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Author has written 70 stories for Spiritual, Religion, Nature, General, Haiku, Love, Family, Essay, Friendship, Life, Politics, and Romance.

the sun does arise,
and make happy the skies;
the merry bells ring

I'm Heidi, but you can call me Red Owl.

There is not much you need to know about me. I am your regular old teenage writer, trying to find her place in this world and failing miserably. My life has not been very easy, but in some ways, it is very rewarding. I just have to learn to live each day to the fullest and never forget why I am alive in the first place - the power of Jesus Christ. Sometimes that fact gets pushed to the back of my mind, when the darkness all gets to be too much, but I eventually return.

I am not the one to give up.

I will never give up, not on things I believe in.

more about me:

I am...

a writer.
a christian.
a teenager.
a girl.
trying to find my place in this world.
holding on.

my favorite music:

the fray.
delta goodrem.
carrie underwood.
kelly clarkson.
avril lavigne.
stellar kart.
casting crowns.
faith hill.
leann rimes.
and more...

I write poetry.
I write stories.
I write essays.

But more importantly...

I write.

I may not be very good - in fact, I'm definitely not, but I try, and each day, I get better. This is where I will try and write my thoughts, whether in prose or in poetry. Most of my stuff isn't very good, but this is my notebook. It isn't meant to be good. It isn't meant to be for show. This is meant to show my true feelings and whether or not you agree with me is yet to be seen.

So, if you want to see my thoughts...

Read on.

