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I am so sorry for the long update! I have been so busy lately and haven't been able to write very quickly. Hopefully I will have the next chapter out soon for you all. Thank you so much for all of your patience. Though...it's not like you really have a choice...D:
I'm treating myself to the first one or (possibly) two chapter(s) of a new story. I've been working on Handmaiden for a year, and while it will DEFINITELY remain my priority, I do have another strong idea that wants to be written. The synopsis is below, but the first chapter could take a while. I don't know when I'll put it down on paper. There are still details that I need to sort out.
A little About Me...
I will not provide my real name on the site, but when I was young I was known as C.C. from my twin sister since she couldn't pronounce my name right. My dad called me Skippy since that was my primary method of travel. However to my entire family I was known as 'Troll' (No this isn't because I am ugly and have numerous warts and have a hunched back and pick at my own hair follicles when I am bored) it was simply because I preferred the solitude of the unfinished basement at my old home and of course - the dark.
Down those wooden steps I sat huddled in my own world with those chewed up barbie dolls scattered from the baskets containing all the toys my sister and I owned behind me. No I didn't chew them. My dog did. Anyway, yes I played with those toys from time to time but for the most part what kept me contained in those dark depths was the TV. I didn't watch much on that TV either besides those precious minutes of pokemon and digimon after school, where I kept close the part of me that wanted to be a part of those fantasy worlds - so much so that I'd cry if they weren't on at the precise time every day, but I digress. For the most part what I watched on that TV were my actions. Your actions? You must be wondering, and I reply with a digital nod. My actions on the screen. Videogames. I was OBSESSED.
Who could afford to not be obsessed with Link's well-being while catching those funny but at times aggressive cuckoos? Or Mario's quest to save his useful girlfriend Peach? Or letting those ducks get away in Duck Hunt? I was hooked on every single one of these amazing games from start to finish. This obsession carried on until I was much older. What does any of this have to do with Fictionpress? You might have been thinking, or just had the thought as I've planted it into your head now. Well I will tell you.
As I traveled through numerous games, games of utmost importance and impact on my life I figured somewhere along the line that I should invest myself in this industry - the video game industry that is. What more could there be to it than that? I love games. I love how they draw you in, I love how they taught me how to read and the consequences of choice without thought. I love trying to piece problems together and when solutions are torn apart in front of you and yet you must continue. You must get up and fight. They showed me true heroism and role models better than the world ever did. They gave me something to stand for and strangely enough for a little girl who had few friends at the time and said little - they gave me purpose. A pleasant - though dazed- walk home from school.
So when I started my first year of Game Development in College, I had little doubt that that's where I belonged. I loved the program when I started even though the staff often took days off without warning and forgot that they assigned something to be due in three weeks and demanded the same assignment merely a week later. Indeed I liked the program where everyone liked the same things I did, and didn't mind my quietness or my creativity. I even fell in love with a brave boy with red-gold hair that sat on the other side of the room but didn't seem to understand one bit the necessity of flirting (anyway, he's my boyfriend now). However, it was about halfway in that I realized something was missing that I wanted dearly.
Where was the story telling class? There wasn't one.
Once the initial thrill of College wore off this fact began to wear on me and wear on me until my modelling, animation and rendering classes all seemed to blur into one big roll of what-the-heck-am-I-doing-this-for? I didn't want to build models, slap on textures or make grass sway correctly (Okay, admittedly I came to like Animation after a time). I wanted build relationships, journeys, and betrayals. I wanted to make things that touched people directly, that touched ME directly. I specifically remember a moment in my Pre-Production class (which is a class for art for games, the class that was my favorite) I brought my art up to the teacher to inspect and he praised it, but when I asked him if we were ever going to write for games he politely told me no. Then proceeded to kindly tell me that if that's what I wanted to do then I was probably in the wrong program.
And so it was. I didn't return to Game Development the next year because I had discovered something that I had not known to be true. What I had been looking for all along was an excuse to write as a method of creation. This is where I falter even more though, because even though I knew I could write I always get stuck in my own head. I'm sure everyone who reads this can relate. Its so much easier to write in your own head than on paper. My fingers are slow, and a lot of the time my mind is foggy and I am tired but we do no justice to ourselves or to that idea in our mind that we've had growing since we were as young as we can remember. They deserve to be written.
I've always had a soft spot for Dragons. Romance. Bonds. Majestic landscapes. Turning of Tides. Friends that yell. Staring people down. Protecting ones you love at all and any cost. Realization and then...humbleness. Hero's that learn to control their temper. Rebellion.
Since grade nine I've written fanfiction and it has grown into a part of me. I've been criticized and molded but surprisingly the most that has been given to me is praise. When I started receiving this early on I eyed it with skepticism and suspicion. They're just being nice, I would think with a shrug but the reviews still climbed until somehow I started to believe that my writing could be worth something. That I could be worth something. My face would flush and burn when I would see critiques but my heart and face muscles would lift when I brought tears or happiness and it is then that I understood that there was no other place that I could belong.
I belong in my mind, and I want to belong in yours too.
My Pinterest page here - http:///xabsolutezerox/handmaiden/
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
My favorite scar is a long, white-pink gash on my leg that I got from playing manhunt at my friend's house. I was running through the woods at night (being chased so I was hoofing it) and I hit a jagged piece of metal sticking up from the ground. This was in the middle of a forest and I just HAPPENED to hit it. Bad luck, but it's a cool scar.
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
All my fan art from Anime North.
