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Author has written 4 stories for Supernatural, and Young Adult.


I'm Amber. I'm s i x t e e n. I change my penname periodically, so don't be surprised if you suddenly can't find me. I do the same thing with my stories on occasion, if I suddenly think of a better and more clever name. I've been writing since I was nine years old, I love it so much. It's as much a part of me as breathing. I love reading, too. Yes, I'm an idiot. I tend to write depressing and angst-ridden things, because usually i write when I'm pissed off or sad, or just in a bad mood in general. Or when I get...inspiration. Which sounds completely gay, but it's true.

I'm a wierd person. I say random things, a lot of the time I don't make sense.

And I like it that way.

A lot of the times I am one of those annoying perfectionists. Which is why I am constantly editing my chapters and deleting stories and reposting them and making new ones. So if you're reading a story, once in a while you might want to check previous chapters if you feel confused, because most likely I changed a bit. Sorry about that inconvenience. Reveiws make me more inclined to update faster, and that isn't just a load of bullshit.

I post my stories online because no one knows me here, and I hate it when people I know read my stories. I feel too exposed. Writing is like a part of your soul, and I put everything I have into my stories. I feel so wierd, even twitchy, (lol) when I sit there watching one of my friends read my stories, so...they don't read them anymore. Because I'm secretive and dumb about it.

I recently had to read one of my stories outloud for my creative writing class...I almost died. Yeah, that's a tad bit dramatic...maybe...passed out, would be a better way of putting it?

And hopefully no one I know will find their way to this page...that would suck, a lot...

But anyway, here's a little bit about me. If you don't want to endure the ranting, simply leave or just pop down to my stories.

Reveiws are always quite lovely.


--People who feel that the only thing they're good for in life is to sit on their asses, being narcissistic and disgustingly judgemental, picking out everyone else's flaws like they have a right to.

(I mean, honestly, does it really go back to what we learned in elementary school? About how you have no self worth, so you have to pick apart everyone else to make yourself feel better? Or are you really that conceited that you think everyone else is below you?)

--Bithcy girls who start drama and make up rumors

--Guys who like to manupulate girls and play with their emotions

--Girls who do the same thing to guys

--Myspace pussies who start drama online

--People who lie to me

--People who constantly say things behind people's backs, and lie to their faces about it or act perfectly friendly when they really hate the person.

--People with absolutely no backbone.

--A lot of other things that I can't think of right now, because I'm exhausted.


--Music (especially Evanescence, Paramore, Less Than Jake, NOFX, Jewel, My Chemical Romance, Plus 44, Senses fail, MSI, E Nomine, Flyleaf, Flogging Molly, Dashboard confessional, Blink 182)

--Boys (even though they do suck sometimes)

--Being Irish and being English

--English and Irish accents

--My friends

--My Mommy

--Being outside at night

--attempting to skateboard




ladi freaking da.

Crimson Lullaby: (And Illusion)

HEY GUYS! I am combining Crimson Lullaby and Illusion into one story, with the same plot as Crimson Lullaby previously had. I just decided that Illusion wasn't going to become a story in itself, so...yeah. Though I should just let you all know.

One Step From Nothing

(I'm completely changing the story from chapter five on. I haven't been updating because it's been pissing me off, a lot, and since now I've got enough time and am putting in enough effort, I'm fixing all the crap that I don't like. It sucks that I won't have as much of the story written, since I"m probably going to end up deleting the later chapters and re-writing them completely, but hey, I'll be inclined to update faster once I"m happy with whats already there.)

New Summary

(This is the summary that I came up with, but since I already posted the first chapter of the story, it's not on there. This part is where I came up with the name of the book. I'm quite proud of it, and very excited that I've finally got a title that I LOVE to death.)

She could feel nothing but the wind and the rain. The bitter, icy wind, violently whipping the long, winding tresses of curly raven hair into her expressionless face. The seemingly endless torrents of cool rain pelting her back and her tingling fingers, which were about to momentarily lose all sense of feeling, as was the rest of her violently shivering body.

Just one more unbearable minute, she knew, and she would feel nothing. Absolutely nothing at all.

But would it be a temporary numbness, spreading throughout her entire body, or would she be forever plunged into the deep, murky depths of eternal bliss and nothingness? It was her decision, and hers alone. No one could stop her. She was at the terrifying mercy of her own frantic, desperate notions.

