11/24/08: Name Change?

I'm thinking about changing my pen name. Would that be too confusing for everyone?

11/13/08: Today is the Day!!

Today is the day that every teenager waits for. SWEET SIXTEEN! Yeah!

Yeah, so basically today is my sixteenth birthday, if anyone cares. So far it's been a pretty awesome day. I got a car! Hehe...it's not that nice or anything. It's a Ford Taurus(at least that's how I think it's spelled). Year is 1999. But one of the window doesn't works and it's seal on another window is bad because previously my cousin own it and they had to break in to get the keys.

But hey! It's free and it runs. I'll be getting my license in January because of the six month permit rule. I'm pretty excited.

Have a great day everyone!

WHAT! She's Back?: 11/3/08

Alrighty artichokey, virus or no virus, I'm dying without this awesome website. So, if I get good feedback from everyone, maybe I'll stay!

I'm hoping to see some familiar faces but I don't mind new peeps either. Sorry, though, none of my other stories are coming back. Well, maybe new versions of them. Except Farm Boy. It'll be back with a new title; Riches to Rags.

So let's get this baby started!

ATTENTION: THIS IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT!

Last night I experienced yet another problem with fictionpress and viruses. Thus, this will be the last time I'm on this website. To all my readers and reviewers, I'm so sorry. I'm deleting all my stories and that'll be the end.

Thank you so much to all my reviewers, especially Radioactive Jeans. Your reviews were always my favorite. If you want you can PM me with your email address and I'll continue sending you the rest of the story. That goes for anyone you wants to get to finish The Forgotten Princess.

So farewell, and be forewarned that you might have a virus issue with this website as well.

7-28-08: Tips!

Sometimes you start out writing something and you're so excited and then you just kinda lose interest. Trust me, it happens all the time for me.

But I've finally found a way to make me start writing again. Reread all the reviews for the story. Especially if you have very excited reviewers. Reading them makes you realize how much you loved the story to begin with. At least it does for me.

If that doesn't work, take a break. Readers are always begging for more but rushing yourself can just make you stressed and frustrated. Even if the break is for a few months. If you still don't want to write it, DON'T make yourself. You don't have an obligation to finish anything if you don't want to. This is fictionpress not a publisher where you're getting paid. Just remember that.

7-26-08: Story Writing

For me, writing stories is an interesting process. I can't just sit down and start writing and end up finishing it. I have to start writing a whole bunch of stories then stick with the one I like the best.

The problem with this though, is that I end up having alot of unfinished stories. Or ones that I finish super quickly just so I can be done. You'll have to bear with me though, it's the only way I can write. I have so many idea's, I just don't know which ones I'll actually finish.

That's why I do alot of oneshots. They're quick, easy and fun to write. You can start one and be finish one in an hour.

But the whole reason for writing this is because, I'm sorry to all those out there that liked Annoying Love, Nightmare, and When Strangers Meet. I'm deleting them.

7-22-08: Small World

People say it's a small world, I think not. There's a bazillion people on the planet and most of them have no Internet! Therefore the world is HUGE. In no respect whatsoever is the world small. There's billions upon billions of people you'll never know, never hear of and never know they even exist.

BUT! Though the world is large, fictionpress is so small. So small. I'm constantly running into the same usernames over and over. We can communicate so fast with email, PMs, and reviews. Crazy, I tell you, just crazy.

This was totallly random but unlike what most of the people I know think, I'm really a random person. Seriously. Just look at alll my little rants written here. I go from Virus Attack to My goal in life to being depressed to discussing how small fictionpress is.

7-21-08: Loneliness

So it's 11:45pm where I live right now and I'm sitting up reading fics. But even with my earphones in, my dog lying next to me and my older sister in the other room sleeping soundly, I feel so alone and worthless. My mom and grandma are in the state over; my dad lives in a different town. My little sister's at a friends house and my best friend who is usually at my house until midnight or later is with some other friends.

Normally none of this would bother me. But this summer has been nothing near normal. During the school year I practically breathed for summer but now I just want school to start.

Why? you may be thinking. I love my Jesus, I love my church and I loved my youth leaders. Notice the youth leaders in past tense. My older sister, Rachel, who I mention earlier, was once one of these leaders. But a little over a year ago my youth pastor moved across country and another leader, Brian, moved in his place. I was sad but I eventually got over it and moved on. I was still fine.

But tension was building over the school year. I knew this because Rachel would 'discreetly' discuss it with my mom. I knew something was wrong, just not what.

Everything came to a bud this summer. More importantly during summer camp, the place that was suppose to be my refuge. Suddenly I found both Rachel and my best friend, Heather, under 'attack' from our leaders. I finally found out what was wrong. Brian and his sister, another leader, Julie, where out for power I suppose you could say. They demanded respect, to be incharge, know everything. What's worse is Brian's married and they have another brother and they're all deadly loyal.

I was confused and hurt, suddenly my place of refuge was a war field; one that I wasn't fighting but was caught in the middle. For once in my life I was glad to leave camp. I was praying and begging God that everything would cool down and I could move on.

It only got worse. You have to understand, for the most part things were unspoken, silent and deadly, unknown to practically everyone else.

