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Joined 02-21-05, id: 461118
Author has written 32 stories for Life, Young Adult, General, General, Family, and Love.

Formerly known as Parody of Pain ("i don't have biting wit or stinging sarcasim, i just bluntly hate people..."

to friends and foes of the common art of writing:

- i have taken an unexcusably long break from writing... *shrugs* i have been living and hope to write about it soon... i always feel taht i am doing one or the other: living/ writing, and can never do/live both because i divorce my writing while i am trying to live, everything written in a passionate fury of life, is a torrent of cacophony and unjustly played notes... so pardon if you will... i feel like i am in the baby stages of my writing all over again...

trying to believe i am more than damaged goods...

meant to update writing pieces... please stay tuned and keep hands and feet inside the vehicle at all times.

"a person needs new experiences... something sleeps deep within... the sleeper must awaken"

-Duke Leto Dune

i shall be leaving my home soon... home: the off-white walls bruised by the uncareful hands of four children (myself and three younger)... a warm yard guarded by unkept meadows and annual fields of corn... the
front porch which offered the same country view from its front steps
(where i slid cigarette butts between a slit in the cement and the
first wooden step)... the same roads that led to the same small
towns... the people (even the stereotypical bitches and perverted
assholes who liked to run their mouthes and say shit they couldn't say
to my face... Daniele Gall)... but, to my friends (Hoffa and
Stacey- my big protective sisters who love me no matter how much stupid
shit i go through and bring upon myself, Sumpie- my party gal, thanx
for introducing me to alcohol, Ash- the first person i was litterally
willing "to give an arm for" (-peace Eminem), Zack- for
actually giving a shit or two and for listening to the shit i spin in
my head and not passing judgement, to Brandy, Natalie- a great friend and writer- i wait for the day when the clever boldness of her writing is reflected in her tone of voice, Elaine, to
Fabiola- who always inspired me to be better and had faith in me when i
didn't have any in myself, lastly to my baby brother Shiloh- you are all the warm fuzzy feelings i bury and keep to myself, you are my weakeness, my love, and my baby (butterfly kisses before bed)) i love you guys. i will miss you, i said i
would never miss this place- this home- but you are here, you are home,
and i will miss you... on November 7th of 2006 i will be
leaving and going to basic training in Southern Missouri... if asked or
required i will go to Iraq, because i don't see the point in being a soldier and not going to war when there are things in this life worth fighting for, whether they are right, wrong or pointless, and whether
or not America stands behind the things it used to... until Shiloh come
again, there will always be armies, there will always be war and there
will always be hate and sin... i fight as a soldier of God, more than
anything else...

wish me luck

thank you for all of your
reviews, i have come in contact with some excellent writers, reviewers,
readers and commenters, gracias...

as a guy i know would say...

"suck it easy
fuck face" peace, kj


1. humor-ful jokes

2.meeting new people

3.good, hard core, raw punkrock/emo/screamo bands (SHOUT out to: Foreordained, Elicium, Gregarius, One Day Remains, Sleep Tight Tiger, (my cousin's band:) Sleeping Tiger, Scopata Di Morte, and others as well...

4. Shiloh

5. relaxing with my friends

6. knowing that i no longer have to wake up and go to high school/shitholehandingoutdiplomas (the average American education is unorganized, untraditional, unhelpful for a real future...


1. Matt Thomas (the Ultimate Fuck Face)

2. Daniele Gall- (a real back stabbing See You Next Tuesday)


4. wet sox (esp. in the morning!!)

5. crunchy cereal

6. minty gum (it makes my throat hurt)

7. great movies with that one (or two) bad actor(s) who ruin the entire film... thank you Jennifer Lopez

8. Friends who aren't really your friends because they talk shit behind your back (thank you children of Brown Town!!:) )

9. Ex-boyfriends who think because you made one very big mistake your a fucking whore and a cunt...

10. Ex-boyfriends who proclaimed to love you, but really just want to own you and have you be an ornament on their shelf...

