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Author has written 49 stories for Fantasy, Life, General, Friendship, War, Essay, and General.

I wrote this poem-scrap a long time ago. It represents who I used to be. I can barely remember that person now.

the same as ever, she stalks through life

a pretence of company

a reality of untrusting solitude

her life

is

a volatile mess

what is the point of hope?

it never works out that way.

Hope is important. Without hope there is no living, no life.

Smile at someone, laugh with someone else. Enjoy life to the max. These things all sound so terribly overused, oversaid, dry, meaningless, do they not...? Don't take them as such. Believe them.

Live.

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Phale by Trajo reviews
Phale is a character that just kinda appeared.
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 447 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/30/2007
Anguished Faces by Anna178 reviews
...can't I live within my own life, or do I want this feeling so badly I seek for more to live...?
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/22/2006
Run by Trajo reviews
Really long, I'm really proud of it.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 283 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/6/2006
Cloud Strife, the end of innocence by Elliptical Shapes reviews
Nine years ago I played a game called Final Fantasy 7, at one point it made me cry. I've tried to write about that part of the story here, I think it's the most tragic and emotionaly blinding game I ever played.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 3 - Published: 2/11/2006
Embrace the Xanga by trash can art reviews
I am by no means propagating or soliciting an offer to sell or buy a Xanga. Rated 'STFU' for badly attempted humor. (REVISED)
Fiction: Humor - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 731 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 2 - Published: 12/29/2005
Let Me Show You by Trajo reviews
Let me show you what's going on...
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 42 - Words: 11,710 - Reviews: 179 - Favs: 6 - Updated: 8/30/2005 - Published: 3/10/2005
Repressed Memories by darkmistresslae reviews
Everything I want to forget comes creeping back to me. It scares me. Longer A/N inside, R&R!
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 351 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/11/2005
Glass Ceilings and Marbles by Second Hand Screams reviews
Just got hit by a wave of depressing lines, so here they are. It's a bit more of a longing for the past kind of thing, maybe? Helpless?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 325 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/25/2005
I've Never by dustytiger reviews
a very depressed peice, about how i feel when i'm really down, pls r&r
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 3 - Published: 3/15/2005
Witch Hunt by Second Hand Screams reviews
Burn the witch, burn her out! (cut and scar and bleed her out)
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 184 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/15/2005
Thank you to ArtyChick by Second Hand Screams reviews
A short poem I wrote for one of my best reviewers:)
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/14/2005
Scream in my Pillow by Serendipitous Passage reviews
There is a scream inside me, and in it is all the pain and anger in my soul. But when it's gone, all that will remain is the sorrow.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Reviews: 51 - Favs: 4 - Published: 3/11/2005
He Said He Loved Me by Second Hand Screams reviews
A true story. Just read it!
Fiction: Biography - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 8 - Words: 4,569 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/4/2005
The Gated Wall by dustytiger reviews
this an old, uber-angst peice, about how i tend to keep my thoughts locked in my own mind, i think a lot of people can realte, pls r & r
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 228 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 2 - Published: 2/22/2005
Lost Fragments by mizu no kokoro reviews
Sad little life, where did you leave those broken pieces of mine? I am a very depressed person lately, please leave a comment, it is very much appreciated. Thank you.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Spiritual/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 99 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 2 - Published: 2/21/2005
Untitled by LiKePiNk reviews
acid looks beautiful when it hides amongst glitter
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 2 - Published: 2/18/2005
Vampire Beauty by Second Hand Screams reviews
A description of immortality.
Fiction: Essay - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 563 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/11/2005
Animals DO have souls by Stories-have-souls reviews
I feel very strongly about the belief that animals do not have souls, which amazingly some people actually believe.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 217 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 5 - Published: 11/18/2004
Artistic Flair by broken rainbow reviews
Art without a pencil. Cutting
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 3 - Published: 10/17/2004
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My Last Goodbye reviews
Written in May. (Was that that long ago) I still find this poem highly disturbing... and yes, the last part refers to the fictionpress people with their reviews and support, last year, the ones of you who still remain to read this. Is as title. Except obv
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 205 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 8/12/2006
equation reviews
Written a few months ago. Unlike a lot of my other stuff, this isn't really centred around the angsty madness of last year. It's centred around the illness that provoked... the events of last year. I guess a lot of it's subtle and glossed over... but; thi
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 160 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/12/2006
The Joyous Loss Of Remembrance reviews
A short thing I wrote around a month ago, regarding... a stiuation I'd still rather not think about. Mood = title.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 70 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/12/2006
Ripped reviews
