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Joined 12-02-10, id: 754430, Profile Updated: 08-23-13
Author has written 14 stories for Life, Friendship, General, and Family.

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Bindings - It's about my experience of an eating disorder, how self destruction is so addictive that I often find myself standing in front of the mirror for stupid amounts of time counting my ribs and measuring the gap between my thighs, planning the best way to lose a few more Kilos and kill myself a little bit faster. Anorexia is a terrifying illness. I become so wrapped up in Calorie counting and weight and BMI and mirrors and being thinner and thinner, I can completely ignore the fact that I'm dying because it simply doesn't matter anymore despite how frightening it is. I don't want to die, but I have to lose more weight. I wrote this poem to try to express some of this addiction to pain.

you - I wrote this just before Christmas after a chance encounter with my ex-primary nurse who worked with me on an inpatient unit. It was an uncomfortable, if brief, conversation that we had and the whole experience really hit me hard. I felt angry, depressed, abandoned, happy to see her, ashamed of my relapse, proud of my relapse, and desperation all at once. When we said goodbye, I just felt utterly empty.

Red Herring - This poem was written after a horrible night spent in A&E. It was a very surreal five hours, hospitals are like different universes, and the panic I was feeling did not make my stay more comfortable to say the least.

Alice - Alice was a girl who befriended me during my stay in an eating disorders unit. She committed suicide by drowning herself in a river. I'm heartbroken, she was an absolute delight to have known and she did not deserve the suffering she endured.

Influence - This poem is quite old now. My (ex)best friend and I grew apart and our friendship was severed in the most brutal way. I never really got over the loss, I still hope that one day she forgives me and that I can forgive her.

Eighteen - It was my eighteenth birthday a few weeks ago, but rather than celebrating I felt like an old woman. I've spent my entire childhood being ill in one way or another and lost my opportunity to just be a kid. Now, as opposed to feeling like the young eighteen year old that I am with my whole life and endless opportunities ahead of me, I feel tired and withered, like I've been here an entire lifetime.

Mirror, Mirror - I spend a lot of time looking at my reflection in the mirror, it comes with Anorexia. But I don't see the person I want to be, or anyone I've ever intended to become, I see a stranger and it frightens me that I didn't notice myself turning into that. It's even scarier that I don't know how to change it or even what to try to change it into.

Role Model - This was an attempt at venting the frustration I feel when it comes to my father's hypocrisy. He has the most tragic habit of being able to see faults in everyone but himself.

The Photographer - While in hospital I became very good friends with a lovely girl who suffers from Bulimia. She has an incredible e for photography, but she mostly takes pictures of herself. She's not vain, I belive that she's making sure she has proof of the weight she has lost so far. Her album is like a flickbook and she gets smaller and smaller in every picture.

Fragility - As my relapse into Anorexia gets worse, I find that I would rather that other people left me alone. I feel bad that they care and that their efforts to help seem so redundant, but mostly that I just can't find the motivation to help myself. This poem is about that unexplainable feeling - not wanting to die but not wanting to recover. Of being my own worst enemy and being as helpless as everybody else around me.

Katy - This took me quite a while to get written down. Katy was one of my closest friends and she died tragically in a car accident. This poem deals with the shock and grief I'm experiencing at the loss as well as the cruel, almost casual manner with which her life was taken. She was only nineteen and had so much to give.

I Howl - It's been a very long time since I've been able to write a poem, or anything at all! I'm self conscious of posting this one. It is another one that relates to my eating disorder and the progress I have made through therapy. After over a decade of being passively accepting of my mental health issues and just waiting for things to get better, I have finally started to get angry.

Blisters - This is a gift for my mum, it's just a short poem about how much she's there for me and my sisters. I'm sort of unhappy about how it turned out though. It makes me seem even more ungrateful!

Whispers - I found this very old poem in the depths of my laptop. It is about my rediscovery of my spirituality and how working with mythology and stories have helped to greatly improve my life.

