deanna.penna
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Joined 06-21-12, id: 849825, Profile Updated: 08-16-20
Author has written 9 stories for Life, Essay, and Young Adult.

deanna lynn, twentythree
works in progress coming soon in COVID-19 quarantine…hopefully
updated/rewritten pieces coming soon, too.


"i swear it will get easier.
remember that with
every piece of you."
- Ed Sheeran; Photograph.
(album: x)

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2am by rust phoenix reviews
now when my mind itches someone else's thoughts, i can stonewall, clearcut. what do you say to the silence in their place.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 105 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 3 - Published: 6/7
today, tomorrow by elswhre reviews
colon, end parenthesis. faking happy has never been easier.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 499 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/18/2019 - Complete
Lamp In The Wind by David Henrick reviews
Winter, a wooden cabin and a lamp in the wind.
Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Mystery/Suspense - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,002 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/10/2018 - Complete
this isn't what they'll tell you but darling you'll be okay someday by Little Miss Novella reviews
"this isn't what they'll tell you, how hard it is to survive, but darling you'll be okay someday" the acts of courage even when you don't want to live. Warnings: Suicide Attempt, Implied/Referenced Suicide. Dedicated to those who survived suicide attempts, let your voices be heard. (And let's end the stigma for those who survived suicide attempts).
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 319 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 2 - Published: 9/27/2018 - Complete
Recovery by emily.syc751108 reviews
Recovery is a long road, but I am glad to have walked it.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 578 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/4/2018 - Complete
Please Don't Kill Yourself by beyondtheblock reviews
You matter a lot.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 100 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 3 - Published: 4/9/2017 - Complete
It's in your head by twilight.imperil reviews
"You'll never know real hunger," my 6th grade teacher tells us. Some girls in the back of the room scoff. "You won't," she continues, penciled eyebrows raising. "You will never know what it's like to lie awake at night, so hungry you can't sleep. You're lucky." Yes, I think, it's true. It's true when, over the summer, I start counting calories like change: what can I spare.
Fiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 310 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Published: 8/30/2016 - Complete
Where I'm From by SilverSpoons reviews
This is a story about my perception of myself and my past, of how people have shaped me, of how I have shaped people, and of places that I can leave but never truly forget.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 858 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Updated: 7/10/2015 - Published: 7/9/2015 - Complete
sleeping off demons by punctured.lungs reviews
i felt my anger swelling; i swam into its sea. / pillowbook / complete
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 20 - Words: 4,993 - Reviews: 56 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 5/25/2015 - Published: 11/25/2014 - Complete
drought by rust phoenix reviews
i pretend not to see the people who know me.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 126 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 5/22/2015 - Complete
Depression by BGPixieQueen77 reviews
This is what it feels like to hurt.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 3 - Words: 546 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Updated: 2/17/2015 - Published: 1/19/2015
Sink or Swim by SilverSpoons reviews
A short story that follows a single morning of a young girl's life. As moods heavily swing from high to low to suicidal, she struggles to find her actual self. And her actual self, strangely enough, is probably not a she in the first place. (May be triggering for suicidal themes or gender crisis)
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,163 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 2/1/2015 - Complete
crooked colors by V. Tsai reviews
The first time they meet, she opens with, "You look like breaking glass. As if you're upset about something." [the story of a boy and a girl, with the addition of crooked colors]
Fiction: Romance - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,182 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 3 - Published: 1/15/2015 - Complete
avalanche and braille by rust phoenix reviews
COMPLETE! My most intense and personal writing. Moving through pain to a place where life seems valuable again. Poems about loved ones, loss, mental illness, and eventually, at least a little bit of recovery. Warning for self-harm and food issues. Reviews returned.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 41 - Words: 5,240 - Reviews: 49 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 12/29/2014 - Published: 10/4/2012 - Complete
Hospital by ShadowedRomance reviews
My personal experience in a mental institution. Read carefully. Do not read if you are easily triggered.
Fiction: Biography - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,164 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 12/5/2014 - Complete
