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"And if there's one thing I've learned about being a poet, it's that it's not about what you have to say in your poem. It's about what you have to say when your poem is done."
- G. Yamazawa.
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I'm now starting to get things together to get published. But in order for that to happen, I need help from all of you! Read and review my "Story" called "Big Book of Poems", it's a compilation of all the works that will be going into my book. I need your opinion on it, tell me what you think is good and what you think needs to be fixed and I'll get right on it! :)
I've just updated BOP(Big Book of Poems) with chapter six! It's titled "Forgotten Spaces" and is somewhat like the first entry, "Why", except it's less shocking and sudden. It's more of a mellow approach, and it has a lot less words. It's also done in Stanzas rather than word flow, which means the sentences are cut into sections and made into what song lyrics look like when written out(for those who don't know what Stanzas are).
I hope you enjoy it! It's not the greatest poem in the world.
What do you know? Another update. It's been well over too long, I realize. But the thing is, I have a lot going on concerning school right now. My plans for a chapter made entirely out of metaphors totally bombed, in fact I forgot entirely what I was getting at with that. I have a few ideas, but only a couple of metaphors come to mind when I think about what was supposed to go into that poem. That's what I get for not writing it down.
Anyway, I do have a seventh chapter up now. It's very different that what I'd planned for it to be. Bu it's something, right?
It's been two months since my last update, and I am SOOO sorry! BUT! I have some amazing news! My youtube channel is up! I don't have any videos up yet. I did, but I deleted them because they were just awful and I want to redo them and make them more professional. So that's what I'm going to do! be sure to subscribe to me PRETTY PLEASE! That would be amazing :) I'm so happy, my career is slowly starting to take off. It's definitely been a process, full of lots of procrastination and busy late night work to get everything together, but I might actually have a small book published next year! Wow! This is so amazing. It won't be in any stores, but I'm hoping to put something of the sort on Amazon once I save up the money, promote it and get some sales. So please pay attention to my youtube channels, because I'll be updating you all as much as I can about this there. I'm so excited!! :) I also updated my username here to be more professional. If I'm serious about this, I really need to show it!
I got my first video up! It's a video about the channel, and hopefully I can figure out how to like gold star it or something to keep it on the top of my page.
You really don't have to read all of this. I'll put bold brackets around the important parts. I just kind of unloaded on you guys.
Wowsah, it's been awhile! I'm really terribly sorry for my absence lately. I've just been so busy! I haven't had time for much online stuff besides chatting via kik on my phone with some close friends who don't live in town. School is coming to an end and this is my senior year(technically my second try at senior year, but until my first try at it I hadn't been in a public school since fourth grade, soooo...) and I'm preparing to start a kind of finishing school at the local community college, which will also prepare me for when I go major in English there in 2016-17! :) While I will be majoring in that, I'll be hoping that the book I'm progressively yet slowly building up over here will kickstart my career before I graduate, if I can manage graduating. I'm barely going to get by graduating High School, and only because I'm going to this finishing school. Despite all that, it'll be nice to have a high school diploma on hand when I get into college. I know no one else will care, but I don't want to feel underqualified for anything. Especially a college level English class, oh boy! That'll be fun. And I thought my High School English teacher was bad, one hell of an asshat that one was, let me tell you!
Anyway, enough about the boring details of my edumacation. I've somewhat abandoned my youtube channel because I had neither the time, nor the editing skills, nor the patience to keep it going. Not to mention, I have terrible stage fright and can never manage to get my poetry to come out the way it's supposed to on camera. So yeah, that was sort of a fail and I'm dreadfully sorry to anyone who was waiting for the next update!
As for The House at the Edge of Town, I'm considering coming out with a third chapter and continuing the whole thing, but i can't remember most of where I was going with it so chances of that are pretty low. I'll probably just be deleting it and moving on like I do with all my attempts to pass as a fictional writer rather than just a poet. So if you're also hanging on for that, don't get your hopes up.
Now, for the most important part! BBOP! I'm still looking for a more suitable name, but for now I'll just stick with that. All of your reviews have been wonderful! And I promise to be updating it with all my new poems soon! Give me time, I'm a busy girl and sometimes school and my new boyfriend get in the way.
Speaking of, I have a significant other in the form of a male person named Logan. He's really great, and Monday will officially have us together for three weeks. It's coming up on being my longest relationship with someone that isn't a whole state away from me haha! I'm quite satisfied.
Ooooooooh boy this update has been longer than Pinochio's Nose. Please, do not feel inclined to read all this if you're too lazy. I in no way blame you!!!
I think that's all for now. Please, please, please stick with me! Your support means everything, LITERALLY, if it weren't for those of you who read and sometimes review my work, I would have quit a long time ago and left the site. You're my heroes, every one of you, never forget that :) Love you all sooo much! FARFARREN!
Okay, for starters, Logan is no longer in the picture and hasn't been for some time. About a week after I updated, some issues started coming up and, long story short, he turned out not to be the best fit for me. Don't fret! I have found someone new! Someone better suited to myself, of the female(ish) variety. This Friday they will be back from Minnesota(moving down with their mom) and I could not be more excited! That's literally one day and like...16 hours away. I think. It's 1 am here, she'll be back tomorrow(Friday) at 5 O' clock. Ish. My math is shitty, I was never a numbers kinda kid.
