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Author has written 7 stories for Romance.

Figured some of you may be interested to see the lovely actors/models/singers I use as character inspiration. Here we go then (fp is quite annoying about posting links... augh delete the space before 'org'):

Noble Wolf: Ben postimg. org/image/49xhdis45/ ; Joy postimg. org/image/8zv2kpicz/ (couldn't really find anyone closer to the image in my head for Joy, but close enough)

Love Life: Alex postimg. org/image/nlm38yf5f/ (again, close enough); Randee postimg. org/image/ds8h1th4j/

The Wolf and the Witch: Dietrich postimg. org/image/72p7c1zod/ (a bit feminine, but rather close to the ideal); Witch postimg. org/image/l2b89msob/ (looks 7 years older than the character, same girl as the cover)

Flair couple is on the cover, even though I imagined Amy a bit different. Amy postimg. org/image/gn6ybxkyj/ (but with brown eyes); Eric postimg. org/image/vdtldo2ux/ (the initial inspiration); Astrid postimg. org/image/3xipnvm0v/ (to see what I mean by impossibly pretty); Brandt postimg. org/image/6hechz9kv/ (nevermind the photoshopping that went in here)

It's easy when everything's playing out in my mind. Putting it on paper - a whole different matter. I wish I could get those pills from Limitless...

Got a facebook account for karasuno (search for Karas Uno and look for a blond anime girl in the avatar lol). It's open to the public, so you don't need to friend me or anything, just look around if you're curious, you can also write me if you like. It's still rather empty though. Not going to share my personal account as I have family friended there... some of them are better off not knowing what I write for fun lol. Ugh, I tried, but it's a pain keeping a separate account, and I already forgot the password... I'm just not made for social media. In any case, I might consider a blog or something in the future, if I ever decide to write something too hardcore for FP. For now, if you want to stalk me on facebook, you can try lili barzan (not my real name). I update that one quite regularly, though I doubt you'll experience any gain from seeing the stuff I post lol. Anyway, I don't refuse friend requests, so feel free :D.

A few points that have come up in reviews so far (not the actual question, but the matter at hand) I realize if I was a better writer, all those points would be made clear in the stories just by making the readers observe them, and not explicitly saying them. Since I find it in poor style to do the latter in the story itself, I bring you a bit of analysis right here. That way you have the chance to skip it, if you prefer to make your own conclusions :)

Why my female characters so far are virgins: When I decide that particular thing about my female character, I consider two things: age and background. While I'm pretty open-minded about sex and everything related, I still don't consider it healthy for girls to start before they're 14. And even that seems a bit young to me, but hey, teens get horny too. It is perfectly believable to me that a 17-year old girl can still be a virgin, if not quite normal. As for the characters' background - it has to do with their personality development, as well as opportunity to gain sexual experience.

Randee's case: Granted, not much is said about her background yet, but so far it's clear she's grown up in less than ideal financial conditions, and that she was bullied in school for a long time. Apart from the lack of opportunities to find a boyfriend in said school, it seems to me she has more on her mind than that.

Amy's case: She's the type who doesn't want to worry her parents, and feels that her having sex would put them in an awkward position. I also find it a common thing for girls growing up with a smart, if slightly manipulative mother, and a generally uninvolved in their upbringing father, to be a bit wary of males.

That said, not all the female characters in my head are virgins, so don't go thinking I have a thing for it xD. Also, I don't think I can do a good portrayal of a girl with lots of sexual experience and be believable. I will need to do a little more human psyche delving to pull that off successfully.

Cliche storylines: I have a thing for cliche ideas, however I get absolutely bored if they're handled in a cliche way. My reaction to reading something like that is trying to imagine how I would change the situations and outcomes, so it would be more interesting to read. A lot of my ideas for stories have emerged that way, so it's hardly surprising you recognize the cliche base - The Bet, Player vs Virgin, Rich vs Poor, and so on. What I'm trying to do is bring a little life into it; show that it can be done in a different and surprising way. I can only hope to achieve my grand ambitions with the limited capabilities that I have. If you've felt that the sories are a bit unusual to what you're used to see done in those cliches, then I'm happy enough :).

