HoldMyHairWhileIPurgeBaby
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Joined 10-31-12, id: 879583, Profile Updated: 11-14-17
Author has written 76 stories for Horror, Life, Love, Young Adult, General, Nature, Essay, Spiritual, Song, Humor, and Family.

The Outside I’ve Always Been Trying to Look Into

Reality is something I’ve always been trying to peer into because it seems that my reality has always been so different from others. Maybe I’ve just met too many people who look at life so practically and logically. All I know is that I have always craved intervals of deep insanities and emotional, evocative visions. Sometimes I wish I knew what reality was for I have always felt a part from it, but I believe Joy’s reality are the colossal of dreams, untouchable molecules, and waltzing sensations she’s created in her own universe. I am every single thing to have ever existed on earth, and also, I am absolutely nothing at all.

Furthermore, I have always longed to be an abstraction thus I am an abstraction. I am constantly recreating worlds, reaching after stars, and sleeping in gutters. The world is pulsating inside of me. It goes from seeing a camel in Egypt being petted by its caretaker, to a boy in poverty in Brazil seeking a sip of water, to the Indian mother pondering about her daughter who was kidnapped five years ago and never found, to the pencil being sharpened by a male student in an Ecuadorian classroom, to the joy Davina felt in her heart when Paul surprised her with a locket, and to the mirror I look into with my bare body, trying to find poetry on my hips. When I say I’m everything that’s ever happened, is happening, and is going to happen, I really do desire to be the world. Emotion and existence are my reality. I am constantly blooming into gardens and disintegrating into ashes. The universe is a limitless field that stretches beyond human reach, and I’m forever reaching after the unreachable.

Additionally, reality is something extremely internal for me.

Here’s a vision of my world: My body is sprawled out in a meadow. It’s a huge, huge meadow, but if you look far enough there’s a low wooden fence that encloses the body of land. My face is gazing at the evening sky slowly transforming into the night sky. White feathered birds are flying to earth, and cannonballs are being shot above my head. The orange and yellow colors of the sunset are melting into each other creating a liquid that’s dripping onto the sharp blades of grass by my feet. The night stars come into focus and shake off their stardust, and the particles of their dust land onto my body and on my heart. There’s a sweet hum in the background, and the flowers are talking to each other, and a tree is crying, and all I can think about is the blue rain coat I left in a lover’s room years ago.

In conclusion, my reality is the emotions I feel for existence and the dream worlds blossoming in my chest. My life is all about being soulful with an artistic heart. Reality is your perception of the world, and everybody should have a unique and striking phenomenon to call their own.

