Unfinished Perfection
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Joined 09-18-05, id: 494678, Profile Updated: 10-27-08
Author has written 32 stories for Life, Friendship, Fantasy, Family, Song, Spiritual, Young Adult, Love, and Mystery.

Ok well, I've done this profile a lot throughout the past few years but now I think I can do this the way I want it.

I live in Australia with my mother, sister(who is 4 years older than me) and cousin(10 years younger than me) who we have legal custody of because of my Aunt's mental health problems(She's been with us since she was four days old anyway, so She's my sister as far as I'm concerned). My father and my Mum have been apart completely since I was about 9 years old. They were never married and kept getting back together despite the amount of times my "dad" cheated on my mum. I have two half-brothers that Ive never met who are both from the same woman, one who is about 25 and the other who is about 5. Those are the only two that we know of but knowing my father, there are probably heaps more. Now, the hard part. When I was 10 my cousin was born, who we now have legal custody of. About 3 or 4 months after her birth, my grandma who we had lived with since I was 5 and who was a very well respected doctor in our community, had a heart attack, leading to her having a quadruple bypass where she then had a shower of strokes. She got extremely sick and we all thought she would die. For a 10 year old girl, this was extremely difficult. My grandma had been my stand-in dad and had been either living with us or around the corner, for my entire life. So with my grandma sick and a new baby and my mother always being at my grandma's bedside at the hospital, everything was really hard. Not to mention, my sister had this massive group of friends she was always with and could talk to, whilst I had one friend who had family issues of her own. My sister also had a new boyfriend who she was always talking to, and whenever I tried to talk to her she would treat me like I was dog crap on the bottom of her shoe. Anyway, eventually everything kinda cleared up and my grandma moved into a nursing home because we couldn't care for her. That almost killed us all because my grandma had always told us if she ever needed to go to a nursing home, we should just shoot her instead. I think that was the most depressed I have ever seen my mum. After that, everything became a new kind of normal and our lives became "regular". Except things just kept on sucking for me. According to my family, I'm just a morose emo but it's not that simple. I write poetry because talking about my pain hurts more than writing about it. I have this weird fear that If I ever talked to a councellor they'd think I was insane and lock me up. I hate councellors. Sometimes, It's hard to breathe the pain is so bad, and sometimes I can go months without feeling like I cant breathe. Writing helps me breathe freely when I do get in a really bad state, so when I get negative feedback I dont care because I write for me.

So...For everyone who's read this, thanks. For anyone who's enjoyed this (why would you?), thanks heaps. And for anyone who just wants a shout out, HI!


8/10/08- I just went through all of my stories and poems and deleted a few of the crappier ones. However, I would like to thank any of you who have reviewed or even read them. As I've explained (MANY MANY TIMES, lol, you're probably sick of hearing it but I'll do it anyway), I write my poems for me. Sometimes, life gets so full on and hard to deal with that you need an outlet. Sometimes It's hard to breathe, your heart hurts so badly. Sometimes you cant bring yourself to get up in the morning because the thought of what will face you is so bleak you just cant face it. Sometimes you just cant find the courage to look your family in the eye because you're so terrified of what they'll see and what they'll do when they see what you are and what you've tried so hard to hide. Sometimes, it's all just to hard and too much to face and you want to fall down and scream and cry and allow yourself to break down. So that's why I write. In the throes of terror because what if you allow yourself to break? What happens if people do see? What if they uncover your secrets? What happens if everything comes to light and you wind up the insane little girl who "Is such a morose emo"? What if everything you've worked so hard to hide finally is discovered and you have to suffer the consequences?

Anyway, I'm really really sorry for the rambled explanation but I needed people to realise. I also wanted to thank them all for every review, every almost review but couldnt be bothered, for every kind thought, every "hmmm, I really like that one", every smile, every tear from my "angst riddled" works and any emotion at all you've ever felt towards me or my work. I do write erratically but when I do, I have to get every word down in fear I'll forget it. Writing is pretty much the only thing that really means anything to me so I'd like to thank everyone here who has read and/or supported it. If I didn't have this site, I don't think I would have survived as long as I have. So, Thank You all so much, all of this has meant more to me than I can ever express.

27/10/08- I just want to say to everyone who has reviewed my stories recently. Always and Never was an extremely impromptue sort of occurence and I want to thank everyone who thought it was good and I want to thank everyone who reviewed even more because they're my yummy buddies and I shall love them forever. Lol. Thank you ALL, and I must say, anyone who wants to be my yummy buddy for life can just give me a review and They will be in my love you forever book(I'm insane, you've gotta love me). Anyway yeah, Much Luv to all!