Typical female fantasy of male characters: I won't deny I've been brainwashed by this fantasy of high social standing, handsome, and popular guy with a great body. To my defense I'd say that females are allowed to explore this fantasy in books/movies/etc as much as guys have done it (just think of the Transformers female leads in contrast to the male lead and what that represents). It's fair to say that both males and females get attracted to pretty much the same things, and it's not a surprise to see it reflect in literature that targets a certain gender specifically. However, since women are more ashamed to admit their shallow likings, you can see that shame reflected in a lot of the older writings - the male character is much older, or not the best looking, or has some scar, or has a trauma, or has a bad personality, and so on. All trying to add some defect/s so as not to seem that they too want perfection. You can not find a perfect guy or girl in real life, but that shouldn't prevent you from enjoying the idea in fictional stories, most of which are there to entertain and not bring you some sort of enlightenment.

Good books/movies, or classics to call them simply, deal with human emotions in a very realistic way, in a very realistic setting. Think of East of Eden, Tale of Two Cities, and others that will probably come to your mind. I'll be honest here and admit that I feel depressed while reading such books. I think my desire to escape reality is too big.

That said, let me shed some light on my two male characters, and the bit of personality realism that I've tried to give them (since I simpy can't compromise with the fantasy).

Alexander's case: I try to bring out his character bit by bit, to make it a bit of a puzzle that gets solved each chapter, but what you can see so far is: he's grown up believing his importance, he's still like a kid who has to get his way, and reacts in a very childish manner if he doesn't. Why he's a 'player' - like any teenage boy he's healthily curious about sex, and he has enough opportunity to gain the experience. He's obviously interested in a connection with a girl, but hasn't found it. Perhaps he's looking for something he can't find in them. Or he's disappointed that their motives are different from his. I'll let you speculate.

Eric's case: Despite how much he denies it, he's pretty much a submissive character, who hasn't found any girl willing to dominate him and give him what he unknowlingly craves. This is his reason for going through girls without setting his mind on any, aside from the other reason that he can't give them his future. I find it pretty obvious that his desire to test the boundaries of his control, is a form of masochism (one of the definitions of that word is: the tendency to find pleasure in self-denial, submissiveness, etc.). So far we've seen Amy denying him even a kiss, manipulating him to behave as she finds comfortable, and giving him small rewards here and there when he obliges her whims. It's no wonder that he's dying to experience her sexually, since she might actually be able to fulfill that inner itch of his.

Are my female characters goody two shoes: Well I can only hope you see them that way, because to me they're far from nice, and my constant fear is that readers will find them awful and hard to relate to.

Randee's case: Very obviously a liar and manipulator. She has her reasons sure, she makes excuses about her lies in her head. In fact, she's even lying to herself to feel like a good person. This is the result of the life she's lived so far, so I don't blame her one bit. But obviously, I don't feel she's a good person in the classic sense. You might have noticed that she didn't immediately help Sandy in chapter 5, she even considered pretending not to see anything. As to why she helped, I'll let you speculate. Keep in mind this girl's always planning ahead.

Amy's case: Cold, secretive, and manipulative as well. She's close to the border of sociopath in fact. There are still things for you to see from her, so i won't say more :).

