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Joined 11-28-08, id: 641247, Profile Updated: 05-27-10
Author has written 24 stories for Love, Life, Biography, and Essay.

I write not because I have bursts of inspiration or a sudden great plot, but rather because something clicks in my head and it all comes together. The emotion, the setting, usually some sort of music, or facial expression or comment, and I have to get it down. That, to me, is being a writer. Having something well up so strongly inside you, not even being sure where it comes from, but knowing there's only one way to get it out.

Catharsis.

One can notice in my work a gradual progression, from what I was to where I have been and to where I am now. I've been writing for so long I must have ripped up thousands of poems. Sometimes they hit close to the truth. Sometimes I post them here. I'm getting closer and closer to where my poetry needs to be but I'm not quite there. Yet.

Enjoy?

Read the poems. Read the stories. Figure out your own meaning and take it from there. I've met a devil of sorts and he calls himself an "actual, real writer" and I think I might have hated him. Take it a day at a time, leave each thing to its hour, and be ready for the moments when you have to take someone and hold them to your chest. When someone goes to kiss your brow hold their chin and get their lips. When someone says goodbye stop them and say you'll see them later. When someone asks if you love them, well. That's when you can pause. Hesitate. Mention that you're very fond of them.

Until I can distinguish between pre-marital garbage and love, anyway. Love needs to be reinvented.

That's all.

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I Never Said I Was Brave by lookingwest reviews
La Campanella Supernatural winner and Creativity runner-up / SKoW Best Non-Romance winner / Featured on Project Fiction / Reviewed on Falling Star Awards
Fiction: Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 28 - Words: 12,492 - Reviews: 1119 - Favs: 162 - Follows: 138 - Updated: 2/4/2013 - Published: 11/10/2009
and this is what she thought by Finding June reviews
“He who makes a beast of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man.” Samuel Johnson
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 2 - Words: 220 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Updated: 5/16/2010 - Published: 5/2/2010
Smooth Jazz by Sercus Kaynine reviews
A man with a gun walks in to Chamberlain's cafe and threatens to kill everyone unless they give him a good reason not to.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Humor/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,711 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 3 - Published: 2/5/2010 - Complete
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Do Not Get Raped vs Do Not Rape reviews
How popular science has made rape commonplace by explaining sexual aggression as a natural male reproductive strategy, and the questions we should be asking.
Fiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,496 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 4 - Published: 4/17/2011 - Complete
She's So Heavy reviews
Collections. Something of a journal.
Fiction: Biography - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 601 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/9/2010
Goodbye reviews
Rest in peace, J.M.F. I will never understand his decision but I will respect it and love him.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 327 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/8/2010 - Complete
Blue Eyes reviews
Someday I'll rip wings off butterflies.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/2/2010 - Complete
Euthanasia reviews
Keep me safe. Safe from myself. Safe from the world. Most of all, keep yourselves safe from me.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 249 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/6/2010 - Complete
Taint reviews
Why are you so harsh with me?" "Because I have to be."
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 253 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 3/29/2010 - Complete
Skin reviews
I can still taste him.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 178 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/4/2010 - Complete
Suck reviews
Disdain for the disdainful.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 440 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 4 - Published: 2/15/2010 - Complete
Nightmares reviews
When you try to wake up and you can't shake it off they actually become night terrors.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 192 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2/15/2010 - Complete
Le parisien
J'ai l'impression que dans l'espace de quelques jours je vais finir par l'aimer. C'est insupportable.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - French - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 192 - Published: 2/10/2010 - Complete
Géographie des harpes reviews
It's how he looks at the horizon and turns my eyes with his. It's how he extends his hand and forces my fingers to flex.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 257 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2/10/2010 - Complete
Boy reviews
Fall for this boy. He's frightening.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 185 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2/10/2010 - Complete
Peeling reviews
Swallow me?
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 671 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/2/2010 - Complete
Trust reviews
I can't even understand how scared I am of you.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 287 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Published: 12/18/2009 - Complete
Nighttime reviews
It's completely forbidden. They could actually get me for this.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/20/2009 - Complete
Navy Blue, You're Blue
You're a whole lot of clay, blue, jealousy and fear. But mostly a whole lot of blue.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 138 - Published: 9/15/2009 - Complete
Midnight reviews
Your clock is sinking, the cogs caught between my limbs and bitter salt of the sea.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 100 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7/8/2009 - Complete
Colder reviews
The games we play.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 78 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/20/2009 - Complete
Spring and Winter reviews
You remind me too much of spring and winter. It's more than I can handle. Too much cold, too much rain, too much slush.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 125 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/23/2009 - Complete
Gray reviews
All different flavours of taunting.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/23/2009 - Complete
Water reviews
I need you like a dying man needs water. God, do I ever need you.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 111 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/8/2008 - Complete
Anticipation reviews
Up until the crack of dawn waiting for her arrival. Biting my nails, playing with my hair, all in nerve-wracking anticipation.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 38 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/7/2008 - Complete
Artwork reviews
Contorted into something resembling art, a message, a statue; ignore the pain and slip away.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 180 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/6/2008 - Complete
More Than This reviews
It's for far more than physical pleasure. Give me something the soul can feel.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 61 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/3/2008 - Complete