Brian was confused and demanded that Rachel tell him what was her problem. She refused, it wasn't her place to condemn her pastor. But Brian, having to know everything, kicked her off leadership. It may seem like no big deal to you but to someone who just graduated and her only link to the youth group was leadership, it's hard.

I can only imagine her hurt and anger. But for me I had just lost my shelter. Part of me is terrified and I haven't gone to youth group since. Not only is Rachel no longer there, Heather decided to leave as well. The two other people who know what's going on are gone.

Now I've just resigned from my small part of leadership I was dappling in and preparing to not go anymore. The problem; I have other friends there. They'll question why I'm not there and I can't, won't, tell them. It's not my place to spread rumors.

On top of this and being stuck home for the past few weeks, I've been kinda sad. I love my Jesus and want to continue to go to church. I want to be ignorant and pretend nothing happened. But I can't.

Don't get me wrong, not all churches have these problems. Sometimes God puts us in positions to learn and grow but it hurts. I'll live for Jesus forever and I know He'll get me-my youth group- through this but for now I feel lost and alone even though Jesus is by my side and guiding me.

7-15-08: My goal in life...

Okay, so sometime when I get bored(something that happens a lot now, that I'm scared to read alot of stories on fanfiction. See below if you don't know why) I check out the stats on my stories to see how many hits I get. And the sad thing is that on a lot of my stories I'll have 100+ hits and alot of that is even on my upper chapters, yet I get 7 reviews or something. 7! That's it. So my goal now is to someday write a story that has the same amount of hits as reviews. Please help me by always reviewing when or if you read my stories. Thank you so much. I know it'll probably never happen but the closer I get the happier I'll be.

7-12-08: Virus Attack!!

So I'm kind of scared of fictionpress right now. Last night I was on and I was trying to go to some page, I can't remember which, and all of a sudden weird things were popping up and then BLAM! My wonderful computer said I had gotten some virus threat. I mean, it was bad. Their were five of them and four were flashing red saying they were high threat ones.

So I was totally freaking out and I ran downstairs with my baby(that would be my laptop) to have my mom defeat those nasty things and she's on the phone! And she wouldn't get off! My older sister was just sitting there nonchalantly and here I was with a computer that could crash any second! Okay, I bit of dramatic but you get what I mean.

So anyways, my mother FINALLY gets off the stinking phone and helps me. I was ever so grateful. By this time my anti-virus software had popped up(if you don't have any, GET SOME! It's a lifesaver.) It began to do it's stuff and finally after an hour or so, I was virus free! But let me tell ya, I was ready to never get on fictionpress, or possibly the Internet again. Luckily by this morning I had calmed down. My time here though, is forever going to be limited. My reading is going to be cut short and possibly posting. But either way, you should be grateful I didn't just drop off the face of the cyber world! If I ever do, it will be because of a virus.

...you know what I just realized? Every chapter above starts with so. Just a little side note.

If you actually read this, thank you. I feel so loved that someone would take the time to read my rant.

Stories statuses'~

Extraordinary: Up and running nicely. Haven't gotten alot of reviews so I'm feeling a little discouraged, but love this story and plan to finish it. Like, as a whole big long novel. Whether I post all that depends on feedback.

Riches to Rags: Previously called Little Farm Boy. No reviews, and not sure where it's going.

Megan's Rose: Previously posted under same name though it is going in a new direction.

Okay, so onto my profile...

I have no idea why you've actually read this far but you have and you've finally reached where I'll introduce myself.

I love my personal Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. That's the first and for most thing you should know about me.

After that I suppose I should let you know what my name is. If you really want a name, call me Becca, not that that's important. I prefer to go by madebeautiful.

I also love to write and hope you read my stories! Please make sure to review so I know if you like it and want me to continue. Also, if you review my stories I'll try to check out yours. (Sometimes it's hard to do so because of how busy I am, but if you want me to, just drop me a note.)

My favorite books are: the Bible; the Maximum Ride series; and anything by Ted Dekker, Lori Wick, and Dee Henderson. I also really like Eragon, Eldest and the Warrior series. Oh, yeah, I also like alot of Tamora Pierce's books. And Kenneth Oppel's books, Silverwing, Sunwing, Firewing, Darkwing, Airborn and Skybreaker. The Heir series by Cinda Williams Chima is good too. Plus, a billion others that would take a year to list. Those are my top ones. (I read alot.)

Books I don't really like: Redwall series. They are so dull and boring. Trust me, I've read about three of them because I had nothing else to read and I fell asleep reading one of them.

Books I absolutely hate: Twilight and all the books that go with it. I mean, seriously, blood sucking vampires? I don't understand why anyone would want to read that. No offense.

Favorite TV shows: NCIS and Numb3rs.

Favorite Movies: Pirates 1&3, Scarlett Pimpernel, Mulan.

Favorite Bands: Casting Crowns, MercyMe, Hillsong!!

Favorite Song: At the moment it would probably be Praise You in the Storm by Casting Crown but that's bound to change any given second.

2 Thessalonians 3:3~ "But the LORD is faithful and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one."

Philippians 2:5~ "Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus."

"Sometimes I amaze myself and sometimes I don't, and sometimes I'm just a dork!" ~madebeautiful