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Mutually Assured Destruction by woodstock1969 reviews
I wanted my sophomore year of college to go as smoothly as possible. Too bad Asher Ives showed up and ruined it. Maybe it's my fault for drinking with the marching band, but blaming Asher is much easier. My reason for hating him is simple: I made the mistake of kissing him.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 22 - Words: 102,833 - Reviews: 255 - Favs: 208 - Follows: 364 - Updated: 6/27 - Published: 1/9/2011
Cascade by FrayedNeurons reviews
Everything was normal, but then, two years ago, the toxic rain fell and everything went wrong from there. Paint dripping off buildings, power lines melting, and people turning into monsters. Gray's just a normal guy living in apocalyptic times trying to get by. But when a supply run goes bad he's left stranded with his worst nightmare. Creature Feature! Slash.
Fiction: Sci-Fi - Rated: M - English - Fantasy/Romance - Chapters: 27 - Words: 113,015 - Reviews: 58 - Favs: 45 - Follows: 47 - Updated: 12/9/2020 - Published: 1/24/2016
My Wolf Boy by MadameLeQueen reviews
It wasn't everyday Aurora was kidnapped by an insane man from her father's asylum. It wasn't just any man. He was, Orion, the wolf boy who spoke through actions rather than words. And she absolutely has no idea that havoc is about to wreak.
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 18 - Words: 107,166 - Reviews: 898 - Favs: 629 - Follows: 816 - Updated: 4/19/2019 - Published: 3/18/2010
One Night by Shadowswept reviews
I woke up with no memory of my one night stand. I could have blamed it on too much alcohol, but then I realized that I didn't remember anything else either. I didn't know who I was or what had happened to me.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 5 - Words: 11,587 - Reviews: 29 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 30 - Updated: 8/9/2016 - Published: 7/11/2016
Hunted by On The Tip Of My Tongue reviews
Reagan has felt like a lone wolf her entire life, and it's no different when she moves to a new pack to finish college. Plans change when she's claimed by the Alpha of her new pack in a time-old mating tradition. As she uncovers the conflicting and dark history of her new pack, will she stay in the face of her past and a possessive mate, or will she strive for more?
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 15 - Words: 41,736 - Reviews: 100 - Favs: 121 - Follows: 195 - Updated: 8/4/2016 - Published: 2/15/2014
Seeker by Shadowswept reviews
Mila meets a boy who is not quite human. May be scary for some readers.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 50 - Words: 98,845 - Reviews: 139 - Favs: 40 - Follows: 39 - Updated: 5/16/2016 - Published: 11/29/2014 - Complete
Hand of Grace by Arcangela reviews
Ever-practical and self-proclaimed bookworm Anne has been whisked away to a strange new world, a world filled with magic, emotion-drinking cubi, and, of course, dragons. Her first task? Assassinate the most sadistic and evil incubus in the world! Is the key to her survival a dangerous stranger with a mysterious past? [Rated M for violence and adult themes] Sequel Excerpt!
Fiction: Fantasy - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 45 - Words: 264,698 - Reviews: 221 - Favs: 143 - Follows: 117 - Updated: 4/22/2016 - Published: 6/13/2014 - Complete
Megan by Shadowswept reviews
Megan has a crush on Justin, but he breaks her heart in middle school. She should have gotten over him by high school, but she hasn't. Now his interest in her might be more than she can handle.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 4,565 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 8 - Updated: 12/26/2015 - Published: 12/19/2015
How to Play the Villain by EscapistRedux reviews
Eric, heir to a multi-billion dollar fortune, has fallen in love with gorgeous Charlie, who lives on the wrong side of the tracks. Now I've been sent to New York to break them apart. Why? Because Eric and I are engaged since birth. And it sucks because now I have to play the villain or lose everything. I have a clear idea how this ends. Yet I think I'm falling for him. FML
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Drama/Humor - Chapters: 10 - Words: 35,879 - Reviews: 71 - Favs: 32 - Follows: 56 - Updated: 10/9/2015 - Published: 8/14/2014
Heartfelt Surrender by AKJSNA reviews
Through a series of strange circumstances, Rea finds that she must join the army to support her struggling family. What starts out as her duty turns into something much more, when she meets the gorgeous and hard-to-please, Lieutenant Caleb Harver.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 33 - Words: 447,598 - Reviews: 410 - Favs: 112 - Follows: 136 - Updated: 8/15/2015 - Published: 11/20/2011
Tooth and Claw by LaGrid reviews
Charlie is the Omega of her pack, but when a forbidden relationship with a human boy is discovered by the Alpha's son, she is thrown out and banished forevermore. He thinks he's seen the last of Charlie, not feeling guilty in the slightest, but who knew the next time he saw her, he'd be more interested in rutting her than killing her...as she's come back, more badass then before.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Supernatural - Chapters: 5 - Words: 10,979 - Reviews: 54 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 82 - Updated: 6/29/2015 - Published: 6/16/2015
Wolf by Shadowswept reviews
