Petite Okalani
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Joined 02-28-06, id: 515169
Author has written 33 stories for Family, Haiku, Song, Romance, Politics, Life, Love, Horror, Fantasy, and General.

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Your world has been blown.

It was all fine at first, you were young after all. But now where do you go? How does your life compare to the way you want it to be? When you get it, it will no longer be what you want. Greed consumes your thoughts. Mine. Mine. Mine...

For a time it was good.

And here is where I find sanctuary. In my writing. True, I cannot spell, nor is my grammar perfect, but this is me- on a page. My soul is in the lines. I want you to love it. I want people to see this as me, and have a place where I am defined at last; without question or regret but my own.

I am also a hopeless romantic. Many of these boundaries have been... broken. However, I do not frown away from a little realism in life- just don't let your reality get in the way of my love. I believe in love above all things; when I doubt myself, when I hate life, when I scorn the day to come, love is what keeps me breathing.

I wish to expand on what I mean in when I say I believe in love. It is too vague.

I believe in love. It is an unadulterated power that exist to control, create, and make life a little more enjoyable. It is an addition, something that is unbreakable no matter what harm falls in the way of it. You can undyingly love another and never have them love you in return. It will happen to you whether you like it or not, and it will, at times, cause you such anguish that nothing can stifled it. We express love through kisses, touch, gifts, word and all sorts of ways. When you love someone, and they love you too- it is something that should be worked on- no matter how tough- together.

I believe in love because it controls me. It is a power I cannot escape. I will never not be able to be in love with something- and that pains me because I put so much effort into the things I love, and only now come to realize that love may be one of the weakest places to be. If you let love control you, your emotions will not be stable, your heart will never steady, and it will never be enough because love can be expressed in so many ways.

I believe in what the bohemians say about love, and I do believe it exist. The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return. If I could live this way, without qualm or hesitation, I know I will be broken, less of an individual because giving your life to one cause is not living.

But I feel at ease with love. When it rushes me to a high I can think clearly and calmly and know who I am.

That is why I give all of myself, express it with joy, empty the rest of me out to make room for it. grins asking something of a return of the favor is sometimes too much to ask- and to all those offended by jealousy or possession or passion or tears- this is my decree to love.

Rhythm rules me. Even in a sentence, I like to hold a certain melody. So welcome to my lair- I hope it can some how bring you a sense of me and company in the world.

Quotes I hold dear:

~Death can be more than physical, and it can happen many times, but the battle is only over when your heart stops pumping blood and lungs stop letting oxygen to your brain.

~Sometimes love makes you selfish.
Sometimes it makes you stupid.
Sometimes it reminds you why you love your gun.

~ "I am not your Ma Petite! I am his Ma Petite and only His Ma Petite."

~"But I want you to want to kiss me when I want."

