So what's to say about me?

I'm an average girl, my own living cause of why I'm alive and I'm okay with that. I'm not an artist or a novelist, a talented person or a normal person. I am curtainly not a poet. But I write poetry. I don't cry for a real cause, other than that I must be upset; or happy. I don't like to bother people but I am taking up air and I can't hold my breath for over a minute. I live in Nowhere's Land, where there are born nobodies, but that's okay; I moved there. I'm just visiting places, I'm not sure if I have a home, although I have been living with the same people almost all my life. I'm missing a few pieces, but everyone's life is a puzzle and people do lose puzzle pieces. I'm not flashy and I'm not plain. I'm not a great person but I'm barely a person anyways. I can't say hello and have no problem with saying goodbye. I'm sure you wouldn't be bothered if I said goodbye now. I answer to 'hey' and I answer to 'you'. You can put those together and I'll still answer you. You can say that I'm boring; you may be right. But I'm not too exciting either, maybe because I'm not too thrilled to be here myself.

Overall, I'm just a human. With flesh, bone and blood. With hobbies of my own and fancys I can enjoy. I live a life. Two to be exact. And this is me, whether you're ready or not. It's okay. I wasn't ready for me either.

Hello again!

Hagosho is another one of my friends who just made his account, so I highly recomend you reviewing his stuff.

Special thanks for FarseerFool for his reviews. They are deeply appresiated.

I also highly recomend reading Falcon.x.Flight , my best friends work and grip 's cause they are both talented and I appreiate all there pushing and shoving me into being on there level.

And thanks to everyone who's read this far and have reviewed my work. Thank you so much.

I changed my name, for obvious reasons. I am not a bird, yet that meaning runs deeper. If I was a bird, I wouldn't have wasted my life's envy on every bird I've seen. I'm sure I'd have wings in order to ensure my being able to fly. If I envy birds, I am not a bird.

And in that sense, I can say I will never know how it feels like To Be Raven. I might have once, but that day is long due.

For a more deeper part of my soul, there is a darkness. And in darkness, there are always things we fear lurking in the shadows. I do not tend to be one of them, so I do not fully live in darkness. But it has chosen me, whether I had a choice or not. I fully intend that I will fight if it threatens to overwhelm me.

From when I started to know truth and lies and the thin line in between, my world had plunged further and further into Midnight. I have known the darkness to be a comfort and the moon to be my guide. I will live by this, so long as darkness chooses me.

I am not a raven. I am much more.

~Midnight

lithium

Pete Wentz

i am happy that you realized love still exists.
it is dark and needs to be dusted off.
maybe i am only happy in this realization in the early a.m.s in the neon lights of tokyo
maybe i am not happy at all.
im not even too sure myself at times.
why would i ever want my moods to be stabilized.
sometimes you have to break a heart to unbreak your own.
i believe in falling in love midsleep.
i believe in dreaming about you on airplanes.
and yeah November spawned a monster, but so did whatever month were in right now.
cursing leap years cos without them ill be home sooner.
if I had a penny to my name id throw in down a wishing well.
im best when im making things worse.
lets go out tonight and make some bad decisions.
i miss my friends. truly.
you got my voicemail
“leave a message im out…”
having the time of my life.
love.

4-21-08

Okay, so here's the new thing. I have A WHOLE LOT of writers subscribed in my e-mail thingie, and it's really hard to keep up. I totally slacked off lately and now it's impossible to concentrate on all of 'em equally without any trouble. And I wanna be fair when I'm reading one after the other. So I decided that I'm deleteing ALL OF 'EM from my email and starting over. I'm REALLY VERY SORRY about that, and I did wanna read them, but it's getting too hard to concentrate on all of them individually. I did promise most of you that I'd read them and I've been really busy lately. I'll try to get some of them I know I promised and I'll start from there, kay? Besides, a lot of them go back to the middle of last year. Your style might have changed since then. I know mine has. Though that shouldn't be an excuse...

HUGE APPOLOGIES belong to mostly Annoying As Hell, CalypsoDreaming, Disturbed Insomniac, Hide Your Eyes, Raven's Pen, Nick Makon, The Guardian Darkness (which seems like I think that's the old name for you and I might have already listed you) grip, and xabsolutionx, you guys seemed to be the ones posting the most. Sorry about not reading your awesomeness...

Again, I'm reeaaaaallly sorry guys. I hope you can forgive me~ -.-'

~Midnight

06/16/10

Wow, I talk too much...

Hey everyone, its been quite a while since I've been logged in. Nothing much has changed except my writing style, so I'm excited to bring it back out. Hope there are still a few readers out there.

What I am planning for my coming back though is getting a new account. It seems like taking all my poems out of here and starting anew would be very troublesome for me to do anyway, especially when I can just look back to this and smile at everything. I hope a few people like to do that with me. I'll post up my new name in here when I get that organized... a lot has changed on the site.

Thanks again to all the amazing readers I've had. You all rokk so hard. Keep it up!

~Ileana

My new account: Prescription Em

I might pull out a few of these poems, rewrite them and then post them on my new account. I hope things have been well for my fellow readers/writers and as always, I wish you all the best. You are all truly amazing

Ileana Contreras