A poem in 4 parts - my most recent work... written today. I just wrote, and some of it's maybe not that good, but that's why I kept writing... the last part's like the summary, dismayed... I'm not glad of the angst. R&R please...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 468 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/10/2006
fictionpress reviews
I was thinking of fictionpress when i wrote this. I guess this is really my experiences, my take on it. I like to think it's insightful. It's certainly different to what you might think.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 5/20/2006
A Dream Of Normality reviews
I know it's not really like my other stuff... but my poetry reflects me, so if I crack, my poetry will drift and jar. It's layered, and probably confusing. But, even so...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/22/2006
Sixteen reviews
A sort-of sequel to 'Fifteen'. It's drifting, and... I haven't written poetry for such a long time. But I wrote this. ...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 275 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/22/2006
Talking to reviews
A conversation with someone... when you read the AN you will know what I mean when I say this is a true story. I stood there, and talked, and talked, and let out everything...
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 740 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/12/2005
The Last Exam reviews
This isn't really about the exam. It's thoughts of mine, I just sat down and wrote 'em. This doesn't express my feelings as well as I wanted. I havn't updated for ages, ne?
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 302 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/27/2005
Night World reviews
This is not about dreams/nightmares; more it is about, uh... well, me, at night. I don't sleep much, instead I... (read poem) Thoughts and emotions.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 233 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/15/2005
Fifteen reviews
This poem was written in the same sort of mind as 'Since February'. "I never asked to be fifteen..."
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 251 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/5/2005
Since February reviews
Me thinking about my life 'since February'. I was feeling down because it hasn't really been brilliant so I wrote a poem about it... as usual.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 309 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/27/2005
Almost reviews
I wrote this the night before I wrote 'Nightmare Terror', but only just typed it up >.< More of my angsty writings about darkness, and needing to escape... more true feelings & emotions...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 200 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/27/2005
Nightmare Terror reviews
As title. Under Horror because.. well, it goes briefly over a few of my more... horrifying nightmares. I wrote this coz my parents are trying to force me to go to sleep at a normal time, and I don't like having much sleep coz of.. as described in poem.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 190 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6/20/2005
What Is The Point reviews
I wrote this poem over a month ago but am going to put it up even so because it still represents how I feel about my situation. Most people will not know what I'm going on about but... yes. More of the dp/dr also.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 361 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 6/12/2005
Spiralling reviews
The end of this poem is very abrupt, but it is how I felt at the time and place of writing, which was sometime past midnight, sitting in my open window in the night.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 6/11/2005
Pointless Trying reviews
This is a mix of ideas and feelings of mine, woven into a poem. I was semi-depersonalised at the time of writing, which explains some of the odder ideas. It was also written very late (or early). But I don't think it's bad, even so.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 228 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6/11/2005
Behind Closed Lids reviews
This has some of the same ideas as in 'Keeping Me Sane', about not facing reality. Ideas about staying in darkness...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 181 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 6/11/2005
Façade reviews
Just an idea of mine. This was inspired by a brief drawing I did of an ornate house FRONT only- a facade- with flames shooting out from behind. (read the poem and understand.)
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 225 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 6/10/2005
Owl Sanctuary reviews
This was a poem I wrote when I was 12, and it won 1st prize and $100 in a regional poetry competition. Just thought I'd post it for all to see ;)
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 48 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 6/7/2005
Unanswerable Questions reviews
I have depersonalisation/derealisation and this poem was written in the midst of one of the times it was happening... handy hint: DON'T have dp/dr. It makes your life complete hell. (dp is caused by anxiety, so, therefore, don't be anxious.)
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 301 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 5/22/2005
Circle Of Madness reviews
This is a set of 3 poems written in the night. They're not my best work, and they may not make much sense, but they represent the circle of madness I go round and round in.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 3 - Words: 275 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 5/22/2005
Keeping Me Sane reviews
This poem... is me. All I can say. This poem sums up a lot of who I am right now.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/22/2005
Circle Of Death reviews
Well... another angsty, confused poem. I wrote this one in the day but had the overall idea sometime in the early morning. It's basically a lot of (somewhat disturbing) ideas of mine about... death.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 184 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/22/2005
Leave Me Alone reviews
Yet another about my EXfriend, who sent me a casual txt the other day which hacked me off coz I know she doesn't care about me, it's just her nasty group wanting to see what I'm up to.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 148 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 5/22/2005
The Dragon reviews
Comparison between me and a dragon.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 13 - Published: 4/16/2005
