knew and the one that was hiding in the closet all along.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 308 - Published: 3/1/2009 - Complete
The Chaos Within
I wrote this poem in December of 2007. It is pretty emo but I'd say it is one of my best poems. Not graphic so I will not rate this one M. Just about anyone should be fine reading this. Maybe some can even relate.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 310 - Published: 3/1/2009 - Complete
The Blood, The Blade reviews
I wrote this in February of last year, 2008. It is about cutting and it's pretty graphic and emo. Please do not read this if you are struggling with cutting or any kind of self-injury. Also don't read if you are squimish.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/1/2009 - Complete
So Many Feelings
I met one of my exes through facebook and starting a club for my college. I wrote this for/about her two days after we started talking online and a day before we first met in person.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Published: 3/1/2009 - Complete
Release
This one is about cutting and it's very emo. Please don't read if you are a cutter and this might send you over the edge. Especially if you are stuggling with quitting...please just don't risk it. I think it is a good poem, but not for the squimish.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 198 - Published: 3/1/2009 - Complete
My Vow reviews
I wrote this for/about an ex a little over a week after we started dating.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/1/2009 - Complete
Labored Nights reviews
I wrote this January of 2008. I tried something new this time and wrote about myself, but in second person point of view. I think it came out well. Yes, it is emo. You've been warned. I think it is one of my best poems though.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 224 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/1/2009 - Complete
Fear reviews
I wrote this about an ex-girlfriend, about a week after we first started dating. It's a little emo, but so is most of my stuff.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 363 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/27/2009 - Complete
Disappointment
I wrote this Christmas Eve 07 but I honestly don't remember writing it at all. It was just sitting on my comp so I think maybe I wrote it on there first. It's depressing, but so is most of my stuff around that time.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 287 - Published: 2/27/2009 - Complete
Who Am I? reviews
I wrote this two years ago when I was struggling with the feeling that I no longer knew myself anymore. It seemed that I kept making choices that contradicted everything I believed in and stood for.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/22/2007 - Complete
It Matters reviews
Basically I wrote this poem this past spring about something that had been troubling me recently. It is my longest poem, as well as possibly the most revealing.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,095 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/22/2007 - Complete
Biding Time reviews
This is a poem I wrote recently about the struggles involved with depression.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/21/2007 - Complete
Too Much reviews
Often I feel like I'm being pulled in way too many directions and that people expect too much of me. This poem basically explains that.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/15/2006 - Complete
Insomnia
It's about the craziness of life and...I bet you couldn't guess...not sleeping.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 56 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/15/2006 - Complete
Starting Anew reviews
Just a short poem about reanalyzing my life. Please R&R.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 59 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/26/2006
Lies and Deceit reviews
This poem was inspired by the guilt I felt after doing and saying some things I am not very proud of. I was pretty disgusted with myself.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Published: 5/26/2006
My Truth reviews
This is a poem I wrote after hearing some unfortunate news. R&R
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 112 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/25/2006
Changing Me reviews
It's a bit like a song, but not quite. It's basically about desperation and feeling like you need to change, along with determination towards the end.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/22/2004
Conflicting Emotions reviews
My emotions are a mystery, even to me. I never cried when my grandpa died, yet I did cry when my friend left to go to bootcamp for 3 months. None of it seems to make sense.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 140 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 11/22/2004 - Complete
Pain reviews
It's about pain, if you couldn't guess. I'm not quite sure what I was writing about. The words just came into my head, so I really don't know how to describe it. I'm still trying to figure it out myself.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/22/2004 - Complete
Letter to my Friend reviews
This is a poem about the difficulties I had in writting to a friend of mine who went to bootcamp. I couldn't decide what to say or how to convey it in a letter.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 148 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/22/2004
Courage reviews
My name means brave. In this poem, which is most definatly free verse and almost unlike a poem, I recorded my feelings of the true meaning of that word, "courage."
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 89 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/5/2004
Adrenaline Rush reviews
Well, this is probably the one and only upbeat poem that I will ever write. You can thank my favorite TV show for putting me in the mood to write something happy for a change.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 39 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/5/2004
You Won't Understand
Well, this poem basically describes my need to put up a facade around everyone so that noone sees the true me. You could say I have trust issues.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Published: 11/5/2004
The Problem With Poems reviews
This is a poem I wrote about how hard it is to express what you feel inside in a poem, especially when you feel confined by the style of rhyming.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 293 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/1/2004
Truth reviews
It's the truth, or at least, what seems to be true, about the paradoxes of this world. It's short, so please R&R.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 72 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/31/2004
False
I've made up a lot of false stories in my life about myself and other things. This poem expresses how hard it is to tell which parts of my life are true and which parts I have made up.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Published: 10/29/2004
Why? reviews
Well, yet another poem by me about life. This one does not have the upbeat, religious type ending that some of the others have simply because this ending fit better.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10/29/2004
Vigilant
Well, I wrote it for school. I was meant to use a lot of descriptive adjectives and it's not quite a story. It's about a field hockey player.
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 208 - Published: 10/25/2004
It Happens
Well, I started (I thought) writing about one thing and it turned into another. Not to mention I could not come up with a good way to end it. It's not very good...you've been warned.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Published: 10/25/2004
Guilt reviews
I was thinking of all the songs and things that talk about washing your hands of a problem and I wrote this poem about how truly wrong that idea is.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 72 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10/20/2004 - Complete
Nothing Is Done
I was thinking about this one song that talks about us, the people, being truly responsible for the way things are, so I wrote this poem about my thoughts.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Published: 10/20/2004
Faith
Well, it's one of the better and more uplifting poems I've written, in my opinion. Read it and judge for yourself, and then please R&R.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Published: 10/18/2004
The Children
I had been thinking alot about how the world raises youth who rob from and even kill one another. It's not a depressing poem though.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Published: 10/18/2004
On My Own
Well, in my head, this can be sung like a song, so I categorized it as such. It might be more of a poem, although it does have a repeating chorus.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Published: 10/18/2004
Loneliness reviews
This is one of the few free verse poems that I've written. Most of them tend to be more sad in nature and I think I've developed a recognizable free verse style. I don't like the results as much as some of my other poems, but these get my point across.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 44 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10/18/2004 - Complete
Analysis reviews
I can't really describe this one. I believe it to be one of my better poems, but you will have to be the judge. I always accept constructive criticism, and if you like my work, I love to hear that also.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 131 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/17/2004
Stress & Press
Okay, well, it's a poem, lol, but you probably guessed that. It's not that funny, but feel free to read it anyway and please r&r.
Poetry: Humor - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 46 - Published: 10/17/2004
Away reviews
It seems that friends are always coming and going around me, in and out of my life. This poem basically expresses those feelings. Please R&R.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 62 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Published: 10/17/2004
2 days 2 Go
I wrote this last year when I had, you guessed it, 2 days of freshman year to go. It had a middle part, kindof like a chorus, but it's mood and length, and basically everything about it didn't fit.
Poetry: School - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Published: 10/17/2004
Ever Feel? reviews
I truely just wrote this a few minutes ago while sitting at the computer. You could say I was inspired...read the poem to find out who is responsible for my inspiration.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/17/2004 - Complete
Fallen Hero
I suck at summaries. It's about heros and the difficulties of being one. I wrote it about cops, but it can be about any hero, depending on how you read it.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 252 - Published: 10/17/2004