Hopes and Dreams by Kneeling Glory reviews
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Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/24/2007 - Complete
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Brown Meeting Blue
this is my teen romance, full of sunshine and cuddles and the wish that it could last forever.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 184 - Published: 7/10/2009 - Complete
The First Kiss reviews
She imagines her first kiss to be special.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 454 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/17/2009 - Complete
the beating heart reviews
The mother's eyes fill with tears ... and the little beating heart beats no longer.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/7/2008 - Complete
it all comes down to the vote reviews
There are two months left. November, why can't you come quickly?
Poetry: Politics - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/6/2008 - Complete
Can Anyone Help Me? reviews
I am on the edge of the cliff, just barely hanging on. I am clutching the edge, wondering, wondering... can anyone help me?
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/4/2008 - Complete
Through a Dreadful Revelation reviews
As those words are uttered, I feel my heart breaking and shattering...
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/31/2008 - Complete
his hurt reviews
Our refusal to repent hurts Him more than we know.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 342 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/30/2008 - Complete
The Nail reviews
it wasn't the nails that kept Him on that cross. it was us.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/16/2008 - Complete
Changing reviews
Should I let myself continue slipping down the wrong path, or should I take control? Should I let the softly burning fire roar up inside me and consume once more? Should I let my fire within burn brightly outside as well as inside?
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 487 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/1/2008 - Complete
Here I Am reviews
i will not let myself get taken over by the darkness. i can, and will, break away from the chains binding me. contains religious overtones.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/1/2008 - Complete
Neither Cold Nor Hot reviews
i have a fire within. all i have to do is hold onto it and keep it burning.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 140 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2/29/2008 - Complete
Helplessness reviews
there is nothing i can do. i am resigned to waiting, wishing for something that will help, yet knowing... knowing that he will just continue breaking and shattering with little hope of being whole again.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2/23/2008 - Complete
spin, twirl, swirl, dance reviews
i suppose i was never taught the lesson that you needed to learn to stand before you attempted to dance.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/21/2008 - Complete
routine reviews
smile. chat. laugh. play. repeat...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/20/2008 - Complete
staring into the night
as she stares through the darkness, she realizes she won't risk it. she can't risk it.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 120 - Published: 1/20/2008 - Complete
delving into idiocy
Just a little rant in poetry form on my boyfriend's idiotic family. Don't read if you're not in the mood to read an incredibly long, rather nonsensical rant.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 284 - Published: 1/20/2008 - Complete
On the Computer Screen
For now, just being able to talk to you is enough for me, but I can't wait until I can actually see you and tell you that I love you in real life.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 174 - Published: 1/20/2008 - Complete
loving you
Elizabeth Barrett Browning was a wonderful poet. She spoke the truth, especially about love. This was inspired by her famous sonnet 43.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Published: 1/20/2008 - Complete
i am nobody reviews
at first, i thought i was a nobody, but then i realized...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/19/2008 - Complete
Like a Moth to a Flame reviews
I'm the moth and you're the flame. Inspired by the Hilary Duff song, Anywhere But Here.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 60 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/19/2008 - Complete
images reviews
and i make you mine, just as you made me yours.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 154 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 1/19/2008 - Published: 1/18/2008 - Complete
Unoriginality reviews
My poems are like liquid water flowing through my hands, coming out before I can stop them.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/19/2008 - Complete
The Correct Path reviews
I am slipping further and further down the wrong path... and I continually wonder if You will ever be able to bring me back onto the correct one again.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 111 - Reviews: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 1/18/2008
poets reviews
it's quite a bit like ripping out a part of ourselves and putting it on display, isn't it?
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 75 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1/18/2008 - Complete
Backgammon
I never realized the life lessons you could learn from backgammon.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 87 - Published: 1/16/2008 - Complete
Holding On reviews
It's harder to hold on than to let go, even if the rewards for holding on are great...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 48 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/16/2008 - Complete
two months reviews
Our two month anniversary passed three days ago, do you remember?
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/15/2008 - Complete
Broken
Picking up his shattered pieces is much harder than it looks.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 84 - Published: 1/15/2008 - Complete
In a Fairytale reviews
What can I say? I like to imagine.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1/14/2008 - Complete
Flying reviews
For the first time in her life, she flew.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/14/2008 - Complete
Giving Up Forever reviews
She would give up forever if it meant holding him in her arms. Inspired by the song Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 261 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/14/2008 - Complete
In His Arms reviews
This is where I'm meant to be...
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/14/2008 - Complete
Standing in the Rain reviews
She won't give up, no matter what. Inspired by Superchick's song Stand in the Rain.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 104 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/14/2008 - Complete
Cold reviews
It hurts not being able to do anything to help. It made her feel cold, so cold...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 150 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/14/2008 - Complete
Unexpected reviews
I fall faster and faster into this unexpected brilliance... powerless to stop it.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 69 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/19/2007 - Complete
Silent reviews
Why can't I save him?
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 68 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 11/19/2007 - Complete
What Is This Love? reviews
What is this love I'm feeling with such passion?
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/17/2007 - Complete
For A Friend reviews
I've been going through a tough time lately with one of my close friends, and I just felt like I had to get this on paper, because it's all that's been running through my mind for the past couple days.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Reviews: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/26/2007 - Complete
Take My Heart reviews
Please, Lord, take my heart.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 80 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7/10/2007 - Complete
Why? reviews
And I ask why. Why did you keep this from me?
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 40 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/9/2007 - Complete
The Truth reviews
Do you want the truth?
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 126 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/9/2007 - Complete
Shimmering Illusions reviews
How I wish I could be the girl dancing in the moonlight...
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 16 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/9/2007 - Complete
Our Masks reviews
In the morning, we put our masks on, the ones that hide our emotions.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 85 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/8/2007 - Complete
Little Pictures reviews
How I wish the little pictures would just go away.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/8/2007 - Complete
Just Like Me
I am haunted by the pain that affects others . . . others just like me.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 51 - Published: 7/8/2007 - Complete
Love reviews
We don't realize what love is anymore. This essay explores why. Has some religious aspects. Please note, however, that I am not trying to push my beliefs on any of you. These are just musings from my own sometimesinsane brain.
Fiction: Essay - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,132 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/12/2007 - Complete
Promise reviews
A Christian breaks her promise to God, and hopes it's not too late to ask for His forgiveness.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 81 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/19/2007 - Complete
A Gift
God instilled in me a gift, and I will use it . . . once I figure out how.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Published: 5/19/2007 - Complete
Tears
Just a little something I wrote about my parent's separation, and how I would feel if I saw my mother with another man.
Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/2/2007 - Complete
Reflection
Can I ever live up to you?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 22 - Published: 4/29/2007 - Complete
Morning Light reviews
How I wish I could cradle it in my hands...
Poetry: Nature - Rated: K - English - Spiritual/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 43 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/29/2007 - Complete
Universe reviews
Just a little something written about the love my sister and her husband have, even after nearly two years of marriage.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 47 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/29/2007 - Complete
Pack reviews
We are Pack.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 41 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/29/2007 - Complete
Fear
Fear is meant to be conquered. That doesn't mean it's easy.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 110 - Published: 4/29/2007 - Complete
Pandora's Box
Hope always lies at the bottom.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 43 - Published: 4/28/2007 - Complete
Not Much Time
We don't have much time...
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 99 - Published: 4/28/2007 - Complete
Forgetfulness reviews
Everybody forgets their true intentions for a time, but eventually they become clearer.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 29 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/28/2007 - Complete
Everywhere reviews
Jesus is the only one who can be everywhere at once.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K - English - Spiritual/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/28/2007 - Complete
Look At Me reviews
Look at me and you see a Christian.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/28/2007 - Complete
Dark Paths reviews
While traveling on dark, winding paths, I cry out to Him for help.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 59 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/28/2007 - Complete
Take Me Back
Jesus will always take me back.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 67 - Published: 4/28/2007 - Complete
Jesus reviews
A short haiku on Jesus Christ.
Poetry: Haiku - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 16 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4/27/2007 - Complete
Mindless Doubts reviews
As the stars break across the sky, my brain fills with mindless doubts.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/27/2007 - Complete
Light reviews
With all the darkness in the world, there is only one person you can go to for light.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/27/2007 - Complete
Holding Me reviews
God is always there, even when I'm not.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/26/2007 - Complete
Humble Prayers reviews
Will a Christian teen ever be able to save her friend? She turns to Jesus for the answer.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 116 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/26/2007 - Complete
Internal Fight reviews
Darkness and light. Both powerful, both smothering. Which will finally come out on top?
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4/26/2007 - Complete
Nature reviews
Beauty is all around us. All we need to do is open our eyes and see it.
Poetry: Nature - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4/26/2007 - Complete
On My Mind reviews
She's doing this for her, not that anybody understands. Christian.
Poetry: Religion - Rated: K - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 284 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/25/2007 - Complete
Just One Hour reviews
What would you do if you only had one hour to live? A Christian teen sets out to answer this question, in a way unexpected.
Fiction: Spiritual - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 859 - Reviews: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/18/2007 - Complete
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