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Choices by Furine Panpasu Kitsuchi
Thoughts on what is really right for those you love. How do you know? You go with what you feel will keep them safest at night. What will keep the nightmares away, and the feelings upright.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 281 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/12/2006
The Cigarette After by Kayenel reviews
Relationships are wonderful and terrifying things. I chose to look at the terrifying side.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 120 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/24/2006
Burn Me by S. A. E. Wary reviews
My best attempt at an epic poem.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,932 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 7/5/2006
You or Them by Furine Panpasu Kitsuchi reviews
A poem inspired by the revitilization of thought in my life. It's based on who is right in the world, and who is wrong. Is it you, or Them?
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 221 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/7/2006
Mistress of Melody by Furine Panpasu Kitsuchi reviews
Writen when I'm way too drowsy, and a muse in a song of a loved one, and all the ones that she has for me.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 166 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/18/2006
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Other People's Parties
I am still socailly akward I will be the first to admit it, but sometimes, I DO want to be the center of attention, I do want to be exiting, I do want to be the center of attention. Inspired by joni mitchelle's song by the same title
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 229 - Published: 2/1/2007
Dream Girl
A different perspective at this title, a play on self doubt that can change when you finally grow up into a happy place.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 214 - Published: 2/1/2007
Princess Me
A girl is in reverie here, and I do love him too!
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 64 - Published: 2/1/2007
New Reassurance
To my new love, thank you. I don't know what will happen, but this is here for you.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 207 - Published: 2/1/2007
Alision reviews
This is dedicated to the one person I have had any reason to hate, and becasue I cannot say anything to her face, this is my vendetta. If she ever reads this, I have a simple warning: If you ever hurt anyone I love or me again, do not expect me to resitis
Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 327 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/14/2006
No Calls
My first short story the way english teachers like them, with lots of runon sentances and an indirect plot line. And intriguing and spirtual account of a young woman this tale was actually inspired by a recent car crash of mine.
Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Suspense - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,174 - Published: 11/27/2006
Held Once
A dream. It consumes the mind, but you know it is wrong, know it hurts too bad in reallity to feel so peaceful in sleep. I am sorry.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 191 - Published: 9/28/2006
Dedication reviews
It hurts me as much as it is meant to hurt you.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,685 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/19/2006
Killing the Broken Heart
Who has caused all those who are loved pain and brought everything to a place of fragile understanding. The horrid realization has been made of where life has been coming from; in all of these confusing years.
Poetry: Fantasy - Rated: T - English - Horror/Suspense - Chapters: 1 - Words: 537 - Published: 8/15/2006
Wet Paint reviews
Life can bring up o many issues when you decide to just paint over your walls.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/1/2006
Last Night, Goodbye
A series of dedications to different loved ones, and why I have to leave.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 760 - Published: 7/25/2006
Mirror Images reviews
A dream, an anger, placed into a short world of text and line. Very dark for my standards. Kail is a personification of my anger and the fire that can consume me...but what does the rest all mean?
Fiction: Horror - Rated: T - English - Spiritual/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 604 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/23/2006
Doing the Wrong things Right
Experiance and life are harsh- so you deal with it and begin to write again.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 240 - Published: 7/22/2006
Dagger
A short exscript of a ceremony of spirit and pain.
Fiction: Horror - Rated: T - English - Spiritual/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 358 - Published: 7/16/2006
ImBalanced reviews
driven to a point where I am consumed by thought and need and they hate eachother. About not knowing what to do and the confusion of what you are.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/12/2006
Love With Claws reviews
The complete story of Christine and Browen is finished. It is a fantasy, one I had hoped to live out, eventualy. Quite mature. Nothing explicit, but definatly single minded and rauncy. This is designed for those who like to get tied up in a relationship.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Fantasy/Horror - Chapters: 7 - Words: 5,267 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 7/12/2006 - Published: 6/1/2006
Let Me Love You Love Me
It was a hard chioce to say that this was a love piece. I figured putting it in family might work just as well, but family seems to fickle, and love is something I actually believe in. Deditacted to many. I hope if they read this they know who they are.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Published: 7/1/2006
To Get The Look In Your Eyes reviews
Whenever I have wanted to simply do something, I rarely have the opertunity to do it in the moment I choose to do so. It give me time to think and doubt what I want. That is mighty unfortunate, so I'm declaringit here becasue that's all I want to do- I ch
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 69 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/28/2006
O Shadow My Shadow! reviews
When your alone in the dark but you feel a certain someone else at your side.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/11/2006
Of a Day
The summery of my life and plans for the moment, in a moment. The sceme of it it very train of thought, and meant to be a momento to this place and time; but also to being bored and starting the summer off with a sigh. A new piece.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 622 - Published: 6/10/2006
Listen to me reviews
Sometimes, boys just need to be told what to do. Another kick about romance- I don't use the word love lightly. Has great rythm if your into music-
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 107 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/6/2006
Thought of Intellegence, then thought of You
Oops- didn't mean to hate somebody that I wanted, didn't mean to waste moments of my life.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Fantasy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Published: 6/6/2006
Ticking Away
Life as we experiance it is a place that we generally don't put into ontext. Sometimes we forget where we are or what we did or how we felt. This changed some of that for me, helps me rember the moment.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Published: 6/6/2006
Endevor of Ignorence
So mad at the people you love that show nothing but bordom and regret when you give your all to them.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 75 - Published: 6/6/2006
Other People reviews
A very badly written, absolutly true piece of work. Love the little thing- even if it is really bad; sweet sleep deprivation.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Spiritual/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 120 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/6/2006
Ouch reviews
Being upset- not ready to face challenges and just simply being slightly crazy with day to day life.
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/6/2006
Lightning Fingertips reviews
A disection of reactions to my first relationship. I chased after him, he never said no but never said yes either. Caused a lot of time and effort to be despensed for nothing
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 212 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/6/2006
Can't continue reviews
Unfinished thoughts that seem to go together all too well.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6/6/2006
Up in Arms
Anger about society- sweet ranting.
Poetry: Politics - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Published: 6/6/2006
Sweet Tooth reviews
Angst! Slow and then angry. Love it!
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/6/2006
Sad Girl reviews
When you're simply fed up with being told how you're supposed to feel. Fed up with emotions and able to stum out a tune on your guitare.
Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 73 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6/1/2006
Salute to the Dark reviews
Short. Sweet. To the piont. Dawn is not my favorite time of day.
Poetry: Haiku - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 12 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6/1/2006
Home
My first thing here. It is a short history of the depression that has held me since childhood, and the ability to find love and encourage myself to accept who I am. It is a new piece dedidacted to my Home, and my amour.
Poetry: Family - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 300 - Published: 5/31/2006