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Friday Blues
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Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 424 - Published: 10/16
a sad secret
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Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 128 - Published: 10/16
Old Friends
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Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 81 - Published: 10/16
Disappointment
the taste of it.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 176 - Published: 10/16
I never wanted it
a poem written during class
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 241 - Published: 6/25 - Complete
My Excuses and Apologies
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Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 616 - Published: 12/30/2018
String reviews
Let us help each other not remember.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 736 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/30/2018
What was it?
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Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 416 - Published: 12/30/2018
Air
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Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Crime/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 512 - Published: 12/30/2018
Value
The Truth.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 397 - Published: 12/30/2018
Sham
I'll never look at you twice.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 284 - Published: 12/30/2018
Me
1st draft of "Me"
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Published: 12/30/2018
Crying
Guilt about my friendships in poem form.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 500 - Published: 12/30/2018
A poem inspired by the book He, She, and It by Marge Piercy
If you haven't read this book, it won't make sense. However, I absolutely love and recommend this book!
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Sci-Fi/Supernatural - Chapters: 1 - Words: 195 - Published: 11/20/2018
Directions
Wrote a poem entirely of directions for my poetry class.
Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 397 - Published: 10/2/2018
It Smells
Just anger and sadness.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 417 - Published: 9/23/2018
A Poem that ends with the letter E in every line
For my poetry class, had to write a poem that ends with the letter E in each line and give it to one of my fellow classmates. So, here's that.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Spiritual/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 393 - Published: 9/22/2018
Nonsense reviews
A baloney poem I wrote in the style of pantoum to bullshit my poetry class.
Poetry: Humor - Rated: T - English - Humor/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 221 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/17/2018
I Never Said It
It's been awhile, you guys.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 727 - Published: 9/17/2018
Empty Town reviews
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Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/14/2017
The Feeling
It's coming true and I'm here for good. 11/14
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 399 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/14/2017 - Complete
I'm Not Waiting
a poem about clarity, being able to see your own reflection again and it being the happiest thing ever
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 305 - Published: 10/7/2017 - Complete
Waiting
An old poem about paranoia and anxiety
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 399 - Published: 10/7/2017 - Complete
I'm Sorry, Too
Old Poem I found on a USB
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 583 - Published: 10/7/2017 - Complete
is it ever truth reviews
I wish there was a trapdoor in the ground and I wish I could open it and fall right through and fall right down into blueness into blackness.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 44 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3/28/2017
Hate
For someone
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 288 - Favs: 1 - Published: 11/1/2016
Mama
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Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Family/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Published: 10/9/2016
I Hate
A poem I wrote inspired by Ten Things I Hate About You
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 288 - Published: 10/9/2016
Walk to Death When it is Outside the Screen Door
Poem I wrote when I was 17
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 301 - Published: 10/4/2016
About Our Love
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Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 241 - Published: 9/5/2016
A million lights, A million blinds
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Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 264 - Published: 8/26/2016
Too Hard
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Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Drama/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 67 - Published: 8/25/2016
I don't wana be that kind of girl any more
That's who I'm not.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 480 - Published: 8/25/2016
You were here and I was looking for you
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Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 333 - Published: 7/9/2016
Exploration
This was a piece I had to write for my English class. We had to explore an object and have our classmates guess what the object was. Not my best, because I can already see what improvement need to be made, but still an okay narrative piece.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 323 - Published: 7/8/2016
Jay Pt 2
Closure
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 412 - Published: 7/6/2016
Jay
for the mystery I never solved
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 417 - Published: 7/6/2016
there I laid
Poem I wrote when I just turned seventeen years old. It was summertime and I was on a park bench at a desolated spot.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 223 - Published: 7/6/2016
Metaphysical
A personal essay I wrote for a class.
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 515 - Published: 5/10/2016 - Complete
the way you see it
Two different but similar emotions in a relationship combined into one poem
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 328 - Published: 5/9/2016
confession reviews
a girl who is more aware of sadness rather than love. The blank spaces are an actual guy's name, but its censored for privacy and writing purposes.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 262 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5/9/2016
For
Significant
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 292 - Published: 5/9/2016
Writing Could Save My Life If I Actually Make The Effort
If I want my life to be saved, I need to pull out the pen and paper much, much more.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 497 - Favs: 3 - Published: 5/9/2016
Blue Sun
The speaker is on a rampage of never ending images in an upside down world that consists of letdowns and loneliness.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 149 - Published: 2/28/2016
Dissatisfaction
A 2yrold poem. this piece is very similar to one I posted just before this one. Again, it's about me not being able to except how me and the guy aged in the relationship. I am very attached and sensitive to the passing of time.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Hurt/Comfort/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 154 - Published: 1/24/2016
Love Our Youth