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
I don't do any of that, and I know I don't because those few times I HAVE tried to talk in my sleep I can feel it through my dream and the vibration in my throat from the words literally wakes me up. My boyfriend gnashes his teeth though, pretty hard too. Sometimes I worry.
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Kpop is my absolute favorite, but I like anything I can draw inspiration from for my writing.
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Finish my books.
7. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS?
My best friend who lives in Ottawa :(
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
I don't really get attached to material stuff...I guess it would be my laptop. It's got my writing on it. Also my boyfriend bought it for me so it's special.
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
If my arms are trapped.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
I used to. I don't anymore, and it's actually funny how that came around. I used to be somewhat religious. I believed in God, in spirits, ghosts etc. The thought of those is what scared me at night. Then I watched this documentary called Zeitgeist (not sure if it's spelled right) that basically disproved religion, and the facts were so sound and sensible that from that moment on I stopped believing in any religion -- which meant that I also stopped believing in ghosts, basically. This may sound weird, but I'm actually a happier person for it.
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PERFUME FOR A GIRL?
...They all smell the same. I smelled one that was of Lilacs once, and that one was AMAZING.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
I don't have a preference. My first two boyfriends had dark hair/eyes and my boyfriend now has like, bronze hair and blue eyes.
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO?
This is a weird question that I have no idea how anyone answers. Chances are that unless you TELL your significant other where you want to be proposed to, there's no way to answer this. O_o And what if you haven't even met the person yet? Then how do you answer it? I don't get it.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
19. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
The first meaningful gift? I have no idea. The MOST meaningful? A key to my boyfriend's house.
20. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
21. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
22. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
23. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
Yes! A puppy named Charlie.
24. WHAT KIND IS IT?
He's a Pomeranian and he's da bomb!
25. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
I'm not sure you can help falling in love.
26. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Stick up for them. Also, tell the the truth--always.
27. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
28. BLONDS OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes I guess, but, I'M brunette so I guess I'm biased.
29. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?
30. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
People who cut you off when you're talking. I don't even talk that much so it's extra annoying that when I do try to speak, certain people will butt in. Hate that.
31. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Well...I live in Canada so yes, I've left the USA when coming home lol.
32. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
I'm selfish with my time. I'll only give it to those who have managed to get close to me. That's not an easy thing to do.
33. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Actually, I don't think I have. I've SEEN someone famous from a crowd at a concert. I don't think that counts.
34. FIRST JOB?
Worked at a fruit market.
35. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
36. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Yes, on both of my hands.
37.WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE FILLING THIS OUT?
Reading a book called Creativity Inc.
38. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
My writing, LOL!
39. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
40. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
I never know what to say. I can't think of things on the spot.
41. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
I'm not sure I want kids. I'm scared I won't love it.
42. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
43. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
44. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
I don't stick with a specific kind. I'll just buy whatever smells good and is on sale.
45. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
OMG WHY DID YOU HAVE TO ASK THIS? *Hides handwriting* NO DON'T LOOK IT'S HIDEOUS!
46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
47. ANY BAD HABITS?
I only drink half of all the pop cans I take, lol. I also chew the inside of my lips.
48. WHAT CD ARE YOU MOST EMBARRASSED TO HAVE ON YOUR SHELF?
I don't have any CDs with me...I don't even have a shelf. Lol.
49. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Wouldn't you be kinda dissing yourself if you said no?
50. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Sometimes. A person has to look like they take care of themselves, that's all.
51. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I talk to my boyfriend/friends about it.
52. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
I live on my own with my three roommates, so probably my actual house where my family is would be my second home.
53. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
This beanbag pony that my dad bought me from the fleemarket. My grandpa put the bag he was in on top of the car though, and drove away. Never saw it again.
54. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Er...I don't know. Maybe 40-50?
55. WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A KID?
I see myself in old videos watching it, but I don't remember actually ever liking it.
56. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
57. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
58. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
59. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Troll and C.C
60. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE BAND/SINGER?
Gfriend. Kpop girl group.
61. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Game of Thrones. By far. After that, probably Dr. Phil and Dragons Den/Shark Tank.
62. WHAT WAS YOUR ACT SAT SCORE?
I have no idea.
63. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Peanut butter chocolate.
64. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Yep, I do indeed.
65. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
HAH! Well actually...my job was very labor intensive. So I'm in decent shape. I never actually go to the gym or anything though.
66. DID YOU NOTICE THAT THERE WAS NO #64?
Actually, someone must have corrected that because there is one now. Lol.
67. WHATS THE FASTEST YOU HAVE GONE IN A CAR?
I dunno, 130?
68. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
They're pretty insightful, so sure. :3
69. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Hear the Wind Sing, by Gfriend.
70. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
71. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My boyfriend, last night.
72. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX?
Sincerity for both. The way they talk to other people, if they make eye contact.
73. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
I really like Warrior by Beth Crowley.
74. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
Favorite thing to hate? That sounds like a lot of work.
75. FAVORITE MONTH OF THE YEAR?
76. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN?
77. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
78. EYE COLOR?
79. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT?
80. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
LOVE IT. Salmon sushi especially. The raw pieces on rice xD
81. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Game of Thrones.
82. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Christmas, I suppose.
83. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
I wish, that would be so cool!
84. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
85. KISSES OR HUGS?
86. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Anyone who picks one night stands has obviously never been in a healthy relationship before.
87. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT
Socks and underwear.
88. WHAT KIND OF CAR DO YOU HAVE?
2010 Mazda 3.
89. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
90. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Happy and easy.