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An Epic Quest by Narvuntien reviews
A song written from the piont of view of a rebelious teenager. it randomly changes rhyme structures in verses and is a little chaotic as far as what it is trying to say, like the mind of a Teenager.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 280 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/15/2006 - Complete
Truths by Alexiel Almasy reviews
I'm letting it all out...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 412 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Published: 9/18/2005
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The Taste Of Fury
A tiny thing that will become more if there's interest. Rated M for future. Read and review please!
Fiction: Mystery - Rated: M - English - Drama/Mystery - Chapters: 2 - Words: 1,417 - Updated: 9/5/2010 - Published: 8/1/2009
Through My Tears reviews
She wakes to the sound of her parents screaming... They're always screaming. Written for school. Requirement that it must refer to laughter. Rated M for safety and because I like the letter M. Reviews will be rewarded with Toblerone :D
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Drama/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,088 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/24/2009 - Complete
Not Quite Fine
This one is seriously from the heart. Just about...Life basically, pain..hurt. Just what I go through and how I'm feeling. Review if you'd like and just enjoy.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 520 - Published: 3/1/2009 - Complete
Here I Scream reviews
You shun me because I'm different but Im just the same as you....Rated M for reading between the lines. Reviews are much appreciated, flames will be hacked to bits and cooked in pies.
Poetry: Song - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 447 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/30/2009 - Complete
Those Four Little Words
How do you ask for help? How exactly are you supposed to say those four little words? Rated K coz there isn't anything dirty, sad I know. Reviews are awesome, flames put into a blender and fed to my cat who'll eat anything.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 277 - Published: 1/4/2009 - Complete
That Girl reviews
Very Dark! Rated M! I dont know what inspired me but here it is. I Couldn't figure out which category it went in so its here. Not beta-d but hopefully no errors. Reviews are awesome, flames ignored. Again VERY DARK!
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 867 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 1/1/2009 - Complete
4am In The Morning reviews
Titled as such for a reason, It's not just because Im an idiot. Very loosely inspired by "4 AM Forever" by Lostprophets. Reviews are much appreciated because this was a very random piece. Rated because there's nothing evil, ie: No Sex/Drugs/Rock n Roll
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 197 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11/21/2008 - Complete
The Promise Of One Day
In case of the worst, what will happen one day. Depressing, to me at least. Rated M.
Poetry: Family - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 955 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/16/2008 - Complete
Always and Never reviews
She was always alone. Always. One shot. Rated M for suicide and vague mention of cutting. Reviews are nice, constructive criticism accepted happily, flames laughed at hysterically.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 650 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 3 - Published: 10/5/2008 - Complete
Forsaken to Nothing reviews
Reviews are welcome but not needed, absolute truth appreciated. Flames will be hysterically laughed at, constructive criticism will be happily recieved and positive comments will be recieved with much appreciation.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 125 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/3/2007 - Complete
Varicose Veins
Sometimes the pain just becomes too much.....The tale of a girl's final moments. Mentions suicide and cutting. Very angsty. Dont like, Don't read. Review If you'd like.
Fiction: Spiritual - Rated: M - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 302 - Favs: 1 - Published: 9/2/2007 - Complete
Bleeding Through Insanity
I got bored one night. Review if you want...
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Published: 8/24/2007 - Complete
Let Me Be reviews
Just something I wrote when I was thinking of something else, Review If you want... Rated M for insinuation of cutting and suicide.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 187 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7/17/2007 - Complete
Darling reviews
Just a fic I wrote when I wasnt feeling too great. I listed it under spiritual coz it does have a few spiritual qualities so I hope you enjoy it. I'd really appreciate feedback or constructive critisism so please review.
Fiction: Spiritual - Rated: T - English - Spiritual/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 545 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/16/2007 - Complete
Sweet Serenade Of A Blade Jump In Time reviews
Just something I wrote when I had nothing else to but think about me. Some people might like it, some might hate it and some might think its completely screwed up and confusing but if you want to review I'll read them.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 252 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/22/2007 - Complete
Forever Fighting
This one is really erratic I said ERRATIC People and It has a lot of repeating in it. I wasn't thinking properly bcoz I was crying at the time but I felt I should put it up to show how I feel. Its really hard to look at for me but maybe sum1'll like it.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Published: 6/11/2007 - Complete
Hold On reviews
Just something I wrote when I was feeling happy, It comes and goes. Read and Review If you want. It made me feel better so...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 179 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/17/2007 - Complete
Burning Devils reviews
Read and review if you want, do and say whatever you like. It's up to you.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/28/2007 - Complete
Forever reviews
Dark,but eh. Whatever feedback you feel like giving I'll accept.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/16/2006 - Complete
Confusion reviews
Read and if you agree great, if not it's exactly what I wrote about. Say what you like about it.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/16/2006 - Complete
Final reviews
Just something I wrote the other night, say whatever you like.
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 217 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/16/2006 - Complete
My Battle Scars reviews
Same old Same old
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 110 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/16/2006 - Complete
All I Have
Usual feedback drill. I write for me, I don't care what people think
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 104 - Published: 12/16/2006 - Complete
Closing The Open Door reviews
A clear message to my father. As usual feedback welcome but flames won't be taken to heart.
Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 132 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/16/2006 - Complete
Written In The Stars
Flames or not, all feedback welcome. It's something I wrote for me so Bad feedback won't matter
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Published: 12/16/2006 - Complete
Shrimpsie and the Magic Potplant
Something I had to do for English class. My teacher thought I was a freak and I think I confirmed that fact with this story. Ya gotta love that magic pot plant!
Fiction: Fantasy - Rated: K - English - Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,279 - Published: 7/8/2006 - Complete
Blinded From The Truth reviews
My blindness from the truth that was right in front of me. My stupidity for thinking everything was perfect. My need for friendship. My pain.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 198 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/15/2006
Realizations Through My Eyes reviews
Something for my "Father". You were supposed to be there for me, i came from you for god's sake! But you betrayed me.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 193 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/17/2005
Untrue Life reviews
This is something I wrote a few days or weeks ago when I just needed to write because I feel like writing is my only friend. I know i'm weird and you all do too just from reading. Read it if you want, i don't care but review if you do.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/11/2005
Pain reviews
My pain. That's all that can be said about it.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 128 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/5/2005
I'm Sorry reviews
I'm Sorry for the way I am but you have to accept that this is me. I put these poems up for me so say what you want, i don't care. This just expresses how i feel.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/5/2005
Corageous Words reviews
Something I wrote when things started getting less easy but not as hard as my life can get. You can either like it or hate it, but it shows the lighter, compassionate side of me.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 176 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/22/2005