Evan begins to change for the worse after he is bitten by a creepy wolf. A very dark and twisted story. DISCONTINUED
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 14 - Words: 21,117 - Reviews: 53 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 3/22/2015 - Published: 2/19/2015
Desolate, Plenary by DelQu reviews
Supposedly, I smell like sex and shaving cream all wrapped up into a small delicious bundle of pudding heaven. I didn't agree. The Alpha who is holding me captive says otherwise... Rated M for EXPLICIT CONTENT, read at own discretion. Main character will be crude and humorous... not always used in the same sentence, but definitely implied as crude humor.
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 3 - Words: 16,732 - Reviews: 69 - Favs: 78 - Follows: 148 - Updated: 3/5/2015 - Published: 8/29/2014
The Jungle Flower by MsKelly reviews
For her own safety, Flor Selva has been hidden away deep in the mountains of Colorado since birth. Her only friend is the cougar that stalks the forest behind her house. When her uncle dies, she's taken into foster care in a town she was told is dangerous. Now, suddenly, strange things are happening to her body, and the terrifying yet gorgeous boy at school won't leave her alone.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Supernatural/Fantasy - Chapters: 16 - Words: 52,870 - Reviews: 90 - Favs: 38 - Follows: 94 - Updated: 2/28/2015 - Published: 11/1/2014
World War E by Crash3009 reviews
The hidden war that lasted centuries finally spills over into ours, and destroys us. Now Cora must find a way to survive this super-natural war or become a victim to it. Either in death or in the arms of one of the super-naturals?
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 23 - Words: 53,026 - Reviews: 34 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 29 - Updated: 11/3/2014 - Published: 10/21/2012 - Complete
Canis Lupus by De Coeur reviews
Mika held her position as he moved towards her. "You're doing it again." "What's that?" he asked. He had moved around the table now to her side, only a few feet away. She backed up a little, following his path around the table towards her with her finger. "Chasing me." He chuckled darkly. "Yes. And I suppose it will be this way until I catch you."
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Supernatural - Chapters: 16 - Words: 70,209 - Reviews: 222 - Favs: 178 - Follows: 306 - Updated: 10/28/2014 - Published: 6/12/2012
Thrall by Shadowswept reviews
What happens when you piss off the one you're bound to for eternity? The course of true love never did run smooth, but nobody told Hailey there would be so many potholes.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 2 - Words: 2,523 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 6/8/2014 - Published: 6/7/2014
Tempt The Devil by Shadowswept reviews
A love/hate relationship. The rating has been changed to M because of adult situations and the dark nature of the story.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 8 - Words: 18,190 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 26 - Updated: 3/4/2014 - Published: 2/6/2014
Driven by Rebe13 reviews
Marq is trying to navigate her way through this dangerous world where humans are killed at the drop of a hat. And the vampire she works for is not quite sane. Or is he?
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Horror/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 10 - Words: 21,521 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 18 - Updated: 2/26/2014 - Published: 12/8/2013
Pack by Meccabooks reviews
She ran to escape her problems and her pain, but now she's apart of the pack and it's time to stop running. After all you can only run so far from your problems but you can never outrun the pack. One woman, six male werewolves.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 14 - Words: 34,409 - Reviews: 270 - Favs: 228 - Follows: 309 - Updated: 12/22/2013 - Published: 10/14/2010
War Games by bloodlore reviews
This is the military's first encounter with extra terrestrial life! When Rae is sent in to interview the alien life-form, however, nothing goes as expected. She ends up kidnapped by Markar, who doesn't seem to know why he's so attracted to the small human, but he intends to find out!
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 5 - Words: 5,255 - Reviews: 85 - Favs: 67 - Follows: 83 - Updated: 5/10/2013 - Published: 9/20/2012
Impossible, Impertinent and Irreverent by Ember reviews
Regency Romance: Sequel to Mary and the Marquess. Samantha Parks makes a deathbed promise to her friend and employer. It is a promise not to let opportunity and adventure pass her by. When she visits her brother in Wales, Samantha meets Lord Talin-a sinfully beautiful and elegant London rake-but will she dare to risk her respectability and reputation to find adventure with him?
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 7 - Words: 44,161 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 27 - Updated: 11/7/2012 - Published: 6/27/2012
Dreams of the Queen - Final draft published on Amazon by jinx1764 reviews
Cass Baros has long dreamed of an alien world offering peace and belonging. Obsessed, she devotes her life to finding it, even if it means pulling apart the fabric of the universe and being the first person to step through. She finds her personal paradise, but discovers her inner peace comes at a price. How much is she willing to sacrifice? Featured on Project Fiction