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Words A Day 2013: The Unwasted May by JacobTwoTwo reviews
Daily reflections of a bored soul, in a boring world. Every single day I post a poem. I thought I was gonna have a summer wasting, but now, not so much. I'll be getting a taste of real life now that I have a job. Will it depress me? Will it give me hope? Will it mean I'll never be able to have fun again? If you want to find out, come on over and read some poems, man (or girl)!
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 31 - Words: 4,282 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 5/31/2013 - Published: 5/1/2013 - Complete
let my words grow wings, the night is dark by Mirabella reviews
A series of poetry in miscalcuations, illusions, fictitions, imaginations, and deductions.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 4 - Words: 522 - Reviews: 30 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 6/12/2011 - Published: 7/9/2010
So I was Hit by a Car the Other Day by Lainiee reviews
Lucky had resigned himself to the life of an observer. The little brother. The best friend. The sidekick. But then life decided to kick him in the balls, and dumped his twitching body into his own crappy soap opera. And a sucky one at that.
Fiction: Humor - Rated: T - English - Humor/Tragedy - Chapters: 61 - Words: 318,866 - Reviews: 654 - Favs: 276 - Follows: 131 - Updated: 4/7/2011 - Published: 8/7/2005 - Complete
Keeper by Renaissance Phoenix reviews
This is not a story of good and evil. This is a story of two sides fighting for what they believe in, a woman who doesn't know what she's fighting for, a girl fighting for a past she doesn't remember, and the man fighting to save her soul.
Fiction: Fantasy - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 9 - Words: 27,577 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 3/8/2010 - Published: 10/21/2009
Wheat by fakiagirl reviews
A southern gothic tale of a crop inspector who visits a tiny farm and finds something he didn't expect. Written for an assignment for English class.
Fiction: Horror - Rated: T - English - Drama/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,987 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 3 - Published: 3/4/2010 - Complete
Lifeless puppet by Pocket full of lightbulbs
No strings attached.
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 55 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/12/2006 - Complete
Fuck poetry by Pocket full of lightbulbs reviews
Fuck beauty.
Poetry: General - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 27 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Published: 11/12/2006 - Complete
A Light in the Dark by Kitai Matsuru reviews
-COMPLETE- Full summary inside! PG-13 for some gore. A story of trust & relations. A normal high school girl has a chance encounter with a rather inhuman boy, and he's about to turn her life upside down. Remember: Things aren't always as they seem.
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 34 - Words: 184,619 - Reviews: 109 - Favs: 117 - Follows: 13 - Updated: 1/16/2005 - Published: 9/22/2004 - Complete
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Whispers
Wake up.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 86 - Published: 8/23/2013
Blisters
Her feet are blistered. For my mum.
Poetry: Family - Rated: K+ - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Published: 8/23/2013 - Complete
I Howl
I don't breathe. I shriek.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 87 - Published: 7/12/2013 - Complete
Katy reviews
Life is fragile, you were so precious, but fate is both savage and unbiased.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 70 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 5/23/2012 - Complete
Fragility
Do not touch the glass.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 86 - Published: 10/16/2011 - Complete
The Photographer
Bulimia is destroying her, and I can only watch her as she builds an album that displays each and every step towards her breaking point.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 46 - Published: 7/10/2011 - Complete
Role Model
Like father, like son.
Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Family/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 112 - Published: 7/10/2011 - Complete
Mirror, Mirror reviews
What happened to me?
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 89 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 3/27/2011 - Complete
Eighteen
Eighteen is the new eighty.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 58 - Published: 3/27/2011 - Complete
Influence reviews
You're a leech, I love you.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3/27/2011 - Complete
Alice reviews
Nothing knows eternity.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/22/2011 - Complete
Red Herring reviews
Five terrifying hours wasted on a false alarm.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 231 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/10/2011 - Complete
You
A bittersweet encounter.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Friendship/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 117 - Published: 1/10/2011 - Complete
Bindings reviews
Forever caught in her cage. A small glimpse of my dalliance with anorexia nervosa.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 41 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/3/2011 - Complete