Yes, I'm writing. Yes. The creative juices are perfectly in tact. No I do not have my own computer yet, therefore I do not have as much access to start pumping those suckers out of my books/phone/brain and into this beautiful little sight full of rainbows and butterflies. HOWEVER!In two months time, HOPEFULLY at least, I will be getting my own laptop when my mom gets her disability money. Then I can hop on whenever I have five seconds and power out some hardcore writing or uploading skills and get this stone a rollin' so I can finally get it published.
Also! A lot of the poems that I have on here that are also in my BBOP will be deleted as singular stories, so if you wanna go back and re-read, you will need to go to the actualy book itself and find it amongst the chapters. Speaking of the BBOP, I'm going to be changing things up a bit. With each poem, I will be including a story of my life that coincides with the feelings or thoughts expressed in the poem. I have also finally come up with a suitable name for it. "Stories of the Outer Limits". I am choosing to call it that because I have reached limits so far beyond what I thought I could handle and survived anyway, and it has made me better for it. I have gotten the support of my friends, and family, and for the most part my peers despite the fact that not all of them were as loving and accepting as others. But I have still struggled with many things, and I want people to know my story. Not just read my poetry. Because I don't just want them to pass by words; I want them to feel like maybe somehow they're not really alone. And maybe someday, it really will get better.
Because hasn't that been my goal all along? To inspire people as they have inspired me? To be some kind of small speck of light in an otherwise darkened place? I don't write poetry to feel good about myself. Quite the contrary. I write poetry to show others that I don't feel good about myself. But I get up, I smile, and I hold my head up high anyway because that's the best way I know how to survive. I'm going to start expressing this from now on. I may not be writing about vampires and aliens. But I'm still writing a novel here. I want it to mean something more than some scribbled words on an otherwise blank page.
That's all I have to say for now. I really do love you all with my whole heart, your trust and support has meant so much to me over this long journey. Recently I was featured in a community called Thoughts, the link should be up in my little list of links at the top. Thank you for seeing me through this far, and staying with me through all my mood swings, and lack of updates, and frankly lack of talent in some cases(Let's face it, you all have at least one poem that you don't like as much as the others. I sure as hell know I do.)
I almost forgot to tell you. I started at that finishing school/credit recovery place two weeks ago and it's GREAT! I actually think I might graduate. I'm kind of stoked.
This is the fastest update I've given you guys in awhile! I highly doubt any of you actually read through the updates on my profile, I never actually have assumed anybody did. I mostly do it for myself. To kinda let a load off from everything that's been keeping me away.
Anyway, I've got a lot of great stuff in the works for you guys! Some more poems to go along with the BBOP, which I changed the name of recently as I'm sure you know. i'm getting started on the stories that go with each poem, and I've been writing more poetry a lot lately. I'll be getting that incorporated in, as well. For now, I'm gonna be deleting the BBOP I have now, but I will be keeping all of the stories set in chronological order on a list(I'm picking some other poems to come before those to start a more accurate representation on how I have learned and experienced things and felt over the years) and it will be back up with the first officially done chapter ASAP.
Thanks so much for taking the time to read(if you did) and please, please keep up with the reviewing when you can! :)
Wow. I really failed hardcore in my plans to rejuvenate my BBOP. Don't be too bummed, though. I'll hopefully be getting my own computer sometime in the near future so I can get started on doing everything I've been putting off, mostly because arguing with my brother over his hogging up the computer is usually pointless and ends in insults.
However, much has been going on. My latest significant other and I did break up and they started dating a fellow transman named Marti, and I found a beautiful young lady named Ally that I feel more connected to than I've ever felt to anybody so that's good. It's a bit awkward between my ex and I now that we're going to the same school(I transferred back to North because more people bullied me at ECCO in one trimester than in two years at North sooo yeah), however we are working toward being friends again.
I came out to my family as trans(Ahaha yeah that's a thing I've been avoiding admitting to myself so there ya go confession corner lol) about a month and a half ago and they spent the entirety of Thanksgiving trying to break down my motives and convince me it was probably just a phase. That's all fine and dandy for them. But I've never felt more myself. I have a girl that calls me her BOYFRIEND(I have literally always hated hat word until it was applied to me), I have friends who call me by male pronouns as well as my masculine name(Damien), and my mom is doing her absolute best to understand and support me in every way she possibly can even though i's hard to watch the daughter she knew for 19 almost 20 years transition into a son. The rest of you can go...do whatever you do in your sad, lonely, loveless lives :D
anyway, I've been sort of down for the count this week. Got a nasty kidney stone that wouldn't pass so I had to get it surgically removed. Boy was that fun >_> but nonetheless, it's better than the excruciating pain of a ragged crystallized hunk of calcium passing through a tube that's about half it's size in width.
I suppose this is where I say goodbye now. At least for this update. I need to get some sleep(translation: Watch GLEE) and plan to hang out with my friend tomorrow(translation: Watch him smoke a few bowls while I avoid it because I'm on pain meds)
So yeah, none of my plans happened. It's been a busy month and a half. Well, month really. Almost month and a half. But hopefully I'll get some shit done, Right now I'm trying to catch up in school so don't expect much from me. I'll be busy for the next two weeks.