Explosive reviews
I tend to snap really easily...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/23/2005
SelfDiscovery reviews
My gosh, it's not an angsty poem. Now how boring is that. It's just this, uh, poem, about... oh I give up on these silly summaries. Read the title. Then read the poem.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 465 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/23/2005
I'm Not Anorexic reviews
Oh, well, yeah, my own take on anorexia, based on my own experiences. It's pretty long and crappy and I don't know why I'm putting it up, but, yeah. R&R if you like.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 482 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 3/23/2005
Memory Scars reviews
Um... do I have to write a summary? Title pretty much says all.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 406 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/23/2005
Pessimism reviews
All these latest poems I have been putting up have been all very angsty and moody, and this one is no exception... title says all, btw. My pessimistic nature awakens...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 322 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/23/2005
Angst Filled Anger reviews
I haven't got a clue what this one is about! I was in a random, angry, angst, depressing mood when I wrote it. Rating for content and swearing. Note that I was in a random mood: some of it doesn't make the slightest bit of sense.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3/23/2005
Questioning My Sanity reviews
Well... everyone does one at some stage or other... a poem about cutting! This, however, is not about cutting in the usual sense, just my own take on it... or my own experiences... current ones, sadly.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 491 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/23/2005
Sleep, Little One reviews
Title is VERY misleading, check the rating. Pretty dark poem, no happy end either- ye have been warned. I’m just depressed. This was scrawled on a scrap of paper at bout 1 in morn, if that explains anything.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3/23/2005
One Day reviews
This would be the most random of my works, even I'm not really sure what it's about. What was in the bottle anyway? There will be some confusing bits in it which I was going to extend on but couldn't figure out how, so... but for some reason I think it's
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 180 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 3/10/2005
Perfection reviews
Okay, I wrote this in Year 9 (I think it's year 8 in America? NZyr 9) and I'm yr11 (USyr10) now, but I just thought I'd post it and see what people thought of it. It's not really up to the standard of my current writing, but R&R anyway! Plz!
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 490 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3/10/2005
Trapped reviews
I wrote this very randomly, just sat down at the computer and wrote it then saved it. Why don't they bother to try...?
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 652 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/10/2005
Hurt Once Too Many reviews
I would have liked this to be 'Life/Friendship' but you can't do that, so, 'Life' it is. I'm angry at the world today. After a while, you never trust anyone again...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 301 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/10/2005
No Going Back reviews
I keep on trying to make her be my friend again... but now I've realised there's no going back.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 339 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/10/2005
Control reviews
Being, uh, controlled... Title says all. Just read!
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 360 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3/10/2005
Let The Sky Swallow Me reviews
I wrote this at around one in the morning, just feeling a little confused and depressed.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 123 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/10/2005
Cutting Off Her Wings reviews
Ummm... yeah, doesn't title say all? It's a cliched expression, yes, but I just felt like writing on it. Sort of angry, some of my thoughts... yeah.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 318 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3/10/2005
No Animals Were Harmed? reviews
Okay. This is an essay on animal rights. It won $250 in a competition which I won't bother to explain, but if you are living in NZ (unlikely I know) you should know it... College Herald. (NZ Herald)
Fiction: Essay - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 799 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 2/21/2005
What They Don't Know reviews
A little dark, title pretty much sums it up. Everyone thinks they know me, but they really have no idea...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 487 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/19/2005
You Could Dream reviews
Umm... A look at a war-torn world, so awful that you don't want to be there at all... but you could dream...
Poetry: War - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 2/18/2005
Do You Not Realise reviews
A poem "for" my ex-best-friend, who threw her lot in with the nastiest girls I know, betraying me without a care. Grr. PG for mild language. Extremely mild language
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 302 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 2/18/2005
Sanctuary reviews
A girl who is lonely, walking through a forest that happens to belong to a nasty girl at school. This is a terrible summary. I'll change it sometime. ONE-SHOT Please review! The story's better than the summary. HOD English at my school loved it.
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 744 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/15/2005
Solitude reviews
This is a poem I wrote when my life had taken a turn for the worse, about withdrawing into yourself to escape reality. I like reviews! Hint hint.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/15/2005
Goodbye Tseer reviews
SHORTENED SUMMARY// A girl is walking through the dense woods near her home when she discovers a creature unlike any she has ever seen before. 5 years later, she receives a vision which tells her to go back to the same place. ONE SHOT Please review!
Fiction: Fantasy - Rated: K - English - Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,852 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2/7/2005