She didn’t know. She stood on the edge of hurtling herself into the swirling, furious rapids which would do her wild bidding for her, if she allowed them to. They would sweep her away into their seemingly bottomless depths, giving her one last furious rush of petrifying exhilaration before oblivion came to claim her. Sweet oblivion, sweet death, where she would no longer feel such constant, agonizing pain.

Her eyes were closed, partially because she was becoming exceedingly afraid of what she might see looming so far below her, so close to heart. Upon a sudden, inexplicable notion, she opened them once again and stared off into the dark, starless night, obscured by torrents of pouring rain; the tears she could not cry.

Then she swept her gaze to the intense, uncontrolled falls below her, and like a gunshot being fired, the shocking, sudden, overpowering fear hit her as if she had had that same bullet fired right to the heart. Fear pumped through her veins like liquid fire, burning her from the inside out. The wind whipped at her face and the rain stung terribly, but she could not turn back yet. She needed to let this full impact hit her like nothing else. She needed to be so scared that she could no longer feel.

She didn’t want to feel, not anymore. She couldn’t handle it.

Shivers racked her body. She gripped the railing behind her so tightly she feared it might break off in her ever-grasping fingers. She glanced at her toes, already over the edge, and, for one final time, thought about herself promptly following suit…

"I’m one step from nothing," She whispered. "Just one step."

She closed her eyes once again, finding it hard to keep them open for the fear that annihilated anything else. Instead, she concentrated on the sensations she would no longer feel, ever again. The wind. The rain. Everything she was about to willingly give up.

She sighed. A shuddering, last sigh. "One step."

"No," A strong voice came from behind her and, startled as she was, Jayden could not peel her eyes off the breathtaking, terrible beauty of the waterfall and the horrendous act she was about to commit. "You’re two steps further than you should be."

BTW, When I get this published, this is what's going to be on the back of the book.