11. aunts and uncles who can't see their own feet and don't have children of their own to vent on so they do so on their brother's children... because they have some really good advice that might come in handy if we prefer their fucked-up,miserable lives to our own

12. family gatherings in general

13. people who expect Big Boy restaraunts to act like McD's (NO WE ARE NOT A FAST FOODs... duh!!)

14. people who bring their uncontrollable-snobby-whiney brats into a sit down restuaraunt... i know your blinded by you love for the little monster, but honestly... if you don't like dealing with their shit, WHY... Would... WE !!!!!!!!!!????????

so there are a lot more things that piss me off, it's just fuel feeding the fire baby...

oh, yeah shout out to the fucking drummer of Necrophalus... fuck face...

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Hello reviews
the dreaded shadow of regret adn the realization that. it's. too. late.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 191 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/27/2006
Auguries of Time reviews
an older piece of work before the Great Depression of my Writing...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 61 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6/11/2006
i am really unsure about this piece please R&R i would be 4-ever grateful... (esp. the ending... too long)
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 217 - Published: 6/11/2006
freestyle poem that i had to get off my chest... i might be manipulative... sadistic... or vindictive... but i'm surviving
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 250 - Published: 6/11/2006
she collected bottles reviews
go easy remember
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 140 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6/11/2006
Sleep easy reviews
don't cry for me, i no longer bleed... please R&R
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 64 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/22/2006
honesty reviews
i sit back an watch as you perform on command, the drop of a hat...
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 299 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2/3/2006
Only a Visage reviews
reflection of perfection distilled by disdain... (same poem as b4 only, diverse ending)
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 2/2/2006
Tears Can't reviews
tears can't cauterize the pain...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 179 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2/2/2006
Brown Hair reviews
a small thing between me and a guy i liked, but i'm pretty sure nothing big is going to happen- R&R please
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 68 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 1/24/2006
Help reviews
i work at a restaurant and this is something i wrote while i was there, please R&R
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 85 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/24/2006
Paper masks reviews
the paper mask is our own (personal fave)
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 72 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1/20/2006
Fit Like a Glove reviews
how pain fits like a glove and is hard to get rid of...R&R
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/19/2006
Mother's Love reviews
tyrannical justice you fight to break my will
Poetry: Family - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 67 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/19/2006
please R&R about the imagery in this piece!
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 62 - Published: 1/19/2006
Pain Addict reviews
the title says it all
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 395 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1/19/2006
No End reviews
there is no end to the pain, and other things, please R&R (i'm a little proud of this piece)
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 104 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/19/2006
Untitled Venting There is no beauty reviews
I hate this life.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 396 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 5/18/2005
Erebus reviews
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 77 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 5/12/2005
Go Ahead and Kill Me Now reviews
A bunch of mesh that came out of my head and onto paper
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 5/10/2005
Bits and Pieces reviews
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 117 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5/6/2005
Suicidal Angel reviews
Unedited version... about being broken...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4/28/2005
Everday reviews
very hateful poem that i wrote like 2 years ago... edited it a bit and here it is
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 167 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/12/2005
DREAMS reviews
a poem that is opposite from my usual... kind of about escaping into my dreams... and not as "Dark" as my poems usually are- more of a positive poem this time.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 105 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/12/2005
Empty reviews
I like this poem, the imagery, its like what i see inside, maybe my soul...?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 133 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/7/2005
Black Rose reviews
Another poem i created in class for a project, it is kind of like a short story poem, about a half a page long
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/7/2005
I Know who you are
it is a performance piece for my creative writing class- about a page long
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 362 - Published: 4/7/2005
Face Another Day reviews
The mistakes I've made weigh like chains around my hands and feet...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 124 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/2/2005
Behold reviews
What you can see... what you knew all along... what you've kept buried...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 31 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/2/2005
Pain reviews
Burning behind the truth
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 27 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/26/2005
Paint reviews
Paint a world that's perfect, then put it on a shelf... don't let them see the truth, your desperate cry for help...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 203 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/26/2005
I Am reviews
I am the night, the darkness you fear... I am the shadow, the pain, the tears...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 105 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/26/2005