Another 2yr old poem. wrote this about a guy I loved but couldn't get passed how our love wasn't like the innocent and pure love we had in the past. I missed the younger versions of him and I, and the beginning of our romance.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Hurt/Comfort/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 373 - Published: 1/24/2016
Goddesses Chamber
Another poem I wrote two years ago.
Poetry: Nature - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Published: 1/24/2016 - Complete
Life is my soulmate
A poem I wrote 2 years ago
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Spiritual/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 266 - Published: 1/24/2016
Book Review: The Girl I Wanted to Be
Title says all.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,175 - Published: 11/25/2015 - Complete
Manhattan Days
I don't know how to get my original line-break spacing format to appear on here so I'm sorry it's all clumped together. But this poem is about a guy I've never met but feel really strongly for. I talk about my feelings for him and how I feel guilty because he's far away and it would never work for multiple reasons. We never went to NYC but he'll always be my Manhattan Days.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 848 - Published: 10/23/2015
A Conversation Between Two Broken Lovers reviews
He tried to tell me about honesty.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/16/2015 - Complete
Metaphors about me reviews
A writing exercise we had to do on writing metaphors about ourselves.
Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 104 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/16/2015 - Complete
Three Years reviews
On the first day of Creative Writing class, we were assigned to do a writing exercise. I can't remember exactly what it was, but I think it had to do with some kind of personal memory. So I wrote about me reflecting about this awful friendship I had in junior high. It lasted for three years and it ended four years ago now that I've graduated high school.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Hurt/Comfort/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 193 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/16/2015 - Complete
What animal am I? reviews
In creative writing class, we did a short few-minute writing exercise on what animal we are and why. Here is mine.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Spiritual/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 78 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8/16/2015 - Complete
Evening Shadows
In Spring of 2015, I took a creative writing class. The professor of the class would have complete numerous writing exercises. One day, she gave us vague images that we were to write as much as we could about it in a limited amount of time. We could've wrote what it meant to us, or a one-shot about it, or etc. This is what I came up with.
Fiction: Spiritual - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 238 - Published: 8/16/2015
thought
i thought
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 65 - Published: 4/12/2015 - Complete
Ideal
Unedited essay and also unfinished. Thought I'd share regardless.
Fiction: Essay - Rated: M - English - Spiritual/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 588 - Published: 1/16/2015
on my knees reviews
I have seen such ugly days without you
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 808 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/16/2015
Crying Stars
The very last section (the one with quotes around it) is from a writer I like. Mr. Ernest Hemingway. This is a love letter composed by me. I gave this letter to the person I intended for it to be.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 232 - Published: 12/20/2014
I cared in sacred, incommunicable ways
This was not edited. Rough draft #1
Poetry: General - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 340 - Published: 10/30/2014
despair in I reviews
I am not alright.
Poetry: General - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 381 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9/25/2014 - Complete
My Faith in Widlife, My Array of Adventures
Silently believe with me that no mountain on earth can obscure our journeys.
Poetry: Nature - Rated: M - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Published: 9/19/2014
In What Manner do You Represent Yourself?
An abstract piece by me. I hope it makes you question every thing you are and all that you live on.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Poetry/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 123 - Published: 9/19/2014
syncopation
My poetry is based on my real life occurrences.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Published: 9/14/2014
asylum confessions
poem description: A psychotic person who has resided in an asylum their entire life. They make up stories that never happened and fool anyone they can. They are blind and delusional
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Horror/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Published: 8/3/2013
ghostly, gloom, and blind
original piece.
Poetry: General - Rated: M - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 339 - Published: 7/29/2013 - Complete
Blind reviews
another short piece
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 53 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/3/2013 - Complete
Sentiments
quick piece i wrote on lunch break.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 42 - Published: 4/3/2013 - Complete
invisible black balloon
to my brother make my voice brand new Id give it all t you
Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 81 - Published: 2/11/2013 - Complete
reliving nightmares (set me free)
this is actually a song I wrote in 2011. utterly hate or mindlessly adore.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 106 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/30/2013 - Complete
my chance for redemption reviews
this is actually a song I wrote in 2010.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 368 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1/30/2013 - Complete
picking up the pieces
this was written a couple years ago. I apologize for this poor piece
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 398 - Published: 1/30/2013 - Complete
The Journal Entries of a Prehistoric Cell
I write tons of journal entries. Each ones are stories. Stories of me, my galaxy. These entries are real and I do not make them up. -Sam Luna
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,028 - Published: 1/30/2013 - Complete
Shaking Your Bones
pretty eerie & creepy. i dig it. here I present you the rough draft, so i suppose you can tell me if its worth editing & completing
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 152 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/21/2012
Hello Nightmare reviews
This poem was written a year ago. Never did I edit it. This is all of it in the first try. If you don't understand the context, life is used as a personification. It is an endless war between the both of us. Life has taken over me and I am decaying into galaxies. & if you haven't already guessed, life is the nightmare I am greeting. Reviews would be swell.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11/2/2012
Casanova Me reviews
In my English class, I had two write two paragraphs using change of focus. So, I write this little narrative changing perspectives. & Yes, this is all I wrote. It'd be nice if someone told me if I should keep writing on. Well, I like this piece enough to share it with you. So, devour. HappyHalloween x
Fiction: Horror - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 602 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/31/2012