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Fear and Blood by Kwintess reviews
Ly's hate and fear towards humans has cased him to do horrible things in the past, but is there a way he can redeem himself? Does he even want to and will a human girl be able to handle a vampire with a major blood addiction?
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Horror/Romance - Chapters: 39 - Words: 149,361 - Reviews: 364 - Favs: 163 - Follows: 83 - Updated: 8/15/2012 - Published: 1/1/2008 - Complete
Cursed: A novel by iReturn reviews
Schuyler always thought she'll have a normal life if she pretended that she didn't have these abilities to see dead. When a murderer is on the loose and she's the only who can see. What is she going to do?
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Romance/Mystery - Chapters: 17 - Words: 19,238 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 6/16/2010 - Published: 4/8/2008
The Champagne Gang by punkturnedwriter reviews
..."Does that kiss have anything to do with why we're on a train to New York in the middle of the night?"
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Drama/Suspense - Chapters: 23 - Words: 197,541 - Reviews: 4089 - Favs: 3,469 - Follows: 1,482 - Updated: 1/18/2010 - Published: 6/18/2006 - Complete
Die, Everyone's Doing It by Euphorialie reviews
REMOVED. He was gasoline, I was spark, and together we set the world on fire. And that's only a partial metaphor. Think of all the trouble you can get into when you don't believe in anything and then strike a match.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Horror/Drama - Chapters: 25 - Words: 6,733 - Reviews: 415 - Favs: 155 - Follows: 78 - Updated: 3/9/2009 - Published: 2/23/2008 - Complete
Help Me by Kidwiththecap reviews
Do you believe in monsters? No? Me neither. I stopped beleiving in myself a long time ago.
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 63 - Words: 184,722 - Reviews: 578 - Favs: 150 - Follows: 49 - Updated: 1/6/2009 - Published: 10/28/2006 - Complete
The Matchmaker by StormDancer reviews
It is said that if you put your name in locker 420, the Matchmaker will find you your perfect match. So what happens when the arrogant spoiled brat is captivated and the matchmaker meets her match?
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 39 - Words: 137,441 - Reviews: 3506 - Favs: 4,197 - Follows: 1,464 - Updated: 8/19/2008 - Published: 11/3/2006 - Complete
Ths is for You by wannabexwriter
A poem I've been working on. I think it's one of my better poems.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 351 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/8/2008 - Complete
With Sugar On Top by perusemyshoes reviews
Over the course of a summer, Peyton, a girl who's lost her mother and much of her hope, meets the Frank brothers, two boys who've mysteriously moved in with their aunt and uncle. From the two boys, Peyton learns a great deal about life and love and loss.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 7 - Words: 8,267 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 3 - Updated: 6/19/2008 - Published: 5/20/2008
Trouble Starts With a Q by Myrika reviews
Spin-off of Redux. All Devon wanted was to be left alone. She tried reasoning. She tried pleading. Eventually she even turned to blackmail. The problem was Quentin Maxwell had just never learned the meaning of the word 'no.' //REMOVED//
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 23 - Words: 5,116 - Reviews: 3528 - Favs: 1,058 - Follows: 406 - Updated: 6/3/2008 - Published: 9/3/2007 - Complete
Retribution by NothingEverLasts reviews
She turns her radiant face to the dark, dismal, endless sky above her, and she lets out a shrill scream that can be heard from miles and miles away. She screams herself hoarse and sets her eyes upon the heavens that have betrayed her beyond comprehension.
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Supernatural/Suspense - Chapters: 3 - Words: 11,289 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 2/7/2008 - Published: 1/12/2008
Emery & Me by In.the.Wardrobe reviews
He looked towards my waist before groaning and looking away. “Look what you’re wearing.” Confused, I glanced down, and immediately realised the dilemma. I was in my underwear. “Oh.” [COMPLETE]
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Drama/Humor - Chapters: 18 - Words: 75,512 - Reviews: 1354 - Favs: 2,247 - Follows: 557 - Updated: 12/24/2007 - Published: 5/27/2007 - Complete
Blender by Luci-chan's Lunchbox Of Doom reviews
[WIP] Meet Maverick Bender. His friends call him Blender. He's about to shake up your idea of boarding school. [Rating may go up later]
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Humor/Drama - Chapters: 18 - Words: 28,304 - Reviews: 129 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 25 - Updated: 8/13/2007 - Published: 11/15/2006
Dream Me a Star by aznSmile reviews
You're abused...' my voice trailed off. 'No shit sherlock.' Her voice just gave a hint of sarcasm. Well, it was a rocky start, but who knew we'd end up best friends.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,695 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/15/2007
Isolation by Ylsa reviews
When floodwaters rise out of control, Kate's school is cut off from the rest of the world. Within 24 hours a teacher is dead, and amid panic and hysteria, the remaining pupils must fight to survive. WARNING: Rated teen but quite a dark story.
Fiction: Horror - Rated: T - English - Horror/Suspense - Chapters: 36 - Words: 35,797 - Reviews: 127 - Favs: 59 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 6/10/2007 - Published: 3/4/2007 - Complete
Statistical Improbabilities by FreakierThanThou reviews
With six point six billion people on the planet, how is one expected to fall in love? It's not logical, it doesn't fit with the statistics. It doesn't make sense. It just happens. Short and sweet. Oneshot. ON HOLD
Fiction: Romance - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,028 - Reviews: 44 - Favs: 43 - Follows: 2 - Published: 3/11/2007 - Complete
Soulless by Eveningstar1 reviews
One-shot piece. She gave up everything for them, for what?
Fiction: Fantasy - Rated: T - English - Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,445 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/24/2006
Black velvet by lozfairy reviews
...she dances still, on moonlit nights, upon rain-soaked grass, among fading tombstones...
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 133 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 2 - Published: 11/12/2005
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Faded To Black reviews
Shes The IceQueen.Blocking thoughts of her mothers death and her fathers consequent suicide, and anything else painful, is habit.But this weapon of choice will ultimately tangle her in an intricate web of manipulation where day is night and wrong is right
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Supernatural/Angst - Chapters: 26 - Words: 55,907 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 8/5/2008 - Published: 4/18/2008
Crimson lullaby reviews
An obsessed vendetta brought them together, but in a moment of desperation, Evilie willingly sold her soul to the crimson-eyed demon she had spent years hunting down. Why? For love. For someone who now knows nothing of the immesurable sacrifice she made.
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Supernatural/Suspense - Chapters: 2 - Words: 4,984 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 7/30/2008 - Published: 7/7/2008
Unwritten reviews
Death is ugly, I think, as I consider all it has put me through in the process of slowly claiming my life. But I’m not bitter. I’ve learned so much more than I would have otherwise, I’ve grown so much as a person. Yes, Death is ugly but it's beautiful too
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,287 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/15/2008
It means being safe inside yourself. It means having control over one thing, when all else seems to be spiraling out of sight, out of grasp. It means a safety net which drugs or sleep or tears cannot grant you. It means being numb, and that's what I am.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,321 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/22/2008