Fiction: Sci-Fi - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 3 - Words: 6,449 - Reviews: 91 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 10/29/2012 - Published: 7/28/2011 - Complete
Freedom in Structure by Maeghan Sullivan reviews
Ava was born a werewolf, and everything she knows about her species she learned on her own. But when Zachary, a temperamental alpha of a high ranking pack, appears and claims that Ava is his mate, everything she thought she knew will come crashing down.
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 12 - Words: 45,771 - Reviews: 209 - Favs: 316 - Follows: 474 - Updated: 10/7/2012 - Published: 2/12/2011
Raphael by Jane McBrennen reviews
Miranda is suicidal. She wants to die. Period. No ifs, ands, or buts. Unfortunately she's kidnapped by a vampire who has other plans for her. What happens when she makes a bet with him that will either save her or damn her?
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 2 - Words: 6,581 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 5 - Published: 5/29/2012
Haunted by Castor.Leigh reviews
She did everything she could to erase him from her life, and yet she still has nightmares from when they first met. He has done everything in his power to constantly remind her of him. Based off of Little Red Riding Hood.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Horror - Chapters: 10 - Words: 22,726 - Reviews: 37 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 46 - Updated: 12/5/2011 - Published: 12/30/2010
The Trouble with Having a Socially Inept Stalker by The Original Psycho reviews
To me, thirty-one and sixteen is a pretty large age gap. To Amir's younger brother, it isn't. So when he asked me out, I of course said no: I'm not a bloody paedophile. That was where it was supposed to stop, only it didn't. SLASH.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 2 - Words: 5,213 - Reviews: 45 - Favs: 52 - Follows: 82 - Updated: 3/21/2011 - Published: 3/14/2011
Half Your Age Plus Seven by Measuremylifeincoffeespoons reviews
What was that rule again? Half your age plus seven? You can’t go below that. If I’m 18, half is 9. Crap, where's my calculator? Okay, 9 plus 7 is 16…and he is 15. 15.5! I mean, should I round up? Or not? What’s six months? That should be fine..ah, hell.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 16 - Words: 56,003 - Reviews: 240 - Favs: 169 - Follows: 83 - Updated: 7/2/2010 - Published: 1/23/2010 - Complete
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The Trendy Play reviews
[BL/MM/Gay] Elliot, actor, 22: wants to quit the industry due to his growing fear of cameras. Logan, movie star, 24: obscenely popular and constantly bombarded with scripts. Then why would Logan accept the script for a gay romance mini-series, with the condition that the other lead is Elliot?
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 4 - Words: 11,135 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 29 - Updated: 6/25/2016 - Published: 2/21/2016
Noble Wolf reviews
'She noticed the quick, shallow breaths he was taking, and the eyes that showed a complete lack of inhibition. Great. She had a horny wolf on her hands.' The two types of wolves, that shouldn't meet. The ignorant him, who can't give up. And her, running away from a promise she can't fulfill.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 6 - Words: 15,130 - Reviews: 40 - Favs: 31 - Follows: 67 - Updated: 12/6/2015 - Published: 2/15/2015
To Be Daring reviews
Eliza has decided to live boldly, after she's told she has 4 months left. Making consequence-free decisions, she ends up entangled with the Whitmore brothers. All four of them. Only to later learn she got the wrong diagnosis, and the consequences are quickly catching up to her.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 3 - Words: 8,806 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 24 - Updated: 9/24/2015 - Published: 7/27/2015
Love Life reviews
"She had barely taken two steps when her arm was suddenly grabbed, and she was spun around to face him again. He firmly grasped her shoulders and leaned down till he met her eyes. "Don't just walk off, and finish what you started," he stated darkly."
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 23 - Words: 69,581 - Reviews: 356 - Favs: 220 - Follows: 416 - Updated: 7/23/2015 - Published: 3/30/2012
The Wolf and the Witch reviews
"Mark my words, witch," he glowered at me hotly. "No matter where you hide, I'll hunt you down. And when I do, no amount of charms will save you from me."
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 9 - Words: 24,174 - Reviews: 149 - Favs: 147 - Follows: 247 - Updated: 11/12/2014 - Published: 9/12/2013
Flair reviews
"She turned her big innocent eyes to him like she hadn't just thought about his equipment. He smoothly decided to let the topic rest in peace." An over-analyzing girl and an instinct-driven boy's peculiar story. With a big hairy secret in the middle.
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 9 - Words: 22,938 - Reviews: 78 - Favs: 63 - Follows: 121 - Updated: 9/20/2013 - Published: 11/3/2011
The Faerie Ball reviews
"He shook his head in refusal and her heart sped up alarmed. She didn't want to be forever stuck here. His other arm circled her waist and pressed her close. With his warmth enveloping her body, she wondered what he was, if not human."
Fiction: Romance - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,893 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 24 - Follows: 35 - Updated: 9/3/2013 - Published: 5/30/2013