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To whomever comes across this profile... You matter. I feel the need to share this thought because, for way too long, I thought otherwise about me.
Here you will enter my mind, understand my soul, feel my heart.
I am 24 years old and let me tell you... It has been a very bumpy ride. Lessons were learned, made a lot of mistakes, I'm still growing. I used to be the most chilled person around, I had a few good friends, spent my time writing, reading, watching movies, series and anime nonstop, listening to jazz and just enjoying life in my own modest and discreet way. Everything changed back in 2012. Being submitted to a relationship with the wrong person really tears you apart. Three long years of that, lots of abuse, a suicidal attempt and the greatest thing: it had an end. I am alive. I breathe, I wake up, I eat (but not animals), I exist. And I matter too. Things were rough for a long while, but it does get better. I still have a lot to work on, I go to therapy, I have a psychologist, I meditate, but I still struggle with insecurity, fear of abandonment and paranoia. Sometimes I cannot keep my mouth shut and I mess up. Other times I say a silly joke and everybody laughs.
I am 24 years old and let me tell you... I have felt love. True love. That one love that comes across once in a lifetime. My soul, body and heart were healed. "There you are.", I thought when I heard his voice. He became my biggest inspiration, my best friend, my favourite person to talk to, so smart and attentive, so full of love. My person. He was my partner in crime, in all the little plans and adventures we went on. What a man. The most beautiful inside and out, a saviour. And still I was able to lose him. My message is and will always be hope. Losing the love of your life is a real eye opener, so please, keep in mind that mental health matters as much as physical health does. Do not lose yourself, because many other people will leave and that is when you realise you must get yourself fixed. Do you. You are worth the fight.
To him, the very best thing that has crossed my path, a real blessing from life, I only wish the best. It has been an honour, we lived in our own forever. I will miss you endlessly, but more importantly I'm thankful for everything and I am sorry we could be no more, but as I told you many times "like the sand loves the sea, my heart will be yours, because compared to others, they're just stars, and you're my whole galaxy". Being with him was the greatest, most beautiful gift. Every single time the sun shines, so does my heart. I thank him for making me want to be better, to love myself more, I strive to achieve my goals because he loved me; and our love heals. "He lives in you" and, somehow, we are forever.
To everyone else, do not lose hope, sleep and rest, drink water, let people help you, accept the love because you deserve it and please, cherish it. Cherish yourself and it will work out. No one knows what's coming next. That's the real adventure.
Current mission: I will return. My essence was not destroyed. I am healing. I am coming home.
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