wanderlusters do not walk alone by Asterisk Blue reviews
the world is in fragments, and that's how you'll keep it.
Poetry: Haiku - Rated: K - English - Fantasy/Drama - Chapters: 5 - Words: 469 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 3 - Updated: 9/12/2014 - Published: 8/28/2014 - Complete
crooked blue lines by rust phoenix reviews
a feeling of wanting to be someone else, or at least to have the words to explain what you are going through to someone else. warning for eating disorder content. reviews returned.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 412 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 3 - Published: 7/22/2014 - Complete
sixteen shots by V. Tsai reviews
This, Gray is deciding, had not been his best idea. [One brokenhearted man plus one somewhat snarky bartender plus way too many shots. You do the math.]
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,726 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/25/2014 - Complete
restless by rust phoenix reviews
reviews returned. warning for slight self harm.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 128 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 4 - Published: 3/20/2014 - Complete
six — wrath by MethodlessMadness reviews
oh darling boy, you're so alone—frightened—angry—scarred. if only you'd listen. if only you'd quell your hate.
Poetry: Haiku - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 184 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 2/24/2014 - Complete
bruise by rust phoenix reviews
[abuse]
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 30 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 4 - Published: 1/21/2014 - Complete
s by writing-to-fill-the-emptiness reviews
as in scoliosis
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 8 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/24/2013 - Complete
break by rust phoenix reviews
mental illness
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Published: 7/20/2013 - Complete
bones by punctured.lungs reviews
i cannot remember a time when i was not the enemy. / tw: eating disorders.
Fiction: Biography - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 5 - Words: 244 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 3 - Published: 1/9/2013 - Complete
Samantha by Clarinet98 reviews
She was crazy. She was insane. She was unstable. What was the scariest part, you may ask? No one ever noticed.
Fiction: Horror - Rated: T - English - Horror/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 461 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/23/2012 - Complete
miss you by punctured.lungs reviews
do you miss me? / on mothers and daughters, once the bridge is burnt.
Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 226 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 5 - Published: 7/9/2012 - Complete
3:22 AM by chasmatic words reviews
\the scent of chocolate sprouts amongst the shreded grass/
Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/19/2003
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juvenescence reviews
"...when Anger throws a house party upstairs & invites Self-Loathing who invites Unworthiness who brings the music. (it's loud all the time, though)." \\ cw: discussion of self-injury
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 570 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/16 - Complete
line of fire
"She takes bites & she takes gags... then begins to heal as if life depends on it because it does." People say you have become the enemy to beat them. She's slept & breathed the enemy—this is her eat. \\ cw: avoidant restrictive food intake disorder [arfid], mentions specific foods & death
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 400 - Published: 8/16 - Complete
handle with care
"Maybe you can't live like this." You (n): a fragile, constant balancing act—staggering and wavering—between two choices. \\ cw: eating disorder behaviours
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,449 - Published: 8/16 - Complete
in a world of choices, i choose me reviews
inevitable introspection; "i am petrified of actuality." \\ cw: discussion of avoidant restrictive food intake disorder [arfid].
Fiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 548 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 6/10/2019 - Complete
museum nights reviews
s i l e n t sex.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 343 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/18/2018 - Complete
almost is never enough reviews
where & not where Chloe feels at home in a body not hers. \\ cw: dissociative identity-related body dysphoria.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 240 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10/25/2018 - Complete
trying to be real reviews
calling my lifeline, because i give up. \\ cw: dissociative disorder & alter violence.
Fiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 804 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10/6/2018 - Complete
of strawberries and sadness reviews
strawberry banana smoothies used to be my favourite. \\ cw: calories mention, food guilt.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 256 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Published: 2/20/2018 - Complete
if i have to reviews
watch me conquer. \\ cw: mentions of fasting & suicide implications.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 297 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 2/15/2018 - Complete